Chapter 12 Orange and Father advise
Onodera POV
8 months later
Watching outside by the windows taking a glance of the snow falling to the ground slowly. My forehead press against the cold glass as the warm tears trail down my cheeks. It's been so long since I saw Masamune that night. He would call me every once in awhile just to hear my voice and sometimes text but it rarely happens. One day he stops calling me and texting after a month of our last lovemaking. Every morning I often woke up crying without even knowing. I live at my parent mansion now while sharing a room with Ryo since he is my fiancee and soon to be husband. Mother decided the big day would be on Christmas eve. My heart flinch knowing that day is Masamune birthday. How could I marry my best friend on the day of my first love birthday?
Every afternoon Ryo and I would walk around the garden admiring the flowers and the rest of the nature around us. The white roses are the only flowers I would avoid since last White Day during work Masamune brought a bouquet just for me. A new beginning just for the both of us. I cherish those white roses as if my life have depended on it. Ryo notices it but never questions me about it. Probably he knew the reason but won't with talk me about it. That just Ryo he always caring about me whenever I'm feeling heartbroken or lonely. He would often kiss me on the cheeks but mostly on the lips. There were times I don't kiss him back since I'm too busy thinking about Masamune wondering what's he doing right now.
I never saw him again after 8 months of separation which it kills me on the inside. Is Masamune eating and getting enough sleep? Is he seeing someone ...else? Biting my lower lip harshly as more tears drop onto my hands. The thought of Masamune moving onto someone else tore my heart apart. Sobbing on the window lane not knowing who enter my room as I felt a hand on my heart.
"No more tears my son," said Otou-san
"Otou-san..." I replied
"Let gets you out of this room my son"
Otou-san lead me out of my bedroom as he wipes my tears away with his handkerchief. My father understands my situation better than Okaa-san since she never listens to me not even for one minute. That why I have a better relationship with my father than with my own mother. I wasn't sure how things ended up now but it wasn't what I had excepted for my entire life. Ryo and I are bound to be married since we do love each other but I don't want to marry him. Does that mean I don't love him that way anymore? Won't explain it to you at all since I don't know the answer to myself yet.
A few minutes pass as we walked down the hall together not caring if I'm wearing my wedding dress. Mother wanted to make a few alteration before the day of the wedding and I hated it. Wasn't sure what happen next but all I know is that Otou-san lead us to the piano room. I gave my father a small smile knowing if I was upset about something father would lead to the piano room singing our special song together.
"Today we won't be playing our special song"
"Huh?"
"You'll sing Orange"
"Orange?"
"Yes, I use to sing that song every night for you while you were young"
"But I don't know the lyrics Otou-san"
"You don't need to know the lyrics, my son. Let the lyrics know you"
That easier said than done. Sometimes I really don't understand my father choice of words before we sing our song. I sigh quietly as Otou-san began playing the piano for a couple of seconds. All of sudden a light breeze sings into my ears as I saw a bright orange sunlight. It shines through the city but I'm entire confused since it's the beginning of winter.
"Ritsu..." whispers a voice
"Masamune" I whisper back
Orange
Chiisana kata o nabete aruita
Nandemonai koto de warai ai
Onaji yume o mitsumete ita
Mimi o sumaseba ima demo kikoeru
Kiminokoe orenji-iro ni somaru machi no naka
Kimi ga inai to hontou ni taikutsu da ne
Samishii to ieba warawa rete shimau kedo
Nokosareta mono nandomo tashikameru yo
Kieru koto naku kagayaiteru
Ameagari no sora no you na kokoro ga hareru youna
Kimi no egao o oboete iru omoide shite egao ni naru
Kitto futari wa ano hi no mama mujakina kodomo no mama
Meguru kisetsu o kakenukete iku sorezore no ashita o mite
Hitori ni nareba fuan ni naru to
Nemuritaku nai yoru wa hanashi tsudzukete ita
kimi wa korekara nani o mite iku ndarou
watashi wa koko de nani o mite iku nodarou
shizumu yuuyake orenji ni somaru machini
sotto namida o azukete miru
nanoku mo no hikari no naka umareta hitotsu no ai
kawaranakute mo kawatte shimatte mo kimiwa kimidayo shinpai nai yo
itsuka futari ga otona ni natte sutekinahito ni deatte
kakegae no nai kazoku o tsurete kono basho de aeruto ii na
ameagari no sora no youna kokoro ga hareru youna
kimi no egao o oboete iru omoide shite egao ni naru
nan oku mo no hikari no naka umareta hitotsu no ai
meguru kisetsu o kakenukete iku sorezore no ashita o mite
sorezore no yume o erande
Soon the warm sunlight and light breeze vanish once I open my eyes seeing my father giving a sad smile. I notice my cheeks were slightly wet with tears drops on my hands. Was I crying while singing my father song? Otou-san hugged me tightly as my tears continue to stream down my cheeks silently. How can this beautiful song make me cry as I sang? I didn't understand at all. Otou-san wipes my tears away once more before placing his hands on my shoulders.
"Go with Masamune your true love," said my father
"What? But father what about the wedding?" I asked
"I don't care about the wedding. I care for my son happiness with the man he truly loves"
"Otou-san..."
"Don't make the same mistake I did"
The same mistake he did? What mistake did he do back in his good old days? Otou-san sighs sadly before pulling out a silver locket. I remember seeing it before when I was younger but my father would often hide it in his office. He never let anyone see it including me. Every night I would see him in his office crying with the locket clutch in his hand. Breaks my heart seeing my father cry because of that locket.
"This locket isn't just any old locket my son. It's my last gift from the man who was my true love"
"Man? Otou-san were you? Did you?"
"Yes, I love and dated another man during my high school year. I loved him so much with all heart. But when your grandparents set me up with your mother,my first love gave him this locket as a symbol our final goodbye and eternal love. I love him and still do to this very day."
"Otou-san...Gomenasai"
"It's alright my son, I could've chosen my first love but instead, I choose to keep my parents proud instead keep my own happiness. You have the choice that I never have Ritsu. Don't let these situations destroy your own happiness"
"Arigato Otou-san"
"Anytime my son"
I hugged my father tightly before rushing out of the piano room. Didn't care if I was still wearing my dress but I have to see Masamune. I can't last another month, weeks, or days with him.
Thank you, Father