She looked through her clothes. She was determined to be as sexy as possible for Roman. She wanted him and she was gonna make him look at her all night if she could. She took out her schoolgirl miniskirt. It was black and grey checkered. She put on a white shirt and made sure to unbutton the first three buttons so a hint of her black bra was showing. She put her hair in two high pigtails. She put on a pair of white knee socks and her black high heeled lolita shoes. She looked in the mirror.
"Perfect," she thought.
She knew that this schoolgirl outfit always turned a lot of heads and made many guys drool. She just hoped it would get Roman's attention as well.
Only a few was there when she arrived. She looked around but couldn't see Roman anywhere.
"Where's your cousin?" She asked Jimmy as casual as she could.
"Oh, he's just in the bedroom on the phone with his mother," Jimmy answered.
She breathed a sigh of relief. He was there and he would soon be out.
She went to put her bag on the window shelf. It was dark outside so she could see everyone's reflections in the window. She saw the bedroom door open and Roman step out. He looked right in her direction. Instead of putting the bag on the window shelf, she chose to bend over and put it on the floor. She knew he would get a good view when the miniskirt went up. She had been wearing this skirt so many times so she knew exactly how far to bend to make the skirt stop right before her thong was showing.
She took her time standing like that while pulling out a beer from her bag. She got back up and turned around and he was right there in front of her.
"Wow. You look... Wow," he said, clearly lost for words.
"Thanks," she said and gave him a cheeky smile.
He leaned in a hugged her. She kept her beer in front of her so it hit his stomach while putting her free hand on his side. She was still not comfortable with hugging someone just for the hug's sake so she felt really awkward.
"Let's sit down," he said and started walking towards the couch.
She followed him and they sat down next to each other.
He was easy to talk to and she enjoyed herself. As the hours went along, more and more people turned up. The party was ongoing, people were having fun and drinking. She was drinking too but not as heavy as last night. She wanted to stay as clearheaded as possible for him. He was drinking too. None of them were sober and the alcohol made them laugh a lot, say stupid things and in general just goof around.
"You seem like a complicated girl. In a good way, I mean, but still complicated," he said.
"You have no idea," she said and winked at him.
"Tell me something about yourself. Something real," he said.
"Like what?" She asked.
"I don't know. Something crazy," he answered.
"I'll tell you what. I'll sing it to you," she said.
"Sing it?" He asked.
"Yes, I'll put on a song and sing along to it. The lyrics are a lot like me," she answered.
She got up from the couch and went to put on the song "Blood" by In This Moment.
"Just play along," she giggled while dropping down on the couch next to him again.
I hate you for the sacrifices you made for me
I hate you for every time you ever bled for me
I hate you for the way you smile when you look at me
I hate you for never taking control of me
I hate you for always saving me from myself
I hate you for always choosing me and not someone else
I hate you for always pulling me back from the edge
I hate you for every kind word you ever said
He couldn't help but laugh through her singing. He found the lyrics hilarious. She quickly went to sit on the knees turning her body to face him directly.
Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
Shut your dirty, dirty mouth
I'm not that easy
Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
I'm a dirty, dirty girl
I want it filthy
She quickly swung herself on top of him, her knees on each side of his hips, looking directly into his eyes.
I love you for everything you ever took from me
I love the way you dominate and you violate me
I love you for every time you gave up on me
I love you for the way you look when you lie to me
I love you for never believing in what I say
I love you for never once giving me my way
I love you for never delivering me from pain
I love you for always driving me insane
She had his full attention.
Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
Shut your dirty, dirty mouth
I'm not that easy
Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
I'm a dirty, dirty girl
I want it filthy
She leaned in and bit his underlip. He let out a small groan. She let go of his lip and smiled.
"So what I got from this is that you want to be dominated and violated by a man," he said and laughed.
"Of course that's what you got out of it," she said.
She pushed herself off him again.
"I need some fresh air," she said and walked outside.
She had only been outside for 10 seconds when he came out too.
"Did I say something wrong in there?" He asked.
"No, I just needed some air," she answered and started walking towards the parking lot.
He walked with her. She walked all the way down to the darkest end. Only one car was there. It was cold outside and she was starting to shiver.
"That's my car. I got a jacket in there you can borrow so you don't freeze," he said and went to unlock the door.
She went to sit on the hood of the car facing the fence it was parked in front of. She heard the car door shut and seconds after he put a jacket around her shoulders. He went to stand between her and the fence.
"Is something wrong?" He asked.
"I just thought..." She began but stopped herself.
"Thought what?" He asked.
"I just thought that you liked me, that you wanted me," she said and looked down ashamed.
He stepped close to her and lifted up her chin.
"I do like you and I do want you but I'm not one of those people that need an entire room to see that I get it on with a girl," he said.
He leaned in and kissed her, his tongue seperating her lips. She grabbed his shirt and pulled him closer, demanding more. She couldn't stop herself. Her mind was messed up when it came to men and she did as she always did, thinking he would want the same as everyone else. She pushed him back against the fence, got off the hood and started opening his belt fast. His hands went for hers, stopping her.
"Wow wow wow, stop. Not like that, not here," he said.
"But I thought you wanted me," she said confused.
"What did you expect? That I throw you down on the hood of my car, give it to you fast and go inside again?" He asked with a bit of anger in his voice.
"Yeah, that was kind of the plan," she answered.
He fixed his belt.
"Look, you're a very sweet girl but I don't wanna do it like that. I don't know what weird guys you have known before me but I'm not like that," he said, his voice had calmed down again.
"Oh, forget it," she said in an angry tone.
She pushed him away, threw his jacket at him and ran inside. She was angry and ashamed and she felt rejected.
When he finally entered the apartment again, she was on the floor with a beer in her hand along with Alison. They were headbanging and jumping around. She sang along with the choros, hoping he would understand that was exactly how she felt.
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster
She felt a hand grab her hair and pull her head back. She saw Jimmy's face as he leaned in and forced his tongue down her throat. Normally she would have let him, especially when she had been rejected so the other guy would get jealous but this time it was different. She pushed Jimmy forcefully away from her.
"What the fuck are you doing?" She screamed.
He lost his balance and tumbled a few steps backwards so he hit the wall. It infuriated him. He pushed himself off the wall.
"What the fuck, you little cunt? I'm suddenly not good enough for you anymore?" He screamed back at her.
Roman was quickly at his cousin's side holding him back.
"Calm down," he said.
Jimmy saw the looks being exchanged between Melissa and Roman.
"What? Him? He's the flavour of the week, huh?" Jimmy blurted out.
She just looked down, feeling exposed. Jimmy faced Roman.
"No Roman, don't go there. She's the local slut. Every guy in this room has been with her at least twice. I don't even know how many times I've fucked her. We all know she's good and easy. You shouldn't get yourself mixed up in that," he said.
"Fuck you!" She shouted and slapped him hard.
This only made him more angry and he tried to launch at her but Roman grabbed his shoulders and threw him back against the wall.
"Don't you fucking dare hit a woman," he hissed at his cousin.
She quickly grabbed her bag and ran out of the apartment.