(I should warn you guys, I havent watched bleach in years. I dont think I will get everything that happened during this arc accurate. I wont even try to. Hope you can enjoy the story anyway.)

Chapter 3: Grimmjow

I am currently sitting in my room clutching my pillow. It was hard finding my own room. I waited for someone to come for me after Ulquiorra left but no one did. That was strange. Usually I am never by myself. In a way I feel somewhat disappointed. I guess maybe I should have kept myself... to myself. Maybe he thought I wasnt worth watching anymore because I... Because I am disgusting.

But I barely did anything. He cant really know me...

Maybe someone like me isnt worth anything to anyone. Maybe someone like me makes even monsters sick. I get up and look at the crescent moon through my window and... well, at least they still think I am worth something. I will always have them, my friends.

Ichigo.

I gently place my hand on my heart and smile. Then my thoughts darkly twist again. I am going to use Ulquiorra. How dare he think of me as less of a person. He is a murderer. A monster. He cant judge me like this.

Maybe I am overreacting? It doesnt matter.

I will find a way to do it. Ill will learn more about the people here. Maybe if I ask nicely enough someone will consider talking to me.

My stomach growls. I think I am going to have to find my own food today. It might even be a good opportunity.

So I get up and push my door open. Its strange that it isnt locked. I am not going to contemplate what that means. I need to find a place to eat. Do they even eat here? I wonder the halls for a while before I run into a familiar face. I am almost happy that its him.

That blue haired man is called Grimmjow I think. He is a wild kind of handsome. The kind that makes you want to lick the sweat off his chest. Doesnt this guy hate Ulquiorra? My eyes run from his face down to his toes and back up again... he is really attractive.

He soon notices me as I draw in a bit closer. He talks to me in that harsh gangster like way he has about him with a wry smirk playing on his lips.

"Hey there princess, who let you out of your cage?"

I stop instantly taking on the persona of a small animal confronting a larger beast.

"H-hello I.. I am hungry. Could you help me please?"

He lifts a brow.

"Why would I do that?"

Gently I ask something different.

"I dont know where I am.. Could you point the way please..."

He turns and sighs deeply.

"Nah, you would definitely get lost. You really shouldn't even be walking around here by yourself. Tch, not that I care but... Heh. Whatever..."

Then he started walking away. It was a slow walk, a motion that I could easily keep up with. Its obvious he wants me to fallow him. This guy is kinder than he looks. So I walked with him a bit. Something about his saunter makes me think he has something to say. I am not wrong, he eventually begins talking again.

"You should hate everyone here. But here you are wondering the halls of your own will, talking to a creature like me. I can only guess something about you has changed or..." He turns his head over his shoulder and says with a vicious grin "Or you were never what you looked to be in the first place."

I think my heart stopped. There is no way this guy is that perceptive. We had only spoken for a few moments. I didn't reveal anything. I know I didn't. He turns away and laughs before continuing.

"The look on your face says I hit some kind of mark. I wonder which one it was. Well... I guess It doesn't matter and I dont really care. I do know where they keep the food in this place. I guess Ill feed ya. Its not like I have anything better to do right now anyway."

We walk the rest of the way in silence.

When we got there I didn't expect Grimmjow to stay with me as I ate. He sat across from me with his chin resting on his hand. His gaze looking off into nowhere. I studied the shape of his eyes and the line of his jaw. He is really handsome. Like a breath of fresh air? A cool breeze. Eventually his eyes turn to mine. They seem curious.

"What are ya staring at me for?"

Before I can think to stop myself I say "You are very handsome."

He lifts his chin off his hand and faces me. His eyes are wide and surprised.

"Really huh? That's nice to know I guess."

After a moment he breaks into a large smile then reaches over and grabs an apple off my plate.

"You are a weird woman you know that?"

As I watch him slowly chew the apple a question bubbles up from my thoughts.

"You can eat food?"

He laughs a bit before answering me with some snark in his tone.

"Yea, I can eat. Doesnt do anything for me but I can eat."

He then stiffens and his face becomes more vicious as he looks at something coming down the hall.

"Whats the matter?" I ask.

Soon I hear foot steps. It was Ulquiorra. He continued forward past me. He said nothing. Completely ignoring me as he passes and disappears around the corner.

"Bastard." I heard Grimmjow say in a low growl.

I look at the empty air he left behind and I began to feel offended myself. Its odd for me to feel this way. I begin tapping my fingers on the table and think...

"I am going to eat him alive."

Very slowly Grimmjow looks at me. I realize that I must have said that out loud. I wonder what he must be thinking? I see his face break into that smile again, the cruel kind full of teeth. He reaches his hand forward and pokes my forehead.

"You know what woman? You have the eyes of a predator."

I blink and realize something else. My act fell again. I suddenly get really scared and I dont know why. I shouldn't be. Maybe its because something about this guy is honest. It could be because something about him is familiar. It shouldn't be that way though. I have only been around him for a short time. He must think I am disgusting. Nothing he thinks should matter. I dont know him. But still I... for some reason I...

"What are you so afraid of?" he asks - his eyes taking on a taunting gleam.

"I... I..."

He snorts and continues,"I dont think should worry about anything but yourself woman. Ill let you in on a little secret..."

He backs away and gets comfortable.

"I do not care."

Suddenly, I felt very warm. I do not know why. I notice him waiting for me to say something. Gently I begin to talk again.

"Its just that... I have always been a freak. People like me? Where I come from go on some kind of list. They get singled out. They are disgusting. They cant have friends, no one loves them. People are afraid of them."

I want to cry but I dont because when I look at his face it appears bored. It could be because he is a monster but, I think its more like this is just how he is. Something about that makes me happy.

"Tch, who cares about that shit. You should just do what you want. You wana kill people or something? You the fighting type? I would take you on but you dont look like much."

I become confused then I start laughing. Its a genuine laugh. I havent felt this way in a long time.

"No. I am just a pervert."

His face turns and twists into many different expressions then he starts laughing with me. Its a powerful laugh, a crazed laugh, an honest laugh. After some time he gets up and starts walking. I have to quickly get up so I am not left behind. This walk is more comfortable than the last and after some time he says something random and teasing.

"So you want to 'eat' Ulquiorra huh? Cant say you have good taste in men. I doubt he would be interested. "

I feel my face heat up. I forgot he heard that. I am so embarrassed. I think of a million excuses but I decide to be honest instead.

"I dont care if he is interested or not."

Grimmjow stops, it is then I realize he walked me back to my room. I look back at him and he appears normal. Unchanged.

"You and me woman, in a way we arnt so different." He says before leaving me.

I open the door and walk back to my bed and think that tomorrow, I will try and get the layout of this palace down. I have to deal with Ulquiorra my way. I have seen the way Grimmjow deals with his lust for battle. He seems happy and self assured. Maybe its wrong to use a murderer as an example. But I... what am I trying to prove in a place like this? Grimmjow is right, I should just do what I want.

Maybe I can be happy to?