Chapter 2: Guess what?

Author's Note:

Hey guys! Ok so this was Betaed by me. I did the best I could with midterms and other shit flying through the air. You should again really thank Trini Li for this one because she's the one harassing me to put out longer chapters and more chapters. I wouldn't but she knows where I sleep . After all we are roommates. Lol. I know it's slow but it'll pick up and after the letter portion there is a whole LONG section from Jacob's . I also promise to make Bella less of a bi--*coughs* I mean pain in the butt. If anyone wants to beta the chapters will come faster.

Thanks again,

EVILinnocence666

August 20th 2006 Forks

Dear Jake,

Uncle Billy says that you're out working in the garage. I called you there but you didn't answer. I know you're probably avoiding me, but that's ok. The great thing about writing a letter is that you can keep them even if you don't read them. My dad used to send me letters after mom left him. But I didn't read them until recently. In a way I'm glad I didn't. I couldn't have understood what he was telling me in those letters then. Mostly he talked about missing me and my mom.

Anyway, keep the letters for later even if you never open them. I just wanted you to be the first to know since you're my best friend that I'm pregnant! Not even Edward knows yet. Now before you go on me about the no sex before marriage thing I swear we didn't before the wedding!

Just between you and me I'm freaking out. I mean am I happy? Of course. I love Edward and I want the baby. But me a mother? You know how I feel about my own mother. I love her and even like her but my mother isn't exactly great parenting material. I mean, I may have left for Forks to live with Charlie on my own, but I also know that she wouldn't care so much once I was gone. It's not that she doesn't love me so much as she gets distracted. A new boyfriend/husband, a new job, a new life. It didn't really occur to her how I would fit in it. She's kinda selfish that way. Not that I can really blame her for it. She was young when she had me but not as young as I'll be when I have this baby. I don't know if I'm ready for it. Then again, once Edward changes me then I'll have lifetimes to get used to it right? I guess that's what his lifestyle entails: a lot of time to get used to things.

Edward's going to school in Alaska with me He doing the university thing for a while with me but later, he and Alice plan to go back to high school. I don't know how he does it exactly, enduring lame proms, stupid jocks, and high school bullshit politics all over again. I told him that I was done with high school. I'm unsure why exactly why I'm going to school. I'm not really sure about what degree I would go for or how I would use it but I guess I just need some sort of normalcy in my life even if it means that when we move inevitably again, I'll have to start over.

How was high school for you on the reservation? You never really ever told me about it? I heard you graduated in the top third of your class from Billy. I'm really happy for you. You should travel, get out of Forks and go explore the world. Europe, Asia, Canada, maybe even Alaska.

Like I said the last time you're always welcome here. I know you don't get along with Edward but Alice is really cool. You and her just got off to a bad start. I told her later that I didn't like what she said about you being a wet dog. For one I know you're not always a wolf and she should know that too. If you could put aside your dislike of their lifestyle, I'm sure they would try to understand yours more. I know at least you and Alice would hit it off. She's not as much as a tomboy as I am and she doesn't like to get dirty as much, but she loves hiking and nature and I'm sure that all three of us could go out and hike somewhere up in Forks sometime.

Always thinking of you,

Bella

August 30th 2006 Alaska

Dear Jake,

It's been a little while since I wrote you but I haven't been feeling so great. Between you and me, this baby sucks. I'm already twenty pounds heavier and it's only been a month. If this continues at this rate I'll be a blimp! If I'm not puking my guts out all the time, it's body aches and cramps and headaches and fatigue. I had to drop my morning introduction to oil painting class because of it. I kept my afternoon fairytale studies class though. They were talking about werewolves the other day since we were reading Angela Carter's "Company of Wolves" and I thought of you. I wonder how many of your family members inspired those stories and how many are just made up.

You should read "Company of Wolves." It's based off the Little Red Riding Hood story but I think you'd like it cause it doesn't vilifies the wolf character. Did you know that in the original Red Riding Hood story the wolf rapes Little Red Riding Hood? Fucked up right? In Carter's version she keeps the sex but ups Red Riding Hood's age and makes it more a coming of age thing. It's kinda smutty too but again I think you'd appreciate it for that.

See any good movies lately? When I'm not in class I've been cooped up at home on bed rest. I hate it but Carlisle insists on it. Pregnancy with people of their lifestyle can be difficult and they don't to take any chances. Edward's been great as always but he's been worried because of the baby.

Because I'm not "turned" yet Carlisle and the others worry that the baby could hurt me when I deliver. They're also worried because if I do deliver it has to be at home.

You like gore right? I never knew how gory baby making was until I read "What to Expect When You're Expecting." It's almost better than "Head punch" until I remember that this shit is going to be happening to me. Guess what I get to expect in the following eight months from now? Spider veins, facial hair and memory loss because, get this, if I don't take enough vitamins and proteins the baby takes the nutrients FROM MY BRAIN! If that's not horror movie I don't know what is.

I'm sure I'll love him or her when he/she arrives, but I can tell you right now that I will remind them from the rest of their long long life how much misery they caused in my first trimester.

All kidding aside, I'm doing ok. Edward ditches school when I get really bad morning sickness making me feel even more like a Cougar. He's been taking good care of me.

You should come to Alaska when the baby's born! I'm still thinking about names but I haven't come up with anything good. Any ideas?

I'll write again sooner permitting that this retarded fetus doesn't eat my brain and make me puke out my insides before then.

Always thinking of you,

Bella