I know what you all are thinking. "What the heck? Now only did this dumb writer posted up another chapter!" I am terribly sorry for the late delay. College and exam is really taking a toll on me. Crazy non-stop assignments and childish high-school drama is really taking up my time. This chapter I have wrote it a very long time ago but didn't have the time to check up for grammatical errors...pardon me if there is still errors. I rushed to upload this chapter between three deadly assignments so I hope you all will enjoy it. It is a freakish long one (first time doing something like this), so sorry if it hurts your eyes! Go on, read it and tell me what you think! I need you guys to tell me your opinion in the reviews, the question will be below. Thank you to all that reviewed! To VWH luv them all, I am very glad that the previous chapter can make you blush! haha, that means my attempt at sexy writing was a success! And truth be told, I felt terribly bad for Dominic too!

Chapter 17: The Dark Admirer

I seriously think that Julian would have been more forgiving if I were drunk when I kissed Dominic. Well, I really was drunk. Drunk on too much vampire blood, that is.

Turns out to avoid changing me into a vampire when I was terribly wounded, numerous vampires gave me their blood. That theory was thought up by Christopher. The risk was either I die of blood intoxication or I heal up and not turn into a vampire. So now not only do I get to be super beautiful and strong, all of their memories are collected into one tiny head of mine. The advantage is that I get to understand their past life better, the bad thing is that I get occasional slides of memory playback of their sex life; and hell, that is not good. In fact, it is embarrassing. I can be wide awake when I receive a memory flashback; unlike back then when I drink from one vampire, I have to be asleep to be able to access their memories. It means that I could be in the middle of a conversation and suddenly receive a flashback and get turned-on. It doesn't help the situation when the vampires and werewolves around me can smell the change of emotion in me.

But that was not the only side-effect from too much and different vampire blood intake. Other than my eye-sight being impossibly great and my hearing ten times sharper than before (I can hear conversations from another room and that is plain disturbing especially when couples tend to get active at night); my looks had changed drastically. Ok, so maybe not that obvious but if you stare at me long enough, you would notice the difference. For instance, my eyes are no longer brown but a bright shade of cinnamon brown. If you have seen the color of cinnamon, imagine it a few times brighter the color and you get my eye color. I find it a tiny bit intimidating to have eye colors like this; no human should have eye color that is visible in the dark like a gemstone. The plus side to this drastic change is that my wrinkles are all gone! Well, not forever gone as I know that as soon as the blood-effect fades off, I am back to being the normal aging human but hey, I am enjoying the high side of being agelessly beautiful. I look great in the clothes I wore ten years back and manage to steal a few passerby's glance when I strode pass them in red hot stiletto's. But obviously my fun was crashed when the Donahue twin brothers came and retrieve me back from the nightclub.

Ok, so maybe I was going a little overboard with the nightclub thing.

However, there was this tingling sensation in the back of my throat that screams for something else other than water and tasty-yummy fruit juices.

I realized that I craved for blood even when I am not a vampire. I can survive without taking in any as my life does not depends on it, but the smell of blood makes my throat dry. I didn't know why I would be having this kind of situation when I am not even turned yet. But Christopher made a theory that it was probably all due to the overdose of different vampire blood that gave me inhuman cravings like a vampire. As long as I do not digest any blood, I could continue my life diet free of blood. Sadly if I do by accident, I might get addicted to blood and there goes all the trouble with it.

I scowled.

Sitting in front of me looking a little too comfortable and sweet was Edwin and Fragrance; the both of them cuddled up in the two-sitter cushion and oblivious to my stare. For some obvious reasons, I don't really like the change in their relationship. I can bet on my beating heart that Fragrance and I are going to have a long argument about this sooner or later. With a scowl still intact on my face, I made an effort not to sit down between the two of them and settled for a spot in the cushion beside Sebastian. Christopher and Grace was the one that decided to call on this 'family' meeting, with the excuse of "Adele was out cold so we could not ask information from her to clear the situations up, and we need to know how he managed to do all this." So here I am, in this bright beautiful morning (the curtains are closed though), sitting in the awesome living room of the Donahue hotel penthouse with my arms folded across my chest.

Since the dangerous machete managed it's way to my house, I agreed with everyone that it would be better for me and my children to not live there for awhile; until they decided it would be safer for us to live with the vampires. I disagreed strongly with that, I would rather stay the nights at some shabby motel than play sleepover at the very expensive Donahue's penthouse. Reason? Obviously because Dominic lives there too. Well, it seems like I have another reason to disagree with this idea now.

