Alright guys! here is the next chapter. I'm sorry it took me so long, i worked all weekend and didn't have time to type it up. Also sorry this chapter is a bit short, I thought this would be a good chapter just to take it easy and kind of get caught up on my outline. Actually this chapter is a bit of an improv, it isn't in my outline at all, but i skipped a couple chapters on it anyway. I had so much fun writing this chapter... no idea why but it was f-ing so much fun! Alright hope you guys enjoy this chapter and i love you all
Vince
Oh and i do not own the songs Thunderstruck by AC/DC and Stay with me by You me at Six!
The Angel and the Insidious ( Chapter 9)
Dean drunkly walked out of his room, meaning to stumble to the bathroom to take a piss, but instead found Elliot and Cas talking in the living room. Dean stopped to watch his boyfriend, who was standing there, Cas looked angry and annoyed. Dean couldn't hear what they were saying but knew that something was going on. Dean watched on, trying to figure out what Cas was saying, he could tell by the expression on Cas' face that he was pissed. Dean watched as Elliot lunged forward at Cas and kissed him, Elliot's lips moving across Cas'. Cas struggled against Elliot, trying to pull away from the beast that was standing in front of him. Dean turned as the door to the bedroom opened and another Dean walked out. Dean stood there, staring at a drunken doppelgänger of himself walk forward and punched Elliot in the face and walked past Cas and out the door.
Dean watched as Elliot said something to Cas while Cas tried to walk away, but Elliot grabbed onto him. Dean's finger's curled into fists and Elliot's fingers dug into Cas' arm. Cas ripped free and ran after the Doppelgänger. Dean turned to go back to bed but something caught his eye as he turned. Elliot was now facing him, except it wasn't Elliot. The eyes that were usually a light hazel were now black, his fingertips were now sharp as claws, and his face became narrow, like he hadn't eaten in months.
"I won't let you have him Dean." The monstrosity in front of Dean said in a deep, almost evil voice.
"He is mine, not yours." Dean replied as a shimmer grew out of him, light grew from the periphery of his eyes all the way around him. He felt something brush against his back, he turned to see the outline of a white wing grown out of his back.
"There is nothing you can do to stop me." The demon roared.
"We'll see about that." Dean replied as his wings shoot outward, stretched out in a defensive position as to scare the abomination away.
It rushed towards Dean, grabbing for his throat, but one of his wings flew forward and knocked the form of Elliot into the wall. Dean got a full glimpse of his wings now; the feathers' glow like the sun and were white as snow. The radiance of the light lit up the entire room now, forcing the thing into the corner of the room. Dean walked closer to the monstrosity, but as he got closer the monster started to change, its skin bubbling. Instead of the form of Elliot, it was another Dean that sat in front of him.
"Why do you even need that fucking slut!" The creature yelled, stopping Dean in his tracks.
"Because I love him." Dean replied. He looked down when he felt something heavy filled his right hand. Dean saw a bright sword, with an odd crest upon it, shining like it was made of diamonds.
"You will never kill me!" the creature cackled as it stood up.
"We'll see about that." Dean growled as he raised the sword above his head, aiming for the creature's skull, meant to slice it in two.
"Dean!" A woman's voice said gently.
Dean looked around to see where the voice was coming from, but couldn't see it anywhere.
"Like I said, you can never kill me." The monster said as it faded from existence.
Dean woke up to Jo standing over him. He immediately felt sick, his stomach in knots, and his head felt like someone had taken a sledgehammer to it.
Dean sat up and leaned against the wall. Jo was looking at him with a concerned look upon her face.
"Hey Dean." Jo said, her voice cracking a bit.
"Where am I?" Dean asked, unable to remember anything from the past day. Dean's thoughts were on the dream, What does it mean? Dean thought.
"We're at my house. You caught Cas cheating on you and tried to walk here." Jo stated. Dean couldn't believe what he was hearing.
"No, Cas would never do that." Dean replied.
Jo just looked away, trying to fight back tears. Dean could tell that there was more to the story than Jo was telling him, but decided to let it go. Dean stood up slowly and made his way to the bathroom to take a bath, he was to hung over for a shower.
