Rating: M

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CHAPTER 32

Edward

After dancing with Bella, I knew. I knew then that I would marry her if she will have me. She is the very air that I breathe. She is my heartbeat. She is the blood that flows through me. I felt an overwhelming urge to tell her just how much I need her and how much I love her and in doing so, made quite a spectacle of us in the middle of the dance floor. We actually got applause. Bella's blush was beautiful on her. That dress is sexy as hell and I can't wait to get her home and get it off her.

After the dreadful presentation of the award ceremony and speeches my dad suggested a celebratory drink at their house. Once we got to the house and drinks were poured, I look across the room and see my girl standing alone looking at family pictures on a table.

"I can't wait to get you home, baby." I say as I sneak up behind her, rubbing my hard cock against her luscious ass. "It hasn't escaped me that you aren't wearing panties and I need in there, Bella."

"In where, baby?" Oh, god she's going to tease me. That shit turns me on.

"I know you are wet for me, Bella. Tell me. Tell me how wet you are." I whisper in her ear pulling her tight against my cock.

"It's true. I am so wet for you baby. I can feel it trickle down inside my thigh as we speak." She says as she lays her head back against my chest.

Oh, fuck!

"Christ, Bella." I fist her dress at her stomach. "I need to fuck you first, baby, make love second."

"I'll take it any way you want to give it, Edward."

"As soon as you walk in the bedroom, I want this dress off of you and you on the bed. Do you understand me, Bella?" I already see her on her knees for me with her ass and pussy staring straight at me.

"Yes, Edward."

Good answer baby.

"I want to fuck you on your knees. I want to see your pussy looking at me as I walk up behind you."

"Yes, Edward." Another good answer, but when I see her rubbing her thighs, I know she is ready.

"What's wrong, Bella?"

"I'm so fucking hot for you right now Edward, my legs are drenched."

"Okay you guys. Bella and I are heading home. Thanks for everything. Em, let's talk tomorrow, alright? Good night everyone."

I couldn't get out of there quick enough. My dick is so hard it hurts. I need to be inside her. Now. Thank god I live only two minutes away from mom and dads.

As soon as we walk through the front door, I want to rip that dress off her but I know how much it cost and I'm not going to do that to Bella.

"Go." I point up the stairs and when I see her running, I know what I will find when I get there.

I pour us a glass of wine and race upstairs myself. I nearly drop to my knees at what I find. There's my baby on her hands and knees on the bed just like I told her. This is intriguing. I wonder if I should experiment with her. I wonder how far she is willing to go.

"Drop down on your forearms, Bella." Hmmm. Just as I asked.

"Now spread your legs out for me." Fuck me, if she didn't do that as well.

I walk up behind her and see her sweet, beautiful glistening pussy. I have to touch her. I need to taste her. I want to feel her with my tongue.

"Fuck, Bella." I can't help it.

I lay my hand over her beautiful ass and my thumb finds the wetness. I'll be damned if it isn't fucking dripping down toward her clit. Now that shit is fucking hot. I take my thumb and rub it up and down, hearing how wet she is. I insert my thumb inside of her, pulling it out and sucking my thumb in my mouth.

I decide to take this one step further to see how far she will let me go. I remove my tie, slowly, as she looks over her shoulder. She is quizzical.

I take my tie and wrap it around her wrists. Her breath catches in her throat.

She fucking likes it!

"You look so fucking sexy like this, Bella. Do you trust me?" She nods as I take my finger, running it across her shoulder, down her spine, down the center of her ass. Not touching where she wants me to touch.

"Fuck, Edward. I do but I thought you said you wanted inside me?" She belts out.

My baby is getting impatient.

"Oh, baby, you have no idea."

"Well then, would you please hurry, honey. I can't take this anymore."

I get another idea and walk to my closet, pulling out another tie. I bend as if I was going to wrap her mouth with it and ask her silently if it is alright with her. She nods yes.