I glowered at Edwin when he leaned over to Fragrance and whispered something in her ear and she laughed. Now, they are too close. I cleared my throat loudly and the both of them turned to look at me; Edwin, looking a little embarrassed, scooted a little farther away from his previous spot while Fragrance scowled at me. I rolled my eyes in return; teenagers.

Everyone except Dominic and Julian is present; and I thanked god for that. I have no idea how am I going to face the both of them at the same time.

"So," I asked, deciding it was best we get the conversation going, "is Victor dead?"

That sentence was good enough to make everyone stop breathing. I looked questioningly at the vampires and werewolves sited in front of me. A second later only did the thought hit me and I felt like slapping myself. I nearly forgotten that Victor is still their brother and saying this way is too…

"No," Christopher shook his head, his lips set in a tight line, "even if we are connected by blood, we are no longer brothers."

Grace, who was sitting next to him, moved closer to him and placed a hand on his shoulders. She smiled gently at him and as soon as Christopher saw it, his frown disappears and his eyes turned gentle. Wow, talk about the effects of soul mates; their effects are amazing. That thought made my heart ache; was Julian and I like that too? Is that burning sensation I felt when he kisses me is because we are soul mates?

Someone snapped their fingers in my face and my thoughts were cut off. I snapped my head up and glared at Sebastian, who raised his hands in mock defeat, "I was just calling you back to reality; you looked like you were in pain." He stopped for a while as he examined my face, "Are you ok?"

I sighed, I am so tired of people asking me that question ever since I stabbed Dominic with the machete and went psycho with it. But I appreciated Sebastian's concern. "Yeah," I smiled at him, "don't worry about me. We have a bigger problem to worry about."

Sebastian's face darken immediately and for once, I was afraid of him. "That bastard will pay for what he did to you. You don't deserve that; nobody should have to go through something as horrible as that. I never thought someone with blood relation with me can be as disgusting as this! That horrid son of a-"

"Sebastian!"

Christopher threw him a warning look and Sebastian clammed his mouth shut. I was silently grateful that Christopher butted in before Sebastian could say anymore because he was turning scarier and scarier each minute and sitting next to him is not exactly a good thing. Sebastian must have noticed how pale I turned because after taking in a deep breath and letting it out slowly, he turned to me with apologetic eyes. "I am so sorry; I just have a lot of things going on in my mind lately…"

I waved my hand at him with a smile tugging on my lips; Sebastian looked so cute when he looks embarrassed and stutters on his words. "Don't be sorry, Sebastian. I am sorry, in a way too."

"Now what did you do?" Edwin said with his eyebrows raised in a mocking fashion. I closed my eyes and rubbed the bridge of my nose, "Well, I caused quite some stir, didn't I? With the Victor and Dominic thing…"

I heard Christopher sighed but I didn't look up at him; I continue to keep my eyes shut. "We still don't know why he did what he did. We tried to come out with a few theories but they seem…illogical." It was Grace who scoffed, "Illogical? More like impossible, isn't it? There is no way that Victor would get vengeance over an accidental killing like that-"

That caught my attention, "What accidental killing?"

Grace tugged a strand of earth-brown hair behind her ear, "It happened some very long time ago, before you came along or even before Julian and I joined the Donahue household. Though I don't see how this is connected to this…"

I sat at my seat looking warily at my brothers as they argue on. The argument had been going on for more than an hour and with each minute passing by, their voices gets louder and harsher. I have left no more energy in me to stop their childish bickering about some incident that happened during their hunt. I sighed in exasperation when Dominic threw a vase at one of the twins before storming out of the room and slamming the heavy doors in an unfashionable manner. Dominic has been acting like this ever since his failed-attempt to court Ashlie.

Ashlie glided into the room and after scanning at the surrounding of the damage done by Dominic, shook her head dismissively, "Dominic has to learn to control his temper,"

"Or maybe you should just agree to his courting," Edwin hissed at her, before flipping the table out of unspoken anger. Ashlie glared at him, "Don't you dare hiss at me, Edwin Donahue; he is our brother, for heaven's sake, have you lost your mind?"

