Rating: M

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer had a dream about vampires and made a book or two. Anyone read it yet?

A/N…Thanks to T and A, as usual. You really saved my arse this time ladies and I made it very difficult for you this past week. Thanks for hanging in there.

This chapter concludes the melodrama between Edward and Bella. I am gonna back track just a tiny bit with this EPOV, but at the end we will be where we left off in last chapter.

CHAPTER 19

Edward POV

Tasting Bella is one of the most memorable and pleasurable experiences of my life. She is so responsive to me and all I have to do is touch her and her body reacts to me in such a powerful and loving way. What man doesn't want that?

And waking up with her in my arms is definitely something that I could get used to. Feeling her body tucked in with mine and her warm naked skin next to me makes me hard just thinking about it.

~BD~

I can't get up the stairs fast enough when Bella asks me if I want to join her in the bath. I gently remove her sweater, not wanting to hurt her cheek and notice that she isn't wearing a bra when I come face to face with her beautiful, perfect breasts. I have to say, I really enjoy touching them with my hands and my mouth.

I nearly lose it when I lower myself to my knees to remove her jeans and find she isn't wearing panties either. I have my hands on her thighs, parting her lips with my thumbs. Her pussy is a magnet for my tongue and I have to have it there so I pull her into my mouth savoring the feel, the taste and the essence of her. I tease her by inserting my thumb inside her and then suck her juices off it.

Damn!

I need to be inside her right now, so when I stand to take her to the bed, she surprises me when she wraps her small, warm hand around my cock. I look at her mouth and need to feel her lips with mine as she strokes me up and down. God her hand feels so good on me, she's about to make me cum and when I do, I want to be inside her. I need to be inside her.

"Bella." I say to her "I have to have you right now." I cannot wait another minute.

Now a man likes to hear his woman tell him how colossal his dick is but when you need to fuck her and she cock blocks you with an "I'm not sure that's going to fit inside me" you need to talk her out of that shit real fast.

"Baby, you took three of my fingers last night, we'll be okay." I reassure her. Thank fucking God it worked because she couldn't wait for me to be inside her either.

That feeling and that sensation that I experience when I am thrusting inside of her is the most glorious feeling I have ever felt in my life. She is so tight and warm and I swear I can feel every single nook and cranny inside of her.

I wanted the first time with Bella to be good and sweet for her but when she said the words 'harder Edward' I thought the Gods and angels had descended and as I look into her eyes I can see she has tears there, now I know my baby is happy.

I feel her move her legs up higher to allow me deeper access to her and I proceed to fuck her as hard as I can. When I angle her hips just right and thrust my cock deep inside of her, her arms fly out to her side taking hold of the sheets, I know I have her. I fuck that sweet spot with everything in me and when I feel her clench around me, I can't hold back any longer. I fuck her deep and hard and watch her tear covered face as she cums for me. I want to see that look over and over again. And I will. That is a promise I make to myself.

I can feel her insides spasm and I almost find myself counting how many times her body clenches around me. I smile to myself at that thought. Next time for sure.

"Isabella." I find myself saying out loud and all I want to do is hold her. I look down at her and her hair is a wild mess around her face so I tuck it behind her ear and see her dried tears.

"Now those are the kind of tears I don't mind seeing." I say and kiss her like she deserves.

When Bella says that she doesn't want to go to Reno today, I immediately try to think of ways to keep her here. Snow! I reach for my phone and enter 'The Weather Channel' into my browser. Just as I suspected, we are expecting more snow tonight and knowing that a heavy snowstorm will close the roads, I let Bella know and she agrees to stay home and calls her friend to let her know she isn't coming. I secretly high five myself and go to the bathroom to get cleaned up and when I walk to the bed I hear Bella on the phone.

Riley? Who the fuck is Riley? I can hear his voice from her phone. Was she seriously going to see a man today? It didn't occur on me that she might not feel the same about me as I do for her.

I need a shower so I go into Bella's bathroom and lock the door. I don't want her to see me right now. I look like a pussy with my broken heart written all over my face and on my sleeve if I had a fucking shirt on. Who said she felt the same for me?