"Shhhhhh, quiet, Bella." I say as I loosely wrap the tie around her mouth.

I run my fingers over her pussy, inserting my fingers inside her. Ho-ly fuck, she is fucking drenched. My fingers are literally dripping.

I can't take it; I need inside her. I quickly remove my tux and open a drawer next to the bed and find my heating oils. I apply some over her pussy, blowing on her so she can feel the hot and cold effects. I then apply the rest on me letting her see me stroke my cock. I throw my head back at how good the release of tension feels as I squeeze my dick until the oil is heated.

"Bella, does that feel good baby? Can you feel how warm it is?" I say, continuing to stroke my cock for her.

"Mmmhmmm." She tries to answer me even though I have her mouth bound. I walk behind her and lay my chest over her back, making sure the tip of my cock is right at her entrance. I feel her back up so I slip inside her.

"Does my baby want to play?" I breathe into her ear. I know that makes her crazy.

"Want to fuck now, Bella?" I ask her while I slip the head of cock inside her. She nods her head yes and I push my cock inside her with the force of a Mack truck.

I need to hear my baby's cries so I remove the tie from her mouth.

The warmth of the oil and her pussy are making me insane and I know I will not be able to hold off for long.

"Tell me Bella. Tell me what you want." I say to her withdrawing at a slow, agonizing pace, even for me, and then thrust in hard earning a loud "Unf" out of her.

"I want you to fuck me hard, baby. That's what I want."

Oh, hell, my baby's talking dirty to me.

"Fuck, Bella."

"I need to touch you baby." She says struggling with the binds.

I quickly remove the ties from around her wrists and when she reaches down to touch my cock as I am fucking her, it blows my mind. I pull out and she squeezes hard with her fist and it's like an extension of her pussy and I am about to cum all over her.

"Oh, God, Bella… Fuck, girl." I feel her push against my hips and we are fucking fast and furious.

"Fuck me, Edward." She says looking at me over her shoulder and that does it.

"I'm close baby." I say into her ear. "I'm ready… cum for me Bella. Can you cum for me, baby?"

"Yes, Edward, I'm ready, please… please… I'm ready baby…"

I am hitting her so hard she has to rise onto her hands to keep from slipping forward. This is good because now she is anchored and she is pushing back into me.

"Christ woman… "

"Ohmygod… ohmygod… ohmygod! Edwaaaard!" There it is. My baby screamed my name, and she says she's not a screamer.

She falls to the bed because she can't support our weight any longer and I fall with her.

Incredible woman.

~BD~

It was a sad day indeed when I watched my girl drive away. She needed to return home and although I didn't want her to leave, I understood why she had to go. She had personal business she needed to take care of but I felt like a part of me was in that car driving out of sight.

After we traded texts for a while, I hopped in my cart and headed to the office. I really needed to get caught up as well and get to the bottom of the Tanya matter. Once I am settled behind my desk, I pick up my phone and call Jenks.

"Why is it that I have to call you to get my answer, Jenks?" I say angrily. I am seriously pissed at this point.

"Mr. Cullen, sir, I have been focused on this and what I have determined is that Ms. Stewart, the agent I have covering Ms. Denali, was lured away by a disturbance near the house. Ms. Stewart investigated and once she determined that there was no one there, she resumed her post. It was determined that it was then Ms. Denali left her residence and was able to get to your house. In fact, Tanya was inside the house as she had seen in the study speaking with her father." Jenks explains at length. "The only thing we can't explain is how she left the residence when Ms. Stewart was covering the front of the house and the garage. It was her instructions that once she saw Tanya leave the house she was to call me immediately and when she didn't see her leave, there was no advance notice."

"Do you think the noise Ms. Stewart heard was a diversion for Tanya?" I ask.

"We do believe that, sir." Jenks replies.

"What is your solution to this problem?"

"I am placing additional men on Ms. Denali." Was his answer.

"Do not let this happen again, Jenks." I say and hang up.

