Chapter 10

Tris

We go to my apartment. Christina tries to ask me about Tobias, but I just keep walking. "Details please," she says when I've closed the door.

We sit down on the couch and I start. "Well, as you may have seen, we made up. Yesterday, after practice, or during…" I pause.
"And? How? Did you just say that you were sorry and that you wanted him back?"

"Um, not exactly. We were, um…" I pause. How do I describe it? It was so intense.

"Hello?" She says impatiently.

"Alright, but don't say it was to much information when I'm done."

"How bad can it be?" She rolls her eyes. "One of your fears is intimacy."

"Well, as I said, we were practicing and he beat me by tackling me to the floor. And when I admitted that he'd won he kissed me, and I kissed him back…" Christina's jaw drops. "Then we went to his apartment and… fell asleep."

"Hold up." She puts up a hand to protest. "You fell asleep?" She looks surprised, and kind off disappointed.

"Well, I won't give you details. Just, figure the rest out yourself?"

"So you guys… had… you did it?" Her words surprise me.

"What? No! You know I'm not ready."

"I'm sorry, but you said to figure out the rest myself."

"Well, no, we didn't."

She smiles. "I'm happy for you Tris. You really deserve the best."

"Thank you. I'm really happy, but enough about me though. How are you and Will?"

She lights up when I say his name. "We're great. We however have done it."

"Okay! I don't need to hear about that." I cover my ears with my hand to show that she should keep that information to herself.

She giggles a little. "You asked." We burst into laughter together. It feels great to laugh again. Being without Tobias I haven't really felt like laughing at all. Then the door opens and he walks in.

"Hi," he says with a languid smile on his face.

"Speak of the devil." Christina gets up. "I'm gonna go now. Bye Tris. Bye Four." She walks past him and pats him on the chest. "Have fun!" She says and closes the door behind her.

"She's something huh?" He says, laughing a little, while taking of his jacket.

I get up and walk over to him. "So…" He starts but I put my finger on his lips to hush him. "Tris…" He tries again, but I interrupt him.

"I wanna talk to you."

He frowns a little. "Okay?"

We sit down on the couch. "I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry. I'm really sorry for what I did. You didn't deserve that. I want you to know that I won't ever do that again." I take his hand in mine. "And that brings me to my question. Can we decide to always be honest with each other?"

He smiles. "Yes. Of course." I smile and lay down my head on his chest, resting. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me closer. I can feel his heart beating steady against my cheek. It takes me back to that one time we went into his fear landscape together, and when I helped him in the shrinking box by letting him feel my heart beat. I remember being so nervous. Now, I know who I am with him, and I know who he his with me. It feels like ages ago we sat in that small space, with walls pressing us closer to each other for every minute that passed. Now, that is all that I want.

I must have fallen asleep; because when I open my eyes I'm laying in my bed. Tobias is standing by the window, staring into the dark night. I get up and walk over to him.

"Hey. What time is it?"

He puts his arm around my shoulders. "It's almost eleven. I should go. I'll see you tomorrow okay?"

"Yeah."

He kisses my forehead softly and then walks toward the door. I don't want him to leave. Not after our break up. "Wait," I say when he opens the door. He stops and turns to me. "Would you stay with me? I don't want to sleep alone."

He closes the door again. "Always."

See ya'll soon. Be brave! -s