Hi my lovely readers! I hope you enjoy this chapter I wanted to give a bit more background to Avery as I worried she was becoming quite one dimensional. WARNING! This chapter contains scenes which will distress sensitive audiences. Scenes of rape, childbirth and death will be present in this chapter.

Chapter 8: Nightmares, friendships and fears.

Avery POV

Looking around the room I was in, it was familiar; I had spent the last few months of my pregnancy locked in this attic room, dust covered the floorboards and the only light seeping through the darkness was that of three candles that were places around my bed. My mother sat at the side of the room as I was strapped down onto the bed. Leather straps dug deep into my wrists and ankles.

"Mummy it hurts!" I screamed out, trying to move my head to look at my mother. She was ignoring me and barking orders at the four women I did not recognize; they surrounded me as I lay on my bed. I looked down at my stomach as one of the women placed her cold hands over my bump. My heart fell into my stomach as I caught sight of the collection of utensils next to the bed. No, this can't be happening! They can't do this! My baby is not ready yet!

"She is ready" One woman turned to my mother who gave her a quick nod. I was confused; I didn't understand what was happening. What did they want with my baby; she wasn't due for another couple of weeks!

"Mummy they're hurting me!" I scream as one of the women began to cut into my stomach. As I felt tearing and warm blood running down my sides everything faded into black.

Mother POV

The smell of fresh blood filled the air. The child was out of her and the women had started to sew her back up as best as they could. Not that it mattered really, if she died it would save this family the shame. Her sin had ruined us all.

I had kept her locked in this attic for the duration of her pregnancy; we did not need the neighbours knowing our shame. It was her fault for lingering around those foreign soldiers she should have known better.

"Is it done?" I asked as I walked over to the basin where the baby bare and still covered in blood. A bastard shall not enter into the congregation of the Lord. I shake my head in disgust as the child cried out for its mother.

"Yes, Miss. Your daughter has lost a lot of blood. She will need to rest." One of the attendants say as she cleaned away the blood from her arms.

"That whore is no daughter of mine" I hiss back taking a look at the mangled body of the teenager laying on the bed. You play the harlot and beget no increase, because you have forsaken the Lord for your harlotry.

"Have you called the asylum?" The older attendant asked as she put away her utensils.

"Yes, they are coming for her next month if she has healed." I said as I looked back towards the bastard child lying in the basin. The bastard was totally unaware of the short life it would have. It would soon return to hell where it belonged.

"Now we have to deal with this thing." I growl as I pick up the basin and carry it out of the room.

Avery POV

Somehow I was now in my kitchen, looking down I could still feel the deep cut that ran along my stomach but I couldn't care. I had to see my baby! As I pushed myself along the stairs from the attic I lose my footing and slip, falling down the spiral staircase into a heap on the floor.

Screaming out in pain, my mother and two attendants run to find me. Looking up at my mother I could see no love in her eyes anymore. I was scared and confused I just wanted to see my baby. This was the first time I had been out of the attic in months; she had me locked up there for protection.

"Mummy where is my baby?" I whimper as I try to push myself up off of the ground. Why was no one helping me?!

"What baby you stupid girl? You have no baby!" The women cackle as they look down at me.

"I want to see my baby!" I scream as I feel the hysteria rising. I grab a hold of the pillars on the staircase and try to pull myself up leaving a trail of blood across the floor.

As I pulled myself onto the steps I noticed a small bundle wrapped up on the table on the other side of the room.

"Can I at least look at her?" I cry out as I try to push myself up and over onto the table.

"No, Maria take it away" My mother snaps as the younger attendant picks up the bundle from the table.

"No give me her! Give me my baby! Mummy help me please!" I cry as I the attendant walks away with the bundle in her arms.

"You little whore are no daughter of mine!" My mother spat at me as she kicked me in my ribs. I let out a scream and tried to pull myself along the floor to my baby.

"Mummy, I don't understand…why can't I see my baby?" I whimper as I struggle across the room.

"Your little bastard should never have been born. We will send it back to Hell."

"What do you mean?!" I scream as I slump on the floor.

''Yet thou shall be brought down to hell, to the sides of the pit!" My mother hissed at me as she ran over to the attendant and pulled the covers off of the bundle to reveal my baby. She was pale and blue , she had no clothes on and wasn't moving.

"Here is your precious baby!" My mother screamed as she threw my child against the floorboards in front of me. With a loud crack blood began to seep out of my child. I couldn't bare to look at the child in front of me, I felt myself break as I brought my baby's body into my arms as I rocked her to my chest I could hear the women laughing above me. My baby was dead. My little girl!