When she keeps asking me what is wrong, I have no idea what to say to her. 'I thought you loved me too'? How juvenile does that sound. She's her own woman and doesn't need me to dictate who she sees. She can fuck me and him if she wants, right? But she's not going to fuck me if she's fucking him too. She can have him but she can't have me at the same time.

I hear her speaking but I don't know what she's saying. What is she saying?

"I'll take you home." Oh…That's what she is saying. She wants to take me home. I don't want to go home. I want to stay here with you, Bella.

"Bella?" I hear myself say but I can't speak. Am I going to lose her before I even have her? Have I fallen in love with her too fast? Fuck, what is up with all these questions?

"Goddamn it Edward, what is it. Is this going be bad?" She asks. Why is she crying?

"Who is Riley?" I ask finally.

"He's an old school friend that I haven't seen in a while and I made arrangements to see him before I met you." She explains clearly.

"Is this someone you are interested in?" I turn away from her, afraid of her answer.

"No. He's just a friend, nothing more, I promise you." She answers.

"Is he interested in you, Bella?"

Please say no.

"Yes."

Dammit!

I decided a long time ago that I will not compete for a woman's affection. Call me a pussy, I don't give a fuck. But I barely survived what Leah did to me and I will not do it again. It nearly destroyed me and my family. If this Riley is part of her life, I can't be involved because I won't fight. I won't. I love her, that I know for certain, but I won't stand by only to lose her before I even have her.

"Yes, please, take me home." I hate that I am dependent on her to take me home. I can walk home. It's not that far. I want to just walk out that door.

"Alright, would you please give me a minute?" I hear her say and watch her as she goes upstairs.

Is she crying? I look up toward her bedroom because I can hear her crying…no wait…she's screaming. I run upstairs to her bathroom and hear her scream and then I hear her choking for air. What the fuck is going on now? The fucking door is locked.

I bust through the door and find Bella passed out on the floor.

I try to see if she's breathing but can't tell but then she gasps for air. "Oh thank God!" I say when she opens her eyes. I barely have time to say anything to her when she jumps up and scrambles away from me like I have the plague or something.

"Bella, stop it." I say trying to reach for her.

I feel my chest constrict when she shouts at me, telling me not to touch her when only a short time ago we were making love. I think I'm going to be sick.

"Why? Why did you even pursue me?" She says, stumbling to get up

What the fuck is she talking about? When I didn't think things could get worse than they already are, I hear her dreaded words.

"Get your coat, I'll take you home" And she walks away from me.

I am sitting on the bathroom floor on my knees trying to figure out what the fuck is going on here when I look behind me and see Bella slip and disappear down the stairs. FUCK! I yell and run down to see her lying in a ball at the bottom of the stairs.

I immediately start to check her out to see if she has broken anything but she tells me again not to touch her. God, that is the worst thing she could possibly say to me. I feel the crush in my chest.

I try to keep her from moving until I can see if she is injured, but all she wants to do is talk to Rosalie. She's not here I tell her but she keeps crying. What the hell is going on around here?

Alright, I've had enough. I think we need to talk and get some of this shit out on the table. I carry her to the couch and make her lay there and try to talk to her. I try to explain to her how I felt when I heard her on the phone with Riley. She said he was just a friend and meant nothing to her. But she said it doesn't matter because she wants to go home. Again with that going home shit.

When I confess and tell her I am jealous that she wants to see Riley, to see another man, I see a look of shock on her face like it was unfathomable to her.

"I should have talked to you and I tried, but when you told me he wanted more from you, my mind went crazy about what you could be doing with him." I say, trying to explain my stupidity.

I tell her that I've been hurt before too, that she's not the only one and that when I heard her talking to Riley, knowing that he wanted her, my mind went to the extreme. I sit down next to her because it's time to tell her, it's time to lay it all out on the table.

"Bella, I'm afraid that I have fallen in love with you." I finally tell her. "The thought of you with another man makes me insane." I say to her running, my hands through my hair.

I cannot describe the feeling inside my heart when I hear her tell me she loves me back. I think she was just as scared to tell me as I was to tell her. But we did and that's what is important.

