Author's Note: Hey, guys! I usually don't put this up here, but I just wanted to get this out of your way really fast! First of all, thank you ALL for being so sweet and kind! I'm sorry if I haven't been able to reply back to most of you, but in case you're wondering, I went camping last weekend so that threw things in for a spin. There is one person I want to reply to real quick because they asked me if I've played TF2 and the answer is YES, I have before, but not so much nowadays. Anyway, so that's where I've been over the last few days. Now back to our regularly scheduled Flowey journaling!
16. I was so close to killing someone! I swear, if I had gotten my hands on them, they would have been DEAD! Frisk would know, he was there. Now, I barely talk to Frisk. Frisk is worse than I am and THAT is saying a lot, but he tries to make things up to me by taking me out more and blah blah blah. Anyway, he took me around town, showing me different places like he's done at least COUNTLESS times before. Okay, maybe a couple of times before. Though, the surface looks a lot more modern compared to how I last remembered it. On the other hand, I sure am glad to see the humans haven't changed a bit. Nope! They're still as bloodthirsty as ever. As we walked by, they sometimes would give us glares. The kind of glares that would puncture your SOUL! Usually, I try to look away and control my breathing, but I have no SOUL and I got bored.
The next person who passed by us looked especially peeved. I hurled an insult at him, just because I can! Boy, I didn't think I'd be able to do it, too. That guy looked like a REAL SCUMBAG. And he was. He punched Frisk right in the face.
Then I used one of those comebacks those political guys do. There was this one guy with the really stupid hair. Everyone tried to make me impersonate him for a week because I did him so well. Anyways, I took off from him. That wasn't my smartest move. He tried to pull off his pants after that... showing off his ballerina tutu… Welp, I was in such a state of shock, I completely blanked out. I can't remember a thing. But, as I was wiping the blood off of my vines, I already knew Frisk was almost DEAD.
Speaking of that, what the hell, Frisk!? Not only was I forced to spare that guy, but you know I got punished because of you? Boy, are you STUPID! What were you doing, jumping into bullets like that? Don't you know they're supposed to KILL people?! But Frisk didn't die. He didn't even RESET. Instead, he was sent to the hospital. He's recovering right now. And that idiot who tore his pants off is behind bars. As for me... well... let's just say... Sans and Toriel wouldn't let me off the hook. Though I don't care how many times I have to type "I will keep my vines and bullets to myself." AT LEAST, I didn't kill anybody. Frisk and I were just having a little playdate, that's all! Those are my final words, your honor! CASE DISMISSED!
17. Finally, after what felt like an eternity of suffering, I got to Frisk! Not because I wanted to see him or anything. I just wanted his laptop. Papyrus and Undyne had taken it so Frisk would have something to do and I've been bored for DAYS! This tablet doesn't do much for me as far as games go so I'm practically forced to rely on him computer. I'm still not talking to him, though.
18. Alphys came today. She wanted to tell me that they're going to experiment on me soon. I almost slapped her. ALMOST. As if she hadn't experimented with me enough! Just the THOUGHT of her lab in the Underground is a horrortale. She said her lab on the surface was a lot cleaner than the old one. I BETTER HOPE SO.
19. I heard Toriel was talking with Asgore while I was gone. Ever since I moved back home, they've been talking more. They're obviously talking about me. They think Sans is right when he says that I'm sick. ...I think he's right, too.
But that's just because I don't have a SOUL. I can't remember a happier in my life than that time I could feel the hearts of every monster beating as one. For once, I didn't feel LOVE, but love. If I could feel that again… if I could feel that all the time… What Sans is trying to do is POINTLESS! It's not like the humans could HELP ME! They'll just make things worse. Like they already are...
Toriel and Asgore don't get it. They think because I'm flower that I feel like I'm not good enough for them. If only I could fool myself with that, too. I only asked Toriel if she still loved me so she could say "Of course I do, Asriel. I love you very, very much!" She thought she was saying that to reassure me, but in truth, she's only reassuring herself, because I'm just waiting for mom to throw me out of her life for good... Just like she did with dad...