Inuyasha's Servitude

by tmnt1234

Inuyasha has been a slave to his brother for 190 years since the death of Lady Izayoi. He was also cursed with obedience just hours after he was born. Broken and abused, he meets his brother's intended bride-to-be Kagome and is immediately in love with her on sight. Can the two lovers hide their relationship from the lord of the west and free Inuyasha, or will he become Naraku's?

3. Chapter 3:Inuyasha's True Feelings

Chapter 3:Inuyasha's true feelings

Inuyasha's POV
I made it back to my bed chamber, tired and weak. My bed chamber was the tallest tower of the castle, broken down and old with nothing but an old bed and a tattered pillow and thin blanket that hardly ever kept me warm during the cold months. This has been my room for 190 years now, and I have grown used to it. My spirit was beginning to break more after tonight. I have tried to please my brother to the best of my abilities. I was my brother's living puppet.
I was controlled like one for hours everyday, and I still would carry a smile on my face from time to time...only because I was ordered to. My emotions were not even my own half the time. Often, Sesshomaru would command me to smile or be happy when other lords came calling. I hate it! Even my emotions have to be obedient!
They might as well be, for if I could release my true emotions, they would not be so pleasant! Hour after hour, day after day, I was always serving the one person I despised. I don't want to! I've never wanted to! I remember some years ago, 5 or 6 to be exact, I finally told my brother that I would work my hands raw for him and bow before him and would become his personal puppet slave if only he would give me my will to control my own emotions! Even if it meant I would have to act like a puppet! And I have! I was no longer a person in brother's eyes. I was nothing more than an object that practically had no rights or feelings!
If you want to know my feelings, here they are! I hate being treated this way! I want to be happy and free! I want to love! I don't want to be a slave anymore, but I know I will never be free! I might as well tie strings to me and hand them to my brother, because then I wouldn't have to worry about my emotions and my brother could control me and force me to perform even more humiliating tasks.
When I'm forced to perform for him, I can't hold in my tears anymore! He makes me do just about anything you can think of, from patting my head and rubbing my tummy at the same time to being his footstool! I was humiliated beyond measure simply for his entertainment and amusement. My tears were his inspiration. I work without reprieve! Toil without reward! My sadness has gone unseen. I was simply a puppet who wanted to fight the control of the puppet master, but couldn't. I am treated like someone who does not feel, or have thoughts. I wish nothing more than to be free.
It was always the same:Me toiling for hours and obeying my brother's every command. I could no longer deny that I have cried more than enough times to know that my spirit is finally broken. I will continue to serve my brother and I will no longer try to fight his control, for what good will it do? I am simply a puppet that's useful for nothing but hard labor and hours of personal servitude in my brother's bed chambers. I am good for nothing but misery and humiliation. I will no longer fight this anymore. I will be obedient and serve my brother and his new bride without question or complaint. My heart is theirs to control. (Insert Inuyasha sobbing here)