38. This is not the first time Asgore's tried to replicate a game of catch. He'd sit in the grass and roll the ball over to me. It got boring after awhile and now it's just annoying. What interests me more is what he's saying to Frisk.
He's explaining to Frisk something about monster inequality. That humans are afraid of the monsters and some laws got passed where monsters are restricted from doing certain things. Some laws are really stupid, like that monsters can't interbreed with humans. Why does it matter? Asgore even stopped a law that would segregate monsters and humans from schools. No wonder Chara hated humanity. Humans are just a pain all around, aren't they? At least they're not planning to murder us or anything! Not as long as we have someone like Frisk.
39. I used to like Golden Flower tea, but now it just brings bad memories. My dad could be a real SICKO when he wants to be! Hee Hee Hee! In one of my RESETS, he tried to BREW ME into his tea. If only he knew! If he actually remembered that, I bet he'd never drink that disgusting concoction again!
I smashed my pot on the ground to display my disapproval, but Asgore didn't understand what I meant. He thought I was just being "moody". Even FRISK thought that. Asgore asked me, "Did your mother remember to give you your medicine?" I scoffed at him. He thinks he's talking to HIM, but he's not. No one seems to get that I'm not like HIM. I'll NEVER be HIM!
I don't think Frisk understands either. He doesn't understand me at all. Just because he has the ability to SAVE is meaningless to me. He's better off without me. They ALL are better off without me. For them, I'm nothing but trouble. Do they genuinely believe I could be a good person? Do they really? I only stayed because I wanted Frisk to be happy, but I guess for him... I'm not good enough. Ha ha...
I'll never be good enough.
40. Nowadays Sans and I have been going to see Undyne and Alphys while the others are gone. I don't know why. In the meantime, Toriel bought me these giant workbooks and Undyne is supposed to supervise me while I -
Would it KILL her not to shoot at the screen!? Geez... FINE, I'LL STOP JOURNALING!
41. I hate these workbooks. All I seem to write in them is unintelligible chicken scratch. I'm a FLOWER. What do these people WANT from me?! I'm contemplating over if I should burn this or not.
42. I wonder...
"Um... U-UNDYNE?"
"What?!"
"HELP!"
"ALPHYS? WHA-"
"Quick, G-G-GET SOME WATER!"
"REALLY, FLOWEY!? Set the whole house on fire, why don't you?"
"i gotta say. that book's gotta be hottest thing right now."
"Wow, Sans, how smart are you to figure THAT out!?"
"Undyne, please!"
"All right! Geez... Flowey, are you MOCKING us!?"
43. Hee Hee Hee! That was WORTH IT! Just to see their faces crinkle at me like that made it worth mocking. I've got to say though, it wasn't my plan to fall asleep in the corner like that. Guess I was more tired than I thought.
Anyways, Alphys asked me if I was feeling better about the whole SOUL thing and... well... I'm not. I still think she's making the whole thing up. She said she wanted to go and run another test on me. Don't ask me why, but it actually surprised me how much determination I had to say, "yes".
Author's Note: Oh my gosh, you guys! So I an SO SORRY about yesterday! I originally had this scheduled for yesterday, but I was like legit exhausted! Last weekend was really long for me, which is ironic in a way because I felt like it went by so fast! xD Anyway, thank you so much for being patient with me, everyone! Tomorrow I plan to go back to the regular schedule. Enjoy your day! ;P