1/21: I am so sorry i haven't gotten the chance to update yet. I was starting my new semester which meant having a crap ton of homework and shit to do. Meanwhile, my two bestfriends are having like a very early mid-life crisis or something so its been fun having to deal with that. But... on a happy note, i am currently working on the next chapter and it should be up by the end of the week. Also, i might write another story which will probably be either a one shot or a very short story, maybe 2 chapters or so, but i won't start on that one until i am done with this one. I'm thinking that there are only about 4 chapters left in this story. Anywho, i will keep you guys posted. again i am so sorry, i feel like shit for making you guys wait this long for the next chapter, especially with where i left off. I love you guys and thanks for being so patient with me for this story.
Vinny
12/22: I screwed up lol, I forgot my laptop charger at my house 5 hours away from my parents house.i am so sorry, ill be back home on the 26 or 27 so ill write then... Im so sorry guys, i am gonna try and get back on a regular writing schedule since my life is less hectic now. Again im sorry guys :(
Hey guys, i just wanted to remind you that i have a tumblr profile set up for this story and that is where i will be keeping you guys updated with how the story is going to work. like i said before, i won't be able to write until finals are done and im back at my parents place, so ill post on there when i am starting to write again. Happy Holidays Guys!
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Alright guys, sorry about the long wait for the update, i had to drive back to my parents house for thanksgiving which was stressful and my friends have been consuming my time. I want to give a special thanks to mishahastakenovermylife for giving me the kick in the but to get this update finished! I will get the next one done soon cause i am starting to get back into my story.
Alright guys, i love you and hope you enjoy the update and feel free to review my story!
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hey guys, sorry i haven't gotten the chance to update, i have been busy with finals and things so i haven't gotten the chance to write. I'll be able to write the next chapter sometime after finals... Sorry guys.
Doubt Makes a Comeback (Chapter 13)
Cas awoke on the slab that had imprisoned him for the past day, his pain reminded him of the torture that he had been suffering from. He turned his head to his left to see if anyone was around, he was all alone in the room. He looked to the entrance of the tomb, waiting for his knight to come and save him, like he always did.
"Oh Cassie?! I'm home!" Crowley yelled as he walked down the steps.
Cas sat there silently and turned his head away from the mad man that had been torturing him.
"Why won't you talk to me? Do I smell or something?" Crowley mocked.
Cas remained silent.
"You know this would be more fun if you talked to me." Crowley pried.
Cas shifted in his binds and still refused to look at Crowley.
Crowley walked over to the side of the table and smacked Cas across the face.
"I want you to look at me!" Crowley yelled.
Cas still refused to look at Crowley, instead he took the blow and just closed his eyes.
"Fine, then we will do this the hard way." Crowley said, Cas couldn't tell where Crowley was.
Cas heard Crowley starting to make his way back to where he was. He felt a knife dragging across his arm, he held in the pain and refused to scream. Cas' refusal to scream only made Crowley angrier, he dragged the blade across Cas arm again.
Cas screamed as the pain became overwhelming, his vision started to go hazy as he sank into oblivion.
Cas was sitting on the slab he had been previously tied to. The room was much brighter than before,like it was daytime. All of the knives and torture devices were not where they were the last time he looked. Cas looked around, not knowing what was going on. He spotted something out of the corner of his eye, a dark figure in the shadow of the room.
"Well, well, well. Aren't I a busy beaver this month." The shadow in the corner stated.
"Excuse me?" Cas asked.
"Well, I mean I have been a very busy boy." The shadow said again.
"Who are you?" Cas questioned.
"Well, I'm Dean." The shadow stated as it stepped out, it was Dean.
"Dean!" Cas said as he ran over to Dean. He stopped when he noticed that something was off about Dean. His eyes were pitch black and something was wrong with his fingers. Cas took a couple steps back from this Dean imposter.
"What? Don't I get a hug?" The thing asked.
"You're not Dean." Cas stammered as he stepped away.
"Yeah, you're right. I'm not Dean." The thing replied.
"Than what are you?" Cas asked.
"I have many names, but that is not important. You know that Dean isn't going to save you." The thing replied, the thing's body changed from looking like Dean to a blob of shadows.
"Yes he will, I have faith." Cas replied.
"Faith is an easy thing to break." The thing said as a smile grew across its face. The thing started to laugh, which spread throughout the entire area. Cas felt himself start to slip back into reality.
