April 13th 2007
I made it! I passed the exam and am now officially a student at Tokai University! I've already had some of my first courses and I'm really looking forward to the rest of it. Kanae and Akari were both really happy for me too and so are my parents. They were quite confused at first, not having heard anything from me for a good while only to find out that I quit my job and year and a half ago and now I'm back studying. I told them how I felt about my life situation at the time though, and what plans I have for the future instead, with my sights on JAXA and also my relationship with Kanae. They didn't say much the first time. I'm guessing they were just confused, because they called back the next day and sounded absolutely thrilled. They even promised an allowance for me while I'm studying, so as to make my situation easier, only asking that I promise to come visit them during my breaks.
I thanked Akari and Toshizō, her husband, for their hospitality after I was done with the exams and invited them over for dinner at my place. Me and Kanae prepared dinner together for that day and had quite fun doing it. She's a pretty lively person, that's for sure, never a dull moment with her around. Not that I'm complaining, on the contrary, I think I kind of need it. There were plenty of dull moments back when I quit my job and spent my days holed up in my apartment, which is something I do NOT want to go back to. Still, there's no other time I'm having so much fun as I do when I'm with her, and she seems to really enjoy our time together as well. My parents actually did ask if I was planning on marrying her, and although I don't want to think about it too much so early on, I have to admit that the thought of it is rather attractive. I can't really think of any other person I'd rather want to spend my life with, and with me being the way I am, I probably won't find many others either... but I'd rather not think about it now. We've only been going out for half a year after all, so that can wait till later.
It was really nice to have Akari and Toshizō over and the four of us really had a good time. I'm actually surprised with how well it went. With them being so well off now, I was worrying that it might not be enough, but they actually said it was a welcome change, since they haven't eaten at friends' places before. Toshizō is a good person too, rather unassuming for one so well off, though maybe those are just my own prejudices. He seemed to share my interest in astronomy a little bit, though his big interest seemed to be fishing. In fact, he invited me to come along with him to Okutama some day. Sounds like a nice idea, though I'll have to check my schedule first to see if I've got any time over. Akari suggested we meet up again for a movie, so the four of us be off to the cinema this weekend.
I've also been re-reading all the stuff I've written this past year and damn is it drab! Especially the earliest ones. I can't believe I was ever that down, feels like a lifetime ago. Really makes me think about how much my life has changed over the past two years. I'm studying again, I've got a plan for the future, a wonderful girlfriend, I've started talking to Akari again and I've possibly gained a friend in her husband who seems like a really okay guy. It's amazing, I just did what I could and now everything seems set. "Just do what you can", alright, like those words were some sort of magical spell for success, or maybe it's just the power of nostalgia or something like that. It was a nice reminder though, I'd completely forgotten about that. Not everything in this diary is as nice though, some things just make me want to disappear in embarrassment. I'm so glad nobody else is reading this.
Speaking of this diary, this entry's on the same day as my first entry a year ago, what a coincidence! It's also my first entry in a long time. I haven't really had much time to write in this as of late, or is it rather a lack of will? I don't really feel the need to pour out my thoughts on paper anymore, not like before anyways. Funny, though perhaps not too strange, considering that what got me to write these entries in the first place were all those unsent messages I intended for Akari way back, and now we're regularly corresponding to each other again, not to mention having met Kanae again, the need for this has sort of disappeared along with it.
Maybe that's a good thing though. Maybe it's a sign that things are going better for me and that I've got a bright future ahead of me. That's funny too, it's really the first time in my life I've felt that way...