After I climb onto the couch with her, I lay her across my chest holding her close to me reveling in the feel of her knowing she loves me. After we both settle down emotionally, we take a much needed nap. I lay here feeling her steady breathing with my arms wrapped around her and it lulls me to sleep.

When I feel her moving and know that she is awake, I tighten my arms around her, and take a deep breath smelling the sweet fragrance of her hair.

"Bella?" I say to her, gliding my hand over her back.

"Hmmm." She says sleepily.

"I need you to know how sorry I am. I caused us a lot of pain today simply because I was jealous. I was jealous because I love you and I love you because you are good and kind and loving and sexy as hell. You haven't given me any reason to doubt you or mistrust you and I promise I will never do that again, but I need you to trust me as well." I say, moving her hair from her eyes.

"For me the most important thing is an open line of communication. I want us to talk about everything and tell each other anything. I need that in order to trust. If that is something you can do, then I can give you all my trust." She says "This is going to be hard enough with the distance we have between us, so good communication is crucial."

"Absolutely." I am happy with this agreement and I am even more happy that we are working on our trust issues.

I really want to have some of that make up sex but Bella is hungry. But after we have a snack she decides she wants to take a bath. While she soaks in the tub, I make a few phone calls, grab a bottle of Bella's favorite wine and get the fire going in the bedroom.

I lean against the doorframe and watch her relax in the tub. She is neck deep in bubbles and is resting with her eyes closed. I think she senses me near her because she slowly smiles and her eyes open to look at me.

"What are you smiling at?" I ask, grinning back at her.

"You love me." She says.

"That I do. And you love me." I say back, walking toward her, feeling my dick get harder the closer I get to her.

"That I do." She replies.

"Wanna join me?" I thought she'd never ask.

After I bask in the pleasure of her watching me undress, I slip in behind her and she lays her head back against my chest. I lay my head back against the tub, enjoying the feel of her against me in the warm water. I can feel my cock push against her back as she presses back into me.

The feel of her skin slick with soapy bubbles is more than I can handle and I can't keep my hands off her. The feel of her legs and what's between them is like a beacon in the night.

The view of her body from over her shoulder is fucking beautiful and my hands naturally land on her breasts. I can hear myself moan at how firm and soft they are. I can see her nipples harden at my touch. When she reaches her head around to kiss my neck, I pray I can last without cumming all over her, especially when I fondle her body as she brings her glass of wine to my mouth.

I enjoy teasing her because I love the reaction I get from her. I can tell she is ready when I hold the back of her legs and tease the area around her entrance and she moves her hips trying to get me to touch her there.

"Mmmmm… Edward..."

Oh, yeah baby. Talk to me.

I pull her legs apart by massaging the inside of her thighs, willing myself not to touch her there. She wants it bad and I'm not willing to let her have it yet. I nod my head to her to let her know I want another sip of her wine. As soon as she puts the glass to my lips, I slip my finger into the slit of her pussy over her clit and run it under the length of my finger. I swear to God she nearly jumps out of the tub. Fuck, she feels so good.

"Edward…." She says while kissing me.

The way she says my name when she's about to cum is fucking hot. Is there a metal harder than steel alloy? Because if there is, that's what my dick is made of right now. I fucking need her right now so I swing her onto my lap and touch her, inserting my finger in search of her sweet spot, I love to watch my fingers disappear inside of her coming out covered with her juices.

"Oh, fuck… Edward…"

Oh, yeah. She's close.

"Touch yourself, Isabella. I want to see you touch yourself." Oh, hell. When I see her touch herself and when she looks into my eyes while she's doing it, that sends me over the edge.

"Bella, that is so fucking so hot." I say as I rub my cock against her soft skin.

"Edward… I'm… fuck…Oh god."

Cum for me baby.

I nearly hit the roof when she reaches for my cock and holds it while I fuck her hand. I can feel her stroke me long and slow but when she wraps her little fingers around the head, playing with the most sensitive part of it, I fucking lose it.

"Edward… baby… right there... oh, god…."

Oh, yeah, I found it baby, cum for me.

I feel her tighten around my fingers and I feel her cum on my hand. I look at her face and when she bites down on her bottom lip, I want to kiss it, but when I hear her say those words in my ear I'm toast.

"Come on baby, cum for me… Edward." That was all it took.