"Well, he is your soul mate, is he not!" Edwin threw his hands in the air out of frustration. "Are you asking me to commit incest?" Ashlie hardly shows her anger at anyone but this time, anger was radiating off her like a tidal wave. Her eyes turned a fury red and her lips pull back to expose her sharp fangs. I knew the time to interfere would be now so I stood up from my chair and all eyes turned on me. There was no need for me to say anything, all I did was stare at them; long and hard. Ashlie didn't cower at the sight of me, she never had been weak even when she looked fragile. She let out a breath she had been holding in for a long time, "I apologize, Edwin, I wasinconsiderate."

Edwin sensed my eyes on him and scowled but nonetheless, he said, "No, I am in wrong too. I should have not said what I said earlier; I apologize."

I smiled, but the smile didn't quite reach my eyes, "There, it wasn't so hard, was it? Can you say that to Dominic too?" Edwin grumble something unintelligent but I shushed him before turning to my younger sister, "Talk to Dominic, my beautiful sister, and try to understand what is he going through right now-"

"What about me? How about for once I care for what I am going through?" Ashlie whispered, her voice tired but a tint of anger can be detected from her voice. I watched her as she rubbed her forehead, her body suddenly looking more fragile than ever. "I am tired of refusing his pull towards me, my brothers; if I do accept him, I fear not only will it be disgust that I will be seeing in your eyes. I cannot risk as that much, you all are what that I have left in life…" If vampires are allowed tears, beautiful Ashlie would have been shedding tears by now.

"You have nothing to lose in us, dearest sister," Adrian wrapped his arms around her, "We will still love you even if Dominic and you were to commit incest,"

"My brother, that is defying God!" Ashlie looked horrified but Adrian shook his head, a sad smile on his lips, "Our sole existence defied God; what is the difference of accepting your brother when he is your soul mate?"

"Adele?" Fragrance voice sounded so near, "Mom, can you hear me?" I looked up at her as she shook my shoulders. I had to hold up my hand for her to release me. Nathaniel and Grace were hovering above me, both with worried expression on their faces. Sebastian held out a glass of water to me and I thanked him. "Don't worry," I took a sip at the water, "just the usual memory flashback."

"What did you see? I thought you were going to pass out!" Fragrance sat herself next to me, forgetting her seat with Edwin. I mentally laughed at that, feeling a little triumph that I could still win her by my side. Childish, I know.

"Ashlie, Dominic, things like that…" I trailed off, "Nothing that links to this though. There is something I need to ask you all," I paused as I looked at their faces, "is Victor still out there?"

I could feel Fragrance go stiff beside me and her hand tightens on my wrist. Adrian was the one that said, "Yes."

Christopher ran a hand through his handsomely new hair cut, "Don't misunderstand, Adele; we would still have ended his life no matter what since he is no longer sane, but we didn't managed to. He escaped," Christopher hissed on that word with wraith enough to freeze hell, "I have no idea how he managed to escape us when there are so many of us. He was wounded but it was nothing close to him gone from the surface of the earth."

"That damn sly fox," I said through gritted teeth.

Edwin shrugged his shoulders, "He had always been the most cunning one among us."

"What about Mindy?" I just remembered that orange hair beauty that whacked the daylights out of me; I still have hell to pay with her. I raised an eyebrow at my daughter when she growled at the mention of that vampire's name. When she saw my look, she grumbled, "She hurt Nathaniel with that damn silver machete."

Those words was enough to drive my mother instinct mad. I shot up from my seat abruptly, walked over to Nathaniel who was sitting at the opposite cushion, and pulled his shirt up despite his protest. True enough, there was a long angry scar beginning at the right side of his chest down to his bellybutton. The scar looked like it was burn metal that did the damage but I knew better, it was silver. Silver does that to werewolves; they burn the flesh near the wound the silver cut and does not heal completely, leaving an ugly scar there for you to remember it for always. I could feel anger boiling up in me; how dare she hurt my beautiful baby boy! Since I could not direct my anger straight to that bitch herself, I turned to the table beside me and with a swift motion of my hand, I flipped it over. The table flipped over easily and break under the impact when it hit the floor, the glasses shattered to a million pieces.

Everyone jumped out of their seats with loud surprised gasps, trying to avoid flying shards of glass. Fragrance and Sebastian jumped out of their seats and stood at the other side of the damaged table, looking fearfully at me and pitifully at the broken table. Adrian, who was sitting beside Nathaniel, just pressed himself harder into the seat of the cushion; he was obviously surprised by my sudden outburst. Christopher just shook his head; whether he was disagreeing with my attitude or whether he is feeling sorry for the table, I can't tell.

