Hey guys. Sorry this update was so late but i had a massive writers block that made this chapter really fucking hard to write. Anywho, as i said on my last chapter, things are going to start picking up. And because my outline and how the story are going don't really match up anymore (im about 4 chapters ahead) this story might be a bit shorter than anticipated. I'm gonna try and make it atleast 18-20 chapters so no worries there. Also, now that i'm over mono and the story is picking up, i am going to start writing every weekend again, so expect the next chapter next week.

10/17/10:

Also, I just recently started re-reading my last book Angels and AC/DC, and oh my word it is atrocious. So, along with writing this book, i am going to start going through it and fixing some of the F-ups i made. I don't think that it will interfere with my writing of this book, so all should be well. So, no peaking at Angels and AC/DC till i am done revising it!

Also, ( to many things are racing through my mind), I am accepting beta requests for this story if you are interested. Just PM me, (you should apply because you will get to read what happens before everyone else).

I love you all and hope you get the reference that this chapter is named after!

A/N: 10/29: Since i missed updating last week cause shit got a little intense over here, i am going to be writing the chapter for last week and this week today/ some time this week so expect 2 updates soon and then im going to be on track from then on Scouts honor!

Cassy, you've got some splainin to do (Chapter 11)

Sam walked into his room to change out of the clothes he had been in since he got arrested. He walked over to his closet and pulled out his favorite shirt. As he slid off his shirt he noticed something by the side of his bed. He walked over to investigate what it was and saw a bottle of vodka. Confused he just put the bottle down and continued to get dressed. He checked his phone to see if anyone had texted him while he was in his cell. He scrolled and saw a message from Ruby.

To:/ Sam

Hey Sam, long time no talk. Text me when you get this.

From:/ Ruby

Sam read the message over and thought it would be polite to answer her.

To:/ Ruby

Sorry I didn't answer… I didn't have any service where I was for the weekend.

From:/ Sam.

He slid his phone back into his pocket and walked to the door. He walked down the hall and continued on down the stairs. He could hear everyone downstairs talking about something.

"I didn't know all this was happeneing, that's quite intense." Gabriel stated.

"Yeah, we aren't quite sure why they thought that Sam did it, but we know he didn't." Jo said.

There was a pause in the conversation, Sam stood there eavesdropping on his family.

"That also makes sense why Cas wanted to talk to me now." Gabe said.

"Yeah." Jo said angrily.

"Wait, explain it to me again?" Ellen asked.

Sam decided to stop being creepy and walked down the rest of the stairs.

"Hey what's going on?" Sam asked, noticing that Bobby was now at the house.

"Nothin, just bullshittin till Dean and Cas get here."Bobby replied.

Sam knew they were lying but just chose to ignore it.

"Alright then." Sam said as he sat down at the table.

"Sam I think there are somethings that you should know." Ellen said as she sat down at the table with him.

"Ok, Wha-"

"Hey Everybody!" Dean yelled as he walked through the door, Cas trailing behind him.

"Dean!" Sam said as he stood up to hug his welled up in his eyes as he thought back to him time in the cell, thinking that he would never see his family again.

"It's good to see ya." Dean greeted.

"Good to see you too."Sam replied, releasing his brother. He turned to Cas, who was hugging his brother as well. He could see they were whispering about something.

"Me and my little bro here are gonna go for a quick walk." Gabriel told everyone as they walked out the turned to look at everyone, confused as hell.

"What was that about?" Sam asked.

"Nothin important." Dean replied as he looked away from Sam. Sam knew that something had happened while he was in jail.

"Alright?" Sam answered as he turned away. Dean rushed over to Ellen and gave her a hug, Ellen had spent most of her time with Sam or busting someone's balls for information at the police station.

Sam walked over to the couch and talked to Bobby for a bit, trying to find out what had happened while he was away.

"I'm in the dark boy. I don't know nothin'." Bobby replied to him.

"Oh well." Sam answered. " I'll be right back." He said as he walked over to the kitchen to get something to drink.

Outside the kitchen he could hear Dean and Ellen talking.

"I mean, what was I supposed to think? What would you have done?" Dean questioned.

"Well, first off I wouldn't have been drunk off my ass."Ellen started, Dean looked down at the ground." And second off I wouldn't have stormed off. I would have stayed and found out what happened."