Seras POV

I had been doing the early morning checks before sunrise when I heard a blood curdling scream coming from Miss Avery's chambers. Somehow I do not think those are screams of pleasure! I lingered outside the door for a moment to make sure I was not doing to walk into a very different situation. I had heard rumours of certain situations between my mentor and the old butler.

With a small shiver I blocked the image from my brain and passed through the wall to find Miss Avery in her bed, she was covered in sweat and was lashing out at air. She looked like she was in so much pain; I moved closer to her to try and wake her when she began to scream again but this time she was calling out words…

"No! Please no! My baby! My Girl! No!" She began to scream as she lashed out in her sleep. If she carried on like this she would reopen her wound. I had to wake her up!

Swallowing hard I move up to the side of Avery's bed and begin to shake her shoulder but it was clear that this was not going to wake her up. I was trying to avoid being hit, I had been training with Miss Avery for the last couple of months and I do not fancy being on the receiving end of her attacks at any time, even if they are in her sleep.

Before I could do anything else I was pushed away from the bed as she jolted upright and woke up. Tears running down her eyes, she panted heavily as she looked down at her hands. She seemed confused; I was worried about her I had never seen her cry…honestly I didn't know demons could cry. I guess that's a myth!

3POV

"Are you alright Avery?"Asked the young vampire as she made her way back over to the older woman's bed; as the demon looked up from her hands she let out a large sigh as she swung her legs out of her bed and sat up on the edge of her bed.

"It was just a dream?" The fury panted as she clutched a hold of her stomach. The young vampire stopped a few meters away from the Fury. She felt bad for the woman. Seras also had nightmares but she didn't think she ever lashed out quite like this.

"Yes, Avery you were dreaming…You were screaming actually so I tried to wake you up…" Seras began before jumping back slightly as the Fury jumped up from her bed. She had obviously not noticed the vampire was in her room.

"How did you get in?" Avery asked breathlessly as she realized it was the young vampire. Calming herself down and trying to catch her breath she walked over to one of the windows and opened it wide.

"I came through the walls…sorry" Seras said as she looked down at her feet.

"No, no well done that's a big improvement. You didn't get stuck." Avery commented with a small chuckle. During their last few months in training Seras managed to get stuck inside walls much to the annoyance of her tutor. Avery was glad she was making improvements. The two women stood in silence for a couple of minutes.

"Miss Avery you were crying out for a baby?" Seras broke the silence. Avery inhaled deeply as she quickly made way to the en suite and started to heave into the toilet.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have asked, it was silly of me!" Seras exclaimed as she ran into the bathroom to try and hold Avery's hair back. The fury straightened herself out and motioned for the younger demon to move away.

"No, it's alright. I just have nightmares…" Avery muttered as she made her way out of the bathroom motioning for the younger woman to take a seat in the red armchair by the window.

Sitting herself on the window ledge Avery took a look out of the window, the sun had not risen yet. As the morning breeze hit her face she was brought out of her thoughts turning herself back to the younger vampire.

"Was it a memory? I normally have nightmares about memories" Seras asked gently as she looked at the Fury. It was strange, when she first moved into the Manor Avery terrified her; much like her master but she was sure that the fury was a true representation of a heartless monster. She was so cruel to the young girl when she had arrived she was so sure there was not a drop of humanity left in the older woman.

"Yes Kitten, I don't talk about it…" Avery began as she looked back at her stomach and then at her hands again. It was if she was looking to find something that should have been there.

"O-oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to pry!" Seras exclaimed as she raised her hands up in front of her face. The older demon just nodded and gave a sad smile before shuffling in her spot on the window.

"No, it's ok. I haven't talked about it for centuries…" She whispered.

"Well you can talk to me Avery… I mean I don't think I can help but I have nightmares to..." Seras said sadly as she also looked down at her lap, fiddling with her fingers she became a bit teary.

The fury raised her head and took a look at the young woman in front of her. As she fiddled with her fingers the demon could see small pools of blood starting to form under the vampires eyes. "Oh?"

"Yes, about my parents….they…they were killed when I was a child. I still think about it." Seras spoke as she continued to pick at her hands.

"Of course you will….you never forget something like that." Avery sighed as she placed a hand on the young woman's shoulder. Seras shook her head and started to clench her fists.

