A/N: This story has no Beta. All spelling errors and mistakes are my own.
Edward is an idiot!
Edward POV
The passenger door opened then, but I didn't turn to see who it was.
"Edward?" Bella breathed.
What the fuck? My stomach churned as I turned to face her, "Yeah?"
She leaned her head back against the headrest and sighed, "I don't think I can do this anymore."
I sighed and stared out at the parking lot, "I don't think I can either."
Wait...what were we even talking about?
"I want you to stay away from me, Edward." She turned to face me, her face free from any expression.
"What?" She couldn't be serious.
"I want you to stay away from me." She repeated, "I can't keep putting myself in a situation where your words are more harm than good."
I exhaled, leaning back, "Bella...I...I tried to apologise."
"Yeah, and I didn't accept it." She nodded, "You didn't care then, so why care now?" She cocked a brow, challenging me.
I was at a loss for words.
"Just what I thought." She whispered sadly.
"Well, you need to stay away from Alice then." I pointed out. My words were harsher than they were meant to be.
"Why?"
"They were my friends first." Okay that sounded petty and immature. But she couldn't have it both ways.
Bella rolled her eyes, opening the car door, "Whatever." She got out, slamming the door behind her and stormed back into school.
I took a deep calming breath and stepped out of the car. If she wanted me to stay away from her, then that was fine by me.
You fucking liar, Cullen.
No, I could do it. I could stay away from her. It would kill me, but I could do it.
I pushed open the door to the gym and smirked, spotting Jane.
"Babe!" I shouted.
Her head whipped round and a smile graced her lips. She walked over to me, placing her hands on my chest, "Hey."
"Wanna get out of here?" I asked, tucking her hair behind her ear.
She blushed and nodded, "Of course."
I grabbed her hand and pulled her along side of me to the car. I shut her door and walked to the driver's side.
"Where are we going?" She asked, putting on her seatbelt.
I turned and forced a smile, "The beach."
Jane squealed with delight and the sound made my stomach twist.
Break up with her.
I tightened my grip on the steering wheel and stared out at the road as I drove. She was my distraction. And she would remain as my distraction until I saw fit.
The drive to the beach went by quicker than I thought, probably because Jane was quiet.
I parked the car and got out, walked round to her side and opened the door for her.
"Thanks." She smiled, taking my hand.
Her hand was ice cold, and slightly sweaty. I grimaced and turned toward the promenade.
"What made you want to come here?" Jane asked, slipping her shoes off so she could walk in the sand.
I shrugged, wrapping my arms around her, "So I could be with you." I breathed, nipping at the skin on her neck.
She moaned softly and smiled, "Okay."
I smiled against her skin, "Okay."
We walked along the beach, silent. We didn't break breath to each other and it was nice. I didn't have to hear her voice or make conversation with her.
Thank God.
I stopped when I spotted my little hideout. My hideout where I took Bella. It was located under the pier, barely noticeable to people unless they were really looking for it.
"What's wrong?" Jane asked, frowning.
I shook my head, "Nothing." I led Jane under the pier and over the rocks, into my hideout.
Smart move, jackass.
Well, it's not like I'd be bringing Bella back here anytime soon, will I?
I sat down on the sand and smiled, patting the space next to me.
Jane grinned, but sat on my lap, wrapping her legs around my waist, "This is nice." She commented.
I leaned my forehead on her shoulder and sighed, "Yeah." I lied.
I tried my best to drown out the thoughts of Bella, but I couldn't. It was like an incessant nagging in my head.
Bella. Bella. Bella.
I grabbed Jane's chin, staring into her blue eyes.
Her breathing hitched and she dug her nails into the back of my neck. She kissed me then, forcing her tongue into my mouth.
It felt wrong. So fucking wrong.
I kissed her back, imagining Bella's lips on mine. Her skin against mine. Fuck.
"Edward." She breathed, tugging at my hair.
I moved my kisses to her neck, nipping at her collarbone. Her grip tightened on my hair as she started grinding against me.
Bella. Bella. Bella.
My hands moved down her back as she moaned against my neck.
"Please." She breathed into my ear.
I groaned quietly, my hands creeping up under her top before I eventually lifted it over her head. My kisses moved to her mouth. Hot, passionate kisses. She tugged at the bottom of my shirt, and I lifted my hands above my head allowing her to take it off before my lips found hers again.
I could feel my jeans getting tighter as she continued to grind me.
"Fuck." I hissed, guiding her to the sand. I towered above her, placing soft kisses down her chest.
