Author's note: yesterday I updated two chapters and finished my other story, lol I was supposed to be revising for a maths exam today but turns out I'm still ill I can't even speak let alone do maths...I'm gonna have to ACTUALLY revise today, so maybe only one update. thanks for reviewing and reading, it means a lot, thanks to everyone that's given me ideas too I couldn't do it without you guys :) xxxxx

Chloe didn't know why she kept pushing Beca away; it was odd because usually Chloe clung to people and let them in immediately. But in this case Chloe was fully shutting Beca out. Of course, she told herself that it was just because of her job. But when you're in love with someone should that really matter? Beca didn't seem to think so. And what would it matter in a few months at the end of the year anyway? Chloe knew she was unnecessarily hurting Beca and unnecessarily creating drama. They could've found a way to make it work, she knew that. But something inside Chloe was afraid; Beca already had a strong hold on her. She could hurt her so much, just like Tom did. Except Beca could hurt her more than Tom. And that was really scary.

But Beca never wanted to let anyone in. E.V.E.R. She pushed everyone away; Jesse, her parents, even Stacie. Except for Chloe. She was desperate for her to be around. She was so in love with the woman it physically hurt. But Beca began to think that, Chloe must not feel the same way, otherwise they would be together. Because if she felt the way Beca did then she would not push Beca away.

So November came and it started to get cold, and Luke started to get impatient with Chloe constantly finding excuses not to go home with him.

"Chloe do you not like me or something?" he sighed, leaning against his car at the end of the night.

They'd just been to the movies and it was eleven pm. Chloe liked dating him, buttt she didn't feel much when they kissed. And after two weeks together he was beginning to see this.

Chloe's stomach dropped. She was hoping that this conversation would not ever have to happen.

"I..." she began, crossing her arms tight across her body, partially because she was so cold and was only wearing a blue jumper. He tried to catch her eye but she was just staring at his shoes.

"Just be honest please," Luke insisted, taking a step closer to her and putting a hand on her shoulder.

"I guess...I do like you," Chloe said weakly.

"But..." he said, knowing what was coming.

She sighed.

"But I'm still kinda into someone else."

Chloe shrugged, and the silence between them was a little painful. He dropped his hand.

"Are you cheating?" he asked, breaking the silence.

"No, no," she frowned and shook her head. "I just, I'm not quite over them. Yet."

"Okay."

He crossed his arms too now, and Chloe tried not to look at his biceps because they were so sexy, and she knew she would miss them after what was inevitbly about to happen.

"So you wanna break up then?" he sighed, voicing both of their thoughts.

Chloe just looked at him sadly and nodded.

"Yeah," her voice broke. Why was she getting upset about Luke?!

"Okay. Cool."

He ran a hand through his blonde hair and tried to smile but it looked very pained.

"Sorry," Chloe offered half-heartedly.

"No, it's fine," Luke lied. "We've not exactly been dating long so."

"Yeah. I guess...I guess I might see you around?" she asked pathetically.

"Sure. Bye Chloe."

He hugged her in one of his amazing warm hugs, and they lingered for a moment before Chloe smiled and walked off home.

Why was she constantly breaking up with people?! Why?!

"Stacie?" Beca slurred down the phone. "Stacie, I don't know where you are dude but I really need someone here right now man, I am wasted please come meet me please, I'm at Bumper's party, dude oh shit-"

Beca put down the phone to puke all over the floor.

She was sat against the wall outside Bumper's apartment, head pounding and stomach churning. Music was blaring on the other side of the door and she could hear people singing and dancing. Beca had been feeling particularly upset about Chloe and had been kind of an idiot and drank way too much. And now she was just slumped against the wall, wishing someone cared about her enough to come and help her. But even Stacie wasn't picking up.

"Sorry, I just puked," Beca picked up the phone again and started rambling more, then her phone started ringing- it was Stacie.

"Oh thank God, hey Stace!" Beca finally exhaled.

"Um, hey."

"Dude I am fucking pissed how do you know if you have alcohol poisoning...? I think I have it, I feel like I'm dying," Beca laughed, but then got hit by a wave of nausea.

"Stacie come back," Beca heard in the background. It was not Stacie's voice. Beca was confused...

"Is there someone else there...?" She asked.

Stacie didn't say anything for a moment but she could hear whispering on the other side of the phone.

"Uh, yeah," she said finally. "Hun, where are you?"

"Are you hooking up with someone right now?" Beca demanded.

"Um, yeah I am," Stacie admitted and Beca felt furious all of a sudden, she wasn't even sure why.

"Fuck you then!"

"Why are you angry-?"

Beca threw the phone across the corridor and punched the wall hard. Then she curled up into a little ball and cried. Fuck.

So Beca woke up the next day, freezing cold in the corridor outside Bumper's dorm. It was eleven am, and she'd just missed chemistry class, but like she would've learnt anyway. She couldn't remember a whole lot about the night before, she knew that she felt totally abandoned. She could remember asking Stacie to help her when she was puking and then Stacie saying she was fucking someone else. Obviously they were just fuckbuddies...but Beca just felt like there was literally no-one in her life that genuinely gave a shit about her. It was painful.

She felt like total shit, but somehow made it into English class thirty minutes later. It was tough to even walk since she was so hungover and had to stop twice to puke, but eventually she fell through the lecture hall room on time and made it to her seat.

Throughout the lesson Beca just watched Chloe, remembering how much she fucking liked her. It physically hurt.

"Chloe, I'm sorry..." Beca rambled, when the lesson was over. "You're not into me...I get it...I understand. You deserve better than me so. So I just need to back off."

Beca was keeping her distance this time, and she had to hold onto a table for support, her head pounding painfully.

"Yeah..." Chloe agreed reluctantly. She seemed particularly quiet today, Beca thought, which was slightly weird.

"Okay," Beca said. "Bye."

And she turned to stagger off, feeling sorry for herself.

"Wait," Chloe called after her.

Beca turned around, surprised.

"Yeah?"

"D'you wanna hang out sometime?" Chloe asked, awkwardly tugging at her hands.

Beca face broke out into a huge smile.

"Sure," she agreed in a quiet voice.

"Okay," Chloe couldn't help smiling too, Beca's happiness was infectious. "I'll text you."

"Yay. Maybe not today though," Beca said.

"No," Chloe laughed.

"Okay. Bye," Beca grinned and left the lecture hall.

A/N: What do you think...? was it too short? I'm sorry if it was...but it does kinda feel like a standalone chapter and that beca and chloe hanging out should be a new chapter...? what do you guys think? anyway drop me a review thanks for reading xxx