Edwin had jumped behind the cushion with his eyes widen with surprise. "Wow," An unsteady mocking laugh escaped his lips, "somehow I am suddenly very grateful to the person who stopped us from turning Adele into a vamp. I can already imagine her as a hell of a damn bad chick vampire."

Now this is news to me. I turned so I would be looking at Edwin directly, and I know the sight of my eyes are good enough to scare even the badass vampire in Edwin. I heard him took a sharp intake of breath and the inhuman side of me laughed in triumph; damn me and my ego. "Your eyes…"

"Interesting color, no? I never knew it could go any lighter than the previous shade to this bright red," I smiled, my smile was everything but nice, "but hey, what were you talking about previously? Who didn't want me turned?" I was suddenly in front of Edwin. I could see the surprise in his eyes and my primal side laughed; spooking a vampire can be so much fun!

Someone grabbed me hard by my wrist. I was about to hiss at the person when I whirled on him but stopped when I saw who it was. A wave of calmness washed through me and I stumbled back a bit, my throat suddenly feeling very dry. "Nathaniel…oh my god, what is wrong with me?"

"It was Julian,"

I looked up at Sebastian, "What?"

"Julian didn't want us to change you," Sebastian looked at me square in the eye, "He said that if we changed you this way, you will never forgive us; you will hate us. That was good enough for us to not change you even when you were dying in our arms."

The mention of Julian's name stirred a kind of sleeping anger in me, "He was just doing that so he won't lose his soul mate to some vampires."

Sebastian flinched a little when I hissed at the word vampire, and I regretted it almost immediately. Sebastian didn't deserve my raging temperamental mood swings. I looked at him apologetic, "Sebastian, I am so sorry, I didn't meant to make it sound like that-"

"We are sorry for a lot of things, Adele," Sebastian breathed out, but he was no longer looking at me, "I think I will go hunt," Sebastian turned and was out the door before I could stop him. I felt a pang of guilt; I know I hurt him and that was foolish. Sebastian was a nice guy and I was being a bitch. I sighed inwardly, feeling very tired and frustrated at myself.

"Maybe too much of vampire blood made you a little too in touch with your primal side?" Grace voiced out after staring long enough at the broken table. She shakes her head, "Ah, and I actually liked this coffee table."

"I will pay for it," I said dismissively, before turning to the kids, "Do you know where your da-I mean, Julian is?" I nearly let my tongue slip in front of the vampires and Grace and that was bad; I don't want Grace running to tell Julian that he has children. Fragrance shrugged while Nathaniel shook his head in response.

"Why are you looking for him?" Grace narrowed her eyes at me, surely she isn't thinking anything ridiculous?

"I had a fight with him that day…I want to clear things up with him a little," I answered her with unwavering eyes that said, if you are going to talk nonsense, save it. Grace rolled her eyes at me, obviously not intimidated by my stare. She kicked a piece of shredded glass with her black vinyl boots and clicked her tongue in dismay before looking up to me, "Well, you could try at the hotel he is staying at; I have a spare key for emergences. He should still be in his room."

I nodded my head, "Yeah, that would be fine. Let's go get the keys; who wants to head over there with me?" I looked over my shoulder and saw a few hands shot up to the air. I smiled; this time, it was sincere.

"Oh, so now you asks us before you go out, huh?" Edwin mocked as he waltz up to me, a smirk on his lips and in his eyes held a teasing mocking-ness that I find undoubtedly attractive, "What happened with the sneaking out to the bar thing that night?" I stuck out my tongue at him, "I didn't sneak out, I walked out but no one stopped me." I dodged Edwin's attempt to punch me by my arm and laughed when he scowled at me. Someone coughed behind of us and I turned to see Fragrance with an unattractive scowl on her face. She was glaring daggers at Edwin and if looks could kill, poor vampire boy here would long be sliced and diced into pieces of meat. I rolled my eyes in exaggeration; how territorial she is. I decided to ask her right there and then, "So, are the both of you together or what?"

"What?"

"Huh? What are you talking about?"

Fragrance and Edwin had this flabbergasted look on their face that makes me want to laugh so bad. I tried to contain my laughter but obviously failed, because between chokes of laughter I said, "Don't you lie to your mama now, Fragrance. I might be human but I am not blind. So, when are you guys going to tell me that there is a something going on between the both of you?"

