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CHAPTER 47

BELLA

I love you Edward. Please hear me. Please feel me. I am with you, can you feel me.

I repeat this mantra over and over and over. I need for you to feel me. Know that I am okay. After I wake up from the heavy drug she gave me I find myself in a dark and musty cellar or basement, I'm not sure. It's underground and encased in cement, that I know. It smells like mold. The room is small like it is possibly a storage room off of a larger room. It's cold, I will say that much. And I'm thirsty, really thirsty. I don't know if she cares to keep me alive or if she just plans on letting me rot down here with hopes that no one will find me. I just don't know yet.

I am shaken from my thoughts when I hear her coming. I know it's her because of the clacking of her heels. Let's see what the bitch has in store for me now.

"Here's the deal whore." She says immediately as she throws the door open. "There are two men in my life that I want but, for some reason, they both want you. Do you know who they are?" She snaps at me.

"Probably, but I will tell you that I only want one of them. You can have the other one. I don't care who he fucks." I say in response. That comment earns me a sneer from her and she takes a quick step toward me.

"Well, I am fucking one right now and I plan on fucking the other one soon. He will forget all about you. He will realize you aren't coming back and I will make sure he remembers who he was fucking just days before he met you."

Ouch. That one hurt a little bit, Tanya.

"Jacob will be here in a few days. He wants to fuck that mouth of yours. He said you were good at it. He said he almost had you in Tahoe but my white knight swooped in and saved you. He won't be here to save you again. Trust me." She says getting in my face. I want to tell her to get some breath mints but opt to keep my mouth shut.

"Tanya, may I have some water please?" I ask nicely. I hope she doesn't intend to let me dehydrate here.

"Fuck you, whore." She yells at me.

"And what happens when Jacob gets here and I'm nothing but a skeletal shell because you didn't take care of his package? Hmmm. Will he be mad at you enough to tell Edward? If he only wants me and you want Edward, then if I'm dead when he gets here he will have nothing to lose. Right?"

"Shut up before I knock your teeth out." Yeah, well that will do it. I close my mouth and hope she brings me water. Otherwise, I'm in for a long night.

She looks like she wants to punch me but turns around instead and stomps up the stairs. I pace the floor so that my blood flows through my legs. I don't need atrophy to set in lying around on a cold floor. Think, Bella. Do you have it in you to attack her? She seems pretty wicked. Tanya brings me out of my thoughts when she returns with two small plastic bags.

"See you in two days, whore. I'm going to the beauty shop to get my kitty waxed so Edward will enjoy putting his face in it. He always said it was sweet. Did he ever fuck you from behind? It is my favorite position with him. He is such a good, attentive lover. I can't wait. He will fuck me out of hurt and anger at losing you. He will fuck me out of need and loss for you. But I don't care, I WILL get him back and you will be lying here rotting, stinking up the joint."

She laughs at my expression, "Tootles, going to get my kitty waxed now just the way Eddie likes it."

Oh, God… Oh, God… Oh, God. Bella, don't. Don't fucking go there? She is out to hurt you and it's only coincidence. He loves you goddammit and you know it. So stop it. He will loathe her for doing this, not love her.

I go to the bags and find six bottles of water. I down one right now and plan to ration the others. There are fruits and raw vegetables. Not many but some. I snack on an apple and wrap the others in the bags and set them on the steps, getting it off the floor. It is certainly chilly enough to keep it fresh for a few days. Hopefully Jacob will have pity on me when he arrives. I can only pray he doesn't get angry with me like he did the last time.

I continue to move my body by doing some stretches to keep them from aching from the cold. I walk in circles around the room and think of Edward. How much I love him and know that he is doing everything he can to find me. I just know it.

I settle down for a long cold night and pray to God. Again, I close my eyes and send out my mantra to Edward.

I love you Edward. Feel me. I'm alive.

