I'm still dead because of "Virgins"...ahhhhhh :D
What a lovely episode :) So excited for the next one

But now...the next chapter

Nick lay on his side, his head on his hand, and looked down at the small woman, who was curled up and pressed against his chest. Her eyes were closed, but Nick knew she wasn't sleeping. She was just 'fully taking in and enjoying the moment' as she once explained him. She did it very often after they had sex. It was precious and cute and one of the many little things, Nick loved about her.

His hand was stroking over her back gently and he tried to pull her closer, even though there was almost no space between them already. It was maybe, probably, because they had finally talked about their feelings, but right now, Jess just couldn't be close enough for him. He loved her and she loved him and everything was good.

He put a lose hair behind her ear and let out a little sigh.

She opened one eye and looked at him. "What are you sighing about, Miller? You're not allowed to sigh after what we just had"

He chuckled. "Sorry. I was just thinking how stupid it is, that I had to knock you up and freak out first, before we can talk about our feelings for each other. That's probably not the way it should be"

She looked at him for a moment and then shrugged. "I like it"

"You like it?", he asked with a frown.

"Well, not that part in particular. But I like that we're not 'the way it should be'...", she smiled at him, "We're weirdos"

He returned her smile and leaned down to give her a kiss on the forehead.

"Just one thing", she said a bit more serious.

He raised his eyebrows questioningly.

"No more running away. For both of us. Al least not without saying something. Promise?"

He smirked. "Okay, from now on I will inform you before running off"

She wrinkled her nose and punched him slightly in the stomach.

He let out a laugh and caught her hand. "I promise. No more running", he said softly and pressed a kiss on the back of her hand before letting her go.

"Good", she said, closed her eyes again and snuggled up to him.

Nick's hand started to wander over her body again which she commented with a comforting sigh.

Finally his hand came to a stop on her stomach and a huge smile appeared on his face. For the first time since Jess had told him, that she was pregnant, he felt like he was allowed to be happy about it.

"Jess", he waited until she opened her eyes again, "We're having a baby", he finally said with a big grin, "It's going to be awesome"

The biggest smile spread across her face. "Yeah", she grinned, "Can you imagine us on the playground? You'll probably yell at every kid that's too loud"

He smirked. "Oh..and you will then try to improve the mood by singing weird songs"

"We're going to be the most embarrassing parents ever"

"Absolutely", he nodded.

They both started to laugh and their eyes were beaming at each other.

"Hey Nick", Jess said after a while in a more serious voice, "You will be a great dad. I have no doubts about that"

His breath caught in his lungs for a second at her words and the kindness in her eyes. He swallowed to get rid of the lump in his throat. "Thanks"

She just nodded slightly and gave him the sweetest little smile.

"Let's just hope it won't get your turtle face", she was laughing again.

He put on said face. "Let's just hope it won't get your..", he echoed and looked over her body to find something to get back at her. But he couldn't find anything, so he just shrugged.

"Aww", she crawled up to him, "You're so cute"

And before he could protest, Jess silenced him by pressing her lips on his.

Two hours later they still hadn't managed to get out of the bed. Jess head rested on his shoulder and her hand played with his chest hair preoccupiedly.

Nick frowned when he saw, that her face had a thoughtful expression.

"You okay?"

She raised her head and gave him a weak smile. "Yeah, sure"

"Come on Jess. I know that face. You have something on your mind"

"It's just...about your dad...", she started and looked at him unsurely.

"What's about him?"

She sat up and leaned against the headboard. "I actually never told you that, but the morning before he left...he talked to me and I'm pretty sure he wanted to tell me, that I should tell you, that he loved you. I think he just couldn't express his feelings very well. He ended up saying that I should keep an eye on you"

"He said that?"

She nodded. "The way I got to know him and...after what you just told me..I believe, he was", she paused a moment, searching for the right word, "intimidated by you and that's why he wasn't able to show you, how he felt"

"Intimidated?", he repeated doubtfully. He couldn't imagine his dad being intimidated by anything or anyone.

"Yeah, look, you weren't just a scared little boy. And your Dad knew that. You're honest, thoughtful and sensitive. And with that probably the opposite of him and everything he did. He didn't know how to deal with that"

Now Nick was the one with the thoughtful expression.

"And I also think, you dad wasn't as fearless as you think, Nick", she continued, "Have you ever thought about the possibility that he was scared to be a dad and that's why he was never around? And then he saw you, a little kid, doing the thing he couldn't. That made him angry about himself and he let it out on you. But I really think, deep down, he knew how brave you were and he was very proud"

Nick didn't say anything. He just looked at his hands with a frown on his face.

"I'm thirsty. Gonna grab something to drink", she gave him a little smile and stood up.

He sat up and put his feet on the ground. Was it possible that Jess was right? His family had a various way to deal with fear. He got angry, when he was scared. His mom got mean. Jamie got aggressive. Maybe Walt chose to deal with his fear by not dealing with it.

He let out a sigh. As much as he liked what Jess just said, he would never find out to which degree her words were true. His dad was dead and he could never talk to him again. But somehow the fact alone that Jess said these things gave him a warm feeling. Even if it wasn't true for his dad, it showed that she saw him that way. He thought about the three words, Jess used to describe him. Honest, thoughtful and sensitive. He liked it.

"Hey", he greeted her as he joined her in the kitchen.

She stopped her search trough the cupboards, turned around and smiled. "Are you hungry? I wanted to make some pasta"

"I never say no to food", he chuckled and sat down on one of the bar chairs, "Listen, I was thinking since I was a little bit of an idiot the last days and really focused on myself, I haven't paid you much attention. So how about I'll make up for it? I would love to take you out or go on a little trip, but I'm afraid I can't afford that right now. But maybe just go to the beach or in a nice park?"

For a moment she just looked at him. Her head was tilted slightly to the side and her eyes sparkled. "I would love that", she finally said with a big smile.

Just a heads up...
I think I'll write like 2 or 3 more chapters for this fic and then end it. I will not go through the whole pregnancy...because I wouldn't know what to write ;)
But maybe I'll make a time leap and write one final chapter about that...or something like that :)