"Well, if your little brother was arrested, wouldn't you want to get away from everything? Just for a little bit?" Dean questioned again.

"Yes, but I would have still handled myself better." Ellen replied.

"Was this supposed to help me? Because it is only making me feel like more shit than I already did." Dean replied angrily.

"I'm sorry, but don't you think you could handle this a little better than you did?" Ellen asked.

"Yeah, but this isn't helping." Dean answered.

"Hey, what's going on?" Sam asked as he walked into the kitchen.

"Nothing, it's none of your business." Dean replied snidely.

"Maybe I can help?" Sam asked, trying to be helpful.

"No, you can't." Dean replied as he walked out of the watched his older brother leave, able to sense how much pain his brother was in.

"Sam, there are some things you should know." Ellen started again.

"Yeah, I feel like I missed out on a lot of things." Sam replied.

"Dean and Cas are going through a hard time right now, a lot happened while you were gone."Ellen explained.

"What happened?" Sam asked.

"I'm not sure, the details are still a bit fuzzy, but all I know for sure is that this night is going to be one hell of a ride." Ellen said as she took a sip of her beer and walked out of the kitchen.

Sam just stood in the kitchen, dumbfounded and annoyed that no one would explain what was happening to him. Angrily, he grabbed his drink and walked out of the kitchen.

"Damn it!" the Man yelled.

"What?" Bella asked.

"Sam got out of jail on a technicality." The man replied, resting his elbows against the counter, trying to think about what to do next.

"So, what do we do now?" the woman asked.

"I think that we should speed up our plans. Move to the next step." Bella replied.

"I agree." The woman agreed.

"Fine, move on to the next step. After that, we move on to the operation." The man said as he walked out of the room.

Cas and Gabe walked down the block just talking about everything.

"Gabriel, what would you do if we were in each other shoes?" Cas asked.

"I don't know, maybe I would be in the same place." Gabe answered.

"Dean, still seems angry about what happened, and I don't know what to do?" Cas asked, as they rounded the corner towards Ellen's house.

"Maybe, you should just give it time. I know that he still loves your gay ass, more than he will ever admit it." Gabe joked as he punched Cas in the arm.

"Thank you Gabe." Cas thanked, hugging his older brother.

"You're welcome homo. Oh, I forgot, Michael was asking about you. Since last time he didn't get to see you he wants to come up for a visit." Gabe stated.

"O.k, Tell him to call me some time and we'll see if we can set something up." Cas said as he walked up to the porch of Ellen's house.

Cas walked up to the door and opened it, walking in to see Dean sitting on the couch and Jo in the kitchen.

"Hey Cas! Gabe!" Ellen said as she walked out of the kitchen with dinner.

"Hey." Cas replied as he sat down at the table. He watched as Dean and Jo walked over to the table, taking their seats. Dean sat down next to Cas and Jo next to him.

"How have you been Cas?" Bobby asked as everyone grabbed the food they wanted.

"I've been alright." Cas lied.

"That's good." Bobby said as he took a bite of his food.

Cas looked over at Jo who was glaring dagger at him. He quickly looked down and continued to eat.

"Yeah, that's fantastic. Cas' has been having a great time,you know making out with Elliot, fucking up my entire life!" Jo yelled as she stood up.

"Jo.." Cas started. Jo leaned forward and slapped Cas across the face. Dean stood up and kept Jo from attacking Cas.

"That's Enough!" Ellen yelled as she stood up and slammed her fists on the table.

" All I wanted was a normal fucking dinner to welcome Sam back! But, no, you have to have your little squabble over who kissed who! Joanna, I raised you better than this shit! And I will not tolerate it!" Ellen yelled. Cas watched as Jo sat down, ashamed of what then looked over at Sam, who was red in the face with rage.

"You did what?" Sam asked Cas, his anger almost boiling over.

"I did nothing. Elliot kissed me." Cas explained.

"Sam, drop it." Dean stated, starting to get angry.

"No. Do you remember what I told you? Do not hurt my brother." Sam said as he stood up from the table. Gabe got up and rushed to Cas' side and stood between Cas and Sam.

"Sam. Sit down." Gabe commanded. Cas had never seen his brother act this way before. It was terrifying. It reminded him a lot of Michael.