I sit back in my chair and contemplate the events over the past few weeks. Jacob's actions and behavior, Tanya's actions and behavior and the fact that Tanya knows Jacob well enough for him to be her attorney. How does all this tie in together? Are they working together and if so, why?

I close my eyes and wish I could make sense out of all this and what they want from Bella and I. After I am done for the day in the office, I go to mom and dad's for dinner with my brothers.

"So, boys." Dad begins. "What about these girls? Tell me about them? How serious are you?" He asks.

"Well, you know about Bella and how I feel about her, so ask them." I say nodding my head at Em and Jazz as I take a sip of wine.

"Jasper, tell me about Alice." Dad demands more than asks.

"Well, I love her and she loves me. I knew it when we met. She's it for me. You know she has her own business in the city which is quite successful." He says as my mom and dad look at each other and smile.

"Emmett?"

"What?" Emmett replies as he shovels his pasta into his mouth.

"Em, they want to know how serious you and Rosalie are." I say, taking a bite of bread.

"They want to know if we love these girls and if they will have some daughters soon."

"Oh. Yes and yes." Fuck, talking to Emmett is like pulling a nail out of an oak tree.

"Emmett." Dad says, banging his hand on the dining table. "I want your attention here."

"Sorry dad." He says looking like a little boy who has been scolded. "Yes, I love her, even before I met her. I fell in love with her during a telephone conversation we had while in Tahoe. I knew then I wanted to marry her. I just have to talk her into it. She's a hard nut to crack. She's been romanced by the best. They want her name, they want her money and they want her father." He finally tells them.

"Why? Who's her father?" Mother asks.

"Eric Hale."

I look up and see mom and dad looking at each other smiling. Everyone in San Francisco knows who Eric Hale is.

"Isn't he our corporate attorney, Edward?" Mom asks.

"Yep." I say as I continue to eat my salad.

"Well, I am very proud of all you for choosing such wonderful, polite and lovely ladies. There's no criminal history is there?" Mother asks shocking us all. I look up and see my brothers' heads jerk in my direction.

"What? Oh no, Edward. Is Bella a… a criminal?" She sounds like she is going to cry.

"Oh God no, mom." I reply.

My brothers and I explain to her what happened with Bella while at Tahoe and I explained that we obtained a restraining order against Jacob after Tanya divulged that Jacob was her attorney.

"Oh, that poor girl." Dad says. "Well, that bitch, Tanya, is no longer permitted anywhere near this property so you just let me know if she does come around. I will put an end to it and make sure Jackson understands that when we say no, we mean fucking no."

You go dad!

~BD~

After checking in with Bella, I go to bed and sleep good considering my girl is not laying next to me.

I wake in the morning and get ready for the day because I have a meeting at 9:00 in my office and I want to make some calls to Italy before it gets too late there.

While I'm on the phone my door crashes open and in walks Leah with Angie hot on her heels.

"Aro, I need to call you back." And I hang up not taking my eyes her.

"What are you doing here? Who gave you permission to come here?" I ask, standing behind my desk.

"Edward, I need to do this. I can't function and I can't move forward until I do. Please. This is consuming my life." She pleads.

"Welcome to my fucking world." I retaliate, sitting behind my desk. "What do you want?" I say motioning to Angie that it is okay and she can leave.

"Sit." I say to Leah, motioning her toward a chair.

"I want to say I am sorry. Sorry for what I did to you… to us. We were happy and I ruined it and I am so sorry for that." She says, looking down at her lap. "I need you to forgive me. I loved you so much. I still do…"

"STOP." I yell. "You do not get to say those things to me, Leah. I know what you said to Bella. That you intend to try to get me back but it won't work. She is my life now. I love her and if she will have me, I will marry her, so do not even try."

"I know, Edward. I saw how you looked at her that night. I know you love her. It's how you used to look at me. I know I can't win you back but…"

"No, you can't so don't even try. Don't even try, Leah. It is over for you and me." I interrupt.

