Confusion.

What happens when things change? One minute you're best friends, the next, there's a change. A confusing, fuzzy change. The kind that you're hesitant to put you finger on until it's too late. I wonder what-

My blog post was interrupted by my ringing phone. I answered it and jumped off my bed, knowing I wouldn't stay there. "Hello?" I said, beaming before Tamara even had the chance to reply.

"Hamilton! Are you going to LIssa's party tonight?"

I blinked. "No...I wasn't invited." How had Jake's current girlfriend gotten an invite before his ex girlfriend? I thought Lissa and I were cool now.

"Well, now you are. Jake and I were invited, and he can't go. So you wanna go?"

I thought about saying yes, but then a better idea came to mind. "How about you blow off the party and come over. We can watch movies and talk, like old times."

"But J-"

"I've got Smirnoff."

"Be over in 30."

I smiled as I got off the phone, jumping right into getting ready. I picked up a little in the living room and dragged out her favorite movies, new and old. I ran down to the basement where I kept the Smirnoff and raced back up, feeling myself become more delightfully anxious as time crunched in. Finally, after what seemed like forever and five minute later at the same time, there was a knock at the door. "It's open!" I yelled, sitting on the couch with freshly popped popcorn. She walked in, dragging her bag behind her. I rolled my eyes and got up, picking up the bag and putting it in my room. I walked back in to the living room to find her sitting on the couch, picking at the popcorn. "Did you already put the movie in?" I asked, sitting down by her and getting the bottle off the table. She nodded. "What movie?" I asked, twisting the cap off the bottle and taking a sip.

"Is that even a question?"

I shrugged. "The Notebook?"

"Mhmm." She took the bottle from me and took a swig from it.

By the end of the movie, the bottle was gone, and I had a slight buzz. As the credits rolled, Tamara turned to me. "Is there another bottle?"

"Downstairs...Why?"

"Go get it."

"Come with me."

"Seriously?"

"We can get more that way." I pointed out.

"Race you down there!" She took off from the couch, and I shook my head, following after her. Downstairs, she grabbed two bottles and tried to hand two to me.

"Whoa, trying to get drunk or have alcohol poisoning? You know it doesn't take much with you. Give me three of those." She handed them over and I sat them down, "Come on, let's go put on another movie."

"Can we watch Letters To Juliet?"

"What is it with you and the rom-coms?"

"It's a cute movie!" She said defensively.

"Whatever you say." I started up the stairs, stopping halfway up to make sure she was following. When we got up the stairs, she ran over to the couch and plopped down. "Okay, I'll change the movie." I quickly changed the movies and sat on the couch. She took the bottle from me and popped it open, taking a long drink as I pressed play on the dvd menu. It was going to be a long two hours.

At the end of that movie, my buzz had intensified, and my filter was disappearing. I'd been making weird comments for the last hour, and I knew it was probably time that we went to sleep before I said something I'd regret in the morning. I got up to put the dvd back, and suggested we go change. She agreed and we went to my room. I grabbed a t-shirt and some shorts and started to leave. I was almost out the door when she stumbled over to me. "Where you going? This is your room."

I cringed. "So you don't mind if I change in here?"

"Of course not!" She said, giggling a little. I put my back to her and changed quickly, running out of the room. I set everything up on the ground, finishing up just in time for her to come flying out the way I did. "Are we going to sleep now?'

"I think we should lay down."

"Okay. We can still talk though, right?"

"Sure, T." I said, lying down and turning away from her. For what seemed like forever, the room was silent. I was just beginning to fall a,sleep when she broke the silence.

"J, can I ask you something?"

"Go ahead." I said, yawning.

"Why have you been acting weird?