Just Do What You Can

by Nederbird

With the overwhelming feeling of having failed at life, Takaki has retreated into his apartment and become somewhat of a recluse. Through a diary born of his many unsent mails, he reflects on his life and the choices he's made so far and tries to find a way back into a world where his life isn't pointless.

5. December 22nd 2006

Dec 22nd 2006

Cram school is closed over the holidays, which I don't mind all too much, since I feel that I really do need a breather. I have been studying away pretty much nonstop since I started this summer. Doesn't mean I'm getting too tired though, I still fully intend to get into Tokai. The Americans launched STEREO this October, while the Europeans will be sending COROT into space to search for other planets a few days from now. We're making advances in the space sciences and there are still many more projects underway, still so many more satellites to be sent up that will help us uncover more of our galaxy. I want to be a part of that! I've been studying a little, doing some maths exercises and practising some English vocab so I don't forget it all till next year. My grades are very good overall and I'm a bit above the class average, though I'm going to make an extra push to get even higher next year. Spring is when it counts!

Amazingly, I still have some funds left over from my savings, though they probably won't last much longer. I've been taking a part time job to give myself a little extra during my break, it'll end tomorrow though and I won't have anything after Christmas. Might just be good though, since I and Sumida have started going out and I'll have more time this way. We've been meeting up a few times over the past few months whenever our tight schedules have allowed us, which hasn't been that often, but apparently enough for us to get close. At first, there was a lot of recapping what had happened in our respective lives since we finished high school and I moved back to Tokyo. She's a bit surprised at my "sudden" interest in astronomy, as she calls it, so I guess a never displayed much of it back in high school. However, after having said all that could be said about here and there, we've simply been talking about... well, I don't really know, anything I suppose. While we don't have that many common interests, we do get along awfully well. She's really easy to talk to about anything and she has that really confident, enthusiastic spirit that can make me feel better whenever I'm having a bad time.

The winter her has been a bit hard for her though, it never got quite this cold down in Nishinoomote, and she hasn't been able to surf for a long time, which is making her quite restless. On the other hand, we'll be going out on Christmas Eve and I can barely wait. They say it's going to get snowy too and that's just perfect! She was so amazed at the snowfall the day before yesterday that she completely forgot about all her troubles, and I love it how she still gets that utterly awed expression on her face whenever it starts snowing.