Ok, so I've got the feeling that some of you want to kill me right now and I honestly have no excuse for why all my stories haven't been updated except the fact that I'm lazy so please forgive me and none of my other stories are going to be updated until this one is finished so please don't freak and think all the other ones are going to be updated. Again I am sorry. I'm going to finish this one and then work on them one at a time so it's going to be a while. See ya and enjoy!


Waking up the next morning, Akihito couldn't help but smile as Asami held him around his waist and his head rest on his. He breathed in deeply and nuzzled into Asami's chest. the arms around his waist tightened and Akihito looked up to golden suns.

"Ready?" Asami asked as he looked down at Akihito.

"Maybe." Akihito's heart was bouncing off the walls of his rib cage. He was so nervous and excited that he could barely contain himself. As if sensing that Akihito was ready to implod, Asami kissed his forehead and ruffled his hair.

"It'll be fine."

"I hope so." Asami smirked down at Akihito before pulling them both out of bed and to the bathroom to freshen up and head out.


In the car to the doctors, Akihito couldn't help fidget and feel restless. He didn't know what it was but he had this feeling that something wasn't right. He wasn't craving and he wasn't having mood swings like most people usually would, which to be honest he was thankful for because even he wouldn't be able to handle himself and he wondered how Asami would react. He also didn't want to know.

Asami could feel it too. This feeling in his gut that almost made him feel nervous. Asami looked over at his cute kitten and could see that he was agitated. Or he was just overly excited because he kept bouncing in his seat and wouldn't sit still.

It took all of 15 minutes to get to the hospital and they were waiting to be called in. Akihito couldn't help but notice that some for the other women in there where starring at them. At first he just assumed that they were starring at Asami seeing as how he was hard to miss, but when he really looked around he noticed they were staring at him not Asami. Looking around, he made eye contact with another women with a sad expression on her face.

Akihito smiled at her, thinking maybe she thought he was a bad relationship or something, so he smiled to show that he was alright and happy. The woman just gave him a sad smile before looking down at another kid who looked to more than 2 and was playing with the toys the waiting room had to offer. Asami didn't miss it. He looked down at Akihito who looked confused and shrugged before looking up when they were called in.

It the doctor 10 minutes to set while Akihito laid on the table as the doctor applied the cold lube to his stomach. Swirling around the device a picture came through.

"Hmm, he's smaller then I expected, then again it could just due to the fact that you are male. Let me just check something." The doctor turned a few nobs next to screen and then flipped a switch. His eyes widened and he looked back at Akihito with a sad expression.

"What? What's wrong?!" Akihito felt himself start to panic. Was something wrong with the baby?

"Takaba-san, how far along are you again?" Akihito was still slightly panicking and Asami answered for him.

"He's almost 8 weeks. Will be 8 weeks in two days. Is there something wrong with the baby?" Asami had the worst feeling coming.

"I was afraid you'd say that. Asami-sama, at this point I should be able to hear the heart beat, but there's nothing. I'm sorry." Akihito just stared at the doctor and couldn't believe what he was hearing. Asami felt it all make sense now. Akihito not having mood swings, no crazy carvings. He'd already lost the baby so his body wasn't forcing him to prepare for a life growing inside of him.

"He's been pregnant before, why did he lose the baby now?"

"How far along was he last time?"

"Maybe 2 or 3 weeks."

"That's why, we didn't know if his body could handle the pregnancy because he had the last child removed. But it is most likely he lost the baby because his body couldn't handle it. I am sorry Asami-sama, but it most likely that even with help, Takaba-san will not be able to conceive." Asami looked down at Akihito who just stared at the monitor where they could see what was left of their unborn child, silent tears began to run down his face and Asami bent down, hugging him around his shoulders.

He'd never show it but his heart was crying out for his boy. As he held him, Asami could feel Akihito tremble and shake as he cried in silence. The doctor turned off the monitor and cleaned up Akihito before leaving the both of them alone.


Ok, I know it's not as long as I'm sure you guys would like but this is the best I got for now and I owe you guys at least this much. Anyway I hoped thou liked it and please review! Thanks!