~ BD ~

I know I have been in this dank, musty, cold cellar for at least three days. It has to be three days. I try to keep track by using my watch but it is getting confusing to me now. Why hasn't he come? No! He will come. I know he will. The small amount of food Tanya left is gone now. Either eaten or it has rotted beyond being edible. I know that if I do eat it, I will only throw it back up and I can't live with stomach bile on the floor.

And where is Jacob? She said he would be here but he hasn't come. It is a blessing in disguise that he hasn't but I do question why he hasn't arrived. I wonder if something is going on. God I hope so.

I can feel my resolve turning into despair. Am I going to be saved? Am I going to rot here and no one will know where I am?

I'm so cold. So cold.

My fingers are blue now. My nails are almost purple.

For the first time since I have been brought here, I cry. I cry because for the first time I have no hope.

I lay in the corner and curl up, wrapping myself around my body for warmth but that doesn't work anymore.

I can feel that I'm losing myself now. I close my eyes and for the first time I feel that I might not open them again.

I have a dream. I dream that I feel warm. I feel warm arms around me. I smile and I am warm now and I am able to sleep.

~ BD ~

EDWARD

Three days, that's how long she has been gone. I know everyone is doing what they can to find her but I miss her so fucking much. I will not give up on her. Ever. I decide to go where I can feel her the most. I hop in my cart and head toward the tree. I stand there under it and close my eyes and I can feel her. I can honestly feel her surround me. It's warm and inviting. She is holding me. She is telling me she is alive. She loves me. It's funny because I feel my arms wrap around myself as if I am holding her.

"I love you, Bella. Please feel me. I will find you." I repeat this to her praying she hears me.

I head back down toward the house to crash out on mom's couch along with everyone else. Even though my brothers have rooms right upstairs, they opt to sleep downstairs with me and along with them, Alice and Rosalie.

Alice and Rosalie. I have barely spoken to them in three days. They are going through their own misery and heartache. I see them cry a lot and I then watch my brothers hold and comfort them. I have to turn away because that's what I want to do with my Bella. I want to hold her. I need to touch her.

I wake up on the fourth day and still nothing has changed except the phones are ringing off the hook and people are knocking on the door.

Jenks finds that the hair in the hinge of the cell phone was plastic fiber from a wig. They were able to get two sets of fingerprints from Bella's cell phone though. That was a huge relief because I know one set was Bella's. The other is her kidnapper.

I have not heard from the kidnappers in three long days. No calls demanding money. No calls to torment me. I fight the night with thoughts of what could be happening to her. Does Jacob have her? Has he followed through with his threat he made in Tahoe? Is she alive? Is she hungry? Is she warm? I fight the urge to take those pills to keep my mind away from these thoughts.

I walk into the kitchen to find the Napa Valley Register on the counter.

FIANCÉE OF LOCAL NAPA VALLEY VINTNER KIDNAPPED

I can't read it. I throw it back on the counter and it slides onto the floor. I don't even bother picking it up.

I rub my chin and it isn't until then that I realize that I haven't shaved for four days. Is this how I want Bella to see me when I find her?

I go home and take a long hot shower, shave and then head back to moms to repeat the same routine over again. Calls to Jenks for status updates. Calls from the University. Calls from newspapers around the region. Calls from the vintners in the area. Calls… calls… calls. But no calls from Bella.

Rebecca has come over to moms to assist in food preparations and keeps a continuous pot of coffee on the table. She has made stacks of pancakes for everyone coming and going, offering support. I will have to make sure she gets a bonus at the end of the year.

"Edward? Edward, come here, look." Mom yells from the front door. All of us jump up to see what she is excited about.

"Holy shit!" I say under my breath. I look out and all of Napa Valley has turned out to join in a self-organized search and rescue.

"Edward." Carmine speaks out as he climbs the steps leading to the door. "We have an emergency on our hands. One of our own has come up missing and we must find her. We can't wait for the authorities to find her any longer. We will. We have organized ourselves into groups to search various parts of town. We will search the abandoned fields and out buildings. If there are underground shafts, we will search those as well." I stand there and see all those faces looking at me. Full of hope. I feel the stinging behind my eyes. I can't believe the outpouring of this community.