He turned the hot water on and sat on the edge of the tub, waiting for the hot water to fill the tub up. Dean thought back to the beginning of the dream. What the hell kind of dream was that? Dean thought to himself as he slid into the hot water, his muscles instantly relaxing from the heat. It was just a dream, whatever. Dean thought again as he let his mind wander.
"Dean? You alright?" Jo asked through the door.
"Yeah, I'm fine." Dean replied.
"Your phone was going off earlier, do you want me to get it for you?" Jo asked.
"Nah, I'm good." Dean answered.
Dean sank deeper into the hot water, letting it flood over his body.
Jo walked away from the bathroom and into her room to do her makeup. She sat down on her bed and grabbed her mirror and began to put her foundation on.
"STAY WITH ME! JUST STAY WITH ME, JUST STAY WITH ME!" Jo's phone rang.
She reached over to see who it was.
"Cas" the screen read.
She thought for a second if she should answer it or not, then decided that it wasn't worth it.
She closed her phone and went back to doing her makeup. She finished putting her blush on when she got a text.
To:/ Jo
Hey babe how you doin this s'mornin? :)
From:/Elliot
Jo looked at her phone, anger flew through her like a freight train.
To:/ Elliot
Is there something you want to tell me?
From:/ Jo.
Jo sat her phone next to her, continuing to put on her blush. It went off as soon as she started.
To:/ Jo
No why?
From:/ Elliot
Jo white knuckled the phone in anger, thinking about what she should reply, Go fuck yourself you cheating bastard! No, that doesn't show how pissed I am. How about "You cheating fuck! I never want to see your face again!" No, that doesn't work either.
To:/ Elliot
I know what you did last night with Cas.
From:/ Jo
Jo stared at the phone, waiting to see what her cheating Ex would say.
To:/Jo
I'm sorry, I can't help how I feel about him. I'm so sorry Joanna. Please forgive me.
From:/ Elliot
Jo stared at her phone, re reading it over and over. Did he just say that he kissed Cas not the other way around? She thought.
To:/ Elliot
Sorry, it's a bit late for that. Have a good life.
From:/ Jo
With that she threw her phone across the room, tears streaming down her makeup, ruining everything she had just finished. She put her hands up to her face, trying to wipe the tears from her eyes but they kept coming.
Dean lay in the tub, relaxing, his mind wandering to every inch of his subconscious. Dean feel back asleep, as his mind continued its search.
Dean was back in his living room, watching Cas walk out the door after his doppelgänger. The creature turned to him.
"Ah, so you've come back to kill me." It greeted.
"No, I want answers." Dean replied as the wings formed again.
"Well then, ask away." It said as it took a seat at the table, motioning for Dean to take a seat across from it.
Dean walked over to the seat and sat down, unable to lean against the back of the chair because his wings got in the way. Dean's light wasn't as radiant as the last time, but it still filled his half of the room. Dean watched as an insidious darkness flowed from behind the creature.
"Are you gonna ask me something, or are we just gonna eye fuck the whole time?" The creature taunted as black masses formed from the creatures back, they formed into black tentacles that moved as if they were in water. Everywhere the masses moved, more darkness filled the room.
"Who are you?" Dean asked as a bit of darkness crept to close to him, his light pulsed and the darkness was purged from the area.
"I am you." The creature said as it morphed into Dean again.
"Well, rather the dark side of you." It added.
"And why are you here?" Dean asked.
"Because Dean, I am here to stop you." It added as the tentacles shot forward and landed on the table in front of Dean. Dean felt the familiar heaviness in his hand as the sword came to protect him.
"Stop me from what?" Dean asked as he moved the sword under the table, ready to strike if necessary.
"From getting back with that slut." It replied as the tentacles retracted.
"And what makes you think that he is a slut?" Dean asked as he steadied the sword.
"You saw the same thing I did. You saw what he did." It replied smiling, it's gruesome teeth now bared, sharp as daggers.
"No, what I saw was Elliot kiss Cas, not the other way around." Dean stated.