"I am going back to London in two days. I took a permanent position there. I do not see Robert anymore. I sure did learn my lesson there. Bella is a very lucky girl."

I see a hint of the old Leah when she talks like this. She really used to be a sweet girl until she ruined everything.

"Yes, she is. She's everything to me. Everything." I say, looking into her regretful eyes.

"I hope we can get past this Edward. Can we? I value your friendship. I don't need anything from you, only your friendship. We've been through so much together and I don't want to lose that." She pleads her case.

"Leah, I just really want to put our relationship behind me. It's been there for three years and I want to keep it there."

"Sure, absolutely. But I just want to know if we are at the same gala or something, would I be permitted to approach you to say hello and ask how are you?"

"Sure, I guess we can do that. But no Christmas cards, okay?" She laughs and that sound brings back a flood of memories.

"Listen, I am flying out of here on Thursday, can we do lunch at Mama's tomorrow. Just to say goodbye and thank you for being a huge part of my life? I will forever regret what I did to you, Edward."

"Um…"

"Please? No strings. Just lunch to say goodbye, quite possibly for the last time since I have no intentions of coming back here." She says.

"Sure, I guess. Just an hour though, no more." I say.

"Absolutely. No more."

"Okay, I will meet you there at 12:30 alright?" She says and I nod my head yes as she walks out the door.

I feel rotten, like I am cheating on Bella or something. I know it's wrong, isn't it?

The next afternoon, I am already running late meeting Leah and get there at 12:45. She already has a table waiting. Once I sit down, and to save time, she has ordered lunch as well. She would have to order the same soup I had with Bella. Shit. Now I really feel guilty. I really want to leave.

Leah starts to talk about her job and then starts to reminisce about our college days and some of the crazy things we did. Those really were good days. We were laughing about when we went to a party at Scott Mitchell's house, which was old and barely standing. We had the music cranked up so loud we couldn't hear anything and while we were dancing in the living room, a huge hole opened up and Leah and I along with two others fell through to the basement. Thank god there was a huge pile of clothes on the floor that broke our fall. We both were laughing so hard at the memory. Leah had put her hand on mine sometime during the story, and when I looked down I went to remove it but when I looked up there stood my Bella flanked by Rosalie and Alice. My head snaps down at my hand and I pull it out from Leah's, but by time I look up again, Bella is gone.

"No!" Rosalie shouts at me. "Don't you fucking go after her you son-of-a-bitch. God damn you, you motherfucker." She takes a step toward me and I am thinking for sure she is going to take me down.

"Rose, I need to explain to her." I try to get around her but it is too late. Rose is like a lioness protecting her young.

"Don't you fucking talk to her! You aren't worth the ground she walks on." She yells at me and everyone in the restaurant is looking at us.

"What the fuck are you looking at, bitch?" Rosalie shouts at Leah, "I've wanted your ass since you had the balls to speak to her, threatening to take her man from her. Well, whore, looks like you got your chance."

"Edward, we loved you. How could you?" Alice says with a pained look on her face.

"Rose, Alice, this isn't what you think. Leah is leaving the country and we decided to make amends rather than hold any grudges. She's leaving and this is her apologizing for her mistakes and saying goodbye. There is nothing more. Please let me go to her, please."

Rosalie looks between Leah and me and Leah is nodding her head, confirming what I said.

"You better hurry your sorry ass." She says staring at Leah.

By the time I get outside I see her speeding by me in her BMW. She's crying. I rush inside to Rosalie.

"Rose, please what should I do? What she saw here was not what she thinks." I beg. I pull out my phone and try to call but it goes to voicemail.

"Bella, please. You need to listen. It isn't what you think. She was saying goodbye. She's leaving the country. Please Bella." I trail off and sit down feeling utterly defeated.

"Oh my god, Rose. She's not going to listen to me is she? I know her. She has her mind made up." I can see Rose typing out a text, then another, then another. I hear her call her and leave voicemail messages and another, and another.

