Axel's heartbeat fluttered like a trapped bird. He found himself laughing out of nervousness. "I-is that really what you want from me?"
"Y-yes," Roxas admitted. "I-I mean, I won't do it with you unless you want to do it."
"If that's what you want for your Saturnalia gift." Axel shrugged.
"No, that's not an answer..." Roxas mumbled. "Do you want to have sex with me?" His cheeks flushed. "It sounds so embarrassing to ask but I have to..."
"You don't really have to ask..." Axel mentioned.
"But I'm not going to do it unless I know for sure you want to, and not just because you owe me something. This is more than an exchange, I want to do it because I love you." Roxas's eyes widened as he realized he had never said the words out loud. He slapped a hand over his mouth.
"I-I...I love you, too." Axel murmured. He thought for a moment. "Yes, I want to do it with you."
"A-alright...right now?" Roxas asked. He rose to his trembling feet, holding out his hand for Axel to take again. Axel took it, his knees also feeling a bit weak.
The two turned their back on the river, leaving behind the amphora as they strolled anxiously to the house.
They returned to an empty house, the eerie silence crawling under their skin. Near the door, Ansem had left a note: "We've been summoned by General Eraqus for a Saturnalia banquet; I understand you do not get along well with Vanitas, so I have excused you. Naminé is with us as well. Please take care tonight."
"I-I suppose we have the house to ourselves," Roxas stammered. "At least no one will know what we're up to..."
Axel nodded, his footsteps to Roxas's chamber lagging. His head swam faster with each footstep, thinking about the reality of the situation. He recalled the words Larxene had given him when he had asked months ago how two men would copulate, and he cringed noticeably.
"Is something wrong? We really don't have to do this if you don't want to." Roxas said quickly with one hand on the doorknob.
"I-it's alright, I promise. You know how this works, right...?" Axel asked.
"Well, I asked Ventus a long time ago since he does it with Terra so often. He told me everything, regardless of if I actually wanted to know." Roxas explained.
"Alright." Axel swallowed thickly as the door creaked open.
They stepped inside, and for once the chamber felt cold and unfamiliar to him. The door creaked as it swung shut, and Roxas hurried over to his desk. He scribbled a note reading, "I have retired early from eating too much for dinner, as I have contracted a stomachache. Please do not disturb me."
"How suspicious does this sound to you?" Roxas read the note aloud to Axel.
"Not too suspicious." Axel decided.
Roxas slipped the note under the door and sat on the bed. "S-so..."
"How does this usually start?" Axel wondered.
"Ventus always says it's just kind of instinct, and it carries him through the entire thing..." Roxas said.
"Why don't we start with a kiss?" Axel suggested, sitting on the bed and leaning forward.
Roxas's fingers crept into Axel's hair, pulling him closer. Roxas lay down, kicking off his sandals and swinging his legs over the side of the bed. Axel kicked his sandals off as well, and crawled closer to Roxas.
Roxas's arms wrapped around Axel's back, pulling him in. Axel gasped for a slight breath, but Roxas immediately captured his lips again.
With their faces so close together, Axel could feel the heat radiating off Roxas's body. It seemed to float up from Roxas's face and stick to Axel's.
"C-can we switch places...?" Roxas whispered in a hoarse voice.
"Of course." Axel replied, his voice also a bit strained. He plopped onto the bed, and Roxas shifted so he hovered over him. "H-hey, your bed is pretty soft..."
"Th-thanks," Roxas stuttered. He closed his eyes and leaned in again, pressing his lips softly to Axel's.
Axel melted away into the sensation, his surroundings vanishing. All he could feel was Roxas.
Roxas's slim fingers combed through Axel's unruly hair, so gentle and soft. Axel's arms wrapped around Roxas's thin shoulders, embracing him and refusing to let go.
Roxas's lips moved down from Axel's lips, stamping his jaw and neck. At Axel's neck, Roxas stopped to gently suck on him. A slight surprised noise bubbled up from Axel's throat, and he felt embarrassed to even have produced such a noise. It startled Roxas and he stopped.
"Do you want me to stop?" He murmured.
"No, keep going; I-I just got a little surprised, that's all..." Axel replied.
Roxas pressed his lips to Axel's neck again, licking it softly, savoring the taste of Axel's skin.
Near his chest, Axel could feel Roxas's eager hands picking at Axel's toga. "D-do you want me to take this off?"
"C-can you?" Roxas agreed.
While he continued to leave purplish-pink circles on Axel's neck, Axel slowly removed the toga layer by layer. He wished not to tease the eager boy by stripping so slowly, but the toga was meticulously difficult to remove.
The last layer of wool fell away, revealing Axel's bare chest. He still wore a loincloth to cover up, but underneath Roxas he felt exposed. Even when Ansem had examined him months ago, he did not feel as ashamed to exist.
"You're beautiful, Axel," Roxas whispered in his ear, his hot breath tickling.
"A-are you going to undress, too?" Axel asked.
Roxas recoiled slowly, sitting back and undoing his toga. Axel watched as he fiddled with each layer of wool, letting it fall away slowly like the petals of a flower as they floated away on a breeze to reveal the fresh fruit on the tree.