She squirmed underneath me, her hands searching for mine. I lifted her hands above her head, holding them in place as I assaulted her body with sweet, hot kisses.
"Bella." I breathed against her skin.
"Bella?" She croaked, pushing me off her. "Who the fuck is Bella?"
I blinked in surprise, "What?"
Jane hugged, grabbing her top to cover herself, "You said 'Bella'. Who the fuck is she?"
Well fuck me backwards. This wasn't good.
"I…" I closed my mouth, I had no idea how the fuck I was going to get out of this one.
"Fuck you, Cullen." Jane spat, standing up, "I'll find my own way home." She marched off along the beach, leaving me sitting like a fucking idiot.
You are a fucking idiot.
"That Bella is a real cracker, eh?" Emmett chuckled, shovelling food into his mouth.
I narrowed my eyes, "I suppose."
Emmett took a gulp of his strawberry milkshake and grinned, "What are you getting up to tonight?"
I shrugged and crossed my arms across my chest, "Dunno. Probably nothing."
Emmett scoffed, putting his dishes in the sink, "Big bad Edward Cullen has no plans on a Friday?" He shook his head, "That's a first."
After my fuck up with Jane yesterday, she had been avoiding my phone calls. Rightfully so. I screwed up. But in some way, it was a relief. I had been looking for an excuse to break up with her. Were we even broken up?
I grabbed my car keys, "Are you coming to school or what?" I hissed, impatient.
Emmett threw his bag over his shoulder and made his way to the front door.
The drive to school was long and uninteresting. Emmett sat in silence, probably too afraid to speak to me. I was in such a shitty mood. How was I going to stay away from her? I couldn't. I know I said I could, but of course that was a fucking lie. If anything, I wanted to be near her all the time now.
Always wanting something you can't have.
I parked the car and sighed, leaning back in my seat.
Emmett cleared his throat, "See you." He mumbled, opening the door.
I remained sitting in the car, trying to make sense of my wayward thoughts.
Rubbing my forehead, I grabbed my keys and got out. If I didn't go, I would never go.
That's when I spotted her, sitting on one of the stairs at the main entrance, smoking her life away.
Her leg bounced uncontrollably. She was pissed. What could I have done now? I couldn't stop myself.
"You okay?" I asked, sitting down next to her.
She sighed deeply, flicking her cigarette away, "What do you want, Edward?" Her voice was hoarse, tired.
I stared out at the parking lot, "I just wanted to make sure you're okay, that's all."
Bella groaned, leaning forward, putting her head in her hands, "You're impossible." She mumbled. She looked up at me then, anger reflecting in her eyes, "Stay. The. Fuck. Away. From. Me." She spat as she stood, "I don't know how else you want me to say it."
"Put it in writing." I hissed back. This whole situation was pissing me the fuck off and it had only been a day since she told me to stay away.
She scowled at me, turned on her heel and walked into school.
She didn't sit with us at lunch much to Alice's disgust.
"What have you said to her?" She growled, her usually hyper eyes now furious as she glared at me.
I sighed, "Didn't say a word."
Alice scoffed, "Yeah. Like I believe that."
"Does it even matter? If she doesn't wanna sit with us then she doesn't have to." Rosalie piqued, as she played with her salad.
I smiled sweetly at Alice, gesturing to Rosalie, "See? She gets it."
Alice stood, "You're an asshole. Why can't you think of someone other than yourself?" She took off toward the door and I couldn't help but laugh at her. She was fucking hilarious when she was angry.
Jasper sighed, shaking his head, "Thanks man. I'm gonna have to listen to this all night."
I shrugged, taking a bite of my pizza, "Not my problem."
"Nothing ever is 'your problem', Edward." Emmett muttered, "It's starting to get old."
I held my hands up in defence, "What the fuck is this? Gang up on Edward day or some shit?"
Jasper chuckled, "Whatever."
"Are you fucking kidding me right now?!" Someone screeched from the hallway.
Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie and myself turned, "What the fuck?" Emmett whispered, "You go check it out. I wanna finish my lunch." Emmett nudged me in the ribs and turned his attention back to his food.
I rolled my eyes and stood up, "Fine."
No doubt it was freshmans having some sort of bitch fight. I pushed open the door to the hallway, double taking when I saw the culprits.
"What do you have that I don't?!" Jane screeched, shoving Bella against the locker. Bella hissed through her teeth as her back collided with the dial.
"What are you talking about?" She was absolutely fuming.
"He said your name. Your name!" Jane screamed, poking Bella in the shoulder. Well, shit. I didn't expect this to happen. "Do you get any satisfaction sleeping with other people's boyfriends?"
