So my room is 100% clean now! Well, except for the closet. I'm a little afraid to start cleaning in there because I feel like the mess in there's gonna spread to the rest of my room which I'm super OCD about keeping clean right now. LOL. Oh the irony! So...I know you probably don't care, but I had another weird dream last night. So I was in glee world apparantly (This happens often in my dreams) and I was hanging out with Mercedes and Kurt and I was "tired" so i was using Kurt's shoulder as a pillow (What? I was tired. Okay, so maybe it was just an excuse to cuddle with Kurt. Sue me.) So we were talking and stuff and then he's like "Oh my gosh." and i was like "what?" and he was like "i totally just realized something" and i was like "What?" and he's like "You're in love with me" and i was just thinking like "crap crap crap crap crap" but i kept denying it. He kept insisting that i was in love with him and he was like "you DO know I'm gay right" and then finally i was just like "fine. I'm in love with you. I'm not retarded though. I know nothing can hap-" and that's when he kissed me. LOL. Weird I know. But it's my dream and I can kiss gay guys if i want to. Hey, speaking of kurt, do you know that my laptop really seems to hate him because I have him and blaine with a bit heart around them as my wallpaper and i moved all the shortcuts so no one's face is covered, but my damn computer keeps moving them right to where kurt's face is so it covers it up, no matter how many times i move them. GRRRR.
Okay, that's really all I wanted to say. Oh, except that my computer got like 70 viruses from this one site where I was trying to read comics (they're kind of my thing right now. That and REVENGE. Wanna get some?) so everything got screwed up and i had to make like three differant accounts on my computer because it wouldnt' let me use the internet on this one so i could download an anti-virus thing. It's cool now though. Everything's back to normal.
Oh and I know I just had a TPOV chapter like three chapters ago, but this is pretty much a continuation of that one so I HAD to post it now otherwise the timeline's gonna get all screwed up. hahah i havent' had CPOV since chapter 10 which is a little sad though :( Oh well. I've already written the next chapter and it's CPOV
Tawni's POV
"Wh-what?" I stammered. I couldn't believe what I'd just heard. One minute I'd been thinking about how he was reacting exceptionally well to the news and the next, this?
"Tawni..." he began. "I-"
"But what about Lily?" I asked, willing myself not to cry.
"I'm sorry, Tawn, but-"
"But what?" I asked. "I'm not a little girl, Jamees. I may not remember the last ten years of my life, but that doesn't mean I'm not an adult. Think about it, James? Have I ever done anything to make you believe I'm not as mature as any other 26-year-old."
"No," he answered. "But, it just feels...wrong. Like I'm a child molester or something."
"Please don't do this," I begged him. "Lily needs you. I need you." James sighed.
"I'll have to think about it," he answered. "I still love you Tawni, but this definitely changes things." I opened my mouth to respond, but then closed it again. He said he'd think about it. I reminded myself. That's good enough for now.
"So does that mean you don't want me to come to your parents' house for Christmas?" I asked.
"No, you can still come," he answered. "Let's just take this thing one day at a time, okay?" I nodded.
"Okay."
Yes, it's short, but it's kinda important otherwise you'd just be left hanging from the other chapter FOREVER. Ooh ooh guess what? I have ANOTHER fictional crush. Wanna know who it's on? Well, too damn bad. I'm not going to tell you. Why? Because it's INSANITY! There is no rational explanation for this crush and it's actually making me start to question my saneness. haha, well actually I've been questioning it for a long time, but this is makes it even more likely that I'm actually insane. Feel free to guess who it is though. On the off chance you guess correctly, I may actually fess up and tell you guys who it is...
Well, that's all for today. TTFN. hahahahahahahah. jks jks. Peace out suckahs!
