"Maya we didn't tell anyone! We're your best friends." Tori assured, offering me the seat beside her.

"Yeah," Tristan added "We're here for you; we'd never betray you like that."

I sighed and sat down. I believed them but then how did Zig find out?

"Zig knows…" I told them going from angry to sad. Tears threatened my eyes.

"Zig?! How did he find out?!" Tori asked. She exchanged a look with Tristan and he just shook his head.

"I don't know! He said there's a rumor going around or something. The only other person who could've told is… Katie but she wouldn't do that would she?"

She had been angry at me to the past couple weeks but she would never sell me out like that. Maybe it was an accident? Maybe she told Marisol… Marisol couldn't keep her mouth shut to save her life and if she found out she would tell Moe and Moe would tell Imogen and Imogen would tell Fiona. And so on and so forth, resulting in a rumor. Oh god! My own sister is the reason everyone's gonna know! I'm barely three months along and everyone knows!

"Maya are you okay?" Tristan asked breaking me out of my frenzy.

"I'm fine… I have to go talk to Katie."

I sent her a simple text

Hey we need to talk.

When she didn't respond, I went home. My mom said she had stayed late at Degrassi to work on a project. I set off to find her. She was the one who told; maybe she could take it back.

I wondered around Degrassi, I kept calling Katie but she wouldn't pick up. I had searched every part of the school. Wait… there was one place I hadn't checked, one place Katie liked to go. The Greenhouse. I had been avoiding that place like the plague since the… incident. There was no way I was going there now.

I paced past it a couple times before finally calling out for Katie. Finally I got my answer.

"What?" she called.

"I need to talk to you." I yelled back.

She came out with a pair of dirt-covered gloves in her hand. "Hey Maya what's up?"

"Are there other people with you?" I asked.

"No," she answered "I'm all on my own."

I peeked over her shoulder at the building. Why would anyone want to be in there alone after what happened?!

"Thanks to you everyone in Degrassi knows." I informed her.

"Knows about what?"

"I'll give you two guesses." I said in a sarcastic tone.

"Maya… I didn't tell anyone. I didn't even tell Marisol." She whispered to me looking me right in the eye. "It wasn't my secret to tell. I don't want this to be any harder for you than it already is."

"But then how did Zig find out?" I asked in tears.

"I don't know, but I'm going to find out for you baby sis. And when I find whoever the hell it was, they're getting their ass kicked."

"Thanks Katie."

The next morning I was standing at my locker alone when the first comment came.

"Look its baby momma Matlin!" some guy I had never met before called when he walked by me. Everyone in the hallway turned to look.

I could ignore that… some stupid nickname didn't hurt me that bad. But on my way to first period I heard someone behind me say a little too loudly.

"No wonder Saunders killed himself, he saw that naked."

How could someone be so unfeeling, so cruel?

Tears dripped down my face and then the unexplainable happened.

"Excuse me what did you just say?!" I turned around to see Mike Dallas grab some guy and pull him up by his shirt.

"I didn't say anything!" The guy cried.

"Really cause that's not what I heard." He slammed him against the wall. "You wanna be a funny man, go ahead tell that joke again."

"I'll never tell it again, I swear!" He whined, struggling to break free.

"If I ever hear you say anything about Campbell Saunders or his girl again it'll be you who's dead. Got it?" The guy nodded and Dallas spat in his face and dropped him to the floor. The guy sprinted in the other direction, I was pretty sure he pissed his pants. Then Dallas's eyes found me.
"Maya wait up!" He called.

I just stood there frozen in my tracks. "Hey," he said softly "a pretty girl like you shouldn't let an idiot like that make her cry." He wiped a tear off my cheek. I took a step back.

"What do you want?" I asked him in a shaky voice.

"I just want you to know I've got your back. The whole hockey team does. Cam was family and now technically so are you." He gave me a sad smile. "If there's anything you need, or if anyone says anything to you, you just let one of us know and we'll take care of it."

I was at a loss for words. Dallas was terrible to Cam, I guess he just felt guilty or something. Either way I was glad I had him. He walked me to my next class; I barely managed to choke out a thank you before he disappeared down the hallway.

"Maya!" Tori ran up to me. I was eating my lunch in the music room as usual. "I found out who spread the rumor!"

"How?!"

"Okay so apparently that morning when we were in the bathroom, Becky Baker was in there too. She totally spied on us! She doesn't deny it either. She keeps telling everyone that you need to find Jesus and give him your baby or something…" Tori explained.

Becky Baker, wasn't she dating Adam? I thought she was better than that.

"Apparently she was going to keep it secret but she confessed what she heard to her dad at dinner, her brother Luke found out… he told the hockey team. Then the dam broke I guess. But it's okay because everyone I've talked to totally supports you and everything." She continued.

My head was spinning in so many different directions. I couldn't make sense of any of it.

"I'm not even all that mad…" I said "People were going to find out sooner or later. I'm not ashamed."

Tori cocked her head to the side "Are you alright?" she asked clearly taken aback by my monotone.
"I just don't feel very good… more morning sickness I guess."

To tell the truth I didn't really care about Dallas or Becky Baker. I just kept thinking about the greenhouse.

It's funny how the way you see something can change in an instant.

"Cam… we need to talk." I whispered tears pouring out of my eyes.

"Maya, what's wrong? Is everything okay? Are you sick?" Cam asked nervously his eyes lighting up with fear.

"I'm not sick…" I mumbled. "It's just... Cam, I'm pregnant."

"You're… you're what?" He ran a hand through his hair. "But Maya we only were together once… That can't be possible."

"One time without protection is all it takes." I spat at him, angered by his immaturity.

"I didn't even… think about protection. You're the one who wanted to do it; I figured you were like on the pill or something!"

"I'm fourteen years old, like my mother would ever buy me birth control!"

Cam put his head in his hands then ran his hand through his hair again. "Oh Maya, Maya I'm so sorry… I can't believe I did this to you."
My temper flared "It takes two to tango you know. It's my fault too."

"No it's not! I should've told you no! I could've stopped you!" His hands were shaking and tears filled his brown eyes. "Oh Maya… I don't deserve you… I don't deserve to live. I ruined your life."

I reached out for him but he was getting farther away. I looked around me, finally figuring out where I was. The greenhouse.

"Cam no!" I screamed anticipating his next move.

"God what's wrong with me?!" He broke down in sobs, I kept reaching for him. I could no longer see his face now, only a rope in his hands. "I'm a psycho, I ruin everything!" He was screaming at me, sobbing, shaking and I couldn't do anything but stand there helpless as he wrapped the noose around his neck.

"CAM NO!" I screamed. "CAM!"

"Maya wake up! You're having a nightmare."

I woke up in a cold sweat, the covers tangled tight around me.

Katie was sitting at the edge of my bed shaking me. I broke down then, sobbing and crying, as I realized the truth of my dream. I could've done more for him. I could've saved him.

"Katie," I asked "If Cam had known this was going to happen, do you think he would've stayed with me? Do you think he would've stayed for our baby? Or do you think even then he would've done it?"

"I don't know…" Katie whispered "I think that's a question no one will ever know the answer to."

AN: I was in tears writing her dream. Please review. I'm on a writing frenzy. Any comments good or bad are helpful! Thanks!