"Oh good your awake again." Crowley said.
Cas opened his eyes and looked over at Crowley who was sitting in a chair by the table.
"Now we can get down to the real fun!"Crowley stated.
Crowley had been torturing Cas for a couple of hours. Cas' body was starting to give out on him, his body was slowly starting to become more and more brittle with every slash and gash they put on him. Every time they attacked him, he would pass out from the pain. Each time he would wake up to find Crowley waiting for him, waiting to torture him again.
Cas wasn't really sure why they were doing this to him, but he was sure that it had something to do with him and Dean. His head was still fuzzy when they explained why they were doing this and he couldn't remember for the life of him. Cas was pretty sure that he had a concussion, which is why he was having such issues with his memory.
Cas had just woken up from being unconscious to find that the room was empty, and the lights were off. He looked around to see if anyone was in the room, the stench of blood still filled the room from Crowley stabbing Bella. The memory of that moment still haunts Cas.
Cas woke up to the sound of something being thrown onto the slab next to him, he opened his eyes to see Bella, limp and unconscious on the table. Cas snuck a peak to see where Crowley was, he closed his eyes again when Crowley looked over in his general direction.
Cas cracked his eye and looked over at Bella, he saw that she was starting to wake up. He looked over at Crowley and saw that he had slipped a knife into his jacket and walked over towards Bella's semi-conscious body.
"Well Bella, isn't this a turn of events?" Crowley asked.
"I don't know what you are talking about." Bella responded.
"Don't play dumb with me sweetheart. I heard you on the phone with Dean." Crowley started, "Now the real question is what to do with you?"
"What we are doing is wrong! Don't you know that?!" Bella yelled as Crowley got closer.
"You act as if I care." Crowley replied. He pulled a knife from his coat and slid it across her face, slicing a cut across the lower cheek. Blood ran down her face, dripping onto the table behind her. Cas cringed at the sound of Bella's flesh slashing open, being reminded off all the wounds he had suffered so far.
"You fucking bastard!" Bella yelled.
Crowley slit another cut across the other side of her face.
"Now dear, tell me what you said and I will get this over with as quick as possible." Crowley threatened.
"I didn't say anything." Bella stated adamantly.
"Fine, looks like we are going to have to do it the hard way." Crowley said as he walked over to the tabletop and grabbed a cattle prod.
Cas watched as Crowley shoved the prod into her side, her body shaking and contorting in odd ways. Cas closed his eyes and waited for it to stop.
"WHAT DID YOU TELL DEAN?!" Crowley yelled.
"I didn't say anything!" Bella repeated.
Cas watched in horror as Crowley was getting angrier and angrier, he knew what was going to happen. Cas looked over at Bella who was looking at him, mouthing something that he couldn't make out. Cas watched as Crowley stabbed her with the prod again, her body shaking and rocking against the straps that held her to the slab.
"Well, your will is much stronger than I thought, looks like we are going to have to step it up a notch." Crowley complimented as he walked back to the table.
Cas watched as Bella looked over at him again. She said something that he could barely hear.
"I'm sorry." She whispered to him.
Cas turned away from her, not caring what she had to apologize for. She was the reason that he was here. It was her fault that all of this was happening! Why should she be forgiven for this?! What makes her think that she should be forgiven?!
Cas turned back to Bella, to see that she was staring at Crowley, who had a big butcher knife in his hand. Cas' body naturally tensed up at the sight of that knife as all of his wounds seared with pain.
"Now, we are going to try this again, and for every time you lie or don't say anything I am going to cut off one of your fingers. And then once your fingers are gone, I'm going to move on to your toes. " Crowley said.
"Now, what did you tell Dean?" Crowley asked.
"I said I knew where Cas was. That's it!" Bella finally cracked.
"I don't quite believe you." Crowley said as he swung the knife down on Bella's finger, severing it from her body.
"YOU MOTHER FUCKER!" Bella screamed as her finger fell to the floor.
"Tell me the truth this time or I'm just going to cut the whole hand off!" Crowley screamed back.
"I told you already. I told him I knew where Cas was, I didn't get the chance to tell him where before you knocked me out." Bella explained.
"See was that so hard?" Crowley said as he walked back to the table.
