I lied. (Don't hate me) I said this chapter will be the wedding, but that's NEXT chapter. This chapter HAD to happen before the wedding. It's crucial information!
And a lot of you in your reviews told me that you hated Haley, and I feel bad about that, because I didn't want to make her evil- I wanted to make the story more realistic. Obviously Naley can't get back right away, the twists and turns are the whole point of the story so unfortunately the characters have to go through certain plots to get to the happy ending, so I'm sorry if you disagree.. maybe this chapter will change your mind about her?
I hope people are still interested, so don't be afraid to drop a review.. it keeps me motivated and you guys are amazing! So thanks for the support :)
"Okay class, forget 'Pride and Prejudice' for now." Haley said to her students, who burst into a fit of cheers. "We're doing something else today." She quickly cleared her throat, and clasped her hands together. "I want you to write about a person who has made the biggest impact on your life."
"What do you mean?" One student asked.
"Write an essay, or a letter, or a paragraph about someone who changed your life, for better or worse." Haley clarified.
The students then took out their writing utensils and journals and pondered what to write about. Haley made it over to her desk and began spilling her heart on the paper. After about thirty minutes of constant writing, and hardly lifting the pen off of the paper, Haley looked up and realized there were only five minutes left remaining.
"If you didn't finish, that's okay, but for right now, I'm going to share with you what I wrote." Haley said.
Her eleventh grade English class finished what they were writing, and looked up with wide eyes, curious as to what their English Teacher wrote about.
She quietly cleared her throat and looked down at the paper.
"Nathan Scott. The six foot two, NBA player, with short raven hair and dazzling blue eyes, changed my life forever. On May 31st, 2008, I looked into those fierce blue eyes for the first time in my life, and little did I know, that those eyes would haunt me for the rest of my life. Over the next three months, I watched those eyes. I saw them turn a deeper blue when he would stare at me, and I saw them flicker in the light when he was happy. I also saw them shed tears on the day we parted. I grew to not only love his eyes, but everything else about him.
His cocky smirk. It literally drove me crazy! It made me mad whenever he smirked, but it was also him. It made him even more attractive then I thought was possible. I also grew to love the tiny black freckle underneath his left eye. The way he smelt made my heart burst through my chest. Just a simple look into those warm blue eyes, or a simple kiss, made those giant butterflies in my stomach flip up and down. I didn't know it at the time, but that was what love felt like. I was in love with Nathan Scott. I still am. Five years later, and when I look into those same blue eyes, those butterflies in my stomach still flip, and my heart still hammers in my chest. Nathan Scott is responsible for that. What am I responsible for? Breaking his heart. I'm not proud of it, nor did I plan on it. I was a selfish eighteen year old girl, and I was scared of getting my own heart broken, so instead, I broke the heart that was the only thing that ever meant anything to me. I thought it was the right thing to do at the time, but looking back now, it was my biggest mistake I've ever made- and guess what? Five years later, I'm paying the price. My heart is still broken, and it yearns to look into those familiar blue eyes with a loving look that I once remember seeing.
So let me tell you a story about Nathan Scott. Out of all the memories, and times we shared, there is one moment that I will never, ever forget. I don't want to forget any memory with him, but there is a certain memory that really sticks with me, and if you ask me why, I will have no idea how to answer. Because honestly, I don't know why I always remember this, but I just do.
It was August 10th, 2008. My sister Vivian was getting married right here in Tree Hill. Nathan and I, were in Holden Beach for that summer, but I drove up to Tree Hill for the wedding. Nathan came with me, because he was my date. I remember how nervous he was because this would be the first time he met my entire family. I mean, we were only dating for less than two months, and the poor guy was about to pass out from nerves. He said he'd never really had a girlfriend before, and he'd never met a girl that he likes, family, and he was afraid that my family wouldn't like them.
Anyway, he dressed up in a tux and everything, and god, he was so handsome. My family loved him. All of my uncles bonded over basketball, and my aunts thought he was cute. My sisters were happy that I was happy. I don't know anyone who didn't love him. My one sister, Taylor, liked him a little too much. She actually grabbed his face and KISSED him! God, I was pissed! She claimed she was drunk, but I knew she wasn't. Nathan was so shocked, and embarrassed, He felt horrible. I wasn't mad at him, because he instantly pushed her off of him, and he claimed I was a way better kisser but, I slapped her right across the face. She kept flirting with him the entire night, but Nathan was a trooper. I know he was getting annoyed but he was polite, and put up with her. He never flirted with her back, and I knew he was too good to be true, You know why? Because every single guy I've ever liked, liked my sister Taylor. My first boyfriend cheated on me with her. I was nervous that it would happen with Nathan too. Taylor had always been so much prettier than me, and I never thought I was good enough- until Nathan. Nathan made me feel like I was a queen. He made me the happiest girl alive. He chose me over my sister, and he never even looked at her twice. He wanted me and only me, and just for that- I fell in love with him.
