-Earlier that morning-
As soon as Martha and Jack left them alone, Ian took the seat next to the bed. He didn't speak to the Doctor as he pulled the pencil out of behind his ear and started to write on the clipboard. The Doctor remained hidden under the blanket as he listened to the scratching of the pencil on paper. Eventually, his curiosity got the best of him and he poked his head out to stare at Ian. Ian continued to ignore him as he flipped the page over.
"Aren't you going to try to ask my questions?" The Doctor wondered.
"Nope," Ian answered continuing to stare at his paper. "Daniel informed me how you liked to sleep during his sessions so I figured I would use this hour to get work for other patients done."
"Don't you dare try to play games with me Dannyboy. A toddler could see through your reverse psychology attempt," The Doctor informed him angrily.
"While I realize Daniel has the same letters in it as my name, my name is Ian not Dannyboy. Also, I'm not trying to play games with you. Regardless of whether or not you talk to me, I get paid to be here. So it would actually help me if you chose to sleep during the hour I am here so that I can get caught up on my work," Ian replied still not looking up. The Doctor glared at Ian, as he threw the blankets back he stood up grabbing his trousers and pulling them on. He headed towards the door, placing his hand on the handle he stared at Ian.
"Aren't you going to try to stop me?" The Doctor wondered why Ian didn't seem to care that he was trying to leave the room unaccompanied.
"I wasn't aware you needed someone to hold your hand to leave your room. Don't worry the nurses are out there and they can keep an eye on you," Ian told him on purposely trying to provoke him. It worked as the Doctor bristled with anger.
"I don't need a babysitter, nor do I need someone to hold my hand to get a cup of tea," he seethed. Ian looked up at him with a small smile.
"Why didn't you say you were just going for tea? I take mine with two sugar and no cream," Ian responded. The Doctor didn't respond as he went out the door to his room. Almost immediately Megan was near his side watching him. He recognized Adam from the night time shift still sitting at the front desk.
"Do you need anything Doctor?" Megan asked him softly.
"No," he replied going to the small kitchen that he and Jack used. With Megan watching, he took his time to make himself a proper cup of tea. Taking down a second cup, he added just enough water to get the tea wet. He then let it soak for less than a minute before filling the cup to the brim with milk. Picking up the two cups, he returned to his room handing Ian the cup filled with milk. Ian took one look at it and sat it aside.
"I think I will drink that later," Ian smiled.
"Suit yourself." Sitting down on his bed, the Doctor took a drink of his own tea enjoying the feel of the hot liquid. He glanced towards the clock wondering how soon it was until Jack returned and was happy to realize he only had a short time left that he was going to be stuck with Ian. Ian glanced at the clock as well, then turned to the Doctor.
"Well, I guess if you aren't going to sleep than we might as well talk. Why don't you tell me something about yourself," Ian suggested. The Doctor sucked in his lips, making them as narrow as possible while he continued to stare at Ian. "Alright, I will go first then."
"I don't care," The Doctor interrupted him before he could say anything about himself.
"Well then what do you want to talk about?" Ian questioned him pleasantly.
"I don't want to talk to you," The Doctor hissed angrily.
"Be that as it may, we are going to get nowhere with your sessions if the two of us can't have a civil conversation,"Ian told him. "Now your hour is almost up, do you have anything else that you want to discuss before I leave for the day?"
"I'm not telling you anything Danny," The Doctor seethed not liking that he was unable to provoke Ian. If he was honest with himself, though, he liked Ian. Ian didn't pretend that he actually cared what the Doctor thought. Nor did he seem in awe about who he was. He wondered if Ian had been forced to read his files like Daniel. Martha didn't mention it and he didn't care enough to ask her.
"And I told you my name is Ian," Ian argued him.
"I don't care what your name is, as long as you are in this room I am going to call you Dannyboy," The Doctor stated stubbornly, the anger clear in his voice. He glared at Ian as he finally got up heading out of the room. He didn't listen to what was being said in the hall but was happy to see that when the door opened again, it was Jack who came in. He moved to the chair, picking up his tea as he moved. He watched Jack flop back on his bed staring up at the ceiling in surprise that he liked Ian, though he didn't question why.
"I spoke with Martha and told her what happened this morning between us," Jack advised the Doctor. He didn't need to look at the Doctor to know that the happiness he was feeling as he drank his tea had vanished.
"Let me guess, she told you not to have sex with me," the Doctor responded. He didn't add because he was tainted but the tone implied it. Jack sighed wondering how long the Doctor would believe he was tainted for. He hoped silently every day that the test would continue to be clear that Martha ran on his blood. If even one came back positive, it would prove to the Doctor that he was tainted and he would never forgive himself.
"Actually, she told me the opposite. She advised me that you are able to have a healthy sexual relationship with me if we both consent to the relationship," Jack advised him.
"Do you consent?" The Doctor questioned him hesitantly worried about what Jack's answer would be.
"I'm not sure at the moment Doc. I would love more than anything to have a relationship with you, but this morning I felt coerced into having sex," Jack admitted. He looked up as the Doctor huffed.
"I didn't coerce you," The Doctor scoffed. Jack sat up glaring at him.
"No, you don't get to make that decision. If I tell you I felt coerced, you don't get to just dismiss me in order to make youself feel better. Do you understand?" Jack snapped angrily. The Doctor nodded before hanging his head to stare at the ground. "Now I am willing to forget about this morning, but first I need to understand why you are suddenly interested in having sex with me when you never seemed interested before."
"I was interested before but I couldn't," The Doctor admitted. Jack sat there waiting for the Doctor to go on.
"Why not?" Jack wondered when the Doctor didn't speak again.
"Because if there is one thing I have learned in my 900 years about sex is that it isn't supposed to be pleasurable. As children, we are taught that sex is used for procreation among lesser species who haven't learned how to loom. Since then sex has only been used as a goodbye, a show of force, humiliation or payment," the Doctor admitted. It broke Jack's heart to hear the words and he could hear in the Doctor's tone that he really believed what he was saying. "Then I met you. You seemed to really enjoy sex and I tried to dismiss you because your just a human after all but even after the year on the valiant you still enjoyed it."
"I do," Jack agreed. While what happened on the Valiant had tainted his enjoyment for awhile, it didn't ruin it completely. He was able to move past the year with Ianto's help. Ianto never judged him or questioned why he was no longer allowed to be on top. The Doctor wouldn't have sought that same comfort and knowing Donna he would have been castrated for trying.
"I wanted to know what that was like," The Doctor whispered. After everything he put his body through, he wanted to know what it would feel like to have sex with someone who wasn't trying to hurt him, use his body as a payment or leave him. He thought Jack wanted the same but now he wasn't sure.
"Come here," Jack told him holding his arms open. The Doctor stood up, moving to sit on the bed with Jack. Jack wrapped his arms around the Time Lord holding him close. He kissed him on the side of the head then leaned their heads together. "I love you and I will make love to you if that is what you really want."
"It is," The Doctor admitted his face red. Jack kissed him again. Turning the Doctor's chin with his hand he ran his hand down the Doctor's stomach towards his groin. He paused with his hand on the Doctor's abdomen as he realized he should have asked Martha for condoms. Kicking himself mentally, he instead set himself to kissing the Time Lord breathless.
