Sorry for the long wait. Only two more finals to go. I sort of have writers block because I had to write two essays today! Ew. I'd much rather write this! Anyway, here's the newest update. I hope you enjoy. Oh, and I apologize that flashbacks will be completely random, and not in order, I mean I'll try but it will get confusing. So if you have any questions- just ask :) Thanks for reading!
credit: Creators of Oe Tree Hill, and song is my girl Taylor Swift!
FOREVER & ALWAYS
Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?
'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure
So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always... yeah
Haley's eyes widened when she instantly looked into those familiar crystal blue ones. Her heart stopped, and she instantly bit down hard on her lip.
It can't be him. She thought. But it is.
She wanted to look away, but she couldn't. He was like a magnet, and she couldn't help but be drawn to him. She hasn't seen those eyes in five years. Her body was millimeters away, but neither of them could bring themselves to speak.
Nathan's mouth went dry, as soon as he looked into those big brown eyes that were burned into his memory.
There's no way it could be her. I'm going crazy. It's just some weird coincidence. Someone who happens to have the same eyes as her. It's not her.
Nathan had to inwardly chant to himself that it wasn't Haley, but he just some how knew that it was her. He could never forget those eyes, and the adoration that filled them. Now those eyes were a cold, shocking stare, but yet, they were still mesmerizing, and they still belonged to Haley.
As Nathan was still starring into Haley's eyes, his mind suddenly flash backed to the first time he looked into those eyes; he could never forget it.
Nathan sat in the passenger seat of Lucas's 78' Ford Red Pick Up Truck, with a glum look on his face, as he rested his right arm against the open window.
"Lighten up man, this is going to be a summer to remember. I can promise you that." Lucas said as he looked at his bored cousin.
Nathan rolled his eyes, and scoffed as he starred straight ahead at the farms they were passing.
"Bull shit. This is going to freaking suck! It's my last summer before college, and I'm spending it in the middle of freaking no where!" Nathan grunted angrily.
Lucas chuckled. "C'mon man, you used to love coming here with us as a kid."
"Yeah we haven't gone since we were 10. That was eight years ago, this is going to suck. I could've gone to like Miami or something." Nathan protested.
"Hey! You said you wanted to spend the summer with me!" Lucas declared.
"Yeah, you said we were going on a vacation. I didn't think you meant Holden Beach."
"Dude it's a lot of fun."
"Are you kidding me? It's filled with snotty five years old kids, and whiny 90 year olds. There aren't even hot chicks!"
"So? Don't you want to spend some time with your family?" Lucas playfully nudged Nathan.
"It's the whole freaking summer. This sucks! What a waste."
"It's two months, you'll have fun, I promise."
"Yeah two months I'll never get back."Nathan mumbled.
"If you're really miserable, you can leave. Just give it a week. Please?"
"Fine, whatever." Nathan continued to mumble.
Lucas laughed, "What's your problem?"
"My problem? I'm going to be watching you and Brooke suck each others face off the entire summer! Are there even clubs we can go to? I deserve at least one hook up with a beach babe." Nathan smirked.
Lucas rolled his eyes. "You're ridiculous. And just so you know, some of me and Brooke's friends are actually coming, so you won't be alone."
"Sweet. Any hot chicks?"
Lucas almost gagged. "Ew no way."
"Seriously? Not even one?"
"Well one of them is kind of with someone, and the other..." Lucas laughed.
"What? What's so funny?"
"Nothing." Lucas said continuing to laugh.
"What?" Nathan asked angrily.
"The girl... she's so out of your league."
"What the hell does that mean?"
"Trust me, man. Don't even waste your time."
"Why not? Is she hot?"
Lucas rolled his eyes. "I'm not answering that. She's like my sister. And second of all, not everything is about being hot."
"It is to me." Nathan smirked.
"Seriously though, I wouldn't try anything."
Nathan snickered. "Do you know who you're talking to? I can get any girl I want."
"Right." Lucas drawled out.
"I can. Wanna bet?"
"No, we're not betting if you can get my best friend. Besides, you wouldn't even win."
Nathan laughed while shaking his head, "Some one's afraid to lose?"
"Not at all. I'm just saving you the time and heart break."
"What is she? A lesbian?"
Lucas chuckled, "No."
"Then what's the problem? She's probably ugly right?"
"Not that either. You see my dear cousin, she actually has a brain, so she wouldn't be dumb enough to fall for you."
"Really. Just wait man, just wait."
"She's not even your type."
"I don't have a type." Nathan argued.
"Yeah you go after sluts. First of all Haley isn't a slut, and second of all, she doesn't do random hook ups."
