Hey ya'll so here we go again with another chapter as promised… I told you I wouldn't make anyone wait for too long!

I can't claim them as mine but man I wish they were, well at least Edward I want that man for me and me alone… *sighs*

Well as always mad thanks to all my girls for all the help and love and encouragement I couldn't do this with out any of u!

Steph, Kyla, Rachel, Cat, BBC, Sandra and now added to the crazy family Xquisite prodigy/blue shirt girl…u all make my day better and make me laugh and always bring me happiness… I'm so glad that I fell in love with Edward and the books and ultimately that brought me to all ur crazy asses and god knows I wouldn't change that for the world…

So now on with the show...

Chapter 17 Edward's POV…

Playlist for chapter

Maroone 5- Secrets

Bruno Mars- Just The Way You Are

Finally…

I was really starting to believe she would never show me any sign of her true feelings.

I was praying that she would, lord knows I prayed, but my faith in her feelings were starting to wane.

Her body always told of the depth, need, and desire she had for me. She displayed them all proudly as if an open book; all but the one I needed…love.

Love was the one I wanted the most but never received. My heart always told me it was there; just lying beneath the surface, trying to claw it's way out.

But her thick as fuck skin just wouldn't budge and give into what we both desired and needed.

I love her…of that there is no doubt; I just need her to let go and embark on the best journey of both our lives.

Just when I was about to loose my head, go all caveman on her ass and demand she let go, force her to open up to me and put us both out of our misery…she tells me, that she wants this too.

She wants me.

Well not in those exact words but close enough in my book. Just her saying she wants more than a one night stand means more than the world and all it's riches to me. I stare deeply into her eyes and see my future, my home, the mother of my children and my best friend looking back at me with a longing for more in her eyes and I melt.

I melt because I know the same feelings are shining through my eyes, saying, begging at this point, for her to trust what she feels and embrace this, embrace…us.

I look into her eyes and see nothing but an endless pool of love and devotion reflecting back at me and my entire word tilts on its axis. But in the back of that wonderful emotion beaming through those gorgeous almond eyes, there is also worry…

Worry and fear that I wouldn't understand why she put a stop, to our immense lust.

She couldn't be more wrong.

I respect the fact she stopped. She means more than a quick cheap fuck in a dark alley to me. Yes my dick is weeping and turning all gorgeous shades of purple but she means more.

Plain and mother fucking simple.

Well thinking about it, the alley fuck could be hot, but definitely not for the first time. Maybe a couple of weeks into our relationship, if not sooner, but for now, it's not what I want for our first time.

I know my girl's kinky and a little on the exhibitionist side, so I know she would be down for all types of wild fuck sessions throughout the greater Miami area.

Yep, I need to make this happen soon, there's only so much my poor friend can take.

Okay I really need to focus before this gorgeous creature thinks I'm either A crazy or B upset for her putting a stop to our hot little make out session.

"I'm sorry princessa, I never meant to make you feel cheap. You mean more to me than anyone or anything in this world and it breaks my heart to know I've caused you any distress." Her facial expressions turn into the sweetest look I've ever seen on her angelic face.

She smiles a timid and shy smile and I swear my world turns into nothing but rainbows, unicorns, and happy leprechauns dancing and singing 'My Girl' by the Temptations'.

And then to top off the most amazing moment in my life thus far, when I reach her cheek and stroke it lovingly she turns her face into my hand and lays a gentle kiss to my palm.

Can I say mother fuckin' heaven people?

She is still smiling at me and just when I really thought things couldn't get any better she giggles and just like that I'm done for. If I wasn't sure she owned me before, I'm positive she does now.

I'm so fucked. Huh?

I will never be able to say no to my princessa'. Nope, I just can't do it. Especially if she gives me this look, the one only reserved for me.

Bullshit…any look and I'm putty in her hands.

I swear to God, I don't want it any other way.

"Baby, I know why you stopped and I am glad you did. I want you for more than once; heck I'm going out on a limb here sweetheart and saying I want you forever because that's just how I feel." I take a deep breath and I lay it all down on the table.

Her eyes shine brightly back at me with just as much emotion, if not more, than what is shining out of mine.

"I can't and won't deny to you how I feel, baby!"

I would almost consider this a case of word vomit, but when the love of your life gives you another breathtaking smile because of it; my humiliation at the loose tongue I seem to have at the moment just doesn't seem to matter any more.

All that matters is the gorgeous woman I have before me, nothing else.

"Thank you Edward, I really just want this to mean more. There's a connection so strong between the two of us and I don't want to ruin something that could be incredible with a one night stand." She takes a deep breath as if to keep her self in check. I wonder if she is dealing with the same tornado of emotions I have in me?

Does she want me as bad, if not more?

Once she has her breathing in sync and is no longer trembling from the moment we just shared she says…

"I care for you Edward I truly do. I would love nothing more than to take you home and have our souls connect, but I just cant right now." I know my eyes are pleading with her to explain but she doesn't and that just leads to my mind wandering down dangerous paths.