"Listen, bitch, I have no fucking idea what you're talking about. So you better back the fuck up." Bella pushed Jane away from her. Anger was practically vibrating off her.
I leaned against the wall, watching silently. I had to admit, it was kinda hot.
Yeah. She's about to out your secret, smartass.
I crossed my arms, they didn't even notice me. They were too wrapped up in their fight to see anything other than each other.
"I'm talking about Edward, you retard. He said your name when me and him were doing stuff."
I swallowed back bile, I should've probably interjected but I didn't. I stood and watched as Bella lifted her head back and proceeded to laugh hysterically.
She's laughing at you, Cullen.
"What's so fucking funny?" Jane snapped, hands on hips.
Bella continued laughing, ignoring Jane completely. That was until Jane slapped her across the face. Shit.
Bella lifted her hand to her cheek and glared at Jane, "What the fuck?" She hissed.
It didn't take long for it to escalate to a proper fight. Jane grabbed Bella by the hair, pulling harshly. It didn't seem to phase her, since her next move was a fist to Jane's face.
I had to put a stop to this. I pushed myself off the wall, "That's enough!" I shouted, grabbing Bella by the waist and pulling her away.
"Get this bitch away from me." Bella growled, pushing me away and wiping her bottom lip.
Jane narrowed her eyes, "Watch your back, Swan."
"Leave her the fuck alone." I barked, grabbing Jane's arm, and dragging her outside.
"Watch the fuck was that?!" I pinched the bridge of my nose and paced back and forth.
"I had to confront her! She can't go around sleeping with other people's boyfriends. Not my boyfriend. I hate you just as much as her!"
I stared at her incredulously, "Are you fucking kidding me?"
I looked behind Jane's shoulder and groaned when I saw Jasper and Emmett coming over to play detective.
"We never slept together, Jane." I muttered quietly, "Don't not breathe a word about this." I warned. The last thing I needed was my friends to know I was in the middle of an extremely fucked up love triangle. I would never hear the end of it.
She rolled her eyes, dabbing at a small cut on her lip. I raised a brow, damn Bella could fight dirty.
"What the fuck happened?" Emmett questioned, looking between Jane and I, "Alice and Rose are checking Bella out for injuries." He glared at Jane. It was no secret Emmett couldn't stand her. He shared the same outlook as Alice when it came to new students. He was like their fucking bodyguard or some shit.
Jane sighed, "Relax. There's not a scratch on her…" She pointed to her lip, "Me on the other hand, is a different story."
Jasper sighed, "So…what happened?"
"I mouthed off at her and it escalated." Jane looked up at me, "It was nothing."
I nodded, mentally high fiving her, "Nothing." I repeated.
I hope you're happy.
I was. I was immensely happy. My Bella kicked the biggest bitch in school's ass, and I fucking loved her even more for it. Even if I did inadvertently cause it.
Jasper rolled his eyes, "Nothing? Okay then."
Emmett narrowed his eyes at me, "This ain't over, bro." He poked me in the shoulder and strode back into school, Jasper in tow.
I hadn't realised we had invited an audience until I lit a cigarette. The whole school was practically staring at us, pointing and whispering. Just what I fucking needed.
"We're finished." I mumbled to Jane.
She stared at me, mouth wide open, "What?"
"We're finished!" I spat.
Jane's eyes welled up with tears, "Fuck you." She turned on her heel and marched toward her posse.
I breathed a sigh of relief.
Least you got that out of the way.
Yeah. I pretty much killed two birds with one stone. Now Bella will never fucking forgive me.
I slammed the door to my bedroom and sat down on my couch, head in hands. This was one fucked up heap of shit and I had only myself to blame.
I should've just been straight with Bella. I should've answered her fucking phone call. I should've pulled her against me and smothered her with kisses when I saw her at school. I should've...I should've done something.
Instead, I made it a million times worse. I patted my pockets for my phone, I was going to fix this. I was going to right my wrongs.
I pressed call and waited patiently,
"What?" She hissed down the phone.
I smiled, she was fucking adorable, "We need to talk."
I heard her sigh, I could tell she was seething, "No. We don't."
"We do. Whether you like it or not." I chuckled, walking over to the window.
"Fine." She breathed, "What could you possibly have to tell me now?"
I took a deep breath and stared out at the setting sun, "I love you."
It felt fucking freeing to tell her the truth. This felt right. I loved her with every fibre of my being. She made my heart feel a thousand different emotions at once. She was my world. My everything.