"Why should I?" Sam asked.

"Do you think that Cas wasn't hurt by this whole situation enough? He thought that he had betrayed Dean, Jo, everyone here! No,you sit your ass down before I make you." Gabe commanded again.

Sam stared at Cas, his face showed a mix of anger and regret. He sat down and stared down at his food.

"Well. I think that's enough drama for me tonight." Gabe said as he grabbed his jacket. "Thank you for the food Ellen, it was delicious." Gabe stated as he walked out the door.

"You're Welcome." Ellen replied.

Cas just sat at the table. He didn't know what to do. His brother just threatened to kick his boyfriend's brother's ass. He looked up to see everyone have the same look on their faces, everyone but Dean's. Dean had anger in his eyes. He stood up and walked over to Sam, his fists clenched.

"What?" Sam asked, ashamed of what he did.

"If you ever lay a finger on Cas, I will personally kick the shit out of you." Dean replied, he stared daggers at him and then walked up the stairs.

Cas just sat there. Not knowing what to do again. He stood up and chased after Dean.

"Dean! Wait!" Cas yelled as he watched Dean close the door infront of him. He opened it and walked into it.

"Cas, please. Just not now." Dean pleaded.

"Do we have everything we need?" The woman asked.

"I think so." Bella replied.

"Then let's go." The man replied.

"Why don't you want to talk to me?" Cas asked through the door.

"I just need some space." Dean replied.

Silence fell through the door. Dean realized that Cas took what he said to heart and left.

Cas walked down the stairs and back to the living room. Jo, Ellen and Bobby were sitting at the table.

"Cas, come sit down." Ellen stated.

Cas obliged and sat down.

"Cas. I'm sorry for everything that happened. " Ellen apologized.

"It's fine." Cas accepted.

"No, it's not. The way you were treated, by all of us, is unfair. In the situation that you can't control, why should you have been punished?" Ellen responded.

"Shouldn't he be punished?" Jo asked, still angry.

"No. He shouldn't." Ellen stated.

"Why? He ruined my life?!" Jo yelled as she stood up and walked away.

"I'm sorry." Cas apologized.

"I'm sorry? I'm sorry! That's all you have to say for yourself? You ruined my fucking life!" Jo yelled.

"I didn't do anything!" Cas yelled back. "He kissed me! What don't you get about that!"

"Fuck you." Jo said as a tear rolled out of her eye, she turned and tried to walk away.

"No, say what you want to say." Dean stated, standing at the top of the stairs.

Jo turned pale, like she had seen a ghost.

"Fine." Jo stated." I think that this whole situation could have been avoided if you had never come into our lives at all. Dean wouldn't have been stabbed. Sam wouldn't have ended up in jail. And I would have never had my heart broken. Everything that has happened in the past year is all because you showed up. " Jo said.

Cas turned pale. He never thought about that. He realized that most of the grief and pain that this family had gone through was because of him.

"That's not true." Dean stated." You are only looking at the bad stuff that happened. What about all the good things that have come from him. I'm finally happy. After getting away from my dad I thought I would never be happy again! And now you are trying to strip away the only person who has helped me through all this shit in my life!" Dean replied angrily, "If I had to make the choices I've had to make again. I would do it in a heartbeat."

"Doesn't it count for anything, that if he wasn't here, than none of the things would have happened to you." Jo replied.

"It probably would have happened anyway." Dean replied. "But you know what, it's none of your fucking business Jo. And you have no right to question why I am dating Cas. I love him, and nothing you can say will change that. So either you learn to accept that or get the fuck out of my life." Dean answered angrily.

"Dean. That's enough." Ellen replied.

Dean stormed off angrily, walking out the door.

"Well, that was just great." Bobby stated.

Jo stared at Bobby, her anger boiling over.

"Bobby, stop." Jo replied.

"U'know, I've watched you grow up since you were a little girl, and this is the first time I've ever been embarrassed because of you."Bobby started. "You're acting like an idjit. Can't you just be happy for Dean. Sure, people fuck up sometimes, and sometimes love can be messy. But, it is no reason for you to act like a prissy bitch."

"Bobby!" Ellen yelled.