"Thank you, Carmine. Thank you, all of you." I shout out to the large crowd. "I have no new leads. I have nothing to give you as to her whereabouts only a suspicion that she is here in Napa somewhere. Any assistance you offer is greatly and deeply appreciated, I will tell you that. Please, give me a few minutes and I will join you. My family will join you. Thank you again." I turn around and rush back into the house and I spy Jenks out in the front as well. I motion for him to come in.

As soon as I get inside I hear Tanya's voice calling after me. She has chased me inside the house. She is not wanted here and she knows it.

"Tanya? What are you doing here?" I ask with venom in my voice. "You know you are not welcome here. Did you come with your father?" I look behind her searching for him.

"Emmett, would you go see if Jackson is here?"

"Edward, baby, come on. I'm only here to help. I can help in other ways, ways they can't." She says pawing at me like a cheap whore.

"Tanya! Get your fucking claws off me." I grab her wrists and throw them off me. "Christ, woman, what does it take for you to get a fucking clue? My fiancée is out there somewhere and you come here like she doesn't matter to me? Go home."

"Edward, I would stop if I were you. You better be careful what you say to me." She has a demonic look in her eyes.

I recall what Emmett said "…she has a wicked hatred for Bella… tell Edward… I'll get her little dog too."

I look at her and see it in her eyes. She does hate Bella. Does she hate her enough to kidnap her?

"Or what, Tanya? What happens if I don't stop? Stop what by the way? Stop loving Bella? Stop despising you? Stop ruing the day I met you?"

"You bastard. You lousy fucking bastard. You loved me. You still love me you just don't want to admit it." She seethes at me.

"Love you? Are you kidding me? You disgust me. You were nothing but a cheap fuck and a lousy one at that." I laugh at her hoping that will do the trick.

"You motherfucker. You weren't saying that when you had your dick so far up my pussy you nearly passed out. You weren't saying that when I had your cock down my throat. When we made deals together. Eddie, we can have that again." She says, placing her hands on me again. No one touches me again but Bella and I throw her hands off my chest.

"Tanya, this is the very last time I will ever tell you this." I say bending down to her eyelevel. "You were never anything but a piece of ass to me. A decision I regret. Leave now and never, ever put your cheap shoes on Cullen property again or I will get a protection order against you and your family."

She takes a step back. An eerie calm comes over her. The muscles in her face relax.

"Consider it done, Edward." I watch as she turns to walk away. "You will never see her again, you know that don't you?" She walks out the door laughing an evil laugh.

"JENKS, GET HER." We all chase her but she gets lost in the throng of people and we don't see what direction she takes.

Emmett walks up the walkway with Jackson.

"Jackson, what are you doing here?" I ask trying to ascertain his intentions.

"You have a family member missing. I'm here to help find her. Why? I didn't think the security issue would matter here at a time like this, Edward. You need help and I'm here to help."

I don't have time to second guess his motives, I need help now.

"Jackson, I have reason to believe that Tanya has Bella. She just informed me that I will never see her again and she ran off. Do you know about this? Anything? Please?"

"I knew that she was seeing that Jacob guy. She convinced me to hire him but then I learned about what he did to Bella through the grapevine. She changed after that. She became more and more angry." He says. I can tell by the concern on his face that he is being truthful.

"Is it possible she has Bella at your place? Is there somewhere that she could have her hidden that no one would know about?" There is desperation seeping through my voice and I know it. This is more hope than I have had in days.

"No, we have the wine cellar underneath the house but we go in there all time and Bella is not down there."

"Fuck, Jackson, THINK. Please. She has threatened to kill her." I plead.

I look up and everyone is listening to us. All of Napa is listening.

"Jackson, what about that old root cellar underneath the old farrier's barn?" Billy steps up and asks loudly.