Cas watched as Bella looked over at him again and mouthed the same thing again at him. Instead of turning away, he continued to look at her, knowing full and well what was going to happen to her.
"I forgive you." Cas whispered, knowing that this was going to be his only chance to forgive her.
Bella was looking over at Cas when Crowley plunged a knife into her gut. Cas cringed at the sound of the knife driving into Bella's body. Cas heard as Bella coughed and a bit of blood flew out of her mouth.
"If you wouldn't have had to have a big mouth than you wouldn't be in this situation." Crowley said as he turned his back on her.
Cas watched as Bella's eyes became lifeless and limp. Cas said a quick prayer for Bella, in case she hadn't heard him say that he forgave her.
"Lord in heaven, please forgive your child. Though she got me into this situation, she did not know what she was doing. Please let her know that I forgive her for what she did. Amen" Cas prayed quietly. Cas opened his eyes to see Crowley looking over at him.
"Oh look who's awake?" Crowley said with a sick smile on his face.
Cas lay on the slab after recalling the memory of Bella's Death. Her body was on the ground next to the slab, on the other side of it by the door. He looked through the darkness, trying to see what time of day it could be. A bit of light slipped through a crack in the door. He determined that it was daylight out.
He sat in the dark, trying to find a way to possibly escape from the straps that contained him. He could see that the only thing that kept the straps down was a buckle on the straps. Cas tried to flex and break out of them, but he was too weak from the blood loss to break the straps.
Cas was trying to break them open, when he heard someone walking down the stairs.
"Good morning Cas. How was your night?" Crowley asked sarcastically.
Cas just laid on the table, trying to not pay attention to the annoying man who had been torturing him for the past couple days.
"Well, you are just a big ball of sunshine aren't ya?" Crowley asked.
Cas watched as Crowley pulled out his phone and called someone.
"Ruby? It's Crowley. I need you to come to the cake house." Crowley said, Cas had figured out that they called this place the cake house in case anyone was listening to them. Cas had realized that his group of torturers were paranoid as hell.
"Just get over here! I don't care what you are doing, you need to get over here." Crowley commanded as he hung up the phone.
"Geeze, some people." Crowley complained.
"TAKE MY HAND WE'RE ALMOST HOME, WE CAN SEE THE FIRE GLOW!" A phone rang. Crowley looked around confused.
"Where the hell is that coming from?" Crowley asked as he looked at Bella. He reached into her pocket and pulled her phone out .
"SAVING GRACE! I'M SICK OF SAVING FACE!" The phone continued to ring.
"Oh look, it's Dean." Crowley said with a smile on his face. Crowley walked the phone over to Cas and put the phone up to his ear.
"Dean…" Cas whispered, it was all he could muster up.
"Cas?" Dean replied, Cas almost started crying at the sound of his voice. Cas wanted to say more, he wanted to say so much more. He wanted to say how happy he was to hear Dean's voice. He wanted to say that he was sorry for everything, and that he loved him. But, before he got the chance, Crowley took the phone away from Cas and put it up to his ear.
"Don't call again or I'll kill your little angel." Crowley said into the phone and slammed the phone shut. Cas jumped at the sound of the phone slamming shut. Cas watched as Crowley threw the phone down on the slab where Bella used to be. He walked back over to the counter and pulled out his phone and called someone.
"Balthazar, I need you to come here ASAP, it's urgent." Crowley said into the phone.
Cas was only semi-conscious as Crowley had taken his left over rage out on him before he called Ruby and Balthazar to help him move Bella from the table. Cas couldn't tell why Crowley needed Ruby and Balthazar to help move the body. The only thing he could focus on was the sound of Dean's voice from the phone call. Cas? Cas thought to himself in Dean's voice. Cas decided that it would be for the best if for the time he was here he focused on the good instead of what they were going to do to him.
"What was so fucking urgent that you needed me to show up already?" Ruby said as she came down the stairs.
"That." Crowley said as he pointed to the corpse of Bella.
"What the fuck Crowley?!" Ruby yelled.
"She called Dean and tried to tell him where we had feather brains here. I caught her just as she was about to spill the beans. " Crowley explained.
"But did you have to kill her?!" Ruby yelled again.
"She knew all of our plans, she was a liability." Crowley stated, trying to convince Ruby that it was for the best that he killed Bella.