"Bella, goddamit… FUCK." I cum all over her as she squeezes the last drop out of me.

"Holy fuck, Bella." Are the most intelligent words I am able to muster right now.

After we sit a minute, coming down and catching our breath, we get out of the tub to take a shower to rinse me off her.

After we step out of the shower, I carry her and place her on the carpet in front of the warm fire. I pull a blanket and pillow off of the bed and place Bella's head on the pillow, securing her hands under it and tell her not to move.

I kneel in what is quickly becoming my favorite place in the entire world, between Bella's beautiful legs. I can't wait to slip my tongue into her so I quickly lift her to my mouth, watching her eyes in shock as I hungrily taste her.

"Fuck, Bella, you are so fucking wet!" I say to her as I spread her lips with my thumbs so I can have better access to her clit.

I run my tongue over the length of her and watch her fight the need to touch me. When she moves her hands to reach for me, I stop and glare at her and shake my head no. I want to tease her and that means she doesn't get to touch me.

"Oh my god, Edward…" She pleads. I know she wants to cum and I'm not going to let her.

"Edward… please…"

Ah, baby. You sound so sweet when you beg.

"What, Isabella? What do you want, baby?" I whisper against her pussy. I just barely touch her clit with my lips allowing my warm breath to ghost over her and fuck me if that doesn't do it.

"Ohmygod Edward… I'm cumming…" Is all I need to hear when I latch onto her and suck on her and lick the length of her clit, teasing the sensitive nub with my lips and tongue as she rides out her intense orgasm. I love to watch her go from oblivion to reality.

Once she comes down off her high I begin kissing and licking on her again bringing her close to another orgasm, until I can feel the muscles of her pussy begin to contract. I rise above her and look directly into her eyes because I want to see this. I thrust my cock deep inside of her, hard and fast, and I hear her gasp as she arches her back off the bed. That's when I hear it.

"ED… WARD!" She screams.

"Awe Fuck… Bella… so… fucking… tight." I am fucking her harder and faster and she meets my every thrust with her own.

"Open your eyes… look at me, Bella." I say to her, slowing and feel her clit roll down the length of my cock with each slow agonizing stroke.

"Do you feel that?" I ask.

"Oh, yes Edward, I feel it." She smiles and we wrap up in each other's arms.

"I love you so fucking much." I say into her mouth, feeling the love I have for this woman with every stroke I take, but when she raises her legs higher around my waist, I can't take it anymore and need to fuck her hard.

"That feels… so good… Oh fu… Edward, yes, right there baby, right there." And thankfully we are both ready because I couldn't stop it if I tried.

"Cum for me baby, I need you to cum for me now, please." I beg her.

"Edward… Now…" She screams against my neck. Damn, I hope I can make that happen every time I make love to her.

We ride it out together, breathing hard and gasping for air as I roll us onto our sides, wrapping my legs around hers. I want to stay inside her as long as I can.

"I love you so much, Edward." She cries, and I can feel her tears fall again.

"And you screamed my name." I remind her. "That was the sweetest sound of all and you will never scream anyone's name but mine again." I say to her and mean every single word.

"Only yours." She says.

"You are mine, Isabella."

When I hear her say 'Only yours, Edward' I believe my heart could not have filled more with her.

Mine.

All mine.

Then she killed the mood when she says "I'm hungry" as she rolls on top of me.

Cockblocked!

When she tells me she is sore, I lock my legs around hers and spread her open for me, touching her and feel how swollen she is. I don't want her to hurt so I gently stroke her, I don't know, hoping it might make her feel better.

"Are you satisfied, baby? Because if you aren't…." I need to know if I have taken care of her. If she is happy with what we have done.

"Words cannot describe how wonderful you have made all this for me, Edward." She says looking at me. "I am very, very satisfied." As a man, that is what you want your woman to say to you. And I am a very happy man for it.

After a while I can feel my stomach growling along with Bella's so after running my hands across her beautiful ass, I give it a nice firm spank but run my hand over her because what can I say, I love it.

Bella decides to make shrimp scampi with rice, which is one of my favorites, and I make the salad. We have fun in the kitchen rubbing up against each other as I intentionally rub my cock across her when I need to reach around her. Kitchen sex is the best and I want some.

