Sorry for the delay, work got in the way of my fanfiction-ing. That and my other story is in progress and had a first chapter that needed writing and publishing. Thank you for your continued readership.
Timeline Quibbles: This is why you should figure out where in your timeline the story takes place before writing the story. I haven't quite nailed down when this story takes place, but I feel like somewhere mid-season 2.
Dyson shook his head, as if to clear it, and then looked down at Kenzi. She was such a tiny human being, but he reveled in her in a way he should've found odd before. Had he been so wrapped up in Bo, so tied to her, that he hadn't realized it before?
"Dyson?" Kenzi looked up at him meekly, and he felt her fear and confusion. This wasn't right. She, above all others, shouldn't be feeling that way around him.
"Lauren, I think there's something we need to do. Outside. Trick probably needs something." Bo shuffled her and the doctor outside, giving a quick look at Kenzi before they left.
Dyson released a breath he didn't realize he was holding. Being around another Fae while his claim on Kenzi was still fresh was hard to handle, especially someone with whom she was so close, someone who's own claim had been a possibility.
"Kenzi, I…" Dyson started, but then stopped, running his fingers through his own hair. He was exhausted. He hadn't had much sleep the previous night due to Kenzi's experimentation with the mark, and today he had continued to exert himself. He was too tired to have the talk, but it needed to happen.
"Dyson, is there something you're not telling me?" Kenzi asked, her hand coming to rest on his bare hip, her cheek to his chest.
"Not intentionally. Lauren's comment triggered something, but it has to be wrong." Dyson held Kenzi close.
"Because it was supposed to be Bo?" Her voice was so quiet, so resigned, it was hear t breaking. Resigned wasn't Kenzi. She was a fighter.
"Yes. And no." Dyson led Kenzi to the couch. "Kenzi, when the Norn took away my love for her, I have never felt so…" Kenzi curled her body on top of his, but didn't look at him.
"Empty. I remember. When we switched bodies, I remember the feeling. Like a hole in the middle of your chest." Kenzi whispered.
"Yes." Dyson rubbed his face into her hair. "I thought she was the one—wolves mate for life." He could feel her sadness through their bond. "Kenzi, I'm not done."
"I'm not sure I want to hear about your floaty lovey dovey feelings with my roomie, OK," she made the move to leave, but he held her to him, "Especially when we've been having mind blowing sex for days, probably while you were wanting your soul mate and not the sidekick."
"Kenzi please." He held her as gently as he could manage. She stilled. "I thought she was. But I'm not sure now. The bonding, there is something different about it, different than the other humans I've bonded with."
"Cause it's with the Kenz?" She quipped.
"Yes. Because it's with you. I thought it was different because I knew you better. The last bonds I made were for the good of the pack. I've never bonded with someone I knew very well." Dyson thought back. "I wasn't as selective back then."
"You're an enigma wrapped in a mystery." She finally looked at him. Her eye make-up was running a bit from the beginnings of tears, but she was still Kenzi—still fierce, loyal, and tough.
"I want you Kenzi, more than I should. More than if you were just another member of my pack. I want to keep you with me all the time. I want to protect you and keep you safe. You're more to me than just a claim." He shook his head. "But I don't know what that means exactly."
"Do you lurve me?" She was happier, he could feel it throughout their bond. She paused, looking uncertain. "Don't answer that. I don't want to know." She stood up from the couch, stretching. Dyson's shirt shifted over her small frame and he could just make out the bottom of her ass underneath it. "I think we should do a little less talking, don't you?"
"What do you have in mind?" Dyson responded. He knew why she wasn't ready to talk about love. Everything was too uncertain for her, and he was only starting to fully understand himself.
"Shower. Race you." She took off across the clubhouse, but despite her head start, Dyson was quicker.
He laughed as he caught up with her, picking her up and kissing her soundly. She was so beautiful. So tiny and perfect.
They turned on the shower and stepped inside. The clubhouse had never had the best water, and it was lukewarm as best, but he liked how slippery her skin became under the water, how her make-up washed away.
"Take a picture, Dyson, it'll last longer." She laughed, grinning at him impishly before rubbing the soap up and down the muscles of his stomach. Kenzi remembered seeing him shift for the first time, seeing him shirtless and then naked before changing to a wolf. He had an amazing body, practically out of a magazine, but it was right in front of her, in the same shower as her. Even if she wasn't the love of his life, his mate. She blocked out that thought before it got too dark.
Dyson kissed her under the water, before slowly making his way down her body, his mouth dwelling for a moment on her scarred neck, though he didn't use his teeth.
"Not everytime?" She asked.
"Not unless you want me too." He smiled against her skin, kissing past her breasts and along her hip bones before lifting one leg over his shoulder and putting his mouth there. It should've been no surprise that he had a talented tongue, but Kenzi almost fell when he started moving it against her clit.
"Careful." Dyson smiled against her sex. "It's wet." She would've said something smart if he hadn't been so quick to make her moan.
Later, their bodies still wet, they collapsed on the bed together and Dyson kissed her again, Kenzi kept the creeping sadness at bay. She knew he didn't want her, not the way he wanted Bo, but she loved the feeling of his arms, the way they surrounded her. She loved his lips on hers. She loved the feel of him against her skin. There might even be a tiny bit of herself that loved him.
She just wished he could love her.
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