"Is it because of what you were doing here tonight?" I spit out with more venom than I intended.

I see her cringe away from me but I'm having none of that.

"Answer me Isabella!" I grab her arms to keep her in place and continue laying into her till she gives me the answers I deserve.

"Why were you here? Are you seeing him?" I say through clenched teeth as my hold on her tightens to the point where she flinches and tries to fight me off. I know she will probably have bruises come morning, but the thought of her with anyone else is killing me.

She shakes her head frantically and says "NO" over and over again.

I let go a bit because I can't and won't hurt her any further. I need to know if she's in trouble. I could help her; fuck no one would touch her knowing she belongs to me and me alone.

I swear to god and every virgin and saint out there, that if any mongrel in there laid a hand on her delicate skin then I will personally chop off every single god damn finger on both hands, and feed it to my dogs…

I once again get so lost in my own thoughts that I don't realize she's out of my hands and pacing back and forth in front of me.

I can literally see and feel the anger build in her.

Her shoulders are squared and her jaw is tight. Her posture is a bit crouched and she looks ready to fight. I don't see why she has the need to be so guarded, I would never hurt her.

Not intentionally anyways.

Just when I think she's about to go all Bruce Lee on my ass, she decides to speak…

I almost wish that she would just have stayed quiet.

"Edward, why are you acting like such an ass? I don't go around asking you what you do or who you do it with. I came here on business and that's all you need to know," she spits back at me, but it doesn't hold the same effect it once did. I know she does care and wants me now.

Her pacing never stops and her defensive posture only gets worse as my silence rings between us.

I know she deserves some answers, if not all, but until she gives me what I need I can't bring her into my crazy world. There was a legit reason why I gave her a false last name.

I know it was a dick move, but I can't have her being afraid of me and mine.

"You wont answer me, huh? Fine, keep your secrets as I keep mine."

Her pacing is making me a bit dizzy, but with the fury I see behind her eyes and blush I think it's best if I keep my mouth shut. Never taking much of a breath she continues and I stand back and watch as everything we just built crashes around me.

"I thought we had moved beyond all that other bullshit. I thought we had something, I guess I was wrong. I know I never gave you much on why I'm here but, I gave you something." Her shoulders look like they hold the world and all its problems on them. They seem to become tenser with every heart shattering word that leaves her lips.

"I might not be an open book Edward, but I gave you something. Fuck! You show up at my apartment and I never questioned you, did I? I have known the type of man you were since I first laid eyes on you, in that café." She looks almost in tears at this point. I can tell she is almost done and if I don't fix this soon, I might lose her.

I refuse to lose her.

"If you wanted to know what I was doing here and asked nicely I would have told you. Fuck, I would have told you anyways, but your harsh words and questioning my morals by thinking I would sleep with that trash…hurts."

I can't help but look away after those words left her lips.

What the hell was I thinking?

I was just about to apologize and offer to take her somewhere private, where we could talk and lay everything on the table.

When out of nowhere I heard a…

THWACK…

And a searing pain ran throughout my face.

She slapped me.

Me. Edward fucking Cullen.

I have no idea how to react, I am furious.

Seething even, but above it all…

I am impressed; the girl has some impressive strength behind her hand.

"You're a prick Masen and your silence only confirms what we both know. I would have been willing to give in and let you into my world. You aren't the only one with a name or job that puts your entire families name on your shoulders. And since you don't trust me, I won't trust you." She started to turn and walk away, but decided to let me have it just a bit more.

She was exquisite.

I had never seen such an intriguing and beautiful woman before.

But her beauty and powers magnify ten fold when furious.

She was glorious.

Here she was in all her wild hair glory, dark eyes flashing red and tempting body ready to strike, as if she were a snake.

I would let her bite me with her poison if that meant having her mouth on me.

Just the thought of that mouth or lips had my cock at full mast.

I wonder if she's the type that likes angry sex.

Would she spank me for being a bad boy and then ride me until I pass out?

I must have zoned out again because I barely caught the end of her rant.

"We can't be! And since you can't get that through your thick skull, there's only one more thing left for me to say… "FUCK YOU!"

I watched her leave this time. Lost in my head and beating myself up for not stopping her.

But I would make this right.

We had some talking to do!

And what the fuck did she mean by…

"You aren't the only one with a name, or a job, that puts your entire families name on your shoulders."

Fuck me, could she be?

And there you have it… Seems like someone finally got it, but at what cost…

Okay folks we are finally getting there… The reveal will come soon enough….not next chapter but soon… so no killing the author just yet…

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Recs for the week…

Lvtwilight09- A Multitude of Sins... so good people and all i have to say is priestward and nunnella...

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Theonlykyla- Please Pass the Peas… drabble about an adorable Edward and a shy Bella that reunite in a frozen section of the supermarket… this one puts a smile on my face with every chapter.

orchidmoon22-This Heart Renewed...such a heart warming story.. I started this yesterday and fell in love with bella and her zest for life...she has very little reviews and needs some love so please tell her i sent you...

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