"You again?" Ben questioned as the Doctor entered his room for the second time. It was the middle of the night but Ben was still awake. He had trouble sleeping in this hospital room and just wanted to go home. He couldn't go home yet, though. He still had another few weeks of rehab that he had to go through before he would be declared clean. If he was just doing this for himself, he would have demanded that he be released. Only there were two little ones that he adored waiting for him to come home.

"If there is one thing I am it is stubborn. Just ask him," The Doctor told Ben as he gestured behind him to where Jack was standing. Jack nodded his agreement.

"He is also very rude as well as talkative so if you want him to leave, I'd tell him before he starts talking," Jack teased. The Doctor stuck out his lower lip at Jack pouting for just a moment before turning back to Ben. He let a smile cross his face as he waited anxiously for Ben to tell him to leave again.

"I'm not going to thank you for saving me," Ben told him. The Doctor shrugged as he dared to take a seat on the chair next to Ben's bed. He sat stiffly for a moment but when Ben didn't immediately tell him to stand up again, he relaxed back.

"I don't expect you to. I didn't come here for a thank you. I came here because I was told that it would be good for me to talk to someone who had a similar experience," the Doctor admitted. After his weeks of talking to Ian, Jack and occasionally Martha, it was easier for him to be open with people. It didn't mean that he liked it or was comfortable admitting his feelings. There were only a few people that he trusted to never judge him. And less that he trusted to support him no matter what. In fact, that honor only went to one person and that person shared a direct link with him. The fact that Ben was rolling his eyes let the Doctor know, however, that he was going to have to offer more information than he wanted to in order for Ben to open up to him. "I don't know how long I was addicted to the powder for but I also lost everything to it. In the end, I almost lost my life and if someone hadn't saved me, I would have."

"Did you lose your wife and children as well?" Ben questioned him. Jack felt the sadness that went through the Doctor at the mention of his family, but he kept his face calm as he spoke to Ben.

"Long before I ever decided to take drugs. The drugs helped me to forget and so I kept taking them," The Doctor admitted his voice soft. Ben looked at the Doctor curiously as if the Doctor's words had allowed him to come to a new realization. Then much to all of their surprise he laughed.

"I may have lost my family but you lost everything and you don't even know the name of the drugs you were taking," Ben chuckled. It wasn't funny, nothing about the conversation they were having was, but the ridiculousness that the Doctor didn't even know what he had taken had still caused Ben to laugh.

"No, you're right I never learned its name," The Doctor answered trying to keep his voice level. The admission only caused Ben to laugh harder and the Doctor stared at him in confusion for a moment. The confusion quickly left as the oncoming storm appeared behind his eyes. He was quickly getting angry that Ben was laughing at him.

"I may have done some stupid things to get ahold of the drug, but at least I knew that I was taking Stardust," Ben told him through the laughter.

"No, I wasn't taking Stardust. I would have known if it was Stardust. The drug is called Stardust because it is black with crystals that look like stars," The Doctor responded immediately. He was rambling and he knew as he tried to convince himself Ben was wrong. There was no way he could have taken the drug without knowing it.

"You're right it was black with white crystals prior to the police trying to put an end to the drug. Once that happened they started dying the crystals blue and came up with a new way to process the drug so that the powder was white rather than black," Micha informed him. The Doctor stood up knocking his chair over as he did. Jack was immediately by his side taking his arm in his hand. The Doctor pulled away from him as he looked towards the door, ready to run.

"Sweetheart, what is Stardust?" Jack questioned feeling the panic through the bond that they shared.

"Stardust was banned across the galaxy as one dose was enough to cause anyone to become addicted. The mortality rate of users is high as most people don't want to stop using it," The Doctor explained to him. He looked at Jack. "The people in the cafe were willingly giving the drug to patrons to bring them to Micha."

"Do you know who Micha's supplier was?" Jack questioned Ben as he put a comforting hand on the Doctor's back, running it slowly along his spine. Ben shook his head no.

"We could ask him, but you decided to put a bullet through his head," Ben informed him.

"And I would do it again if I had the chance," Jack responded. "Doctor, the guard is still alive. We can ask him who Micha's supplier was."

"Then what? If you take down one supplier, two more will take over for him. It is impossible to get away from the drug on this planet. The only way to guarantee that you are going to remain clean is to leave the planet for good. There is a rehab center that I plan on going to that will help me get off the planet and if you would like, I can get them to help you as well," Ben offered. The Doctor shook his head no.

"What about your children?" He questioned softly.

"If I can get clean and stay clean, my wife has agreed that I will be able to see them again. While she understands that the drug is running rampant across the city, she is still angry that I got addicted. Yet, she is willing to give me a chance if I try and for my children, I am going to try. I don't want my children to grow up to be drug addicts," Ben answered.

"Does she know what Micha did to you?" The Doctor wondered, his voice barely above a whisper.

"No, and I don't plan on ever telling her," Ben replied just as softly. "Does he know?" He jerked his head slightly towards Jack and the Doctor nodded. "I'm sorry."

"I'm not," The Doctor told him. He turned towards the door, ready to leave. He had spoken to Ben like Ian wanted and it hadn't made him feel any better. It had just made him feel worse as he now had a name to the drug that he had taken and knew the full consequences, beyond what had happened to his own body.

"Doctor, while I appreciate your visit, I hope I never see you again," Ben called after him.

"You won't," The Doctor answered. He made his way to the TARDIS, making sure that Jack was on board before he slammed the door behind him. He kicked the door, hit it, and screamed in his anger. Turning, he didn't look at Jack as he walked to the console, flicked the handbrake off and then stormed out of the control room.