Fragrance sighed, "And I thought we didn't make it obvious,"

I shrugged my shoulders, "You can't hide everything from a mother's watchful eye, my beloved daughter." I turned to Edwin, "Don't tell me the both of you are…"

Edwin's solemn look tells me all. I was no longer laughing; I just stared back at him as we stood at the flight of stairs that will lead us up to the second floor of the penthouse. A werewolf and a vampire; is this even possible? I watched Grace walked towards us with a bright smile on her lips as Christopher planted a kiss on her cheek. Well, they are the walking prove that vampires and werewolves can be soul mates; just different races separated by fate. I turned my eyes back to Fragrance and Edwin, the both of them shared a look that is a mixed between fear and anticipation. They are waiting for my reply, I realized. I wanted to say 'oh, that's fine,' but a part of me wasn't happy with this reality. My motherly-instincts are telling me to pull them apart before anyone gets hurt because I don't trust the vampire. But I know better than that; I know the feeling of being pushed away by your soul mate and it wasn't good.

I didn't know how long I held my breath, because as soon as I started breathing again, I got into a coughing fit. "Mom!" there was panic in Fragrance's voice, as she gripped onto my arms, "Are you ok?" Grace had run down the stairs to attend to me but I waved them away, "I am alright! Seriously, you people need to stop getting worked up over every little thing with me! I am not as fragile as you think I am."

"Was it that shocking?" there was guilt in Fragrance's eyes, and then pain, "We were just joking! You don't have to"

I stopped her short, "I love you all for who you all are, and will continue to love you even if your choices will bring chaos to someone dear." I smiled up at my daughter, "You can't choose your soul mate, Fragrance, but you can choose whether you want to be with him or not, and I am saying you take the latter choice."

Fragrance's face lit up and she hugged me tightly. Edwin was grinning like an idiot behind Fragrance and I rolled my eyes at him, "Ok, you are choking your mum now," Fragrance laughed, a single tear rolled down her cheek and she wiped it off with the edge of her sleeve, "I love you, mom; you are the best!"

I rolled my eyes again; I better not regret this decision. "Yeah, yeah, like that was sincere enough."

"Ok, I completely don't get whatever that was going on but here, the card to his room. I will be going with you guys since I need to talk to him about some werewolf politic later." Grace said as she handed me the electronic card and I slipped it into my back pocket. I raised an eyebrow at her, "When were you interested in werewolf politics?" She shrugged her shoulders, "Julian's pack is expanding more than you can imagine; better get yourself involve before things get messy."

I followed her out of the door with my own pair of twins and the Donahue twins followed suit. We piled ourselves into Grace's silver Touran S Volkswagen with me riding shotgun and I snickered; silver, how ironic. As she started the engine, she gave me an unreadable look, "Julian is the first Alpha in history to lead a pack that expands so wide and so fast. You have to admit that he is amazing,"

I didn't reply her, I just sat there at the front seat staring right ahead at the road. I watched as we drove pass buildings in a blur, my mind no longer tuning in to the conversation going on at the back. Occasionally I would catch short sentences like 'if Mindy is still alive, I would skin her personally' or 'Mindy is not worth our time, she is as dead as a doorknob' but most of the time, I just let my own mind drift away. I gritted my teeth together when I remembered Nathaniel's scar. I won't be able to settle this score with her anymore since she is as dead as they say. Unconsciously a smirk made its way up my face; looks like I will just have to unleash my anger on someone else then.

I continue to stare out the window at the shops that pass us by. We are passing by rows of shops now, nearing to the emptier part of the city. It is amazing what so much vampire blood can do to you; even with the car moving so fast, I can still catch the words on the shops' billboards when normal humans can't. I laughed at a particular sign,'We have big buns and long sausages; call in any inch you like and we have them!'. But my eyes caught something else as we speed pass numerous rows of shops and my heart halted to a stop.

With auburn long hair that runs down her back in curls and eyes that are a mixture between green and grey, my soul mate is a very beautiful lady. I watched her as she argued with her father before storming out of the house, her rich purple dress swirling between her slim legs. My heart ache when I saw trails of tears down her lovely freckled face. To me, she is the most beautiful thing on earth.

I have been watching her for a very long time now, ever since the last time I left home for the hunt. It was a month ago that I found her by coincidence. It was raining heavily that evening, I passed by the cemetery after I fed myself from a homeless man, ready to head straight back to the place where I call home that I saw her. She was standing in the rain and crying. Her wet hair was straight under the rain and her dress clad onto her body tightly, showing parts of her body that was usually hidden underneath the long dress. As soon as I set my eyes on her, I know she is the one.