Despite the fact they had seen each other completely naked just that morning, the two felt like they had seen the other this way for first time.
"You're beautiful too," Axel mumbled.
"Thank you..." Roxas said breathlessly. He spread himself over Axel again, leaning in for more kisses.
Their lips moved in sync, pushing and recoiling to match the other's movements.
Very faintly, Roxas ran his tongue along Axel's bottom lip. Surprised, Axel opened his mouth a bit wider, and Roxas took this as an invitation to slip his tongue inside Axel's mouth.
Axel's eyes snapped open, and he froze underneath Roxas. Roxas drew away quickly, rapidly stammering an apology.
"N-no, it's alright, I was surprised. I...I want to do that again. I'll get used to it." Axel found himself nervously begging for the sensation again.
Roxas nodded, returning to his position over Axel. Their lips collided again, this time more desperate for the other's touch. When their lips moved in sync again, Roxas licked Axel's bottom lip again. Axel parted his lips, and Roxas slipped his tongue inside.
Roxas's tongue caressed the inside of Axel's mouth, and Axel's head spun. He could feel the sensation of his body liquefying and dripping away.
Axel felt Roxas's delicate touch sliding over his pectoral muscle, brushing over his nipple. Axel gasped at the touch, feeling as if he would almost choke on Roxas's tongue. Roxas continued to stroke the sensitive area on Axel's chest, and the pit of Axel's stomach sparked with some sort of pleasure he had never felt before.
Roxas plopped down in Axel's lap, very slightly scooting his bottom over Axel's crotch. His motions caused Axel's multinium to perk up, and Axel gripped Roxas's upper arms.
Roxas shifted again, lying next to Axel now. One of Roxas's hands slipped to the back of Axel's head while he continued to kiss him, and the other crept down Axel's abdomen and underneath his loincloth.
Axel gasped again, feeling Roxas's touch. The strange pleasure ignited inside him again.
Roxas's slightly-trembling hand slid down Axel's length, then slid back up. Reaching the tip, Roxas rubbed his thumb over the smoothness. Another noise rose from deep inside Axel, coming out from the shock and from the pleasure.
Roxas continued this, while the pit of Axel's stomach churned. Axel's multinium grew slick and slippery from the odd fluid dripping from the tip. The intense pleasure curled up inside him, building up until it threatened to burst.
"R-Roxas...ahh...stop..." Axel begged, gripping Roxas's arm.
"What's wrong?" Roxas pulled his hand away, but the sensation of his touch lingered.
"I-I-I'm going to explode if you keep doing that..." Axel sighed.
"Oh...it's alright, that's supposed to happen." Roxas assured, and Axel's eyes widened. "You'll be alright, it won't hurt. It feels good. Do you want to stop doing this?"
Axel looked down at his erect length, which begged for Roxas's touch again. "N-no, keep going."
"W-well I can start preparing you for the real thing..." Roxas offered.
"Preparing me...?"
"Um...can I take this off?" Roxas tugged on Axel's loincloth.
"Y-yes..." Axel fiddled with the knots until they fell apart, and Axel slid the cloth off.
Now that he was fully exposed, he felt even dirtier and ashamed for his existence. Axel's face felt like a blazing fire.
"You're still a god to me," Roxas murmured, kissing behind Axel's ear. Axel shuddered, Roxas's hot breath dancing down his spine.
Roxas reached over the side of the bed, producing the perfume bottle filled with olive oil.
"Wh-what are you going to do...?" Axel demanded.
"I have to slide my fingers inside you first to relax your muscles, otherwise it will hurt a lot more." Roxas explained. "Do you want to stop?"
"You don't have to keep asking that," Axel mumbled.
"Yes, I do. I'm not going to do any of this until you tell me 'yes' or 'no'." Roxas stated.
"Why do you keep asking?" Axel wondered.
"Because I don't want to hurt you." Roxas replied.
Axel took a moment to think again. "How badly is it going to hurt...?"
"It won't hurt as badly if I use a lot of the oil." Roxas answered.
"...Alright then, you can do it." Axel agreed.
Roxas placed his hand on Axel's trembling leg, pushing it upward by the shin and exposing Axel's podex to his view. Axel's face became a blazing inferno, and he looked up toward the ceiling to concentrate on the swirling patterns.
Spreading one hand out, Roxas poured some of the oil over his fingers. He positioned one at Axel's entrance, hesitating.
"A-are you going to do it?" Axel wondered, still staring at the ceiling.
Using this as a cue, Roxas slipped one finger inside.
"Aahh..." Axel groaned, feeling the cool slickness inside him. Upon its entrance, Roxas's finger pressed against a spot that made the churning in Axel's core occur again. Axel instinctively wanted to tighten up around Roxas's finger, but part of him knew better.
Axel closed his eyes, the ceiling becoming too difficult to focus on.
Roxas leaned in again and joined their lips. Axel's shaking hands tangled into Roxas's hair as Roxas continued to wiggle his finger around inside.
