A/N: Here is my new chapter! All your reviews have been such an amazing motivation, I'm so happy! Again all medical terms are coming from google, except for the Lumbar Punction. That one I stole from ER. Everytime I saw that on the show it horrified me. I'm just glad team one feels the same about it :) Enjoy!

Ed was standing on the sideline of their training field. He had promised the team an outdoor training and the day was perfect for it. Team 3 was out patrolling and team 4 was on standby. Since they were two men short today, he rather stayed at HQ. Jules took another day off to be with Sam for his second appointment. Greg had told him yesterday evening what happened to Sam, and he had a bad feeling about this. Best-case scenario was that Sam needed some time off to get rid of the stress. He didn't want to think about the worst-case scenario. Anyway, they needed to find someone to fill in for Sam, even if it was only for a few weeks. Greg was going to talk to Donna, team 3 consisted out of seven officers, maybe they could make a temporarily transfer. It wasn't ideal though. It was probably inevitable for them to recruit a new team member.

The training wasn't like the usual training. Normally they would run tactics, come up with strategies for different kind of situations and things like that. But when your team is only four men large that didn't seem useful. So they are spending a few hours on the obstacle course now and after they will do some negotiating training. This was Greg and Jules specialty, but they all needed to be capable of doing it.

He looked at his watched, just past noon. In a few hours they would know more.


Sam felt more relaxed than he was in the last past weeks. Not that the night went really well. He had another big episode and he and Jules didn't catch much sleep. In lack of a better word they now used the term "episode", not wanting to give it a name. But no longer keeping it a secret made him feel better. Also now it was in the hands of the doctors to help him, he only had to accept the help. Maybe he was a bit in denial, but to him it felt like half of the problem was already solved.

Jules on the other hand was in a complete different state. She was completely obsessed to make everything as easy as possible for him. He almost expected her to cut his sandwich in pieces and feed him herself.

"Jules, I know you mean well but I think I'm fine wearing a shirt. A woollen sweater really isn't necessary on a warm day like this," Sam laughed at her, they were about to leave for his doctor appointment and Jules had handed him a sweater he only wore when it was freezing outside.

"Yeah, maybe your right. But let me get you a long sleeve, just in case" she said very seriously.

"I'm fine, Jules," Sam tried but knew it was in vain. "Alright, I'll go up and get one".

"No! Let me get it, you should take it easy" and before he could say anything she ran up the stairs.

Off course he wasn't aloud to drive and he wondered how long he could manage to live with overprotective Jules. Probably not long. But right now he knew Jules was not only doing it for him, she was doing it so she wouldn't go crazy on the waiting. They hadn't spoken about it, but he knew Jules was thinking about her mom. She had been very open to him about her, she told him how she still found it difficult to think about it and how much she still missed her mother. Loosing her mother was difficult, but not being able to do anything for her and slowly watch her die was unbearable. He hated to see her like this and he wanted to take her in his arms and talk to her about it. But he just couldn't face it, just not yet. First he wanted to hear from the doctor what it was that made him feel like this.

The drive to the hospital was taking forever. It felt like every traffic light tuned red as soon as they approached it. For a moment he thought about calling Spike. He could easily hack into the system and turn them all green if he wanted to. After only 30 minutes, what felt like hours, they arrived at the hospital and they walked to the neurology department for his appointment.


Sam was in shock. He hadn't expected this. He stared at the doctor hoping he would tell him more, but he stayed quiet. Giving him the chance to take the information in. He looked over at Jules, hoping to see answers in her eyes but they stared blankly at the doctor.

"So, what does this mean?" Sam finally asked the doctor. He felt Jules hand reaching for his and he gladly took it. She holds on to him a bit harder than normally.

"Well it means that we are going to take some more tests." The doctor answered him.


The day had crept by slowly but to Ed's relieve they were not needed for any assistance. Now they had all showered and they were ready to take off. Earlier that day he received a phone call from Wordy. Apparently Jules had called him this morning to tell what was going on, she needed to talk to someone and she and Wordy had always been close. Actually, most of them went to Wordy if it came to serious subjects. He was a good listener and never shied away to give his opinion and was always ready to help you. Often they joked about this, saying that living with four women made him soft and a good listener. But Ed knew better, there was a reason why Wordy and Shelley made a perfect couple. She needed exactly the kind of person Wordy was.

Naturally Wordy was shocked to hear what was going on and could relate to how Sam and Jules were feeling right now. So he gave them what he had needed the most last year. Family. He asked Sophia to help Shelley prepare dinner and everybody was coming over at Wordy's house for a get together. It gave Sam and Jules the opportunity to tell them about the test results and it gave the team the change to show their support. The three men stepped out of the locker room to meet Leah at the dispatcher's desk, ready to leave work behind them.