But I didn't dare approach her; I am a monster, a dead body that walks the land and feed on the living's blood to survive, a vampire. So I just stayed at a distance and watched her cry a million tears in front of a particular tombstone. When the rain finally stopped and the earliest ray of sunshine hit the peak of the mountain, only did she leave the spot she stood throughout the whole night. I followed her in the shadows to her home and I watched with a clenched fist as her father send a tight slap across her face, I barely managed to contain my anger. How dare he hit her?

No matter how foolish I may be, I know better than to do something as reckless as to rush into her house and bleed her bald father dry, so I just stood there at a far distance and watched on as they quarreled. I continued to follow her for a few more days but on the fifth day, I had to return home as I know there are family waiting for me so with a heavy heart, I left.

Now every time I go for hunt, I would go to same village to look for her. I would stay hidden as I watch her going through her daily life; laughing with the other villagers, helping out at the farm and getting into a quarrel with her father. I would watch her cry after that, every time wishing that I could go over to console her. My heart would ache every time her face is stained with tears, every time she smiles at the boys that are obviously into courting her, and every time I stood there so close to her and yet she still never sees me. But I have decided to not let her know me, to just stay hidden until the time is right.

It was near winter now, the leaves all crisp and is either in a shade of yellow or brown. I finally decided to tell her who I am, to propose to her and take her away from this miserable life of hers with her father. I was practically dancing on my toes, I could feel my long dead heart beating rapidly in my chest, excited to be able to stand face to face with my beloved one. Somehow, fate was always cruel towards me.

I screamed, an angry roar filled with fear and pain.

In a deserted meadow, there laid the love of my life, her life seeping away from her own body. I ran to her, my hands shaking for the first time, as I gently picked her up. Oh heavens, what is wrong with her? Such pale skin drained of color, her lips purple and a dark shadow hung over her eyes. I recognized the signs immediately; a vampire's doing. A vampire had drained my beautiful angel and she is dying now. She opened her eyes slowly, as if that single action had taken up her whole body effort and I was greeted by the pair of eyes that I loved so much. She smiled, and oh my heavens, was it beautiful. "You are finally here," she said, her voice like a melody to my ears, "I was wondering when will you come over and talk to me…"

Shock must have been visibly shown on my face because she smiled even more, "You were always there, were you not? Hiding in the shadows, did you seriously think I would have not notice?" If the undead was allowed tears, there would be at least one rolling down my cheek by now. She knew, she always knew of my existence. I was never nothing to her; that made my heart warm for the first time after I turned into the thing that attacked her tonight. "You look like you are grieving," her voice so soft that it was barely a whisper, "why is that so?"

She reached a weak hand towards my face and I held her hands in mine, "Your name," I begged, "please tell me your name."

"Shoshana," replied she, a never ending smile on her lips.

"What a beautiful name," I smiled at her, a part of me fluttered in happiness as I finally know her name. However, a part of me was shedding tears; I have finally found my one true love but alas, she is leaving me.

"Rose," my beautiful Shoshana closed her eyes, talking must have tire her even more, "it means rose in English."

"I can save you from death, if you would allow me." My heart screamed at me to change her into what I am even if she refuses to, but when she looked at me with those eyes, my will died. "My death was fated; change it must you not," I wanted to cry, "Must I watch you die like this?" The usual light was fading from her eyes as she silently whispered those words, "Forgive me for my selfishness, my charming dark admirer. Grateful I am to have finally met you…"

I wailed to the skies as the one that was destined for me went still against my embrace. Shoshana is no longer here; only her body remains. I cried but no tears formed. I screamed in frustration and in anger; frustrated at myself for not being able to save her, angry at the person who hurt her. Then I had an idea, I need to know who did this to my beloved harmless Shoshana. I looked down on her limp body and a thought swirled in my mind; blood gives us access to the person's memories. I can see from her eyes the murderer. Yes, I was getting determined at my decision, yes, I will drink from her.

I extended my fangs and sank it into her beautiful pale neck. Drink I did from what little blood was left in her; I dug into her memories and horror was what I found. I could feel the anger, the hatred boiling in the pit of my belly. My hands were clenched together so tightly that the knuckles had turned alabaster against my own pale skin. I let my anger out at the nearest tree with my fist and it broke under my strength. I hissed with pure hatred and a determination for revenge.