"My Dad was a police man, he was a great man. One night two men broke into my house and shot my Dad to death. I saw it all…My Mother hid me in the closet. Then they shot her too… I tried to save her…I did try…then they found me and shot me…before I passed out I saw…I saw them raping my Mother's corpse…the bastards said that it was a waste as she was still warm." She explained through gritted teeth, red tears started to roll down her face.

"Oh Seras I am so sorry!" Avery exclaimed as she took the younger demon into her arms much to the shock of the younger woman. She had never talked to anyone about that let alone got any comfort from anyone. Avery stood with her arms wrapped tightly around her shoulders as the young vampire began to sob into her nightgown.

"It happened so long ago…but I remember it every day. Do the memories ever fade?" The younger woman sobbed.

"Not as of yet…" The older woman sighed sadly as she stroked the young woman's hair.

After a few minutes the younger woman pulled away and wipes the blood from her face. Looking up at the older demon who looked deep in thought as her eyes glassed over with tears.

"I'm sorry…Now I messed up your nightgown…" Seras muttered as she looked at the bloodstained nightgown.

Avery had not realized the amount of blood there would be on her nightgown, looking down at the blood stains she thought back to the state her nightgown was in after she lost her baby. The fury ran over to the toilet once more and expelled the emptiness of her stomach.

"I saw my daughter…" Avery sobbed from the bathroom. As the young vampire made her way over to the bathroom, moving into the bathroom she saw the older demon sat on the floor with blood coming from her mouth. Not the kind of blood that Seras found particularly attractive smelling; it was not appealing at all it spelled rotten to her.

"You have a daughter?!" Seras asked as she slid herself down the bathroom wall and sat opposite her mentor.

"I did…once…she died…my Mummy…my Mother…she killed her. She threw my baby onto the floor… broke her neck and my daughter bled out in my arms. I was just a child, younger than you are now…I only remember small fragments...Mum said it was for the best" The fury sobbed as she punched a hole in the wall next to her.

"A bastard shall not enter into the congregation of the Lord…That's what she said" She growled as she started to play with the piece of wall, rotating it in her hand and then crushing it into dust and throwing it down the toilet.

"Avery I'm so sorry..." Seras whispered as she placed a hand on the on her mentors knee.

"Seras please don't tell anyone about this…" The older woman whispered as she looked up from the floor.

"I promise"

The younger vampire nodded and thought back to something she remembered her Master telling her. Demons we don't feel, we don't care about the things humans spend their times worrying about. We kill and we move on. Hate, Lust and Anger that is all we really know. Looking at the state of her mentor in front of her she could not disagree more with her Master. This woman, a demon through and through was acting more human than anyone she had ever met and somewhere deep down under all the tough demonic exterior there was still a glimmer of her humanity. As much as Demons wanted to call themselves emotionless beings…they were lying. Demons were the most broken beings.

3POV

Avery had spent the rest of the morning making herself presentable. As she was not due to meet with Sir Integra for a few more hours the fury decided it would be wise to visit one of the Hellsing doctors. She had been getting concerned with the fact her wound had not been healing fast enough, it had been brought up a few times by Walter and even Alucard had mentioned the rate of healing a few times.

As she walked into the medical room the staff made a quick exit for the doors. Leaving one young doctor sat at his computer. As he looked around he smiled at the young woman standing behind him. He had been working on diagnosing the wounds strange colouring; he had also been running test on the blade.

"Good morning Miss Avery, are we here for a check up?" He asked happily as he logged off of his computer and stood up.

"Yes, I also want n update on your findings Doctor." The demon replied as she started to unzip her top and walk over to the medical bed.

"Very well, remove your shirt and go and lean over there." The doctor began as he realized the woman was already two steps ahead of him. After washing his hands and placing a new pair of gloves on the Doctor examined the wound. As he removed the stitches from the wound Avery hissed in pain.

The doctor looked in shock at the horrible gash on the demons back. It had gone from a clean slice with red blood into a dark purple seeping wound that had begun to creep bruising around her back and up her side.

"Miss Avery, your wound has not healed at all" He exclaimed as he cleaned the wound.

"Yes, I know…" Avery hissed back as she dug her nails into the plastic beneath her.

"It's getting worse." He commented as he took a sample of the liquid that was seeping from the cut. "Why did you not come sooner?" He asked as he placed the sample in the large machine next to his computer.

"I thought it would go away on its own. It normally does." Avery winced as the Doctor put new stitched in her back.

"The wound has got worse. The black pigmentation on the skin is starting to spread across the rest of your back Miss Avery"

"Let me see" She said as the doctor brought the mirror behind her, she looked back and gasped.