"Shit, yes, I totally forgot about that. I haven't even been to that barn in over 10 years. Let's go!"

Everyone from the town of Napa who had been standing on my mom and dad's lawn is now on the move.

For the first time in 72 hours I have hope.

BELLA

I hear her storming toward the door. Uh oh, Tanya is pissed. A pissed off Tanya can't be a good thing.

"Get up here, whore." She yells from the top of the stairs. I can't move. I can't even will my legs to straighten out.

"I said get up." She shouts as she continues to come down the stairs.

I would love to get up. I would love to walk up those stairs. But I can't. I know my body has shut down. I truly believe my limbs are frozen and I can't move them anymore. For the first time I feel like I am dying.

I open my eyes and see her squatting in front of me.

Fuck. There's that needle again.

"See how pretty I look today. You on the other hand look like shit. I saw your fiancée today? Fuck did he feel good underneath me again. I rode his dick so long and hard and all he could say is … 'Fuck, Tanya, you feel so warm.' Did he ever say that to you, cunt?"

Oh, God.

"So I guess the answer is no. Otherwise you would be gleaming at how wonderful he was to you and how you did it all day long. Well, he's doing me all day long now. You will never see him again, my pretty. He told me he didn't love you anymore and that he only wanted me and that you were nothing to him and never was."

Oh, Edward. Baby. I love you.

And then I feel it. I know she has jammed that needle in my leg again.

I am still conscious… barely. My body has no reaction whatsoever, but I know what is happening in my surroundings.

I feel her futile attempt to pull me up the stairs by my hair and my arm. I am dead weight to her and she gets me halfway up the stairs before I slide back down to the bottom, falling on my arm. I think I hear it snap. I'm not sure. I don't feel anything.

She starts to pull me up the stairs again.

It hurts now. I feel the pain in my arm underneath me as I am dragged up step by step. I think I am crying but I'm not sure. I can't tell.

Oh God! I really think I may be dying. Edward, please know that I loved you.

Yes, I'm certain that I am dying. I hear angels. I hear my name being called from above.

"Bella. Bella, please hang on."

Who is that? Is that God? God sounds like Edward?

"Oh, God." Is the last thing I remember saying.

EDWARD

"Billy?" I look at him in surprise. "You knew about this cellar and you didn't think to mention it?"

"Edward, I am sorry I didn't. I don't think about the Denali property at all. But when you asked Jackson, I remembered it. I am sorry." I can see he is upset with himself but damn, every little bit of information would have been good here.

"Okay, Jackson, you come with me." I say as I nearly run toward my cart. "We're heading to the Denali property." I yell out to the crowd and see everyone disburse in their own mode of transportation. Some I can see are doubling up. My family takes their own carts by the back route toward Denali's.

My stomach is in turmoil over the thought of finding Bella. What if she's not there? Fuck! I can't even go there. Think positive. She has to be there.

We drive to the old dilapidated farrier's barn and I can't get there fast enough. I jump off the cart and run and what I see then nearly kills me on the spot. Tanya is pulling my baby by her hair, dragging her across the dirty floor over nails and old boards, cutting her as she tries to get Bella's shirt unstuck from a rusty nail.

At a dead run I lunge myself at Tanya knocking her across the barn onto her ass and drop down on my knees at Bella's side.

"Bella. Bella, please hang on," I say touching her face gently, "Call 911 NOW!" I yell to anyone who is listening. I hear phones being dialed and many voices calling 911.

"We've found Bella Swan at the Denali Winery. Bring a helicopter, she needs urgent care." I hear someone else say.

"Is she alive?" Carmine asks, holding his phone to his ear.

"Yes, barely." I say, lowering my mouth to hers to feel her breath. I detect a faint heartbeat. "I need a blanket. Does anyone have anything?" I yell out but I don't take my eyes off of her.