He was perfect. Sure we had disagreements and didn't always like the same things, but he was really the best boyfriend a girl could dream of. He was my Romeo. My prince. The love of my life. I didn't know that at the time. He had to leave in order for me to realize it.
I'll never forget that night. We danced to a few slow songs. I remember every single one that played. I never wanted that night to end. It was truly perfect. He held me in his arms, and I had never felt happier. The moment was just perfect. He had his arms wrapped tightly around my waist, and I felt so safe. I rested my head on his chest, and closed my eyes, just feeling the moment. I close my eyes sometimes and try to picture that moment, because that was the best night of my life,
I remember he whispered in my ear and he said, "The next time we dance at a wedding, it will be ours."
Normally, girls would freak out about that. After all, we had only been together for two months, but when he said that, I smiled so wide, my cheeks actually hurt. My future flashed before my eyes, and I felt so happy. I didn't even think about the fact we'd be going to two different colleges in less than a month, but instead, I pictured dancing with him in a white dress. walking down the aisle, I saw us moving in a house with a white picket fence, and having five kids- because that's the number we agreed on- and a dog, and growing old together, with tons of grandchildren to spoil. That whole scenario just felt so settling, and I was so happy. I didn't want to say anything to ruin the moment, so I just leaned up and kissed him. I poured all of my emotions into the kiss, and I was shocked he didn't realize I loved him. I don't know why I didn't say it, because I sure as hell felt it.
I was never sure of anything in my life, more than I was sure that I loved Nathan Royal Scott, I should have said it. I want to punch myself all the time when I think about it. So the lesson I learned is that you should ALWAYS tell people how you are feeling. Never hold anything back, because now I have to live with this regret. Who knows, maybe Nathan and I would be married by now, with a baby on the way, if I told him I loved him that night. I had a thousand chances to say it, and I never did. I hate myself, I really do. If I was Nathan I would hate me too, especially after all I've put him through. I have to stop living in the past, and move on. I can't keep thinking 'what if?'. It's just not healthy. Today is now. The past is done. The only thing I can do is try and alter my future, because I want my future with Nathan. I want to dance with him at our wedding. I want to fight over the amount of kids we're going to have. And most of all, I want to grow old with him. I want to be his always and forever. But once again, I think I've royally screwed up that opportunity.
So I guess what I'm trying to say is that, you never know what happens in life, so just don't hold anything back, I never told Nathan how I felt. He told me he loved me on the last day before we left for college. I had been waiting for him to say that since our first date, and you know what I did? Take a wild guess. That's right, I ran away. Actually, I pushed him away- but it still had the same result: both of our hearts were broken. So I am an idiot. I don't care how many 100's I got on tests- I am still stupid, until proven otherwise. I let the best thing that ever happened to me slip right through my hands. I was so wrapped up in the possibility of getting hurt, that I didn't realize I hurt myself and Nathan anyway. So he told me he loved me and I pushed him away. So don't do that. If someone says they love you, don't think about the future- think about that moment and say it back. Don't make the same mistake I did.
So yes, Nathan Scott changed my life- for better AND for worse. It was better because he brought out something in me I never knew was even possible. He taught me how to love, and be carefree. That night of the wedding, his car broke down, so we walked to a motel in the rain. Most people would have been pissed or annoyed or whatever, but we had fun. We FELT the rain. We danced, and kissed, and it was like a movie but better-because it was real- it was my life. We were completely saturated and our clothes were ruined but we didn't care because we had each other. I would do anything to have that night again. So if I could go back, I would change some things. But I can't, and now I'm going to live in hell with out him- so that's why he made my life worse. Well technically I made my life worse because he never did anything wrong. In fact he was completely and utterly amazing the entire relationship. So no, he did not make my life worse- I did. He was and always will be the best thing that ever happened to me."
Haley finished reading her paper, and her entire class stood up clapping and cheering with a standing ovation. She smiled shyly and a light blush crept on her cheeks.