"Are you sure, because what I saw last night was completely different." The creature smiled as the room changed and Cas and Elliot were standing in the living room again.
Elliot and Cas were talking about something. Cas moved forward and rubbed his hand against Elliot's chest. Elliot moved forward, resting his hand against Cas' face. Cas then moved in and kissed Elliot passionately. Dean looked away, unable to take the images the creature was showing him. When he looked back, the room was empty again, except the creature was standing where Cas and Elliot previously were.
"You see? Cas likes someone else! So why do you care so much?" The creature asked, darkness flooded throughout the room, covering more than half of it, the only place the darkness couldn't reach was where Dean was sitting.
"I know that wasn't real, I love Cas and he loves me." Dean stated as the room changed again. This time they were in the bedroom. Dean was standing by the door and the creature was leaning against the wall.
"It's not as fun when you do it." The creature stated as it crossed it's arms across it's body.
Dean looked out into the room and saw himself sitting on the bed, writing something. He walked closer and saw that he was writing a letter.
"God I am such a chick." The other Dean stated reluctantly as he looked out the window.
"You know what that says. I love him." Dean said as light filled half the room again, evening the scales.
"Yes I do, but this was before you saw what he did." The creature replied.
"Does that change anything?" Dean asked rhetorically.
"Yes it does. Let me ask you something Dean. Do you want to see what happens when Cas finds your little love letter?" The creature asked.
"No, because I already know what he is going to do. I know he loves me and nothing in the world will change that." Dean answered; more light flooded the room, now taking some of the creature's darkness away.
The room changed again and the creature and Dean were back in the living room. The creature sat back down, its claws digging into the table.
Dean was standing near the couch, looking at the creature, which looked pale and decrepit.
"Why won't you just accept the fact that he doesn't love you anymore?" The creature asked.
"Because I know that it's not true." Dean replied.
The creature stood up, it's finger's now sharpened bones which could cut diamonds. Dean's wings unconsciously spread out again in a defensive position.
"Like I said before, you can't kill me." The creature said as it crouched down like a lioness stalking its prey.
"I know. But before I send you back to wherever you came from, what is your name?" Dean asked as he raised his sword, the crest now glowed with the intensity of a supernova.
"My name is Doubt. I am the part of you that cannot be defeated. I will always be with you, that little voice in your head that questions every fiber of your being. And once my insidious seeds are planted, there is no getting rid of them." Doubt stated.
Dean was taken back by what Doubt was saying.
"I might not be able to get rid of them, but I can definitely conquer them." Dean replied as light filled the entire room. Doubt stepped back from the brightness of the light shining from Dean. Once the creature got it bearings back, it lunged forward at Dean. Dean's wings flushed forward as Dean flew towards Doubt. Dean dodged a claw that was aimed for his face and slashed Doubt across the back with his sword, darkness flew out of him and landed on Dean's leg. Intense pain shot forth from where the darkness landed on him.
"Even now my seeds grow on you!" Doubt cackled.
Dean looked down on the darkness growing up his leg, his light was trying to fight it but it was too strong. He was able to keep it in check with the light, but he couldn't stop it.
Doubt laughed as Dean was writhing in pain. He looked up at the insidious beast who was right in front of him.
"Before I send you back from whence you came, what shall I call you?" Doubt mocked.
Dean looked into the dark eyes of the creature, ready to strike him down. He felt himself slipping into the darkness.
"You know, doubt works both ways." Dean said as he collapsed on the ground.
Dean woke up in the tub, freezing cold. He had no idea how long he was in the water.
*THUMP*THUMP*THUMP*
"Dean?! Are you alright?" Jo yelled.
"Yeah I'm fine." Dean replied as he got out of the tub.
"Jesus, don't do that to me!" Jo yelled again.
"Sorry, I fell asleep again." Dean yelled.
"Alright." Jo replied.
Dean grabbed a towel and began to dry himself off. He walked towards the door and opened it to find Jo standing there.
"How are you feeling?" Jo asked.
"Better I suppose. I don't feel sick anymore." Dean replied.
"Good, because we need to talk." Jo replied.