Sam was glad they finally left the hospital. He never liked being there. He was actually surprised that Jules didn't make him stay or that the doctor would have suggested it. In his head he already made a list of arguments why he couldn't stay. Only when he stepped into the car he could breath again.

Giving a thankful smile towards Jules, who was driving the car, Sam put on his long sleeve shirt. He knew it wasn't cold outside, but still he felt a bit chilly. Probably due to the sleep deprivation. He even regretted not bringing his woollen sweater with him. Later tonight it would be even colder and they were probably going to sit in the backyard. Jules only gave him a smile back, on a normal day she would have rubbed it in when she was right. But nothing about today was normal. Well maybe for his coffee. He had begged Jules to drive by their favourite coffee place to get him a double double. It would definitely help him to not fall asleep during dinner. On their way to the hospital they also drove by to get some coffee, they make good customers he laughed to himself.

Sam was glad that Wordy had arranged this evening. Talking to his team at Wordy's place with 4 girls running around was a better environment than the barn or the Goose. Plus a good meal was very welcome to both of them. When they walked around the house to the backyard they saw that everyone was already sitting there. The men drinking a beer, the women drinking wine and the little ones with there juice boxes. It would look normal to most people but Sam noticed they were anxious but trying to look normal. Sam pretended he didn't noticed and walked over to the ladies to give them a hug before he had to turn around to catch a little girl in his arms. Ally always had a thing for him. In the beginning it was a love / hate relationship. She would look at Sam all the time, almost flirting with him. But as soon as he came closer she ran towards her parents to hide her face. It didn't take long though before she was glued to Sam. And now Sam was, to put in her words, her "Bestest friend". For a moment he forgot that he was here to tell everyone what was going on. Ally was in his arms talking about everything and nothing. Shelley had to intervene to give Sam a break. While the girls were playing on the grass Sam and Jules sat down to explain what the doctor had told them. By now they all knew what exactly had happened to Sam the past weeks, just not why it had happened.

"So, how did it go, did the doctor have the test results?" Greg asked Sam.

"Yeah, he did. Blood samples, MRI and the EEG were all good. He couldn't find anything irregular on them. At least that rules out certain things like brain tumors." He looked over at Jules. As soon as the doctor told this to them she was a bit more relieved. It would have been too painful for her.

"However his neurological examination on me gave a lot of irregulars. Apparently my nerve system is completely out of balance. He did another one today and I don't think he liked the outcome." He looked around to see confused faces.

"What's going to happen now?" Ed asked him.

"Well, he took a lot of blood samples again and a lot of other tests. I don't even remember what they all were. Something called an EMG, I think it had something to do with muscle disorders and motor function and I had a lumbar puncture. I can tell you that it's not much fun to stick a needle in your spine to get some spinal fluid out of it." Sam said dryly. Maybe he shouldn't have said it, they all looked a bit horrified.

"I have another appointment next week, it will take them a few days to get all results back and in the mean time they gave me medication to hopefully calm down my nerves and for the nights I received sleeping pills. So I'm looking forward to a peaceful night."

Maybe it was foolish, but Sam had really expected to get real answer today. Expecting the doctor telling him what it was and how to fix it. He didn't anticipate that the doctor had no clue. They talked a little more about Sam's condition until dinner was ready. Just as the doctor had ordered Sam took his medication before dinner. Dinner was amazing, both Shelley and Sophia were great cooks. And with the girls at the table the conversation had changed to lighter subjects. Sam was really enjoying his time.

After dinner Spike came to sit next to him with a serious look on his face.

"Sam, have you thought about talking to Nathalie about what's going on with you?" Spike asked in a careful way. Clearly not wanting to start this subject.

"Yes I have and no I'm not going to tell her yet." Sam relied.

"She would worry to much." He explained.

"Sam, she is your sister. She would want to know this so she can be there for you." Spike tried. "She would not forgive you if you don't confide in her".

"These last months have been though on her, now she finally found a job and an apartment. She is living her life now and she doesn't need a distraction coming from me." Sam said maybe a bit harsher than he meant to. When he came back from his second tour in Afghanistan, after Matt died, she was there for him. She dropped everything around her to fly back home and stay with him as long as he needed. And he knew she would do it again, but it was time for her to work on her own future.

But Spike wasn't giving up so quickly. "What if she found out via someone else? Wouldn't it be better if she heard it from you?"

