Can't breathe.
Not when reality is staring right at you.
Can't think.
Not when your so close to me.
Can't smell.
For your perfume has become my drug.
If you only knew the truth will you still feel the same?
Forgive me for I'm being greedy but I can't help but savor every moment
I'm near you.
Tell me is this love I'm feeling?
My real name is Viola Hastings.
But for you I'll be your Sebastian till my time runs out.
One month earlier
"Grumbling in your sleep won't stop you from going to practice!"
Ugh the beauty of an overly cheery mother. To start off my parents are divorced. Period. No one knows why or when it really happen. As such our dear sweet mother has put extra attention to her only children. Twins! To make the matter worse she has made her priority to make me a lady! Mark my words that day is still to far to come. If anything it's an impossibility! I can't help myself that I like soccer more than anything. And my twin brother likes to sing. Ha I almost peed when an old lady said he sang like a perfect "lady". My my if I didn't know better I'll say we were born the wrong genders.
Today is the day I start the stupid girly group for ladies to be educated. Ugh I just threw up a little. Come on I can eat, sit, and talk or even walk as I please! It's my body not theirs! Stupid rules. Stupid girls. Stupid everything. Why make such a club in the first place?
"Enough Viola! Get ready for my beautiful girl is finally going to be a lady!"
"They don't do miracles mom"
Ah my other half.
"Shut up Sebastian. It's not you could do any better!"
"Yea yea whatever PRINCESS!"
I snort princess? Seriously that's all he could come up with? Either way I make my way to the inevitable. Sebastian grabs my hand and whispers in my ear " come find me when you get back it's important". I nod. This could only mean one thing. My brother must have gotten his band accepted. He send his cd overboard to England. And if I'm correct he's dead! There's no way out parents will let him go overseas.
Well see how he will get out of it. What is going through your head dear brother?
Screaming wouldn't help but it sure will be nice. Today's "practice" was horrible. They inspected me as if I was some sort of insect. Gave us a list of what to do and not do. A pat in the back and tada your done with. Good thing next meeting won't be till months.
"Aaaarrrghhh", really! Just came back and now I'm pull into my brothers room. Rather harshly might I add.
"Shhh, mom is downstairs!"
"Ok?"
He takes a deep breath. " I need you to pretend to be me this upcoming week"
"Are you nuts?!"
"No? I mean I don't think so. Haha sorry you walked right into it. I've been thinking..."
"Oh no this is bad. Your thinking?!"
"Really?"
"Ha how you like that! But anyway continue."
" Right so you go Illyria as Muah. I mean you can pull it off your practically a dude. Same height and built! Come on Viola do this for me. It's one chance in a lifetime!"
What a jerk! I'm a woman not a dude! Just cuz I can pass out as a guy doesn't clarify I'm one! Or does it?
" I don't know Seb I mean don't you think mom and dad will be suspicious?"
"They won't find out I promise. For Pete's sake they don't even talk anymore! One will think we are with the other. No one will know"
" ok I see your point. But what about my school?"
"Mmm just tell mom or dad respectively you decided to be home school to take your lady manners seriously for the time being. Well on dad say you want to know art more intimately.
Seeing as he's a sucker for that."
"Alright ill do it. How long will you be gone?"
"I don't know Vi. A year maybe a little more than that."
"I will miss you" I really will. He's my other half after all. Once I hug him I don't want to let go. It's too much. I can't seem to breathe. " I love you"
"Likewise sis"
He left this morning through the window. To be the only one to know the truth was harsh. In some crazy way it made me feel more connected. I'll miss him. Not sure if I can pull it off but I'll try my best after all he will owe me a big one after this is over. I can't wait for that! I might even make Sebastian dress up as my beautiful self to take over the stupid club my mother sign me into. Ugh that place shall remain nameless for as long as I live.
My parents were told what they needed to hear. And now that I finally convince my gay friend to do his magic everything is going to plan. And of course my best friends Kia and Yvonne were included in my secret dilemma.
After several hours of watching movies and random guys around the street I was positive I could pull it off. Seeing is believing and I was staring at Sebastian or should I say Viola? I could really pass as his double! Not that I wasn't before. But wow! I'm a dude! A chunky handsome dude! Man is my brother one beautiful boy. Paul really came to his word!
"Alright Vi now remember what we've gone through." We were now on Paul cute yellow buggy parked right in front of Illyria.
" I got it!" Did the air just stop? I'm dizzy. No no no what was I thinking?! I can't pull this off! "Take me back Paul! Make me forget this ever happen! And stop me from doing this ever again"
"Vi! Quit it! Your not throwing all my hard work to the drain! Now stop mumbling and be the man you were born to be!"