"So her name's Haley? That's a pretty name." Nathan smirked.
Lucas rolled his eyes, "Keep your pants on Nate."
Nathan chuckled, "How much time 'till we get there?"
"Actually any minute now."
"So what are the room arrangements?" Nathan asked while texting one of his friends.
"Guys are in one cabin, girls in the other."
"Are you kidding me? That's so lame!"
"Yeah, well Haley's family is going to be there."
"Wow. I hate her now."
Lucas chuckled, "Yeah, that's what I thought."
"This sucks!" Nathan groaned.
After about another five minutes, Lucas drove under a small tunnel leading them to a sign that read: 'Holden Beach- A Camping Experience on the Beach'" Nathan rolled his eyes.
'This is going to be fun.' He thought sarcastically.
Lucas pulled up to a small blue cabin, located right on the beach. Ont the other side of the sandy road, was a larger cabin, that had stairs leading up to the entrance. Two petite girls, one brunette, and one honey blonde were unloading a black truck right in front of the larger cabin.
Nathan smirked as he got out of the truck, appreciating the view of the blonde's backside.
"Yo, Nathan, Can you help me unload this?" Lucas called.
Nathan quickly snapped out of his trance, and ran to help Lucas who was currently unloading the bags from the trunk.
"Broody!" Nathan heard Brooke scream, and Lucas dropped the bags, holding his arms open for Brooke to run into.
"I missed you pretty girl!" Lucas said as he placed a long sweet kiss on Brooke's lips.
"Ugh, get a room!" Nathan moaned.
Haley walked over, chuckling at the couple.
"Didn't you guys see each other this morning?" She joked.
When Nathan heard a sweet, female voice, his head instantly turned to the right to find a short, honey blonde girl, wearing short navy shorts, and a simple pink tank top. He was practically drooling at the sight.
In the corner of her eye, Haley noticed a tall, highly attractive guy, starring at her. Her gaze lifted to his intense blue eyes, and she instantly felt her cheeks warm.
Nathan suddenly felt his mouth go dry, when the blonde caught his gaze. He couldn't even blink. Her deep brown eyes, were so big and welcoming. He practically felt himself drowning in them. He knew once he looked into her eyes, he was a complete goner.
"Hi, I'm Haley." Haley said sweetly as she smiled a brilliant smile, while Nathan just lost his ability to form a complete thought.
"H-Hi, I'm uh, Nathan. Nathan Scott."
"Nathan Scott?" Haley found herself finally speaking up, after a minute of awkward silence.
Nathan felt his heart drop into his stomach when he heard the beautiful voice, he hasn't heard in five years. It was like music to his ears.
He literally lost all memory of how to speak English, just like the first time he saw her. He couldn't think straight, and he had no idea what to say.
"What the hell do you say to someone you're still in love with after not seeing them for five years?" Nathan thought.
The only thing he could think of was to be his usual charming self around women, it was bound to work.
"Want an autograph?" Nathan smirked.
Haley's smile instantly fell, and she laughed sardonically to herself. She shook her head, and was about to walk away.
"Of course he doesn't remember me. Unbelievable He actually did become an egotistical asshole!" She thought angrily.
Nathan instantly chastised himself for being an idiot.
Haley was about to turn away, when suddenly she felt Nathan's strong grip grasp her arm.
Instantly, they both felt the strong sparks that were still there, and Haley's cheeks reddened.
Nathan was stunned at how strong the sparks felt.
"Hales, wait." He called, as she spun around.
Haley instantly moved from Nathan's grasp, and her eyes brows shot up.
"My name is Haley. You lost the right to call me that a long time ago." She scoffed.
Nathan was slightly taken back by her tone. If he remembered correctly, she was the one who told him to leave. So why was she mad?
"I-I'm sorry." Nathan started, "You look great, Haley." He said, and truthfully meant it. He briefly checked her out. Her hair was darker now, still curly, and had blond highlights, but for the most part her hair was now brunette. She got more mature looking, and if possible, even more beautiful.
Haley bit her lip to keep herself from blushing. She had to remind herself that she could not go there again. Yet, she still couldn't keep herself from checking him out either.
He got a lot more muscular, he had a sexy five o'clock shadow, and he developed a small freckle under his left eye. He got a lot more attractive than the last time she saw him, and she didn't even think that was humanly possible. She would have to be blind not to see how good looking he was.
"Thanks, you too." She said shyly.
Nathan was still looking at her intently, and she couldn't help the small blush that crept up her neck. She hated the butterflies she was feeling in her stomach, but his presence helped stir them up.
"How are you?" Nathan asked.