"From whom would she hear it Spike?" Sam didn't like the direction this conversation was heading and he looked straight into Spikes eyes trying to intimidate his friend to keep his mouth shut. It didn't work though.

"I'm seeing her tomorrow night." Was all Spike said. He used a very calm voice but clearly not feeling very calm. Not so long ago Spike had assured Sam that they weren't dating. He wasn't completely sure if Spike told the truth but neither of them mentioned each other after that. And right now he didn't knew if he liked it.

"How long?" he asked simply, as if it didn't matter to him.

"We are not in a relationship if that's what you mean." Spike sighed. "Just recently we have been going on a few dates, that's all. Just to see were it would take us. But tomorrow she is going to ask me about you. She always does. And I'm not sure if I'll be able to fool her. I'm not sure if I want to." Spike finished.

Sam wasn't sure how he felt about this. He loved his sister and he loved his teammate whom he considered his best friend. Them being together would mean Spike became his brother in law. That was pretty cool; it would definitely make the family visits better. But on the other hand, his sister wasn't very good in holding a boyfriend. And he wouldn't want to be between them if things went wrong. Plus there were things from his past he didn't want the team to know. Not that there were secrets, just things he rather kept separate from work. With Jules off course it was different. And if there was one person who knew his whole past and wasn't known for keeping her mouth shut it was his sister.

"Are you okay with that, me seeing Nat tomorrow?" Spiked asked carefully. Not liking the moment of silence.

"I'll ask her to come by tomorrow after work and I will talk to her." Was the only thing Sam wanted to say at this point. He knew he was being a baby about it but thought he could always blame it on the side effects of the medication. It was true that the meds were having an effect on him. He noticed it pretty quickly. He was feeling nausea's and dizzy within an hour after taking them and now it became only worse. He nodded to Jules that he was ready to go home.


Jules felt a lot more relaxed being among her friends. Sam was certainly enjoying his time and it felt good to have shared everything with them. Shelley and Sophie had offered to check on Sam on the days she had to work. She knew Sam would hate it, but it made her feel better. She would deal with his tantrums later. She never before had to deal with a sick Sam, but she liked to think that she knew him well enough to know he was going to have tantrums. He wasn't allowed to drive, drink, ride a bike, do workouts etc. So he was going to be bored to the maximum level. Maybe she would order some books when they got home. Surprisingly enough Sam was a reader.

She said her goodbyes to her friends and gave the girls a hug. Ally had already fallen asleep on Wordy's lap. She wanted to go home quickly now. One look at Sam's face told her he wasn't doing very well. Earlier he already told her that the side effects of the medication were coming up but he insisted they stayed a little longer. Just to be sure she asked Shelley a plastic bag in case Sam would throw up in the car. She turned around to tell Sam she was ready, just in time to see him collapse. Spike who was standing next to him tried to catch him, but his friend's body was to heavy. Sam's body started to tremble. First lightly but soon it turned into a full seizure. Jules ran over to him while Spike turned Sam on his side and made sure his mouth was clear. Jules looked helplessly at her boyfriend, feeling completely useless and lost. Behind her she heard the girls starting to cry and Ed on the phone to call for EMS. After a few minutes the seizure slowly went away and Sam lay quietly on the ground with his eyes closed. Spike was monitoring his pulse and said to Jules and Ed, who was still on the phone with a 911 dispatcher, that his pulse was strong but too fast. Jules just wanted to reach down to touch Sam's face, when another seizure started. This one lasted until the ambulance arrived. They quickly gave Sam something that calmed his nerves and muscles and the seizure subdued. They gave Sam an oxygen mask and started an IV line. When he was stable they put him in the ambulance. Jules didn't want to leave him alone for a second and decided to ride along with the ambulance. The team would drive up to the hospital to meet her there. They were all saying things to her but she wasn't hearing it. All she could think was that Sam was lying there unconscious and pale and so far no one knew what was causing it. And everyday it went worse and worse. The doors closed and they drove to St. Michael's Hospital.

A/N: So you may have noticed the Spike and Nat thing. I just wanted to bring Nathalie into this story as she is Sam's sister. And I thought it would be fun to see how Sam would react on them dating. In Blue on Blue he seemed very protective. So to all Winnie and Spike lovers, it doesn't mean that Spike will end up with Nat instead of Winnie in this universe. Just during this story he is dating Nat. Also, in the next chapter you will find out what is wrong with Sam. So you only have to wait until next update. And motivation is the best way to write a story quick, and you know what motivates me! Yes, reviews :) So bring them on!