"Ok, let me get dressed than we can talk." Dean answered as he turned to the guest room to put on his clothes.
Dean heard Jo walking down the stairs and remembered how hungry he was. He quickly got dressed and went downstairs. He grabbed some bread and put it in the toaster. While waiting for the toast to pop, he walked to the table and sat down. Jo walked over to him and put her hand on his shoulder.
"Dean. Do you remember anything?" Jo asked.
"Not really, I remember Cas calling and telling me that Sammie was arrestedand then, nothing." Dean replied.
"Alright," Jo started to explain when Dean's toast popped. Dean walked over and grabbed the toast and sat back down at the table.
"Well, you left and got drunk obviously. Cas and I had to walk to your house since Mom and Bobby went with Sam. When we got to the house, you were nowhere to be seen so we went looking for you. You were beating up some random guy when we found you. We took you back to the house and Cas' put you to bed. Then Elliot came over and, you can fill in the rest." Jo explained.
"Wow… I guess I need a bit to soak this all in." Dean said as he stood up to walk upstairs.
"Dean.." Jo started." I talked to Elliot.." Jo said.
"And?" Dean asked.
"He said he is sorry." Jo lied.
"Oh." Dean replied as he went back to getting up the stairs.
Dean walked into the guest room and sat down on the bed. A tear rolled from his eye as everything started to set it. Cas did cheat on him, and now he will never see him again. Dean closed his eyes, wishing the world around him would just disappear. Dean slipped back into sleep.
Doubt was sitting back at the table.
"Your little disappearing act is really starting to get old." Doubt stated.
"Whatever." Dean replied.
Doubt stood up and walked over towards Dean.
"It looks like I win then." Doubt stated.
Dean looked down to see that his entire body was black with darkness. He had lost to doubt. Dean fell to his knees, tears welling up in his eyes.
"Don't worry my child; I will always be here for you." Doubt said as he lifted Dean's head up.
"I doubt that." Dean replied.
Doubt chuckled at Dean's resistant attitude.
"Give up boy, you've lost! You lost your beloved Castiel, you've lost everything." Doubt laughed.
"No, I know that Cas would never do that." Dean replied. He looked down to see a crack forming in the darkness, bits of light shining through.
"Like I said before, doubt works both ways. And I doubt that Cas… No I know that Cas would never cheat on me!" Dean said as more light started to shine through.
"You can't be serious?" Doubt asked.
"I am." Dean replied stoically as stood up, light shattering the darkness around him, his wings unfolding from the dark cocoon that surrounded him, his sword returned to his hand,Dean quickly took advantage of the closeness between him and Doubt and drove the sword straight through Doubt' chest.
Doubt stood there in shock as Dean pulled the sword from his chest, darkness flowing out of the wound and being instantly cleansed by the light.
"I may not be able to kill you, but I can get rid of you." Dean roared as light filled the entirety of his sword as he brought it down on Doubt's skull, slicing his body in two. Light burned through the darkness that was Doubt. Doubt's body disappeared, and all that was left was light. Dean turned and saw Cas standing in the doorway.
"Dean…" Cas stated.
"I know Cas.. I know." Dean said as he hugged Cas.
Dean woke up to his phone going off.
"YOU'VE BEEN… THUNDERSTRUCK!"
"Hello?" Dean answered groggily.
"Dean… It's Cas." Cas responded.
"I know Cas… Listen, I'm sorry for whatever I might have said last night." Dean apologized.
"I know you didn't mean it." Cas accepted
There was a pause while Dean was trying to think of what to say next.
"I found your letter. Did you really mean what you wrote." Cas asked.
"Yeah… I did." Dean replied, shocked that Cas found his letter.
"Listen Cas. We need to talk." Dean stated.
A/N: Alright guys, if your confused Dean is having a battle with his subconscious. I am a psychology major so i loved writing this so much! Doubt was Dean's inner demon about if Cas actually cheated on him or not and by beating it, he figured out what really happened, Next chapter Dean and Cas will meet up and Talk things out and we will find out what happens to Sammie! Feel free to review and stuff cause you guys are f-ing awesome!
Vince