"Remember when Emmett and Rosalie came back from the pizza run, interrupting us while I was enjoying you?" I ask her, recalling when I had my fingers buried inside her and Emmett and Rose interrupted us just as Bella was about to cum.

I want her to feel that again and although she is tender, I know I can be gentle enough with her. I lift her shirt and when I touch her I can't believe how wet she is for me. I run my finger along the outside of her lips just dipping into her to gather some of her wetness using that moisture to open her up for me because I want that clit. I gently stroke the length of my finger down her and just barely enter her when I feel her body respond. When I feel her head press back against my shoulder, I know its pleasure she is feeling and not pain.

"Edward….." She whispers into my neck, and when I feel her hands clasp the tops of my thighs I know she's about to cum.

That's it baby, cum for me.

I feel her body clamp around my fingers and hold her to me because her knees give out on her. Watching her cum is one of the most pleasurable experiences I've had. What a fucking turn on it is to watch her.

"There you go, baby." I say into her ear. I swear I feel her body quiver.

Once dinner is ready we set everything on the coffee table in front of the TV to watch a movie while we eat and Bella puts in this chick flick about some guy and an elephant. She thinks I'm better looking than that fake veterinarian guy and to be honest, I think I am too.

While we are eating and watching TV, my cell rings and I look to see it's my mother.

Oh shit!

My mother loves all three of her sons and it has been her dream that we meet wonderful women and produce grandbabies for her. It's what she lives for. But here we all are in our thirties or nearly thirty and still unmarried. I was the closest when I was engaged to Leah but that didn't work out so well for me.

"Hi Mom. Did Em and Jazz make it home alright?" I ask her.

She doesn't even say hi and immediately dives in to interrogating me about Emmett and Jasper and Bella.

"No, Edward, they are in San Francisco for a few days. Do you know anything about that? The winery has been all but abandoned. Thank goodness it's the off season." She says. I don't know if she's mad or what but it doesn't sound too good.

"I don't know what it could be that they can't tell you themselves." I tell her. I am not going to even get involved in what they do as far as this goes.

"Emmett tells me that the three of you have each met someone while you were there?" I can hear her foot tapping the floor as we speak.

"Well, Mom, yes, I've met a very nice young lady since I've been here. She had her best friends come for a visit and they were introduced to Emmett and Jasper and, well, they sort of hit it off I think." I tell her

I do not want to say much more right now. I would rather tell her face to face. Our family has had so many women try to infiltrate the Cullen family for the sole purpose of gaining access to the family business, the family name and the old family money.

"Well, son, tell me a little bit about her. Is she nice? Is she pretty? Does she like you?" She riddles me with questions.

"Mom, maybe this conversation can wait until I get home."

"Is she there with you now?" She asks excitedly. God, I hope she doesn't ask to talk to Bella.

"Yes, I'm sitting with her right now." I tell her feeling frustrated.

"Well, son, are you going to tell me her name or do I have to find other ways?" My mother threatens.

"Her name is Isabella Swan, mother. She goes by Bella."

"Oh! That's Italian. Is she Italian?" I can almost hear her jumping up and down.

"Yes, I think she is Italian. She makes a mean scampi." I grin, and look at Bella.

"Where does she live? Is she close by?"

"She also lives in San Francisco." I say, shaking my head at my mother's relentless questioning. I know I either do this now or she will be calling and asking me every day until she knows what's going on.

When she starts to ask me about Emmett and Jasper I know I am not going to get involved in that. That is their story and I don't want anything to do with it.

"You are going to have to ask them, Mother. As usual, I am not getting involved in their relationships at all so if you have questions about them and their women, you will have to ask them, alright?"

I am not going to get into this with her about Emmett and Jasper. She can call and ask them directly. I grab Bella's waist and pull her close to me and smell her hair. God I love the way she smells.

"Are you coming home soon, son? How long can you stay away from the business? With no one here, I don't want your father to have to step in again." She says.

She doesn't want my dad to work in the office again because she knows if he sinks his teeth back into it, she will never get him out.

"No, I'm going to stay here for the rest of the week and do a little skiing with Bella, but I will be home for the dinner for sure."

