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I'm here to reclaim my seat in the Army! As third seat to the Sixth squad!

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'Where is he?' that thought rung in her mind over and over again, never letting free her worries and fears that as of late were starting to make her hesitant.

Rukia felt the winter wind blow her black winter coat, pulling her hair teasingly as she spotted a dot of white hair, her fears instantly put at ease. Unconsciously the young woman felt the silver band on her third left finger and a smile form on her face.

"Toushiro I thought you weren't going to come today"

"Rukia I have something to tell you"

"What is it?" the man before her, her co-worker, her long time friend and now her fiancée; Hitsugaya Toushiro.

The feeling of her hand being pulled to him was unconscious, a form of affection they would give to each other in secret; but- the cold feeling of metal on her warm palm was unfamiliar.

"What?"

"I'm sorry, I can't marry you" looking down in her palm his half of their pair of silver wedding bands lay unforgiving. untouched and unwanted.

"W-wha"

"We can't be together Rukia…I'm sorry" turning until his back faded from her sight, the emblem on his jacket of his favorite number Ten burned in her mind; as she fell to the ground onto her knees, looking at the ring in her hand and the one she wore.

Rukia cried.

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Her steps were clouded and unfamiliar. Vague images of people and places passed her eyes, flashes and sounds running through her head; Rukia didn't notice them.

Nothing. She felt nothing. Even as she stood in her room in her small apartment, she couldn't feel the bed under her, the cool wind as it pasted her open window, she felt numb. And only the weight of her ring in her palm reminded her why she couldn't feel.

Middle school- the day they first met. In art class none the less, Rukia picked up her pencil and started to draw the one thing in the world she loved more than anything else. Bunnies. Millions and millions of tiny white creatures, big ears, fluffy cotton tails, large carrots and her in the middle with bunny ears herself.

It was when he came over, reaching for a paint brush.

"Wow"

"Hmm? Oh you like! They're bunnies!"

"…they suck"

"What!" turning around to glare at the young boy, he in turned walked away.

Second year in middle school- they met again in gym. Today was running and Rukia was at the head of the group, on her last lap when another person came up from behind her.

"Where did you come from!"

"I come from Japan"

"That's not what I mean, how could you-"

"Instead of talking to me why not run faster bunny girl" and with that he beat her in the mile race. Taking her breath.

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The beginning of high school- once more they met, in English class, surrounded by friends and new faces; he was nonchalant to it all and this time, Rukia was the one to come over.

"I thought you moved away"

"I'm here aren't I? bunny girl"

"That's not my name you know"

"Yeah I know"

"Why keep calling me that? You have a thing against bunnies?" her voice hard, if he did not like her favorite animals in the world, she'd do a thing or two to change his mind!

"No"

"Then call me by my name" looking up at the girl from the place he was resting his head on the desk, green orbs clashed with purple

"….Kuchiki Rukia" with that he exited the classroom, leaving Rukia to watch his back.

Second year in high school- Rukia cursed herself in seeing once more, as a classmate the same boy was in one of her classes. Since she met him he was mean to her, talked little and if he did he just called her bunny girl- she didn't even have a nickname for him to backtalk with.

"…Shiro"

"What?"

"Shiro, that's what I'll call you from now on" getting up from his seat the white haired boy looked at Rukia, she stood her ground

"And where did this come from"

"Bunny girl"

"Ah so you think it's revenge?"

"Maybe" shrugging her thin shoulders, Rukia smiled at the boy as she returned to her seat seeing as how class was going to start soon, "it gets the same reaction, why not call it revenge"

This time it was Hitsugaya Toushiro to stare.

Third year in high school- it was time to end this mouse and cat game, once and for all.

"You want to go out with me don't you"

"Excuse me?" purple eyes widen and stared at the voice that had interrupted her research project,

"These five years, since seventh grade"

"What makes you think I want to go out with you Shiro-chan?" adding the last part as a sign of knowing how it pissed him off.

"What have you done to make me think you don't want to go out with me bunny girl" smirking at the raven haired female still sitting at her computer, all of the library lively with teens. Leaving them to talk alone, of sorts.

"Fine, tomorrow at seven at the movies"

"What ever you say" smirking Toushiro left as Rukia went back to her work, each one with a smile on their face.

Fourth year of high school- and it was time to say goodbye.

"So this is it huh"

"Yeah"

"Where are you going?"

"Some college overseas"

"…I see" hugging Toushiro, Rukia didn't want this year to end. She didn't want to say goodbye, that last word, that final farewell.

"I'll come back to Japan, I'll come back to you Rukia"

"When you do…."

"Yeah" smiling down at his raven haired love, Toushiro kissed her gently on the lips; lovingly and caring, unlike his social self.

"I'll marry you"

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Years pasted and life moved on, when she felt it had gone on too long he came back. Toushiro found her and their love rekindled, years on they dated, loved and finally he proposed.

They would be husband and wife, but now-

"Toushiro…." clutching her wedding band, Rukia ran out of her room, out of her apartment and away from it all; she ran, and ran only to the one person she loved. She tripped, she pushed and pulled through the crowds- the people, Rukia kept her heart soaring to the only person, she prayed could hear her.

And hear her he did. Toushiro ran, ran from his apartment and from the fear of marriage, that stupid and useless fear that ate away at him and made him throw the only woman he's ever loved- away.

The white haired man ran through the cold, through the cars and the roads, only to the one person he wanted to himself. The woman he wanted to live with all his life, he cursed at himself for his stupidity; the fear of closure. He gave her up for that fear, he gave Rukia up.

Toushiro ran pushing past his limit, past the tears that ran down his face; and to the park.

She waited and waited, standing there in the dark of night- bracing the cold wintry air; for nothing. He wasn't there. He wasn't here, where they had went on their first date. Rukia held herself, and cried.

He found it, the place they had met just hours ago…..nothing. She wasn't here. Toushiro screamed her name, pleaded for her to come out; but a shine in the grass stopped him. Slowly he picked it up….his ring.

Taking off her glove, looking at the gleam of her silver wedding band; Rukia clenched her eyes shut- unable to bear witness. Slowly and gently began to take it off.

Sitting on his knees, clutching his silver band tears in his green orbs, Toushiro cried.

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Me- did this make sense in the way I wrote it all? Please tell me your thoughts!

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