Entry 4: This is the Moment

8th of September, 3:56 am

I've exhausted all my other options. The Board refuses to listen, and insists on blocking all my other attempts at getting volunteers. I started this alone, so I must finish it alone.I have set up in my home, and have advised my butler Genji to not let anyone in for the next few days, as I must use myself as the test subject of my experiment. I have no choice. I must put aside the fears inside. This is too important to give up on.

So it comes to this. One final chance that only I can take, now everything I've fought for is at stake!

This is the moment. This is the day. I must send all these doubts on their way. Everything I've done, every endeavor I've made has led to this moment.

Tonight I show the world what I can do! Tonight I prove my theory true.

This is going to be the biggest risk I've taken. I must be wise, I must analyse each change in me. Everything I see. How will it feel? Will I see the world in different eyes?

There's no time for hesitation. I must proceed promptly. Let's begin!

3:58 am.

I have taken 30 mls of the formula.

Warm bitter taste. Stings the tongue. Warm in the gullet.

No noticeable changes yet, aside from a slight feeling of euphoria which could be linked to the excitement from finally testing this experiment.

No turning back now. The die has been cast Only time can prove my theory true.

Strange. Something's building inside my lower abdomen. A feeling of energy, almost electric like is spreading, pulsing through my veins

MEIN GOTT! SUDDENLY, AGONY!

SOMETHING IS HAPPENING! I CAN'T EXPLAIN. DEVOURS AND CONSUMES ME, AND DRIVES ME INSANE!

AHH! GOD HELP ME!

SOMETHING'S TAKING HOLD!

FILLING ME! KILLING ME?

WHAT IS THIS? IS THIS DEATH?

WHAT is this creature that I see?

…..

Free at last.