Author's note: Hey guys! Sorry I didn't post yesterday, you must hate me by now with the end I let you… My apologies ^^' This chapter is focused on Emma, it takes place at the same time Killian is attacked the next one on both of them :) By the way, thanks for all the reviews, follows and favorites, you are awesome 3

Disclaimer: I unfortunately don't own anything, characters are the property of those two guys named Edward and Adam…

Chapter 9:

The dinner had been served, but they were still waiting for her mother to come home. Her father was glaring at her. He was not quite happy with the fact she attended to dinner wearing her pyjamas. The doors finally flew open and Snow White appeared, excusing herself. She winked at her daughter when she noticed her outfit.

"Where have you been?" Charming asked with a loving smile.

"Grumpy's" she answered "I had some business to do. How are you feeling honey?" she inquired looking at her daughter, changing subjects.

"What happened?" David asked worried.

"Emma was tired, that's why I allowed her to come eat in pyjamas" the Queen said and he nodded.

They ate in silence. Emma was wondering what kind of business her mother had had to do at Grumpy's. She kept glancing at her suspiciously, but she couldn't have looked and acted more innocently. When dinner ended, Emma went back to her room. She was brushing her hair, lost in her thoughts, when she heard someone knocking at her door.

"Come in" she said and her mother appeared with a soft smile "Oh, hi mom"

"Hey. I have something for you" she told her, sitting at the edge of her bed and Emma turned on her chair so that she could face her.

"What is it?" she smiled.

"I went to Grumpy's earlier to talk with a certain pirate and…"

"If it's to talk to me about him, I don't want to hear it" she cut her mother off.

"Honey. Let me talk. He gave me this for you" Snow said handing her the package "He said it was something he bought you and you loved. He also said you'd like to have it"

Emma took it and her mother squeezed her shoulder before quitting the room. She turned back to the mirror, looking hesitantly at the package in her hands wondering whether to open it or not. Five minutes passed during which she turned it again and again in her hands, before finally opening it. A box and a letter fell from it. She took the box and looked at what was inside to find the wonderful swan necklace he had bought her when they first made port in a small village 'A beautiful Swan for a beautiful lady' he had said and she remembered being really touched by his gesture. She loved it for sure, she turned it between her fingers and noticed something that was not here before. At the back of the bird, he had made her name carved on it. A tear fell on her desk and she hadn't noticed she'd been crying before. Emma put the necklace on and looked at her reflection in the mirror, not able to look away from the piece of art the jewel was. And she remembered the letter. She feared what she could find in it, but she was keen to know, so she opened it.

Emma

I know you're mad at me and you have every right to, love. I should have told you about Rumplestiltskin, but I wanted to protect you from my past. I did things I'm not proud of because of people that broke me little by little. I tried hard not to fall in love with you, because the last time I did, she betrayed me like no other. But I realized that trying not to love you only makes me love you more. I tried not to need you, but as I watched you walk away with you father, I realized just how much I needed you. You were like my compass Emma. My North, my South, my East, my West, the light that guided me to the Killian Jones I was before. What is pirate without his compass? Clearly nothing and I'm nothing without you Emma. But you were not just that. You are the hook to my heart, the anchor to my ship. You keep my feet on the ground. I let you go because I love you and I wanted to prevent Rumplestiltskin from harming you. My ship hasn't moved from an inch since you left. I'm still, drinking my sorrow and stupidity in every bottle of rum I find. I feel useless. You don't have to come to me. I just wanted you to know that I love you and that even if I'm not here with you, I'm in your heart. But I wish I could explain things to you face to face. I love you, with all my soul.

Yours truly, now, and forever,

Killian.

Her hands were shaking, tears drops were wetting the paper. No one ever had told something like that. Not even the best educated princes that had courted her during the banquets she had attended to. He loved her. Truly and deeply. She was his. She hadn't realized it, but she was his now and forever. Emma fast reacted. She dried her tears, got up on her feet, took the first dress that came under her hand and put it on before going out of the room.

"Emma?" a voice called her as she reached the front door. She looked behind her to see who it was that called her and saw her father, standing in the middle of the corridor. "What are you doing?"

"Hmm… Going for a walk. Clear my thoughts and all" she answered, hoping he hadn't heard her hesitation.

"In the middle of the night?"

"Let's say the beginning of the night… I mean, it's ten pm…"

"Emma. What are you really doing?" he asked and she told him the truth. Half of it.

"There's someone I need to see"

"Who?"

"…Doc?" she answered

"Doc? Really?" her father raised a brow. He perfectly knew that it was not the dwarves she had to see. It suddenly hit him. "Did you plan on going to the docks?" she was so screwed.

"But I need to see him!"

"The only thing you need now is some sleep young girl"

"But, dad…"

"There's no but. Bed. Now."

Emma glared at him, furious and defeated, before getting back to her room. She was going to find a way.

Author's note: Whoa… I hadn't planned it to be that long when I wrote it down on paper… So is she going to find a way? What about Killian? Charming? Hope you liked it :D I'll try to post chapter ten tomorrow, but I hesitate on letting you suspense a bit longer *mouahahahaha* ;) Please leave a review below xx