A/N: I don't own nor make any $ from Chuck. This is a short one, but an important one for where I want to take this one. Thank you for all the reviews they are the best compensation!

After their ordeal on the roof, team Bartowski along with Captain Hawkins; moved to a safe house, which Hawkins had procured for the mission. Chuck made his way to the shower to get cleaned up, while Sarah met with Casey and Hawkins.

"I'm not happy about being kept in the dark about this Casey," Sarah fumed.

"Look Walker this came together at the last minute…,"

"That's beside the point Casey. I am supposed to be your partner for Christ sake!"

"You are Walker, but we had to do it," Casey said.

"Why Casey? What could possibly warrant that action!"

"Because you are compromised,' Hawkins chimed in.

"What does that have to do with anything," Sarah demanded.

"Everything! Listen Walker I could see that you were compromised and I just met you. Do you think Graham and Beckman haven't noticed it as well," Hawkins asked rhetorically.

"So what I don't care if they know anymore! I'm tired of fucking hiding," she replied with venom.

"But Walker if they know you are compromised then they would expect you to react like a crazy woman if Chuck got killed," Casey began.

"Which is exactly the reaction you had," Hawkins finished.

"They have surveillance everywhere Walker. In a few hours I will radio in that you and Chuck are missing, when they see the video of him getting dropped off the roof and then you getting you ass handed to you by Captain Hawkins here, all we need to do is produce two bodies and you and Chuck are home free."

"I'm sorry Sarah, but we needed you to think he was dead so you could sell it. Which by the way you did a fantastic job of," Hawkins said as he rubbed his bruised jaw.

"Casey I'm…I can't…I don't have the words," Sarah began as the emotion sprung up from Casey's plan. He had single handily given her a chance at the life that she desperately wanted and couldn't find the words to thank him.

"Its ok Walker, you better go check on numb nuts before he drowns ohh," Casey said as Sarah gripped him in a hug.

"Thank you so much Casey."

"Ok …ok Walker..just thank me when it's over. Just go check on Chuck," Casey said uncomfortably.

Chuck was emotionally exhausted after his shower, but was not allowed to sleep until Sarah had checked him from head to toe for injuries. Finally satisfied that he was ok, she lay down with him and held him tight as he slowly curled his arms around her.

Chuck slowly began to rub her back and a soft moan escaped her lips as she turned around to face him. He kissed her deeply and slowly slid his hand between her legs, feeling the physical response of her arousal. She was ready to express her affection for him when suddenly, she felt a strange sense on uneasiness begin to manifest itself.

Visions of previous situations and seduction missions began to flash through her head, and she felt a shortness of breath. Her heart rate began to increase and her breathing became labored, while beads of sweat began to form on her forehead.

"Hey are you ok," Chuck asked as he saw her turn white as a ghost.

"Yeah I'm fine..I just...I just need...sorry I just need to go to the bathroom real quick," she said as she got out from under him and ran inside.

"Are you sure of this," Graham asked Bryce over the secure channel.

"Yes sir. Chuck was dropped off the building, but a few moments later he reappeared with Casey."

"What about Walker?"

"I saw her leave with Casey, Chuck and Colt."

"Larkin I don't know what the hell is going on, we have had no contact yet from Casey and have not had a chance to view the surveillance footage. If they are going to fake his death then that means that se is going to run with him," Graham said.

"I assume you understands what that means Larkin?"

It was now more obvious then ever to Bryce that Sarah would ever be his again. If she was going to fake her death and run with Chuck then there was no way that she would ever come back. She had made her choice, and it only served to infuriate Bryce more.

"What are my orders sir," he asked mechanically.

"Find and terminate Bartowski and Casey immediately."

"Yes sir, and Sarah?"

Graham looked at him and just shook his head slowly.

"Understood sir."

Sarah had found herself in a lot of strange places over the years, but hiding from her boyfriend in the bathroom was at the top of the list. She was gripped with a feeling that was very unfamiliar to her, she was scared.

Why am I nervous? It's not like I am a virgin? I have had sex many times before? Before…but...It's not like before? What is wrong with me?

"Sarah are you ok," Chuck said from beyond the door.