"That was deep, Miss. J!" Quentin Fields shouted.
"Amazing." Jill complimented.
"I love you!" Another girl shouted.
Haley laughed, "Thank you guys."
"You should read that to Nathan!" Joe advised.
Haley bit her lip, "Oh no, I can't."
"Why not?" Another student asked.
"I just... I don't know. I can't." Haley answered and pressed her lips together.
"You should, I think he would really like it."
Before Haley could answer, the bell rang and her students filed out of her classroom, leaving her alone at her desk and starring at the tiny purple flowers Nathan gave her.
"Hey man, how'd it go?" Lucas asked eagerly as he opened his door to find a pissed off Nathan.
"Like shit." Nathan answered curtly.
"What? Why? What happened?" Lucas asked.
"She fucking said no, that's what happened!" Nathan shouted.
"Okay man, calm down-"
"Calm down?" Nathan snorted. "Once again, the love of my life, stood me up. You really expect me to calm down?"
"Okay poor choice of words, sorry..." Lucas defended himself. "This just has to be some mistake. Haley wants you back Nate, so why would she say no?"
"She's going with someone else." Nathan whispered sadly.
"Are you kidding?"
Nathan's head shot up and he glared at his cousin.
"Okay, I'll take that as a no." Lucas mumbled.
Nathan rolled his eyes, "I'm done Luke. I give up. Every time I put my heart on the line, she steps on it. I can't keep doing this. It's not worth it."
"It's not?"
"No. I thought it was, but it's not. She doesn't want me Luke, so why should I even fight it?"
"This doesn't make any sense! Haley never got over you-"
"Well it sure seems she's over me." Nathan replied in a hurt voice.
"Did she anything else?" Lucas asked.
Nathan shook his head, "I didn't give her the chance. I left."
"Aw man. I'm sorry." Lucas frowned and pulled Nathan in for a quick hug.
Nathan shrugged, "It's whatever. I just made myself look like a complete ass in front of a bunch of seventeen year olds though."
"So what are you going to do?" Lucas pried.
"I guess I'm bringing Alex as my date." Nathan sighed.
"What did Nathan do now?" Brooke asked as Haley walked into Brooke's store, 'Clothe's over Bro's.'
Haley laughed through her tears and quickly wiped them away. "Nothing, you should be asking me 'What did you do to break Nathan's heart again?"
"Uh oh. What happened?" Brooke asked.
Haley sighed and lifted herself to sit on the counter. "He came in, all romantic, with flowers and asked me to be my date for the wedding-"
"That's so precious!" Brooke gushed.
Haley took a deep breath and bit her lip, "I know..."
"So you obviously said yes, right?"
"Um no." Haley said shyly.
Brooke furrowed her brows and slapped Haley across the cheek.
"Ow!" Haley exclaimed. "What was that for?"
"For saying no! Are you an idiot?"
"Yeah."
"Why'd you say no?"
"Because I'm going with Chase!"
Another slap.
"Ow, Brooke! Would you stop that, please?" Haley scolded.
"Sorry, but why would you go with Chase? Are you on something?"
Haley rolled her eyes, "I asked him only because I thought Nathan was bringing that Annie girl-"
"You mean Alex?"
"Yeah whatever her stupid name is." Haley huffed.
"So why can't you cancel with him and go with Nathan?" Brooke advised.
"That's what I want to do!" Haley exclaimed, "But Nathan said no, and walked away. Once again, I screwed everything up!"
Brooke sighed and hugged her friend, "It's okay Hales, everything will be okay. If it's meant to be, it will happen..."
"Yeah I guess you're right." Haley whispered.
"Just because you're going with Chase doesn't mean you still can't dance and flirt with Nate you know..." Brooke smiled coyly.
Haley giggled, "Oh Brooke, what would I do without you?"
"Die." Brooke said simply.
"You're probably right." Haley sighed, "But Nathan hates me now..."
"I doubt that." Brooke replied.
"He definitely does. He keeps putting himself out there, and all I do is hurt him-"
"You don't do it on purpose..."
"But still, it happens, and I feel bad. I would have loved to have gone with him. Maybe, just maybe, we could have worked things out."
"You still can." Brooke responded positively.
"I don't know what's going to happen, but I just want this wedding to be over already." Haley huffed.
Thoughts?
Next chapter will the wedding. Can't wait! Lots of drama ;)