Entry 7: Streak of madness

September 23rd,

The experiments are in their second week now, and things have advanced rapidly.

The transformations are beyond imagining. It's so painful, yet I can feel a light compulsion building. I have to be careful, lest it get too strong. I understand a lot more about how the transformation works, and as far as I can tell, 30mls of the formula will let Moira be in charge for up to 8 hours.

She has been conducting more experiments, mostly focusing on turning my healing tech into some kind of parasitic-esce nanomachines that can disintegrate and reform the body at will. This process is extremely painful for the user, and so far she hasn't found a way to stabilize the reformation process. She's killed 5 people so far in her experiments, and I wish I could prevent it. But I have to keep going. I'm close to understanding this. Once I fix the formula so it locks the dark side away, it will be ok. it has to be.

September 27th,

Moira's experiments grow more and more horrific. She has just about solved the problem with her experiment, and now she's moved on to working on some kind of brainwashing treatment involving emotion suppression. Maybe to counteract the pain of the reformation? I don't know what her goal is, but I am very worried. This could be disastrous. The death toll has reached 8 now, and people are starting to notice the disappearances.

The bigger issue is that her influence is growing stronger. She's starting to suggest things, tries to tempt me into taking the formula. It's getting hard to resist her. If things keep going the way they are, well...

I have dramatically reworked the formula, so as to lock down and contain the dark urges within me. I am well aware of the peril she presents, to me and to others. I have to control her, and yet each time, she fades away inside me. A perfect hiding place where I can't reach her.

I must cure this streak of madness within me. This is a fight I can't afford to lose.