The next think I know, there's a pile of coats lying next to me to place over Bella. I look up and nod a silent thank you and watch as Rosalie and Alice place them over Bella's silent body. The coats are already warm from their owners and I pray that it helps.

I look up at Bella's best friends and they are crying over her body, willing her to survive.

"Bella, girl, you better open your fucking eyes." Rosalie cries. Willing her to obey.

"Bella, you are safe now, we have you. Come on, sweetie. Open your eyes for us." Alice says through tears as well.

"She's going to be okay, girls. I promise." I say taking one of their cheeks in each of my hands to assure them.

I glance over to Emmett and Jasper and signal them to get their girls. It is touching to see my brothers comforting them, holding them in their arms, whispering that everything will be alright. I just hope I get that opportunity with Bella again soon.

I assess her body and see her arm is badly broken. Her head has a god-awful bump that concerns me. She has deep cuts and scrapes where she has been drug across the floor and that's when I notice the needle that is sticking out of her leg.

"WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE TO HER, TANYA? WHAT DID YOU GIVE HER?" I yell as I storm toward her.

"Oh, don't get your panties in a twist, Eddie. She's only asleep." She laughs.

The next thing I know Jackson walks up to her and hits her hard across the face.

"You will not talk to him like that and you best tell him what you gave her. Did you overdose her?" He yells at his daughter.

"How the fuck should I know. I'm not a doctor." She smirks.

At that I hear the helicopter arrive and then there is a flurry of activity as they prepare Bella's broken body to be airlifted to UCSF Medical Center. I am pissed that they won't let me fly with her. I decide to fly my own helicopter but the ever so sensible Jasper tells me by the time I make arrangements for the flight I can be there by motorcycle, if not sooner.

"JENKS!" I yell out to the crowd and he breaks through walking toward me.

"Keep an eye on her and assist the police with this. Do you think you can do that? If you can't, tell me now because I'm done, Jenks. I'm tired of you and I'm tired of your excuses. No. You know what? DAD!" I yell toward my dad.

"Dad, Jenks is done here. I don't want him around me or my family again. As CEO, I am officially terminating him from Volturi. Do you have problem with that? Because if you do, then you and I have a serious problem."

"No, Edward. I don't have a problem with that. You are in charge here and I can certainly understand why you need to do this." I hear my dad say calmly.

"Jenks, you have been with our family for a lot of years, but I need to side with my son on this. This is deplorable and there are no excuses from you that can explain what has happened to this woman. We trusted you to keep her safe and you didn't, therefore you failed miserably."

"Yes, sir, Mr. Cullen." I hear Jenks say as he walks away.

"Dad, can you please oversee that bitch over there. I do not want her getting away and her father might try to save her ass. Has anyone called the police?" I ask him.

"Yes, son, I did and they should be here any moment." And with that, we look up and see the lights of the cruisers flashing inside the barn.

I ask Jasper if he will give me a lift to my house so I can get my bike and head toward the hospital to be with Bella. Thank God I have found her. Now we need to keep her alive.

BELLA

Where am I? What is all that yelling? Why can't I move or speak?

Wait, what is this?

Why am I floating above everyone? It's peaceful. Am I flying? What am I doing lying on the ground when I'm way up here? Hey, I don't hurt anymore.

I see Edward and Alice and Rosalie next to me but I'm up here. This is the strangest feeling in the world.

I can hear Edward whispering my name as if he's in my ear up here with me.

"Bella, come on baby. Don't leave me now. We just made it." He speaks softly in my ear.

Oh, Edward. I could never leave you. Can't you hear me? I love you is all I can say to him when they take me away from him.

"Wait! Where are you taking me? I want to stay here with Edward!" I hear myself shout. Why isn't anyone listening?

Wait, this isn't Black Bird. Where's Edward? Oh God. I've died.

I've died because there is nothing. It's quiet now. But where's the light? There is no light and I feel pain. Fuck do I feel the pain.

Oh God, please make it go away.

And just like that, it does.

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