Haley tried everything not to stare into his eyes, because she knew if she looked at him she would fall for him all over again. "I'm fine. You?" She asked curtly.
Nathan quickly glanced at her ring finger and breathed a sigh of relief when he noticed it was empty.
She probably has a boyfriend.. whatever.
"I'm okay." Nathan shrugged.
Haley gave him a small smile. "That's great."
The two of them stood in an awkward silence, for a few seconds until Nathan decided to break the ice.
"I've been thinking about you." Nathan declared.
Haley sighed. "That's great Nathan, but don't you think you're five years a little too late?"
Nathan blew out a deep breath, and ran a hand through his hair. "Haley, why are you acting like this?"
"Oh, I'm sorry. Am I supposed to just run into your arms and kiss you, like everything's okay?" Haley practically screamed, with tears prickling behind her eyes.
Nathan's eyebrows shot up, and he couldn't help but feel like his heart was breaking. "Yes-No- I don't know-"
"Five years Nathan! Five years! Everything has changed, so I don't know what you expected!" Haley cried.
Nathan furrowed his brow, "Haley-"
"No, Nathan! Save it!" Haley said as she stormed out of the storm, without buying anything.
As soon as she ran to her car, she got in and sank in her seat as she choked out a loud sob. When she pictured her 'reunion' with Nathan, she sure as hell didn't picture it like that. She wanted to run in his arms and never let go of him, but she couldn't. She was a different person now and so was he. Yeah she thought about him a lot, but she knew she had to get over him because she was only in love with the 18 year old Nathan, who didn't exist anymore. She knew she really didn't have a reason to be mad at him but she couldn't help it. He told her he loved her, and ran off. She wanted him to come back, or at least call. After five years he never even called, and that's what hurt the most. It's like she was just a game. She felt used. She did love Nathan, she was just afraid as to what would happen. They were going their separate ways, to different colleges and she knew they wouldn't last. She only realized she loved Nathan when he was gone, but it was too late. She wanted to call him, but again, she was scared. She thought he would be mad at her.
In Nathan's mind, he wasn't mad at Haley, he was just torn up about it. He didn't know what to do. He didn't want to push her to making her say 'I love you', but he didn't want to let her go. He loved her, and it was okay if she didn't love him, he was just confused as hell as why she told him to leave. It was all just one big mess.
Haley broke out into a fit of sobs, thinking about her recent encounter. Nathan was being sweet, and she didn't know if it was all an act or not. She heard about all his stories about him and his play boy reputation. The worst was when she watched an interview about how he was never in love, and never plans on falling in love either. She remembered sitting on her couch after work, flipping through the channels and saw his face. Her heart stopped, and when she head what he had to say, she continued to cry.
Nathan quickly ran to pay for his items, and went out into the parking lot to try and find Haley. He had no idea what car she drove, so after about five minutes of searching he decided to go to the hotel, and drown his sorrows with a case of beer.
Haley on the other hand, quickly dried her tears and sped off to Brooke and Lucas' house. It took about 5 minutes, and she didn't even care what time it was or what they were doing but she knocked furiously on their front door.
Brooke and Lucas were in the living room watching TV when they heard a loud knock.
"Do you think it's Nathan?" Lucas asked Brooke as she was getting up.
"I don't know, I'll be right back." She said as she kissed his cheek.
Haley bit her lip to keep her tears at bay, when Brooke swung the door open and smiled. "Hey best friend. Oh my god! Are you alright? What's wrong?" Brooke shrieked.
Haley laughed through her tears. 'Can I come in?"
"Of course!" Brooke said as she led Haley into the kitchen. "Do you want some tea?"
"Uh, no thanks, I just really need to talk."
Brooke sat directly across from Haley at the kitchen table. 'Are you hurt?"
Haley smiled, "No, not exactly."
"Then what's up?" She asked as her green eyes bore into Haley's teary brown ones.
"I saw him." She sobbed.
Brooke furrowed her brows. "Who?"
Haley wiped her tears under her eyes. "Na-Nathan!" She cried.
"Nathan Scott? Your Nathan?" Brooke asked dumbfounded.
Haley rolled her eyes. "What other Nathan is there?" She cried.
"Right sorry. Where did you see him? What the hell happened?"
Haley took a deep breath. "I ran into him in the grocery store! Of all places a grocery store! How crazy is that? I was so shocked. I didn't even know it was him at first, I mean, wow, he hot hot! I mean he was always hot, but I haven't seen him in person, and I was shocked. I don't even know why he was here-" Haley rambled and Brooke placed her hand over Haley's.
'Hales! You're rambling!"
"Sorry!" She said shyly.