"Leah, I want you out of my life and I want you to never return and if I ever see you at a gala, I want you to walk on by because if you have caused me to lose her that will be another reason never to forgive you." I say and I walk out of the restaurant leaving Leah with the check.

Once I get home, I go straight to the bar and pour a Chivas and take it and the bottle to my office and shut the door. I swallow down the Chivas and pour another and swallow it. I hear a light knock on my door and my mother walks in.

"Edward, dear, Rosalie told me what happened. Is there anything I can do?"

"No, mother. There's nothing anyone can do. I know her, mother. I know how she thinks and how she behaved when she thought Tanya was in my life. I nearly lost her then. But she had a visual this time. She saw Leah and I together laughing, holding hands. I might as well have been fucking her on the floor as far as Bella is concerned."

"Oh, Edward, please, your language." Mother says.

"Don't 'Oh, Edward' me now mother. This is not the time for your sensibilities and if you can't handle it then might I suggest you go home to father who caters to them." I shout at her and pound my third Chivas.

I hear my mother get on the phone to call Emmett and Jasper.

"I need you boys at Edward's right now." I hear her demand.

"No! No, mother. I don't need to be nursed. I need… I need…" I lay my head on the desk and I can't help it, and for the second time in my life, I give in to despair.

As soon as I am able to think, my brothers and their women bust into my office. I have a good buzz started and now they take my glass from me.

"Brother, we are going to fix this. This is totally fixable and you can't do it if you are like this, now straighten the fuck up." Jasper yells at me.

"Yeah, Edward. This isn't like when you and Leah split." Emmett throws his two cents worth in.

"Oh, yeah? Well to Bella it might as well be. Bella thinks I've betrayed her. If I walked in on the scene she walked in on, I would have those thoughts too." I say in a drunken slur.

"Edward, she is hard headed that's for sure. But she has a forgiving soul. Let her ride this out. She will come around. Rosalie and I will make sure she sees the truth." Alice says quietly as she pushes my hair off my forehead.

"Alice, come here." Rosalie says.

I watch as Alice and Rose look at Rose's phone. They look at each other and Alice puts her hand over mouth.

"What? What is it?" I say looking at them. They just stare at me.

"Tell me right the fuck now Rose!" I demand, standing up and pushing the chair back with my knees.

"It's an email from Bella. She's okay. She's at home. She's taking a bath then a sleeping pill so she can… sleep." Rose looks at Alice and Alice shakes her head no.

"Don't do it, Rose. Don't do it." Alice says.

"Don't do what? DON'T DO WHAT, ALICE?" I yell wanting to know what's going on.

"Bella has made a decision and she doesn't want us to tell you. She wanted us to know so we wouldn't be worried but she doesn't want us to tell you. She said for us to 'Let it die'."

"Let what die, Rose? What does that mean?" I yell through my stupid ass tears.

"This. You and her. She doesn't want us to interfere." Rose says sadly.

"Oh my god. Oh my god." I say, sitting back at my desk. With each thought of her never coming back, I tug at my hair, pulling it through my fingers.

"Mom, I can't do this again. I'm scared, mom." I look at her and see the reflection of my thoughts.

I get up and make my way up to my room. I take a shower and climb into bed and I don't move for the rest of the night.

I hear them. They are talking like I'm not here, but I am here and I hear them. Mom wants to call the doctor, dad wants to wait it out to see if she comes around, Rose tries to reach Bella and curses when Bella doesn't answer. Bella's never going to answer. She's never going to be here again.

Deeper.

Deeper I fall. I feel myself fall but never hit the bottom.

What time is it?

I see my mother's watch and its 8:30. Is that at night or day?

I hear her name. Bella.

"She's texting me. Oh thank God." I hear Rosalie say. I see her fingers move over her phone. Then her phone rings.

"Oh thank God, Bella. You need to get here right now." I hear Rose say.