"Alright fine. So why do I gack," Ruby gagged at the smell of blood on the floor and on the knife, "why do I have to be here?" She finished.
"I need you and Balthazar to help me move the body. I dug up an old grave not far from here that we can put her in and no one will know what happened." Crowley stated.
"Fine. Did Balthazar say how long it would take him to get over here?" Ruby asked.
"He said he would be here in an hour." Crowley said.
"Well, looks like we have some time to kill." Ruby said as she turned towards Cas.
Cas closed his eyes as Ruby walked over to him and pulled out her knife and dragged it across his knuckles, they began to bleed. Cas' vision started to dim as the loss of blood started to get to him.
Cas woke up in his bed back in his apartment. He looked around and saw that everything was the same as it always was.
Maybe it was all a dream? Cas thought to himself.
He walked out of the bedroom and into the kitchen; he saw that Dean was sitting at the table.
"Hey Cas, how was your little snooze?" Dean asked.
"It was fine, I suppose." Cas replied.
"That's good." Dean replied with a smile on his face, except something was wrong with his smile, it was just completely black. Dean's face shifted to complete darkness. The Dean Doppelgänger shifted in his seat and crossed his legs. He scanned Cas' face, looking for a reaction.
"What, aren't you surprised to see me?" The creature asked.
"I suppose." Cas replied.
"Now, down to business, did you really think that Dean would come for you?" The creature questioned.
"I know he will, I have faith in him. " Cas replied.
"God, you people and your faith!Faith is easily broken by doubt." The creature responded.
Cas watched as the room shifted to the bedroom, Cas watched as Dean woke up and stood up and went to the bathroom. Cas walked up to Dean and tried to hug him, instead of being able to touch his boyfriend that he loved so dearly, Dean just passed right through him. Cas turned to the creature that was standing behind him, a grin spread across his face.
"What is going on? I do not understand?" Cas asked.
"This was Dean's day today. He didn't even think that anything was wrong. You see, he doesn't care about you at all. " The creature replied.
"No, I don't believe you, this is a trick." Cas replied.
"Uh, fine, believe what you want, but I am telling you the truth. Castiel, Dean doesn't care about you, I mean; he hasn't even looked for you yet!" The creature stated.
"I don't believe you." Cas replied, turning away from the creature. Cas felt as the creature grabbed onto Cas' shoulders and slide his hands around Cas' neck seductively.
"Believe what you want, but doubt is an insidious force. Once it has started, it will spread slowly until it completely consumes you." The creature replied as it poked Cas with its hand on his chest. Cas looked down at the spot where the creature had poked him to see that the area that it poked became black, moving and starting to consume him.
"You see, all I did was pull your doubt to the surface. I wouldn't have been able to do anything if that seed of doubt wasn't already there. " The creature stated.
Cas watched as the darkness began to spread from his chest, across his arm, and down the rest of his body. Cas' whole body was consumed by the darkness except for his neck. Cas tried to struggle against the darkness but it hardened like a cocoon around him. The creature walked up to Cas and ran his finger against the hardened darkness.
"Ah, you were much easier to convince than the other one. " The creature giggled as the darkness started to grow slowly again. Cas tried to struggle but it was to no avail.
"Cas!" Someone yelled. Cas watched as the room shifted again back to the mausoleum. The creature turned around to look at what made that noise.
Cas watched as someone came down the steps into the mausoleum. Cas could barely see who it was they were shining so brightly.
"Oh great, you again? Can't you let me have some fun?" The creature asked the being.
"I'm here for Cas." The being replied. Cas looked at the being, he could make out some features but still couldn't tell who it was. The being looked over at Cas and saw that he couldn't tell who it was.
The being did something and the light that surrounded the being dimmed into a light glow. Cas could now see it who the being was. It was Dean! Except it wasn't, Dean had four white wings that hung off his back, the glowed like the snow. Cas looked at Dean with awe, he couldn't believe that Dean was here. Or how he was here?
"You can't have him Doubt. He is mine." Dean told Doubt.
"What are you going to stop me again with the little sword of your again." Doubt taunted.
"Not this time." Dean stated. Dean looked over at Cas, who was almost completely covered by the darkness.
"Dean!" Cas yelled as the darkness closed around him. Cas panicked inside the cocoon, the darkness was overwhelming. Cas looked down, as something caught his eye. He looked down to see a little light shining from his chest. The cocoon of darkness slowly began to crack as the light grew brighter and brighter. Cas broke through the cocoon to see Dean standing over the creature Cas learned was named Doubt.