"Look, I need to tell you something and you need to promise not to freak out."
Haley nodded. "Promise."
"WellNathanIsGoingToBeLukesBestMan" Brooke spat out quickly.
Haley laughed, 'Brooke, I have no idea what you just said."
Brooke took another deep breath, "Nathan's in town for the wedding. He's Luke's best man."
Haley's eyes widened like saucers, and she jumped up fro the table slapping her hands on it. "WHAT!?"
"I'm so sorry. I knew I should have told you- I was just waiting for the right time..."
Haley started to pace the floors rapidly. "Oh my god Brooke! I can't believe this!"
I'm sorry!"
Haley groaned "Ugh! I totally forgot he would be invited!"
Brooke pursed her lips together, "Hales I'm sorry."
Haley inhaled sharply, "God! What the hell do I do? It's so hard to see him!"
"What exactly happened?" Brooke asked as she watched Haley continue to pace the floor.
"I just ran into him and hello! Look who it is? Nathan FREAKING Scott!" She screamed. "The guy who told me he loved me, and then ran away! I mean yeah I told him to leave, but if he came back then I would have told him that I loved him too..." Haley said as her voice cracked. 'Brooke! I'm going crazy! This was five years ago, and I don't think I'm over him yet."
Broke stood up, and walked to Haley as she threw her arms around her. 'It's okay Hales."
"No it's not! I'm in love with someone who doesn't exist anymore!"
Brooke pulled away and looked into Haley's eyes. "Well this is just a crazy idea, but maybe, just maybe, you and Nathan can work everything out-"
"Absolutely not!" Haley shrieked.
"Why not?" Brooke asked frowning.
"Because! Nathan is a different person! I am a different person! We aren't 18 anymore. We're adults. He's an ass-"
"Hales, you know him better than anyone! Do you actually believe those sleezy magazines?"
"That's the thing Brooke. I was with him for two months! I don't know him. Maybe I don't love him- I think I was just naive, and stupid, and crazy. Let's be realistic. It was a summer romance! Nothing ever comes out of that!" Haley cried.
"Hales, you know that isn't true. Nathan loved you- he still does- and I'm pretty sure you do too. Don't fight it. Here is your opportunity to fix this!" Brooke advised.
Haley rubbed her temples, "I'm just so confused right now Brooke." She sighed,
"Well if you want to know my real opinion, I really think this is your chance to work everything out."
"It's never going to happen. He's some hot shot in the NBA who gets a new girl every night, I need to focus on my career-"
"Hales- you just told me the other night you were ready to go out again."
"Yeah well not with Nathan."
"Why not? I mean you fell for him once-"
Haley groaned. "Yeah and that was a mistake. I don't need to have another broken heart."
Brooke smiled sadly. "What about taking risks?"
Haley bit her lip, "He promised." She started to cry again, "He promised me Always and Forever. I should've known that was a lie-" Haley whispered as she broke down and fell into Brooke's arms choking out a loud sob.
...
Nathan walked into his hotel room and slammed the door. He was feeling an array of emotions such as anger, sorrow, regret, and a weird feeling in his stomach that he hasn't felt in five years.
He grabbed a can of beer, and sank on his bed as he took a long swig. After two and a half beers, Nathan felt his phone buzzing in his back pocket.
"What?" He answered angrily.
"Whoa, is that any way to be speaking to your Favorite Cousin who picked you to be his best man?" Lucas joked. "I can easily replace you."
"Whatever." Nathan deadpanned.
"Dude, what's up your ass?" Lucas asked.
Nathan sighed. "Nothing,, never mind. What's up?"
Lucas snickered. "It has to do with Haley doesn't it?"
Nathan's eyes widened. "Huh? What? How'd you know?"
Lucas laughed into the phone. "She came here crying. Figured it had something to do with you."
Nathan swallowed hard, and grabbed his face with his hand. 'Shit! She's crying?"
"Yeah. What'd you do now?"
Nathan scoffed. "I didn't do anything! I told her I was thinking about her and she freaked out! Shouldn't I be the one pissed at her? She rejected me, and yet I still want her!" Nathan shouted.
Lucas smiled. "I know man, you better fight like hell for her."
"Why so I can be rejected again?" Nathan scoffed.
"No because a girl like her isn't going to wait for you forever. Any guy would be lucky to have her, and it's pretty obvious she still has a thing for you, so DON'T screw it up."
Nathan sighed. "I know. Thanks man."
"Talk to you later."
"Bye." Nathan hung up, and threw his phone across the room, as he collapsed against his pillow and groaned loudly.
He was determined to get Haley to fall for him again.
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