"You know you were thinking the same thing." Bobby replied as he stood up. "I'm going after Dean. "

Ellen rubbed her hands across her face and didn't know what to do. Sam walked down the stairs to see everyone upset.

"What's going on? I heard yelling and thought I had missed something." Sam asked.

"Nothing." Ellen replied.

*BOOOM*

"What the hell was that?" Ellen asked.

*BOOOM* *BOOOM*

"What the fuck!" Sam yelled.

The light from the windows intensified as bright yellows and oranges filled the room. Smoke began to waft through the window as fire began to spread across the house.

*BOOM*

A window burst from upstairs as the fire broke into the house. Smoke poured from the upstairs down into the kitchen.

"Alright everyone out of the house now!" Ellen yelled. Everyone stood up and ran out of the room and out of the house.

Cas ran out of the house to see the whole side of the house on fire, bright oranges and yellows engulfing the entire house. More windows began to implode as the fire started to break into the house. Cas looked around for Dean and Bobby, finding them on the side of the road next to the impala. Bobby on the phone calling what he would assume was the police.

"Dean!" Cas yelled.

"Oh shit! Everyone run!" Ellen yelled remembering that the house could erupt outward because of the fire.

Cas ran over to Dean's side. Every moment spent in the house flooding through his brain as they were destroyed by the searing heat of the fire, burning them away. Cas reached Dean and hugged him, afraid that Dean was hurt by the fire. He was extremely confused as to how the fire even started.

The fire department showed up and began to evacuate all the firemen and begin trying to put the fire out. But, it was no use, the fire had already completely consumed the entire house. It took an hour before the fire was put out.

Ellen, Jo, Bobby, Sam, Dean and Cas all sat on the corner, watching all the great memories and times they spent with each other crumbling down.

"We found what looks like the cause of the fire." The fire marshal stated.

"And what was that?" Ellen asked.

"We found a couple of glass bottles on the sides and back of your house. From our preliminary investigation, it looks like the cause was from about 4 Molotov cocktails." The marshal said.

"Are you saying that someone intentionally burnt my house down?!" Ellen yelled.

"It would seem so. Do you have any idea where you are going to be staying? If not, we can help you find a place." The marshal asked.

"They can stay with us." Dean said.

Cas looked over at Dean.

"They need a place to stay, and we are going to give it to them." Dean stated to Cas.

"Thank you Dean." Ellen replied.

"All went according to plan, the house was set on fire." Bella replied.

"Good, we will set the next step in the plan to be on Tuesday. Other than that we will lay low for a while." The man replied.

Dean drove everyone back to their place. After dropping Bobby off at his house, the ride was dead silent. No one had anything to say. Ellen, Jo and Sam had just lost their home. There really wasn't anything more that could go wrong.

They pulled up into the Impala's parking spot and got out. They walked up the stairs to the house.

"Alright the girls can have our bed and I guess we will be sleeping on the floor." Dean stated.

"Alright." Ellen replied.

Jo and Ellen walked into the bedroom, just wanting to sleep. Sam just sat down on the couch, starring at the t.v.

Cas sat down on the couch by Sam. He could feel the tension between them was thick.

"Sam we need to talk." Cas said.

"Right now isn't really the best time." Sam replied.

"Alright." Cas stated.

A couple hours passed and everyone was asleep besides Dean and Cas. They laid in their makeshift beds, relaxing and trying to fall asleep.

"Dean?" Cas whispered.

"What?" Dean answered.

"Did you really mean what you said to Jo?" Cas asked." Before the fire?"

"Yeah, I did. Even though we have been through some rough patches, I never stopped loving you." Dean replied.

"I love you too." Cas whispered.

"Will you too shut up." Sam said as he rolled over.

"I apologize." Cas replied.

"Whatever." Sam responded.

Dean leaned over and kissed Cas goodnight, tasting the sweet scent of honey and vanilla again which he so desperately missed. His mind drifted away with the smell of vanilla and honey on his mind.

It had been two days after the fire. Ellen had started to look for an apartment while Dean and Cas went to work. She was looking at one in particular that would suffice till the insurance company got them their money. Sam and Jo started to work at the Roadhouse to make some money so that they could help out.