"Dean." Cas stated as he walked over to Dean.
"Cas." Dean replied as he hugged Cas.
"Cas, I need you to stay strong. " Dean stated. "Everything will be ok, you just need to stay strong for me."
"I love you." Cas stated.
"I love you too." Dean replied as he started to fade away.
Cas woke up on the slab, his head was screaming.
"Good you're awake." Balthazar stated. Cas looked around the room to see it was just him and Balthazar.
"Here drink this, we don't want you dying yet." Balthazar said as he raised a water bottle up to Cas mouth. Cas drank the water like it was the fountain of youth. The water tasted so good and made him feel so much better.
"Thank you." Cas replied groggily.
"Don't thank me, I just don't want you to die yet." Balthazar stated.
"Balthazar! Get up here and help us." Crowley yelled from the top of the stairs.
Cas looked outside and saw that it was night time now, he looked over at Balthazar who just looked the other way and walked up the stairs to go help them bury Bella.
Cas could hear from the bottom of the stairs that Ruby had already dug the whole and that the boys just had to bury Bella and het her into the hole.
"I'll stay with the angel." Cas heard Ruby say from the top of the stairs.
"Alright, but no more torture. We don't want him to die yet." Crowley replied.
"Fine." Ruby replied as she walked down the stairs. Cas closed his eyes and pretended that he was still asleep so that she wouldn't do anything to him. Cas squinted out of his eyes to see that Ruby was sitting on the ground reading a magazine in the lamplight. She sat there and looked through the magazine for half an hour while she waited for the boys to get back from burying Bella's body.
Cas could hear Crowley and Balthazar coming back at the top of the stairs.
"How are we going to go about this? If we keep this up, then he is going to die before we get to complete the rest of our plan." Balthazar explained.
"Listen, don't worry your pretty little face about this and leave it up to me. I'll figure it out." Crowley replied as he came down the stairs.
"Good you two are back, I have to leave or my mom is going to kill me. " Ruby greeted as she ran past them and up the stairs.
"See you later?" Crowley stated." Also, I think it is your night to watch our angel over there."
"Yeah, it's my turn. You go get some sleep, I'll keep watch." Balthazar stated as Crowley walked out of the mausoleum.
Balthazar walked over to the stairs to make sure that Crowley was gone; he walked over to his backpack and grabbed a water bottle.
"Here, drink." Balthazar commanded.
"Thank you." Cas thanked. This continued a couple of times to where Cas was nice and hydrated, his body felt much better after everything.
Eventually Balthazar walked over to the ground and sat down, Cas watched as Balthazar began to fall asleep. Cas waited for him to be in deep enough sleep that he tried to break out of the bonds. Cas made sure to check each time before he tried to make sure that Balthazar was still asleep.
Cas gave up when he realized that he still wasn't strong enough to get through the straps. Cas lay against the slab that he had been tied to for two days. Cas remembered what "Dean" had said to him and that he needed to keep strong.
"Cas?" someone whispered.
"Cas?" the voice said a bit louder.
Cas looked over at Balthazar to see that he was still asleep, and Cas looked over to the stairs.
"Yeah?" Cas whispered quietly.
Cas could hear someone coming down the stairs. He looked over to see who was coming down the stairs to see Dean coming down slowly.
Cas smiled as his boyfriend showed up just in the nick of time.
"Cas." Dean whispered quietly, a tear rolled down his eye as he saw what they had down to him.
"Dean." Cas whispered back. Dean bent down and started to undo the straps that held Cas.
"Dean, quiet." Cas whispered, his body was still weak so he couldn't explain what was wrong. Cas looked over at where Balthazar was, only to see that he was gone. Cas looked back at Dean to see Balthazar standing right behind him with a brick in his hand.
"DEAN!" Cas yelled as Balthazar hit Dean, knocking him to the ground.
"Well, you've been a bad boy." Balthazar stated with a smile on his face.
A/N: Duh Duh Duh! i love you guys and hope you enjoyed this chapter. I might not be able to get the chapter done this week cause of thanksgiving and stuff. Anywho, i love you guys and can't wait to see how you guys react to this chapter!
Love Vinny!