"Oh, are you bringing her to the dinner?" Mother asks.

"No, she can't make it, but I did invite her." I explain to my mother. I really wish Bella could be there with me. I would love to have her there on my arm.

"And Mom, there will be no more Tanya, do you hear me? I know you didn't particularly like her anyway, but please, I don't want to encourage her and I have explained Bella to her."

"Oh, honey, you don't have to tell me twice. I never liked that girl anyway and your father is always saying he doesn't like her and he especially doesn't like her messing with our "family shit."

To hear my mother say that is the strangest sound ever. How Tanya got involved with our winery is something of a mystery to all of us. I think it was her evil daddy's doing. But it stops now.

"She sounds very special to you Edward." She says but I know where she is leading with this.

"Yes, mom, she is very special to me." I say as I kiss Bella's forehead. "Mom, I know you are curious about all of this but it's very difficult to explain over the phone and I would like to…"

"I just know that Leah hurt you and I guess I want you to remember that before jumping into something with someone else. I…"

"You think I don't know Leah hurt me, Mom?" I say with frustration.

"Stop it Edward. I don't know anything about this girl and I only say this because I love you and I don't want you hurt again. You know I love you right?"

"Yes, I know you love me, I love you too, but…." I look at Bella and shrug.

I continue to talk to my mother about Bella and what she means to me and of course she felt it necessary to remind me again about how hurt I was when Leah and I broke up.

"Do you love her, Edward?" There it is. The million dollar question that she has wanted to know since she learned about Bella.

"Yes! I am in love with her and that is not open for…"

And that is all it took. My mother starts screaming in my ear and Bella can hear her from across the room. I have to pull the phone away. Yes, my mother is very happy.

After much more interrogation my mother invites Bella to Napa for our annual family Italian feast and after much persuasion, Bella agrees with trepidation to meet the family the weekend after the Vintner's dinner. I am finally able to get my mother off the phone when Emmett calls and after a similar conversation with him and to ease my mother's mind I talk to Emmett about making sure the reports that need to be completed are taken care of.

But it was when he disrespects Bella that I fucking come unglued. He accuses her of sleeping with the boss and whines about why I can get away with fucking while on company time. I will not have him talk about Bella like that and I set him straight in that regard. He backs off immediately but I will not have him, or anyone else, disrespect her.

I am finally alone with Bella again and we head upstairs and lay in bed holding each other by the light of the fire.

"Bella, I am so in love with you." I say to her and all I want to do is hold her and be inside her.

I about jump off the bed when I feel Bella's hand wrap around my cock and it doesn't take long at all before I can feel it grow to a full hard on when she straddles me and lowers her mouth onto me. I about fucking lose it when I feel my head go clear down the back of her throat.

FUCK ME!

I have GOT to see this shit and reach over to turn on the light. I fucking can't believe it when she wraps her tongue around the head and the sensation I experience when she lingers over the sensitive spot under the head drives me insane.

When I feel my dick slide down the back of her throat again it takes everything in me not to fuck her mouth and choke her to death. But when I find that she can handle small slow movements, I know it isn't going to take very long before she is drinking me down.

"You like that baby?"

Oh, she didn't just say that shit did she? Fuck yeah I like that, are you fucking kidding me? To watch that beautiful mouth open as wide as it does to take my full cock into it is a sight to behold. But when I watch her open her throat to lower her lips all the way down my shaft nearly brings tears to my eyes. This is every man's fantasy right here and I'm watching it live.

"Shit, Bella… Fuck… What the…"

When I watch her take me all the way down again, she has to play with my balls and then I'm done when she touches that spot right under them. I'm toast.

"Bella… Fuck… Please, Bella..." I can't help it, I have to touch her hair while I ease my cock into her mouth and cum down her throat. I watch her swallow every last drop of me. Holy shit! I am in oral sex heaven right now.

"You…." I hear myself growl at her. "You are fucking awesome at that, Bella."

A/N: Okay, you know the drill. I know I back tracked, but I wanted you all to hear Edward's point of view on the whole Riley thing and lemony stuff. I want to hear your thoughts so click that little button down there and give it to me.