Hey. Heh. So, um...this is awkward. Anyone still out there? I don't blame you if there isn't. It's been nearly a year after all. I just have to post this note to say I'm sorry. Not only have I completely abandoned you guys, but I've abandoned completely for the past few months. Then the other day I decided to log in, just for old time's sake and I saw I had a message from Linzy 33 asking me when I was planning on updating The Sonny Diaries Part IV. I had decided a long time ago that I was done with it and that I wasn't writing any more, but this message made me start thinking. I've just spent the last five hours rereading my entire Sonny Diaries series and I've come to the decision that I'm going to try. I make no promises that there will be any more chapters, but I wanted you to know that I'm trying. I've always felt really guilty about abandoning you guys for the Harry Potter fandom (and hen sort of abandoning them because I've been away from my marauder's fanfic for awhile now.) so maybe I was always meant to finish this story. Not that I'm really a big believer in God or destiny, but who knows.
Since it's been so long, I feel like I should tell you what's up in my life. Well, obviously I'm 18 years old now, so I'm officially an adult. I guess I've probably matured some, but I'm still a crazy fuck so don't worry about that. I finally got my G1 driver's license a few days after my 18th birthday (What? You guys know I'm a procrastinator) which is good news. Now for the bad: thanks to the massive number of classes I've missed thanks to sleeping problems, I've been kicked out of school. But perhaps it's a blessing in disguise. This way I can start online classes in the fall and since I won't be missing any classes, I can get the good grades I know I'm capable of getting. I'm still unemployed, still in love with Glee, Harry Potter, and Team Starkid (How bout that Holy Musical B man, huh? Pretty damn funny!) I've also discovered a few new obsessions like Lost and Heroes. I started cutting again for awhile, but I'm done with that now. It's been almost six months and I don't even really want to anymore and on the rare occasions when I do, I have the self-control not to.
I'm also finally able to stop denying something that I think I've known deep down for a long time now—I'm bisexual. It feels good to finally stop lying to myself and just be me. Unfortunately, I know have the problem of lying to everybody else (except my best friend who's the only person I've come out to.) If I do start writing again, I want to be completely open with you guys though, so if you have a problem with it, you can leave right fucking now because I won't put up with any homophobia in your reviews.
Hmm...what else is going on in my life? Umm...I'm still single, still bipolar, still in love with way to many celebrities, although I've added a few new people to my list of hotties like Milo Ventimiglia and about two dozen girls, like Emma Watson and Naya Rivera, to name just a few. I've pretty much stopped watching Disney Channel for the most part, especially since Wizards is over now, although I did check out that Jessie episode guest starring JOEY FREAKIN RICHTER of Team Starkid (you may know him by the name Ron Weasley or Bug) I haven't forgotten Sonny With a Chance though...okay, I'm lying, but I did catch Falling For the Falls Part 2 the other week. My mom called me downstairs when she saw it was one. It's one of her personal favourites. I haven't been able to stomach more than one episode of So Random though. It just seems so wrong. Although when I did see a little bit once when I turned on the TV and WOW. Zora looks so grown up, Chad still looks amazing and gorgous, Grady looks so different, I barely recognized him, and I have no idea who the fuck those other random people are. *Sigh* why must everything change?
Well, this author's note is almost a page long now, so I guess I'll say goodbye. I'll let you know as soon as I can whether or not I've been able to squeeze a chapter out of that crazy brain of mine, hopefully within the week. Thank you for all the support you guys have given me in the past and, even though I know I don't deserve it, I hope there's still a few of you out there who haven't given up on this story because, despite what I used to think, I haven't.
Peace out suckahs.
You have no idea how good it feels to say that again. :')
