Hey guys, so I know that you all were a little sad about what happened in the last chapter if any of my PM's were an indication of it. Lets just say that I got some really nasty PM's after that and please guys I'm sorry and I'm working on it so hope you guys like this one and a few people asked me if I dropped my other stories and that's a no. I just want to finish this one before I move onto the other ones. Anyway enjoy!


Asami didn't go to that meeting the next day and Akihito didn't go out the day after that. Going home had been a complete daze and no matter what Akihito's tears kept falling unchecked. At home they both went to the bedroom where Asami held Akihito as his tears kept falling, replaying the same line the doctor had said, "He most likely never conceive if he's lost this one. I am sorry Asami-sama." When Asami had heard that his heart constricted to where it was almost hard to breathe. He and Akihito had been through a lot but nothing as terrible as this. Even Souh and Kirishma kept their distance when they heard what had happened and saw Akihito, and they couldn't blame the way they felt.

Asami went back to work a week later and had Akira look after Akihito to make sure he didn't do anything rash. Akihito never did try anything, though, which of course Asami was grateful for. At first he had been afraid that Akihito would fall into depression and try something crazy, but as time went on he started to give Akihito a little space. Akihito was still quiet though. Asami was too but he would give his silent support through brief touches or look he gave him. Akihito understood and would nod or give a small smile, but it was enough.

It was about a month after the miscarriage that Asami started to crack down to see what Akihito really felt, finally cornering him at dinner.

"Hey, Akihito?"

"Hmm?" Asami took a serious look at Akihito before continuing.

"Are you alright?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean with what happened and the baby." Akihito looked down and sighed before looking up and gave Asami a small smile.

"Ya, I'm alright really."

"You're sure?"

"Ya, I mean, it's a little depressing," Asami stiffened at that. "But when you think about it, we never actually met the baby, we didn't know the baby or who it was going to be. It's almost like mourning over someone you didn't even know, and I know this sounds mean, but it wasn't exactly a person yet so it's almost not so bad." Asami looked at Akihito in amazement. Now that he thought about it, Akihito was right. Ya they'd lost the baby, but it's not like the baby had been with them for years. Just a few short weeks.

"If this is the way you felt then why have you been so quiet?" Asami asked, honestly curious.

"Well, I guess you could say I was sulking, but I wasn't exactly depressed."

"Sulking? Sulking about what?"

"Just the fact that I can't have kids, even with help. And the fact I can't give you a family. Which reminds me, why can't I exactly?" Asami pailed slightly at the question, but seeing as Akihito was couping pretty well with everything decided to tell him.

"Well, the doctor said that your body just doesn't have the strength to carry such a heavy burden. You don't have the means to take a child."

"Are you serious?! After everything I've been through with Feilong, and those Russian assholes, whose names escape me at the moment-"

"Mikhail."

"Yes, him, plus with what I've been through in my work, you're telling me that even though I've been in life and death situations that my 'body' can't handle a break and be fat a lazy for 9 months? What the fuck kind of excuse is that!?"

"Apparetly, you've completely worn out your body that it can't even handle that. Or it just doesn't want to get fat." Asami smirked before dodgeing a roll aimed at his head with good accuacy.

"You damn, bastard! What's that supposed to mean!? You probably helped with that!"

"Now, how could I've helped with that, my cute kitten, Akihito?" Asami could see Akihito bristle and his face flush at his comment and chuckled with amusement, knowing what his kitten was going to say.

"You and your ways!"

"What do you mean my ways Akihito?"

"Ryuichi, you damn bastard, you know exactly what I mean!"

"I don't think I do Akihito. Maybe you can explain that to me in another way?" Asami said as he got up and started to walk around the table to Akihito. Akihito immedienty got what he ment and tried to make a run it for but Asami was quicker and grabbed Akihito around the waist before thrown over Asami's shoulder, him protesting all the way to the bedroom.

"You damn bastard! Ryuichi, this is not the time for this!"

"Is there ever a time for something like this?"

"Ryuichi! Put me down!" Asami ingnored all Akihito's protests and continued on his way to their bedroom. Getting the bedroom, Asami pulled Akihito over his shoulder and Akihito flopped onto the bed. Before Akihito could run, Asami got on top of Akihito and pursued to suffocate him. Akihito only fought for a moment before submitting to Asami. He just couldn't help it. Asami was and is the only person he'd ever even think of submitting to and even then he would only submit so much.

For the next hour Akihito was ravished by Asami and loved every minute of. Akihito hated the fact that he could not give Asami the family he knew he wanted. The way he acted when they found out that he could get pregnant was dead give away that Asami always wanted a family and at the time he was happy he could give him what his heart desired, but Akihito guessed that the possibility of that was over now. When he first found out in the beginning that he could never give Asami the family he so dearly wanted, he had been afraid that Asami would sulk and avoid him, but the brief touches and caring looks he got from him told him there was no chance of that and that Asami did care he just wanted to give Akihito his space to coup.

Worn out and exhausted, Akihito quickly fell asleep but Asami remained awake with a plan in motion. As easily as possible, Asami cleaned an area on Akihito's arm and gentlely stuck a needle into Akihito's arm, drawing some blood. Asami smirked and got up to wrap the blood he'd drawn and put into his brief case and cleaned the both of them up. Asami got back into bed with Akihito and held him tight nuzzling his hair.

"My dear Akihito, heh, you will never see this coming."


Ooh! What is Asami up to!? Anyway, the next chapter should be easier for to write so keep you eyes open and ready for it because it will be up soon! Anyway see ya peeps and I love you guys!