Chapter 14

+LUCY+

I looked at him as he stared blankly at me. His eyes widened suddenly, as if my words had just registered in his mind.

"Are you crazy Lucy? Didn't you hear what Will said? We can't break the bond." he said as he got off the bed. I noticed that he had removed his shirt and and my borrowed pyjamas pants were in a pool on the floor. I picked them up and put them on immediately.

"That doesn't mean we shouldn't do more research about it. Maybe if we dig deep enough we'll find a way out. There's got to be a way out." I said. My voice has risen and I started feeling too hot. If I could I would have shredded off all of it.

"Wait, Lucy, let's talk a little bit about this." he said as he gripped my hand and pulled me towards the bed. I sighed sharply.

"Lucy, gathering information about this was already hard, next to impossible. We might as well accept i-"

"Accept what? That my future and yours too has just collapsed right before our eyes?" I asked him, rage lining my words. I knew that this wan't his fault but I could not understand how he could accept this fate.

"If you think a little bit about it, this is not so bad. I thought that we already had a thing for each other." I stared at him, flabbergasted "A thing does not mean expecting to have the other person's babies. Will said it was like animal instinct, so what? In a few days you'll turn me and we'll go at it like rabbits till I start popping out an army of little vampires-to-be out of me?" I asked him with desperate eyes.

Surprisingly, he chuckled. "What are you smiling about?"

"'Go at it like rabbits'. Seriously, Lucy, the way you put words astounds me." I snickered quietly too. "It's not funny. Nick, I don't even know if I want kids." i told him solemnly. My eyes travelled down to the floor, anywhere but in his direction. "What do you mean, I thought you liked kids? he said softly. I sighed once more, I was almost sixteen years old, I didn't need to have this talk. I am a virgin, for crying out loud, a single - I think - virgin. Why should I bother talking about kids when I'm still growing up myself?

"Nick... I... I will never be a good parent. My own parents messed up my childhood. Look at me and Josh, why would I to to that to some innocent kid?" I asked him. He pulled my face up by the chin. "Hey, there's nothing wrong with you. You've been through a lot, but that doesn't mean that you should close any doors to your future." he said reasonably. "And think a little bit about it. It would also make it easier for you to be around Solange and-"

I groaned in frustration. "Don't you see. This stupid bonds has us under its clutches. Let me ask you know, had this whole thing not happened, would you have ever considered a future with me. Me of all people?"

"Why not you, Lucy?It almost seems as if you don't want me to like you. Ignoring this bond would be stupid and useless. Will told us plainly that we bonded because there was already something between us. Then why should we make our lives difficult and not embrace this?"

"Because I don't know how I feel! This bond- it does weird things to me. When I had that nightmare, I saw your family dead. And I felt relief, Nick! Relief that you weren't among them instead of feeling angry or saddened for their loss. I... I don't know if my feelings are produced by the bond or if it's really me." I said, leaving him speechless. By now, there was not much to say. "I'll just go sleep in Sol's room, I'll try not to wake her." I told him hastily. He took a hold of my hand. "Wait, there's no need for that, apart from the fact that you'll wake her, how will you explain that you got here in the middle of the night without a car?" he asked me. Oh, the condescending little bastard.

"That's so true." I told him in an annoying voice I ripped of the bitches at school. "I'll go sleep on the couch downstairs." I tried to pry his hand off mine but he didn't let me.

"Oh come on, Lucy don't be stubborn. You'll cramp up down there" he said persuasively. I couldn't help but chuckle. "Yeah, I'll cramp up on a sofa bed and get suffocated on the cloud-like cotton candy softness of the pillows. Oh the horror." I said sarcastically in mock distress.

That actually squeezed a chuckle out of him. "Just stay with me, just for this night." he begged me. My eyes widened open in realisation.

"You want me to stay, don't you?" I said with a smirk.

He looked down, and I think I actually saw him blush a little. "I don't know... maybe." he mumbled in the most adorable way. I leaned down over him. With every inch forward I took he leaned down till he was lying completely on his back. I got on top of him, a leg on each one of his sides.

"You're a bad little boy, aren't you?" I purred seductively at him. He growled deeply at the back of his throat. His lips where on mine before I could take one last breath. His hands touched every part of me. His hands tugged at my pyjama bottoms. In a flash, they disappeared, leaving me only in his borrowed boxers and shirt. He started tugging at the knot on my shirt, but I regained control and instead pulled his shirt off. I ran my hand across his chest. He was well built, and I could feel the result that years of training - and angrily pounding at punching bags - left. He may not have had the eight pack that every book and movie wrote about, which in all honesty was just a bunch of bullshit, but he was well toned. He growled again, and straddled my body on his. He took ahold of me by the shoulders, almost ripping off my shirt. "I want you, Lucy." he breathed at my ear. I wanted this too. I felt it right deep within me, through the blood that traveled through my veins.

My head cleared. It was as if I had been lost in a fog, compelled to walk blindly. I realised what was going on. It was the bond. Of course it was the fucking bond! What else would make me act like a freaking animal on heat? Because that was just what we were. We were just animals. Pawns in nature's big plan. I tried to kick free out of his grasp but he was holding me too tightly. His hold on my wrists tightened to a point that it was causing me pain. I couldn't shout or try to snap him out of it as it was vital to keep this a secret. I didn't want to handle how they would see us. Involuntary tears ran down my cheeks.

It hurt. It hurt worse than when Josh stabbed me. But I pursed my lips.

Just as his teeth were about to sink in my flesh, he stopped. Despite that my vision was clouded with the tears that still lingered, I could see the shock spread over his expression. He shoved me roughly away from him. "Lucy, I'm so sorry. I felt your sadness, I felt it within me!" he whispered.

Then for the first time, I discovered what it was like, feeling somebody's emotion within you. I felt his shame and guilt. I wanted to hug him and tell him that it was alright, but I knew that it would be a big lie if I did.

Both of us had a million words to say to the other, but at the same time, we were speechless after what just happened. I clumsily picked the pyjama bottoms of the floor and put them on with shaking hands.

I ran out of the room, my heart aching as I left Nick with his face buried desperately in his hands.

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Hmm... Trouble in well... not exactly heaven but you get my point :P So what do you think that will happen? Will they really be able to stay away from each other? What more does the blood bond entitle that we'll discover later? Will I ever have time to proofread my work? Well, find out in the next chapters :P

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