Dean had given Cas a ride to work so that he wouldn't have to take the bus. When he arrived Pam greeted him. It was his first day back since his promotion and hadn't gotten the chance to enjoy the perks of his new job.

"Welcome back Cassie!" Pam greeted.

"Thank you. It's great to be back." Cas replied.

"Well, since you got promoted, you get your own office now. It's going to down the hall from mine, so feel free to get settled and after that I'll get you started on your new duties." Pam stated.

"Alright thank you." Cas said as he walked to his new office. He sat down at his desk and filled through all the things on his desk. He turned on his computer and typed in his information and logged on to his computer. When the background loaded there was a picture of Dean as the background.

"HA HA! Oh man that was good!" Pam said as she laughed from the door way.

"How did you get his picture?" Cas asked.

"I got it from his Facebook. He really should block such things." Pam replied.

"Not creeped out or anything." Cas stated sarcastically.

"Oh come on, it was just a bit of fun." Pam replied.

"Ok. It was a bit funny." Cas lied.

"That's the spirit. Now, come with me to my office and I'll show you what your new duties are." Pam stated.

Pam spent the next couple hours explaining what his new job duties would be. Cas paid attention most of the time, but at some point it was actually rather self-explanatory what he would be doing.

He walked out of the library and off to the bus stop. He got bored so he put in his headphones and listened to his music.

Bella walked over to the bus stop with her companions. She went over the plan in her head once more. Once she had the stop in her vision, she saw that Cas was sitting there. She stopped about 20 feet away from the bus stop and pulled out her equipment. She walked over to the stop with her equipment in hand. She snuck up behind Cas, her companions at her side.

"I'm sorry." Bella said. She grabbed Cas by the neck and tied a bandana around his mouth and threw a bag over his head. Once Cas couldn't move or speak, the man punched Cas in the back of the head, knocking him out. Bella helped the man load Cas into the back of the van and drive off.

What have I done? Bella thought to herself as the van drove away and she walked back towards her next destination.

Cas woke up bound with a blind fold on and a gag in his mouth. He could hear what sounded like water dripping somewhere.

"MHMHMMM!" Cas tried to say.

"Ah so your awake." A man said.

"Good, take his blindfold off." A woman said.

Someone walked behind Cas and took his blindfold off. He was in a dark room with minimal light. He was strapped to what seemed like an operating table. He could barely move. He looked over and saw something that looked like a long knife. He started shacking in fear.

"I think some introductions are in order." The man said.

"I'm Ruby." The woman stated as she walked into view.

"I believe that you already know Bella." The man said.

"Cas." Bella said, a bit of regret in her voice.

"I'm Balthazar." A man with a British voice said behind him.

"And last but not least, the names Crowley." The man said." Now let's take that gag out."

Balthazar took Cas' gag out and walked so that he was in view of Cas.

"Why are you doing this?" Cas asked.

"Well, this all started because of your little boyfriend." Crowley explained.

"You see, when your little boy toy got my brother and cousin arrested, it kinda pissed me off. Along with all the other people you have pissed off, does it really surprise you that you are in this position?" Balthazar stated.

"I had nothing to do with that." Cas stated.

"No, but your lover did. Now, what better revenge than to get rid of the person you love most?" Crowley stated.

"Now let's see, what should we start with?" Crowley stated sarcastically.

"I say we should get rid of those ugly tattoos." Ruby piped up.

"I Agree." Balthazar stated.

Cas writhed as the flipped him over and ripped of his shirt. He screamed, knowing what would be coming.

"Which should we get rid of first?" Crowley asked. Cas heard what sounded like a sander powering up.

"I think the Latin one would be good, the one on his ribs." Balthazar said.

"I can't watch this." Bella said as she walked out of the room.

Once outside the room, Bella stood guard, making sure that no one would be around to hear anything. She jumped as Cas' screams could be heard from the outside. Agonizing, excruciating, pain.

Oh God, what have I done? Bella thought as Cas' screams ran across the graveyard the mausoleum was in.

A/N: reading over this chapter, i didn't realize how violent this chapter was. Anyway, just to clarify, the dinner/fire took place on Sunday. And im terribly sorry if i just broke anyone. This book is supposed to be about people over coming loss and agony. Just keep that in mind. I love you all and please forgive me for what my story might do to your feels.

Love Vince