"Dominic!"

It felt as if I was plunged into an endless sea of cold water and was pulled back out. I was gasping in my seat, my heart was pumping in my ears and my mind is spinning. Tears were rolling uncontrollably down my face. My hands felt cold and I grabbed onto the seat to calm myself down. Grace was panicking next to me; she had pulled over at the side and was shooting a hundred questions at me. I know the rest are worried behind too; I could hear everyone talking at the same time. I wanted to ask them to shut up but when I was about to open my mouth, there was a salty coppery taste on my tongue and I reached one hand to my lips.

"Did you bite yourself? Oh my god, are you alright?" Grace pulled me to face her. I wiped the blood stained hand on my jeans, "I didn't bite myself, I have no idea how the blood get into my mouth."

"Did you saw a memory just now? I thought you fell asleep." Adrian voiced out from behind, his voice calmer compared to the rest. I didn't turn behind to look at him, instead I focused on getting the blood out of my mouth with the tissue handed to me.

"You sure you are alright?"

I shot Grace a death glare, "You know, if anybody asks me this question again, I swear to the devil heels I wear that I will put this three-inch heel in their faces." Grace looked the less intimidated by me but didn't say anything. She just shrugged her shoulders and stirred the car back to the lane. I didn't realize my hands were shaking until I wiped my mouth clean of the mysterious blood. "I think I know why Victor did what he did,"

Edwin was the first to spoke up; I can feel his hands gripping tightly on my seat. "You saw his memory?"

"Chill, boy," Grace said without looking back, "I don't want you ruining my car seat." Edwin hissed at her, "Stop worrying about your car seat, Grace, you can ask your darling Christopher to get you a new car." Grace rolled her eyes but I doubt Edwin can see them, "Easy for you to say, you boys were the one that crashed my previous car, remember? Your brother is not going to get me another car if you all were to damage it any further," Grace stepped on the brake so suddenly that Edwin nearly flew pass my seat and hit his head on the dashboard. Edwin looked as if he was about to say something but Grace cut him off by saying; "We're here."

I looked out of the window. The hotel was a twenty-storey high building, with posh looking steps leading up to the gold frame main entrance. I didn't notice we had driven so far out of the city until I looked around at the surrounding. The land looked endlessly vast with several blocks of building at a far away distance. Even with the building standing so far away from the rest of civilization, it still looked grand and exquisite. I sucked in a deep breath; there were a million butterflies fluttering in my stomach. I was suddenly very nervous.

"Wait," Adrian halted me before I could walk up the stairs leading up to the entrance of the hotel Julian was staying in. He run his thumb over the corners of my lips, "you can't walk in there with blood on your lips now, can you?" I watched him lick the blood off his thumb and I wrinkled my nose in disgust, "That is disgusting,"

He just smiled at me, "It is just blood to me."

Grace pressed the button to the lift after telling the lady behind the registration counter the room we are heading to, "He is still in his room; I think he didn't leave the room since last night." Grace smiled at me, "Nervous? I bet he is going to be so excited to see you,"

I just nod my head; I hope she is right.

Before I knew it, we were already standing outside of the room and the only thing that is blocking our connection to Julian is the door. I held my breath and knocked at the door. When there came no reply, my guts tighten. Had something bad happened? I turned to Grace and saw the color on her face. It was pale, like she knew something I don't. I saw the same look on the vampires, and I tried to smell the air. Nope, no smell of blood; so what are those look for? I caught a whiff of something else in the air coming from the room but I can't tell what scent it is. Grace looked as if she was about to say something to me but I grabbed the magnetic key from her before she could keep it away. I slotted the key into the door and pushed the door back.

"Wait, Adele, don't—"

Grace reached out to stop me but I was already walking into the room.

I heard them before I actually saw them.

Spread out on the white bed was a very beautiful naked sun-tanned goddess, sweaty and panting from a certain previous activity; and on top of her with his back facing us and his long black hair let loose down his back was my very own soul mate, Julian.

This is so far my longest chapter done...I think. So, I got a question for you all. Should I upload slow but a long chapter? Or should I update fast but chapter not as long? Please tell me through the reviews. Your reviews will be very much appreciated! May I also know who is a Julian fan here? Then I know you will feel like punching me right now, 'cause my sis is a Julian fan and she did make me suffer terribly for this cliff. Please tell me through the review too whether you are a Julian fan or Dominic fan or any other character fan. Thanks again!