"Oh my god…" She exclaimed as she looked at the state of her back. The bruising had passed from her side and covered most of her back and had started to creep up her shoulder.

"I have looked over the blade. I thought it was cursed but it doesn't match up. It doesn't affect Seras or Alucard at all" The doctor explained as he walked back over to his computer and sat down.

"So are you saying you think this weapon was specially made?" Avery asked as she did her shirt back up and sat on the bed.

"It seems like it was made with the intention of killing your kind of demon yes." The doctor replied as he loaded up his computer again. The demon looked down at the floor as she thought about what this meant. Her wound was not getting any better and she was getting very weak. Was she dying? Was a stupid cut going to kill her? Could she even die again?

Avery POV

This was not good news, I hated my immortality that was known but I was not ready to let those fucking Nazi bastards get to my Master.

"Well how would they be able to do that?" I asked the doctor as I snapped myself out of my inner monologue. Millennium had created weapons to specifically destroy certain demons…how did they even know that I was working for Hellsing.

"I do not know..." The doctor sighed he turned around to face me, I was not having the best of days I was so tired already and I could tell it was going to stay that way.

"So what does all this mean for me?" I mutter as I stand up to leave the room.

"I'm afraid that if the poison spreads..." The doctor began before I waved my hand to stop him. I didn't need to hear anymore.

Making my way out of the cellar offices and out onto the Manor grounds I could see the Geese training on the fields, a few members of staff greeted me as I past them. On my way up to Sir Integra's room I crossed paths with the butler.

Walter POV

The morning had been fairly quiet and routine all staff were getting on with their tasks as usual. As I made my way out of Sir Integra's office down the steps I noticed Miss Avery speed walking across the first floor. She looked as beautiful as ever but she seemed deep in thought as she ran up the stairs next to me. Why is she running around the Manor? That is a bit odd she normally just transports herself here and there.

I put my arm out to slow her down as she tried to make her way past me. I don't think she even noticed I was there until I took a hold of her waist.

"Oh Walter I'm sorry I was completely out of it" She exclaimed as she snapped herself back into reality; smiling up at me I could tell something was not right with her. She looked sad.

"Yes, I could tell. What is wrong darling?" I asked as I pulled her into my chest and placed a gentle kiss on the top of her head. She looked up at me with a quick smile, she was still half in a world of her own. I was starting to worry about her honestly.

"Nothing, it doesn't matter I have to go and see Sir Integra. Please excuse me." She said quickly. I frown as she pulls herself away from me without so much as a kiss and continues her journey up the stairs to Sir Integra's office. As she made her way up the stairs I notice that her top was stained with dark blood, her wound was seeping again and she was not healing at all…this was bad.

Integra POV

I sat in my office working through piles of paperwork on the enemy, there was not much to go on all we knew at this point was that it was the Nazi again. I could not believe it! Fifty fucking years since we won the war, I thought that all the Nazi vampires were eradicated by Walter and Alucard fifty years ago.

As I sat looking through more papers I am interrupted by a knock at the door. Groaning at the distraction I tell person to come in. I was surprised when Avery walked in, normally she would have just appeared in the room.

"Sir Integra I would like to speak with you." She said as she made her way into the room and stood in front of me and bowed.

"What is it Avery? I am very busy dealing with this bastard Nazi situation." I mutter as I placed my papers down on the table with a sigh.

"It's about that weapon the millennium vampire used on me during the siege a few weeks ago Ma'am." Avery spoke up

"What about it?" I asked as I lit up a cigar and inhaled deeply.

"Well it seems that the blade that I was attacked with was engineered specifically to destroy my kind of demon." Avery explained as she placed more papers on my desk. As I looked over the documents it had diagrams explaining the composition of the blade.

"I see but you are still here Avery." I reminded her as I put the papers down and looked up at the woman. I knew what she was implying and to be honest I was worried about it too.

"Sir Integra, I have not been myself since the attack. Look at the wound! " Avery exclaimed as she went to remove her shirt and revealed the large black staining across her skin and as cut looked raw and seeping. If I was not used to seeing such horrors I would have been sick.

"Dear God! You should have told me sooner Avery!" I gasp as I stand up from my desk and make my way around to my attendant.

"I know. I thought I could heal on my own. I have fed more often that I need do and it still refuses to even start healing. In fact, it's spreading." She tried to explain as she put her shirt back on. "The doctors say it is like a poison spreading daily and I am getting weaker as it does…" She explained in a low voice as she looked over to me with sad eyes.

