"I've been living in darkness. Not just physically, but emotionally, too. I guess I managed to convince myself that nobody would ever want me because of my blindness."

"It's alright," James coaxed. He held Logan in his arms now. "You can move on from it all now."

"You…you really care about me, don't you?" Logan dared to verify.

"Yes. Yes I do."

"Why?"

"Because you're amazing and you deserve someone to love you."

"Oh…I see…can I ask you a weird question?"

"Sure, anything."

Logan put his lips up to James's ear and tenderly whispered, "How do two men have sex?"

James got red in the face. He cleared his throat and said, "Uh, haha, let's not talk about this on the floor, okay?"

"Um, okay."

Logan stood up awkwardly and teetered over to his bed. "What about here?" he asked way too innocently. James continued to blush, but agreed and sat on the bed with him. He took Logan's hand.

"See, when two men love each other or whatever, the one guy, well…he puts his penis inside the other guy's butt."

"His butt?!" Logan gasped. "I don't know if I want anything in my butt. You mean…you'd put…"

"What about your penis inside a butt?"

"I don't know. I just…I don't know. I mean, I don't even know how a man and a woman exactly do it. I've never seen that stuff."

"No worries," James said. He hooked an arm around Logan's waist and smiled. "Relationships are new to you. You'll want some kind of sex eventually."

"I guess."

"Do you still want to kiss me?"

"Ye...yeah."

James brought both of his hands around to Logan's face and cupped his cheeks. He closed his eyes and leaned into his lips. This time, it was going to be more passionate. James opened his mouth slightly and touched the tip of his tongue to Logan's bottom lip. Logan made a tiny whine.

"Is this okay?" James whispered.

"Yeah."

Cautiously, Logan raised his hands up along James's chest, touching over his muscles as he went, and stopped near his shoulders. He held onto him delicately and tried his best to return the kiss. Their lips pressed and smacked together. James didn't want to entirely overwhelm him, but he clearly had to take the lead. He pushed Logan onto his back and straddled his waist. The blind boy gasped and giggled, clinging to James's hard shoulders. The kiss was broken off and James nuzzled Logan's nose. Just a whisper length away, James said, "You know, you're really beautiful."

"I am?" Logan asked in a shy, hushed tone.

"Yeah," James whispered back. "Really…really beautiful."

Logan ran his hands up James's neck and to his face. He stroked his cheeks and touched him tenderly all over.

"Your face," Logan said. "Feels soft and nice, but your body is firm and strong. I wish I could see what you look like, because it feels amazing."

"I wish you could see, too."

James dipped down to Logan's neck and kissed him there. Logan let out a small cry and a sharp gasp.

"You okay?" The taller guy asked.

"Ahh…my…" Logan laughed nervously. "Um…"

"What is it?"

"Er. My penis."

"What about it?"

"It's hard."

"That's okay. So is mine."

"Can we stop?"

"Yeah, okay." James climbed off of Logan and lay down on the bed beside him. "It's okay for your penis to be hard. Have you ever masturbated?"

"What is that?"

"Hahaha uh, it's when you touch yourself," James said awkwardly.

"I don't understand."

"Oh wow, um," James looked over at Logan and cleared his throat. Logan had really gone that long without ever wondering about his penis? It seemed remarkable, almost impossible to James; like most guys, he started exploring his body and sexuality at a young age. Masturbating was a regular thing for more than half of his life. Part of him thought it was strange that Logan was so non-sexual, but it was also endearing. He was so innocent. More innocent than anybody James had ever known.

"What is masturbate…ing?"

"It's when you have an orgasm on your own."

"Have an orgasm?"

"Yeah, climax, cum. Um. Not sure how to explain this."

Logan rolled over and put an arm around James's broad chest. His face was all scrunched up with wonder. "I don't know what you're talking about."

"Okay, uh, okay, so," James sighed once to prepare for Logan's sex ed lesson. "When a man gets turned on, his penis gets hard. That's so he had put it inside a woman, biologically speaking. Then he has sex with her until he has an orgasm; that's when his sperm comes out of his penis. That's how she can get pregnant. If you're gay, then sperm is just something fun to play with."

"That's so gross. I have sperms in me?"

"It's not gross. And yeah, you do. They're in your balls. If you jerk your penis off enough, it'll get better feeling and you'll move faster and faster until the sperm shoots out."

"No way! That's so weird!" Logan couldn't help but laugh. "I had no idea."

"Most guys start getting boners when they're like, 11 or 12. Then they figure it out. You've never had a boner?"

"Boner?"

"When it gets hard."

"No. But I do now. It's weird. I want it to go away."

"Awww don't say that, boners are great."

"I don't want to talk about it."

"Okay, that's fine. Are you okay?"

"I guess so."

Logan was starting to sound a little sad, maybe even uncomfortable.

"Can I do anything to help?" James asked.

"No. I dunno. I guess sex is just a really weird and new thing for me. I feel a kinda awkward talking about it."

"It's alright, Logan. At first, everyone feels awkward. I've had enough sex that it's just normal for me."

"You have? A lot of sex?" Logan asked with a hint of upset in his voice.

"Yeah. Okay not like tons or anything, but you know. I've had boyfriends. I had sex with my last most recent ex a couple times a day sometimes."

"Woah. What is it like?

James propped his head up on his hand and looked at Logan, smiling. "Well he would give it to me. And it's pretty amazing."

"Do you…" Logan sounded real shy all of the sudden. He nuzzled his face against James's chest, kind of hiding against him. "Do you want to give it to me?"

"You want the honest answer?"

"Uh huh."

"Yeah, I do. I really do. But I don't want to force you into anything. I mean, if you never want to have sex I'll be cool with it."

"Ohhhh."

James touched the back of Logan's head and petted him gently.

"James?"

"Yeah?"

"I want you to live with me."