OK, just so no one kills me, I'm writing Chapter Nine at 12:30 in the morning(April 2nd BTW) and I feel like I'm going to die. I didn't really know what to do in Chapter Eight but once I got going I think that I did really well for a midnight post so don't judge hater's! any way for those who want to kill me, ENJOY!
I think my eyes almost popped out of my head when I saw what was on the screen. It was small but definitely there. A little thing no bigger than my thumb.
"Please don't tell me that's what I think it is." I stared in horror. I was screwed. What was Asami going to do? Was he going to be angry? How was he going to react? I toke a peek of Asami out of the corner of my eye. He had his poker face on so I couldn't tell what he was thinking or feeling.
"If you think that it is a fetus, then you are correct." The doctor looked at both Asami and I and got up probably thinking that we needed to be alone to think and talk it out. We didn't talk though.
The room was silent for what seemed like an eternity. Neither of us moved. Then Asami got up and called the doctor back in.
"How could this happen?" The doctor looked at me sympathetically.
"The pill that Akihito was given was most likely one of those temporary womb pills. You know the ones made for women who can't have children? Well they also work on men. Some male couples have been known to do that and it's not that bad. It's just a little weird if you ask me."
That made sense. I'd heard of that too. But why would that guy give that to me? It doesn't make any sense. I just sat there. I didn't know what to do. Asami put his hand on my shoulder and snapped me out of it.
"I think we should go home and think this over." I nodded and he helped me clean up and to the car. The drive back was silent. I really didn't like it. It made me more nervous and stressed then I already was. We said nothing in the parking garage, in the elevator, or in the hall. We were barley in the door way when Asami pulled me to his chest.
"I'm sorry." I froze. WHAT DID HE JUST SAY!?
"W-why are you sorry? It's not like you did this?"
"If I had found you faster then maybe this wouldn't have happened." For a second I didn't know what to say. Then . . .
"Are you fucking stupid?" Asami pulled away from me to look at me. "You didn't cause this and there was nothing you could've done so don't you even dare blame yourself for something that's not your fault. If anyone is to blame it's the guy who gave me the pill in the first place." I looked at Asami in the eye as I said this and I meant every word. It really wasn't his fault for this.
"I thought you'd be upset about this."
"Oh, trust me I'm a little freaked out but that doesn't mean I'm going to blame you." We stood there looking at each other for a few minutes before he wrapped his arms around me again.
"What do you want to do?"
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"Do you want to keep it or . . . ?" He didn't have to say anything. I knew exactly what he meant. Abortion.
"No, I don't want to keep it." he hesitated for a moment before saying,
"Alright. I'll call the doctor and set up an appointment."
"Thanks." He pulled away from me and looked me right in the eye.
"You're sure? You're not going to feel any regret?" I looked right back and confirmed.
"Positive."
"Alright, you should probably go get some sleep, I'll be there in a minute."
"Ok." Asami headed for the living room and I got in an old T-shirt and shorts and got into bed. I couldn't exactly hear what Asami was saying but he was doing a lot for me. I really appreciated his help. Asami walked in a moment later and got into a thin pair of bottoms and no top.
It toke a little while, but I finally convinced him to sleep with at least that much. He then got into bed and pulled me close as I laid my head on his chest and listed to his heart beat.
"Everything's set. Your appointment is next Monday, so you got a few days to rest up for it."
"Hmm, thanks."
"You know you don't have to get rid of it. You can keep it or even put it up for adoption."
"Really, Asami, it's fine. I don't want it. Why do you keep saying that?"
"I just don't want you yo feel any guilt or regret."
"It's fine. Really." We laid there for a few minutes and I thought that Asami had fallen asleep until he spoke again.
"Do you not want it because of him or is it because of me?" I looked up at him in bewilderment. Here we go again.
"Him of course. Why would I not want it because of you?"
"Because you may feel that I'd mind having a kid around and having to take care of it."
"Well, I'll admit that's apart of it but it's mostly because I don't want to bare some other persons child."
"Are saying that if it was mine it would be different?"
I looked at Asami not knowing what to say. I hadn't really thought of that. What if it was Asami's child? Would I still want it? Would I take care of it no matter what?
"Maybe, but it's not so-"
"So if I were to get you one of those pills would you do it?" I looked right into those golden eyes and could tell he wasn't just teasing me.
"You're serious? Like you are actually considering it?"
"Of course. So . . . what is you answer?"
I hesitated for a minute. Should I do this? Could I do this? Could I bare and raise a child with Asami? I didn't know but I definitely knew my answer.
"Yes."