"Edward? Edward. Bella's on the phone. She wants to talk to you, sweetie."

Bella's on the phone? She wants to talk to me?

"Bella?"

Was that my voice?

"Edward, it's me. Bella."

"Baby, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I hear myself say over and over.

Wait. What?

"BELLA, NO! DON'T GO." I panic. "BELLA? WHERE ARE YOU GOING?"

I see my family jump when I yell. Fuck, it scared me too.

"Edward, listen. Listen to me. I'm going to my dad's. I will call you when I land. I promise."

"Bella! Don't you fucking leave me goddammit." I say, crying.

"Edward, listen. My plane is boarding. I will call you when I get off the plane. I promise but you need to promise me something in return."

"What?"

She wants me to get my shit together. What does that mean? She says my family needs me. I look at them and they are sad. They are all here in my room. They are all worried, I can see that. Even Rose and Alice are worried. Have I disappeared? Do they need me?

"Do you need me, Bella?" I hear myself say.

She doesn't answer but she does say she loves me.

"Bella, I can't lose you. I need to tell you what happened."

She needs to go to her dads.

"No, you don't Bella. You need to be here with me goddammit!"

"She's gone." I say putting the phone down.

"Where did she go, son?" My dad asks.

"She's gone."

"Where did she go, Rose?" I hear my dad ask again.

"She went to stay with her dad for a while. She said that school doesn't start until May so she may be gone until her classes start."

May. What month is it now? I don't know what month it is. Wait, it's January. No wait. It's February. The first of February. Three months? THREE MONTHS?

"Mom?"

"Yes, honey?" I hear her mom voice.

"Three months, mom."

"I know, son."

"Three months, mom."

"Carlisle, call Dr. Brock. Get him over here right now." I hear my mom say.

"Three months, Dr. Brock. It's only three months." Who keeps saying that?

I hear my mom talking to Bella. You promised you would never leave him, she says. You promised Carlisle, she says. What does mom mean?

"She hung up on me." I hear mom say.

"Why?" Alice asks. "That's not like Bella at all."

"She said something about them holding hands and making eyes at each other. She told me to 'put two and fucking two together' and tell her what I come up with."

"Edward, what does she mean by this?"

"I can answer that." Rose says. "Leah trapped Bella in the ladies room at the restaurant and told her she was going to get Edward back and that Edward still loved her. And when she walked into Mama's and saw them laughing over old times, holding hands and all, Bella put two and two together and now she's in Forks."

I need to talk to her.

I need to tell her.

I need to explain.

I need her.

"Oh. My. God. Bella!" I hear myself sob out loud.

I need to talk to her.

"Where's my phone?" I sit up. "Where's my fucking phone?"

Jasper hands me my phone and I start dialing her number…voicemail…dial again…voicemail.

"Edward, tell her I am so sorry. Tell her I didn't mean to upset her. Will you tell her, please?"

"Yes, mom."

I dial again…voicemail.

How long have I been doing this? Twenty minutes? I try again and she finally answers and I feel the relief come over me.

"Hello." I hear her voice say.

"Bella?"

"Mom said she talked to you. She says she's sorry. She didn't mean to upset you and after thinking about what you said, she can see why you are upset."

"Yeah well, tell her I'm sorry for snapping. I am really trying to keep it together without going all uber bitch on everyone."

"Bella?"

"Yes."

I tell her I'm sorry. I tell her I love her. She tells me what she saw. I don't try to explain my way out of it. I tell her I'm sorry again… and again… and again.

She thinks I'm still in love with Leah?

What?

NO!

NO I'M NOT!

I LOVE YOU, BELLA

Wait. What?

Goodbye Edward?

A/N: Okay, now you have EPOV. Clearly there are many of you that are upset. I pleases me that you care about Edward and Bella. There are a few of you that understand. And there are some of you that just enjoying the story as it unfolds….I can give you a spoiler… make sure you read Thursday's Chapter 32.