" no no no I will get caught I just know it"
"Enough! Stop being a girl!" Passed my soccer ball. Hurt a little. Who knew Paul could throw like a guy? "Now remember your lessons." Gives me a hug. Well tried too. I stopped it before people saw anything weird. I'm dead. I'm a dead chunky dude. Love you mom. Love you dad. Hate you Sebastian! I want you to know that I was not normal like most the girls my age but know this...it's Sebastian's fault. He made me.I'm in this mess! Or was since I'm already dead? Whatever!
Why does it seem like everyone is giving me the evil eye? Really people just because I'm new?! Or do I have something sticking out of my nose? ah hell what if I have something on face. Quit it vi your just being paranoid. Mmm arriving on my door wasn't so hard. Open my mouth...alright not bad breath. "Your a chunky dude. Your a handsome chunky dude"
As I open the door I see some guys playing video games.
"Hey guys I'm Sebastian Hastings."
"Sorry dude but this is high school not middle school"
"Haha funny. I might have skipped a few years. I'm a genius! Who knew?" Man was this crowd crude. I suppose ill get unpacking.
"Ugh man are those tampons?!"
Shit. "Umm I get horrible nose bleeds?
Talk about awkward. I was the laughing stalk of my dorm. To make matters worse I was forced to try out for soccer. Don't get me wrong I love playing soccer but with guys? Ah that's a big no. I'm all bruised up in places girls shouldn't! And for some odd reason I'm stuck in the principals office. I didn't do anything wrong? Well besides the fact that I'm not Sebastian. Oh no they couldn't have found out so soon! It's impossible! Unless someone on the inside spilled! Ugh I'm gonna kill Kia! I've told her so many times to not get wasted. That poor girl talks with no end of time when it comes to alcohol.
Chill Viola. Breathe in. Breathe out. Wait I'm on the principal's office! Sebastian file must be around here somewhere. Ah a cabinet! Mmm no...yes! Hastings...damn Sebastian how much trouble did you get into. The folder was proximately 4 centimeters thick!
"Good afternoon Sheila."
Oh no. Damn cabinet. Stupid bandage. Ok breathe. Covering the cabinet with my second string jersey was not obvious right?
"You must be Sebastian. Sebastian Hastings. My aren't you an handsome young lad!"
A smile helps cover the pain. "Hello, you must be the principal"
"That Iam. You must be wondering why I call you to my office. Well don't worry young man your not in trouble." Not yet at least. Pretending to be my brother is turning to be a hassle.
" right so let's see your folder. What is going here? Ugh it seems this cabinet got stuck! Sheila I told you to not mess with my stuff!"
I quickly took the bandage out.
"Alright you've been caught" it's not possible!
"I won't take no for an answer! Now sit on the principal chair." Wow is this man weird or what?
" as you might not have noticed I used to be a teenage boy just like you. A transfer student to boot as well! As such I take it to myself to be like a big brother to those in need of a new home"
"Well thank you sir! It's very appreciated." I even click the school badge to prove a point.
"Don't! Don't ever touch the badge again!"
"Um sorry?"
"Right! Well go on then! Go out and mingle with the rest of your classmates!" If he only knew. Not thinking twice I depart his office.
Not looking where I was going I ended crashing into someone.
"Ow.." That's gonna leave a bruise. "Sorry didn't see you there"
Just epic! Books all around us. A crazy principal talking about sexual tension. And I can't seem to get the fact that the girl in front me is really pretty. Gorgeous would be the better word.
"Is he always like this?"
"Are you kidding me? That's him being rude?"
"Weird. Sorry again. Sebastian Hastings" I extend my hand.
"Olivia Lennox. You must be new."
"What gave it away?" Pulling my wig more securely. Trying to be discrete.
"The brochure you have on your hand." Very observant. Must be careful. Wait aww cute shoes.
"Yes I got them at anthropology." I spoke out loud? Damn. Must stop hanging out with Kia.
"No way! They have shoes there?" Did I just say that?
"Yes right by the accessories." Seems like shopping day is coming soon!
"Umm...mmm well yea gotta go do some guy stuff. Bye" Just walk away Viola maybe she won't think to much about the fact a guy was interesting in her shoes?! Get into character!
I'm a freak it's official. Now that I made a fool of myself nothing could be worse right? Hate to be proven wrong! Walked around campus getting to know the enemy sounded like a plan. Or it could pass as a lame excuse as to not go to my dorm. Can't hide forever.
Hours passed quickly by the time I knew it I was laying in bed going to sleep. Weird Orsino is not here.
Everything happen so fast. A blur. Several screams. Well mostly my screams. I now lay in the guys showers! Guys in mask yelling "new meat" and literally throwing us meat. Ugh really mature. Without any being the wiser I dropped down through all the commotion and when I finally reach my destination I pulled free of my prison.
Fire alarm. More screaming occur but this time it wasn't me.
Now the guys dorm were under inspections. It made things worse! I haven't taken a shower in days now! Feel awkward, smell like someone died, and I've made no friends so far.
Total disaster.
"Paul I need your help and your guidance" Had no one else to call. I'm in desperate need.
"Tell me everything."