Soon, Roxas slipped another finger inside him, and Axel's grip on Roxas's hair tightened. Roxas stamped his kisses down to Axel's neck and took up leaving the purplish spots on Axel's skin again. The slave collar chafed around Axel's throat, and he desperately wished it could be ripped off him right there.
A third finger joined inside Axel, and this time there was a sharp stinging. Axel groaned, but as Roxas stroked inside him, the pain lessened. It didn't feel like Axel's muscles were relaxing, since everything else felt extremely tense.
Roxas slid his fingers out and murmured, "Are you ready for the real thing?"
"Y-yes..." Axel breathed.
Roxas unfastened the knots at his loincloth, letting it fall away to reveal his erect multinium. Axel gasped at the sight of it.
"S-sorry, is it too small...?" Roxas wondered, chuckling a bit.
"O-of course not, I'm just nervous..." Axel admitted. "C-can I touch you...?"
"Yes."
Axel sat up, reaching out for him.
"Wait, while you touch me you can put this on me." Roxas reached for the oil, handing it to him.
"Alright." Axel poured a small pool of oil in the palm of his hand, and reached out to Roxas's length. He stroked his hand along the smooth skin, coating it in the oil.
Roxas bit his lip to stifle the soft noises coming from inside him. Axel's core ignited with each noise and gasp that came from Roxas's mouth.
"It's alright, let your voice out..." Axel pleaded softly.
Roxas let go of his lip and immediately a moan burst from him. "Aahh!"
Axel bit his lip now, his desire for Roxas growing. Roxas's knuckles paled as he gripped onto Axel's hair, and soon Axel pulled away.
"I-I guess I'm ready now." Axel said, lying back.
Roxas lowered himself on Axel, poking around until he found the entrance again. One hand propped him up, the other hand rested on Axel's shin.
"Ready?" Roxas murmured.
"Yes," Axel replied.
Roxas pushed the tip inside, groaning from the tightness. Axel's breath caught in his throat as the stinging returned, much more intense from three fingers. Axel's fingernails dug into Roxas's back, and he squeezed his eyes shut.
Roxas continued pushing until the head was buried in Axel's podex, and the rest of the length glided in. Fully inside, the two of them let out their held breaths.
"S-so this is it then? I suppose I expected more to it." Axel admitted.
"There is more," Roxas assured. "C-can I move?"
"Move how?" Axel wondered.
"I-I can't really explain it, I'll just have to show you; is that alright?" Roxas asked.
"I-I suppose..." Axel replied hesitantly.
Roxas pulled his hips back, dragging himself out a bit, and then pushing his hips back in. "L-like that..."
During that brief movement, Axel had felt the pleasure ripple through him again. His desire increased, begging for more. "Yes, go ahead, please..."
Roxas pulled himself back again, and thrust his hips into Axel again...and again...and again...
Axel tilted his head back, the patterns on the ceiling mixing as his head spun. His mouth hung open, letting his unrestrained voice out.
Roxas grunted with each thrust, and he bent down to kiss Axel again. Axel wrapped his lanky limbs around Roxas's thin body, encompassing him. Their lips met, stifling their moans and mixing their breathing.
Roxas's hand drifted down toward Axel's length again, curling around it and stroking it again. Axel tore his mouth away as he tilted his head back, moaning louder.
"R-Roxas..." Axel uttered, not understanding why he felt the need to say his lover's name.
"Y-yeah?" Roxas grunted in response. He sped up, the sound of their slick skin slapping together growing louder.
"I...ngh, ahh...I don't know..." Axel replied, gripping onto Roxas's sweaty skin.
The pleasure built in Axel's core, thrashing and coiling like a live animal inside him. Once again, he felt himself on the edge of release. Axel clenched his teeth and eyes.
"Axel...I'm c-c..." Roxas groaned, moving his hand on Axel's multinium faster.
"What?" Axel questioned, but then it happened.
The pleasure that had grown and fortified itself in Axel's core released itself in waves rippling through his body. He threw his head back, his eyes rolling back before he clenched them shut again. Warm whitish fluid spilled out of him onto his chest.
"Ahh...Axel!" Roxas cried, throwing his head back and shouting his lover's name to the skies. Inside his podex, Roxas released his white fluid. Once the last bit of fluid spurted out, he slipped out of Axel.
Their bodies trembled with the last few pleasurable waves rippling through them, and Roxas collapsed onto Axel's sticky chest. The breaths they could barely take rattled in their lungs. Axel's heart threatened to escape from his ribcage.
Axel wrapped his arms around Roxas, and Roxas rested his head on Axel's heart.
"I love you," Roxas sighed.
"I love you, too," Axel whispered back.
Roxas stroked Axel's cheek, running his thumb over Axel's tattoo. "I want to be with you forever. Please, never forget me."
"I won't, as long as you always remember me." Axel agreed.
"I promise." Roxas murmured, closing his eyes.
Content, Axel closed his eyes as well, drifting off to sleep in his lover's embrace.
Translations:
- Carissimi - Dearly beloved
- Multinium - Penis