Avery had raised me since I was a baby. I never knew my Mother as she died giving birth to me. The demon in front of me was the closest thing I would ever know to a mother figure, even if now she acted more like a servant she would always have that place in my heart and seeing her look this weak and fragile made my blood boil. I would destroy these Nazi bastards and send them straight to hell.

"Is there a cure?"

"Not as of yet, we know that our enemies manufactured it but we do not know how they came to possess this kind of weapon. In all my years I have never seen something like this." Avery said as she straightened herself out.

"There are no records at all in any of our archives?" I ask as I chew on the end of my cigar.

"No Ma'am nothing at all." She replied as she lowered her head.

"Avery does this mean…." I began to ask the dreaded question as I chewed off the end of my cigar.

"It looks that way Sir" Avery whispered as she looked over at the fireplace.

"Was that all Avery?" I ask harshly as she nodded and left the room I turned my chair away from the door. I know it was not her fault but I was angry, no I was more than angry. I was not going to let those bastards do this! They will not rip apart the Hellsing family!

Alucard POV

As I made my way over to Sir Integra's office I notice the old butler standing by the corridor window. He seemed deep in thought again.

"I assume you have heard the news?" He said as I approached the window.

"The Nazis again it's unbelievable and now here we are again fifty years later." He spoke angrily as he looked up at the full moon.

"Is it really that surprising? I had a feeling they might be involved. This whole mess feels very familiar." I said as I looked up at the moon. It was true; it felt exactly the same, the tensions between people and the evenings full of anticipation and dread.

Walter seemed to snap out of his imagination and turn to face me. "Oh and why is that?" he asked as he crossed his arms leaning on the window ledge.

"You are asking why after all we have been through." I scoff at the old man. Humans really are so simple minded. "There are not a lot of people willing to recruit the undead to do their bidding." I began before I was interrupted by the sound of heels walking down the corridor. Blood Fury, does she have to be everywhere all the time?

"There are more people than you would think that would recruit us Alucard." The demon muttered coldly as she walked past the butler and myself and carried on down the corridor.

I notice the Butlers heart rate sped up tremendously as he watched her walk past. He really was besotted by her, it was truly pathetic. Disgusting to fawn over a demon after all he had seen. He was becoming soft in his old age. "Miss Avery?" He called out as the woman looked back with a smile.

"Sorry to interrupt I'm just heading to bed. Goodnight gentlemen." She said with a false smile and continued down the corridor. The butler's eyes never once left her body as she disappeared down the dark corridor.

"As we were saying, there's you, there's them and then there are demons" I continued as the butler looked back towards me and returned to leaning on the window. "We assumed that we had completely destroyed their undead research labs fifty years ago. If you remember we killed every Nazi we found." I chuckled darkly as I recalled the violent times.

Walter POV

"Ah yes we did didn't we. My god it's been ages" I replied thinking back to the days of my youth with a dark smile. Those were fun times, I hated to admit it but I enjoyed killing things. I always had. Never denied it in all my years on this earth it was the one thing that brought me joy.

Alucard looked at me and chuckled "Growing old seems so awful." He said with a tone that sounded like pity. I didn't want his pity!

"Oh, it's not that bad…" I lie.

"So you wouldn't want to be young again?" He asked knowing full well what he was implying with that comment. I glared at him and swallowed hard.

"Alucard we are sending you to South America." I said thinking it best to change the topic of conversation. "We are not the kind of people used to backing down especially when someone has clearly tried to pick a fight." I spat at the vampire.

"That is a very British attitude maybe some discretion is to be advised." He chuckled

"If something is to be gained easily it probably isn't worth it" I replied coldly, knowing he would take that comment one of two ways.

"Like the affection of a certain vengeance demon?" The vampire replied coldly as he smiled darkly. I knew that he would not be letting this topic go for some time. He was never a fan of the arrangement between Odette and I. He found it disgusting and had made it known more than once.

"And what do you mean by that?" I snap at the vampire taking a step forward.

"You know exactly what I mean. I have told you before old man. It's just lust." He said coldly as I dug my nails into my palms I took another step towards the vampire. "What happens between Odette and I is none of your concern Alucard" I hiss.

Luckily for everyone before the situation could escalate Sir Integra opened her office door and addressed the two males.

"Good evening has Walter explained the situation?" She began as she rested on the door frame.

"Yes, the old man has made things very clear" Alucard replied removing his hat.

"My orders are simple. Search and Destroy!" Integra barked from the door.

"Yes my Master"

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