"Ah..yeah..just finishing up," she said as she flushed the toilet and then ran the water to cover up her delay. She was so happy to be with Chuck, and so very much in love with him, but for some reason the thought of sleeping with him terrified her.

Get it together Sarah! You love this man! Love oh my god! I'm going...

Suddenly Chuck heard the sound of Sarah dry heaving followed by the toilet being flushed again.

"Ok not what I was expecting," he said softly as a visibly upset Sarah emerged from the bathroom.

She looked like she had been crying and suddenly ran into his arms.

"Hey are you ok," he said as he held her.

"No..I'm so sorry.. I'm so fucked up," she cried.

"Wait slow down," he said as he held her right.

"Just calm down and tell me what the problem is. Come over here," he said as he pulled her over to the bed and sat down.

Sarah clung to him as he sat down and squeezed herself tightly against him.

"No what's going on," he said as he stroked her hair.

"It's nothing...its just I'm so fucked up," she cried as tears fell down her face.

"Ok well why do you think you are fucked up."

"It's stupid! You will think I'm crazy," she said.

"No I won't Sarah. I would never think you are crazy," he said as he kissed her forehead.

"Now tell me what it is and let's see how we can make it better," he smiled.

His smile made her feel instantly relieved, which in a weird way actually made her feel worse. Here was this great guy, the best man that she ever had known and truly the only man she loved, but she was afraid of him and she hated herself for it.

"Chuck it's not you...its me I just can't...,"

Chuck just remained silent and held her as she cried.

Oh god what must be going through his mind...She doesn't really love me, she is not attracted to me...She loves Bryce...She made a mistake about me... were all thoughts that could have been swirling in his mind Sarah thought.

Many guys in this position would immediately think the worst, and maybe last year Chuck would have done the same, but Chuck had changed. Guys think that way, but Men who truly love and understand their women can see when they are hurting, and Chuck could see the hurt in Sarah. He instantly read the situation for what it was, and knew exactly what to do. Although sex is a very intimate act, Sarah had used it all of her life as a method of manipulation, with no emotional component at all. Now here she was out on a limb, and although experienced in the ways of sex, a virgin in the ways of love. He could tell that she was and feeling afraid and hopeless.

"It's ok Sarah," he said.

"Chuck it's not ok! I love you, but I'm scare to death! I want to be with you more then anything, but I feel like I wouldn't be enough! I feel like I wouldn't make it special enough," she cried into his chest.

"Sarah it's ok," he said again.

"No Chuck! You don't know what I've done! I feel like I'm almost...like I was a whor...,"

"Don't ever call yourself that!" He said as he interrupted her.

"But Chuck what I've done before...,"

"Is what you had to do. Sarah I want you to know that I love you, but more then that I want you to know I understand you. I know who you are and I'm in love with you Sarah. That will never change!"

"How can you be so sure," she cried.

"Sarah before I met you I was this normal guy with this normal life...,"

"Yes I know and I'm sorry we took you away from that," Sarah cried.

"Wait Sarah. Hold on just let me finish please," he said.

"Sarah I didn't know who I was before I met you. I know that you think that my life changed for the worse when I got the intersect, but my life changed for the better when I met you. Sarah the only way I can really explain it is that it's like my life just really started when I met you," he said as he wiped away her tears.

"I can't imagine my life without you and to be honest, I don't want to. Nobody knows the future, and we don't know how this whole thing will turn out with the intersect, but I can assure you of this. That I will love and that I will never back away from you, as long as I live."

Sarah cried as he spoke, but this time they came from a source of joy.

He understands me, and he really loves me..she thought as she felt a weight lifted off her.

"So I don't care about the physical part of our relationship," Chuck began but quickly stammered when he saw Sarah's eyes go wide.

"No..I mean I care! I mean I want to..I dream about it all the time...wait well not all the time," he floundered.

Sarah laughed as he scrambled.

"What I mean is I want you to be ready. I don't want to put any pressuuurrr..." He said before she silenced him with a kiss.

"I know what you mean Chuck, and thank you," she said as she snuggled into him.

"You're welcome. So are you ok? No more tears?"

"No more tears Chuck. I love you so much," she said as she held him tightly.

"I love you too Sarah."

Chuck felt Sarah virtually envelope herself around him, and within 3 minutes they were both sound asleep.