Jace and Clary awoke to a pounding bang on the bedroom door, Jace shot out of bed and threw the door open it was Issabelle dressed in her full gear. Clary glanced at the clock 6:37am. Jace was now completely awake and clearly wasn't very happy..

"What the hell Issabelle it's not even 7 am." Jace's voice was low he was hoping that Clary would have been able to fall back to sleep, He knew rest was the best thing for her right now. Issabelles eyes went from Jace and towards Clary who was sat up in bed gipping and trying not to be sick. Issabelle wondered what Magnus said was wrong with her. Clary was a shadowhunter there angel blood and runes helped to protect them from regular Mundane illnesses, Issabelle had never even seen Clary have a cold but now she was a mess. Issabelle shook her head and turned back towards Jace. "Demons spotted gathering outside the institute by the downworlders entrance we need all the help we can get." she paused taking another glance towards Clary then flicked her eyes back to Jace. "Are you coming then?" before Jace even had a chance to answer Clary had moved to his side and grabbed hold of his arm. "No Jace please don't go, I need you here." Issabelle was stunned Clary had spent so long training and learning about the shadow world and why wouldn't she what Jace to fight it was the responsibility of shadowhunters to protect.

"Look Clary I know that you're not well but seen as you can't fight we are one member down we can't afford to lose another one" Issabelle turned towards Jace "get your gear we need to know now!"

Within minutes Jace had his gear on and stepped forward to walk out of the room. "Jace please I don't want you to go, please just stay with me, just this once." Clary pleaded to Jace but he had to go with Issabelle he knew he didn't have a choice. He kissed Clary on the forehead before he spoke. "Don't worry Clary it will be fine, just go back to bed and try rest okay? I love you, I'll be back soon." once he finished speaking he took hold of Issabelles arm and they walked down the hall.

"Jace please, don't leave me, I need you...we need you." Clary's hand was on her stomach as she spoke. Jace turned back to face her. "I'm sorry Clary, I'll be back soon."

Clary went back into Jace's room and slammed the door shut behind her, she broke down in tears and crumpled down on to the floor. She had never felt more alone.

...

It had been 3 days since Simon had seen Clary or even spoke to her. Issabelle had half filled him in about Clary being unwell and Magnus having to pull her out of her unconsciousness but he wanted to see Clary and she wasn't picking up her phone neither was Issabelle. He stood on the pavement outside the institute wondering how long it would be before one of them answered their phone. To his surprise he felt a soft hand on his shoulder, as he turned around he saw Clary looking down on him she was smiling but he knew that she was just putting a brave face on. "Clary what's wrong, you're so pale you actually look like me? Are you aright? has something happened, is Jace okay?"
Simon had a noticeable amount of panic in his voice, Clary knew she could never hide anything from him. She got lost in thought but Simon stood up and pulled her in to a hug, Clary threw her arms around him and closed her eyes tightly shut, hoping he wouldn't see her tears. She was wrong Simon instantly knew he pulled away from her and then walked to sit on the institutes steps.

"Clary, Issabelle told me that you where sick, I wanted to come see you but she said you were in no fit state to leave the institute and obviously I couldn't enter too easily. I've been so worried" as he watched Clary her eyes sparkled she was beautiful, even when she was in her sweat pants, crying she still looked amazing. Simon knew that they would never be together and although he had moved on he knew that no matter what he would always be a part of him that could never stop loving her.

"I'm okay I guess, just confused. I've fucked everything up again. Why can't I just be normal? Why do I have the be a shadowhunter who was raised as a mundane and is learning things about the shadow world which a normal shadow hunter would learn when they where ten years old. Why do I have to be the daughter of a complete psycho killer. Or the sister of a dead demon brother. I just mess everything up. I'd be better off on my own, before I destroy anyone else's lives. To love is to destroy. ..."

She looked up at Simon who was completely astonished at what she had just said. This wasn't like Clary at all when she normally was upset she never wanted to talk about it she always just picked up her sketch book and drew until she felt okay again.

"Clary where has all this come from? It's not like you at all, I'm worried about you. Where's Jace you are clearly extremely upset why isn't he with you?" Simon instantly regretted speaking once he looked at Clary's face and saw that the tears were making her eyes sparkle where now streaming down her cheeks and splashing on to her legs.

"Clary look I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry" Simon didn't know what to do or say. Clary was always the strong one she hardly ever cried especially not like this.

"It's okay Simon, Jace went to investigate some demons with Issabelle, they are now in a meeting with the conclave.. I've never once asked him to not fight, I know he's a shadowhunter and it's part of our duty but today I needed him like really needed him but he still went." Clary placed a hand on her stomach as she spoke. Simon instantly had a horrible feeling in the pit of stomach.

He had looked at Clary when he first saw her but now he took a second look at her and this time he really looked at her. Her top was slightly tight and showed a tiny bump around her stomach where her hand was placed. Her other hand was on her back which was clearly causing her pain. Simon had stopped listing to her talking instead he found himself transfixed to her stomach and as he focused every noise around him faded away. He could hear Clary's heart beat with his magnified vampire hearing he had heard Clary's heart beat a thousand times. But this time was different there was another beat a small soft beat going to the same rhythm as Clary's. He really had to strain to hear it clearly, so he knew that not even Clary or a regular mundane could hear it. Suspicion rose in Simon then the beat of Clary's heart alongside the softer beat told him exactly why Clary was acting different and had been unwell.

"Simon? Simon? are you even listing to me? " Clary sounded annoyed. Simon snapped out of his trance and looked at her. He knew he had to ask her but he didn't want to believe it could be true, she was so young and had already been through enough.

"Clary I need to ask you something and I need you to be a hundred percent honest with me okay?" Simon's voice was unsteady "Clary a moment ago I was focused on your heart beat but there was another sound a slow soft beat in rhythm with yours... Clary could you be? Well are you... are you ...pregnant?" Simon's voice was calm and steady but inside his heart was breaking. Before Clary even spoke he knew the answer to his question. She looked up at him and slowly nodded her head. Simon didn't speak, he didn't have to. Clary moved towards him and snuggled her head into the crook of his neck and quietly wimped wrapped up in his arms.

Neither Clary or Simon spoke they remained seated on the steps and Clary was almost asleep as Simon rubbed her back and told her that is was going to be okay. The institute doors swung open and Issabelle stepped outside. She walked over to Simon and Clary, "what's going on is Clary okay?" Simon didn't have to say anything Issabelle knew that she wasn't. "Right Clary come on, where going upstairs, I'll wash your hair for you and braid it all the way you like it. I'm not taking no for an answer. sorry Simon I'll call you later me and Clary need a serious girl talk."
Clary slowly let go of Simon, she whispered "Thank you" to him before she turned and walked back into the institute. Issabelle also began to walk away but Simon grabbed her arm and pulled her back. "wait.. Don't be too hard on her Issy, she needs just support right now." Simon voice was calm but Issabelle could clearly see his concern for Clary. jealousy stabbed inside her. She walked back up the steps and towards Clary and the institute doors closed behind them.