I was at work I couldn't focus, it's been 3 days since I last seen or talked to Fitz I've been avoiding him and I know he knows it. I was looking out my window with tears streaming down my face it wouldn't stop.

Knock, knock, knock.

"Come in." I tried to say without the evident sadness in my voice. I heard the door open and close and the lock turn. I waited for them to speak. I had my back to them and I planned on keeping my back to them because I refuse to let my gladiators see me cry.

"What do you want?" I asked obviously annoyed.

"Livvie." I heard him breathe out.

"I'm busy." I replied.

"No you're not." He said coming closer.

"Go away." I said back.

"No. You've been avoiding me. " He said letting me hear the hurt in his voice.

"Get out." I whispered loud enough for him to hear.

"Liv. Talk to me." I swung my chair around. My red tear filled eyes met his.

"Leave me alone."

"Baby what's wrong?" He asked coming around the desk. I quickly stood up. The only thing that was in the way was my chair. He moved it out his way. He took a step forward I took a step back.

"Baby, what's wrong?" He asked again. I looked him in the eye as the tears began to fall once again. I opened my mouth then closed it.

"I…I...I know. About you and Mellie." I said to him.

"Liv let me explain that." He said trying to get closer to me but I moved away.

"No." I responded.

"Baby don't do this." He said taking off his jacket and rolling up his sleeves.

"What are you doing?" I asked while he now took off his shoes. He bent over and placed his shoes neatly by my desk. I was so confused but before I could process it he ran to me quickly wrapping me in his arms. I immediately started to fight his touch but he just held me against him.

"Let me go." I Screamed. Why did I sound proof my office.

"I'm not going to let you go, I need to explain to you what happened please." He begged pulling away a bit. I shoved him off of me and tried to run but of course he caught me before I could touch the door knob. He picked me up and threw me on the couch somewhat gently and straddled me.

"Get off me." I screamed at him but he ignored.

"Look, Olivia I need you to just shut up for like 5 minutes and stop screaming! Now I'm going to talk and you're going to listen!" He screamed back at me. I quiet down turning my head away from him and he took a deep breath. "I was in the residence reading something when Tom came in and said Mellie and Bianca wanted to talk to me. I never heard of them before but I still told him to let them in. Mellie comes in freaking out about meeting me while Bianca just kept her distance. I was telling her I had to get back to work and then she just fell over so I caught her. I picked up her purse and as I came up she jumped on me and I dropped her purse. She just smashed her lips to mine." I couldn't help the sob that escaped my mouth and I started to fight him again but he ignored me. He took a deep breath and continued. "I didn't know what to do and I noticed Bianca taking pictures so I tried to pry her off me and I accidentally shoved her to the floor. She hit the floor with a thud and Tom rushed in and Bianca rushed out. Tom sent someone after Bianca but when they got a hold of her she didn't have the camera. Tom has them at an unknown location until we get the camera. Liv I didn't do anything with her, I swear." He concluded his story. I laid there absorbing everything he just said. 'I don't know why I'm acting like this. I'm lying I do know why I'm acting like this, I just don't want to acknowledge it.'

"How do I know you aren't lying?" I asked still not looking at him.

"Look at me." I didn't so he turned my face holding it in place "Olivia Pope, I know we haven't been together long but I love you and I know I haven't taken you on a proper date and I will tonight if you forgive me. I know the kids and my job has been keeping us apart but it won't anymore, I promise. I love you baby." He planted a kiss on my nose.

"You don't love me." I whispered.

"I love you." He whispered back looking in eyes. The intensity caused me physical pain.

"No you're confused." I told him.

"I do, Livvie. I love you and I only want you. I'm going to protect you and love you and of course I'll protect and love Destiney and Alice with all I got. I don't care what people think and I'll choose you over my job anytime. Liv I don't know what's really bothering you but we can work this out always." He said giving me a reassuring smile.

"Please stop." I turned my head. He got up off me and grabbed his shoes. I sat up hugging my knees to my chest and cried as I watched him put his shoes and jacket back up. He unlocked the door and walked out. 'What am I doing he's leaving me? I need him to stay.' I told myself, I got up and ran out my office. He's was just getting on the elevator, my team was just standing around. He looked at me.

"Please don't go." I said to him. Tom immediately stopped the door from closing, I didn't care my makeup was ruined and I looked like trash. He walked up to me, he looked tired and frustrated. He leaned over to my ear,

"Are you going to tell me what's going on because I swear Olivia I got better things to do than to play around." I nodded. He pulled me into my office closing the door and locking it.

"Talk." He commanded while he sat. I nodded

Fitz P.O.V.

"I…um…I'm scared that you'll...b…be like them." She took in a sharp breath.

"Who is them?"

"Edison, I was a prize to him and before him there was Jake Ballard. We dated for awhile and I thought he was the one even though he cheated on me constantly tried to get me to do…um...threesome. Um…after 2 years I couldn't take him anymore so I tried to leave him and he…he…he-" She leaned against the wall and then she slid to the floor, I really looked at her and realized she was struggling to breathe. I rushed to her side,

"Hey, look at me." I said. She did. I took her hands and placed them over my heart. "My heart beats for you. You hear me?" She nodded. "What do I do? Hospital?" I asked her she held her arms out to me and I pulled her body to me. I was rocking us back and forth. I looked down at her, "You're scaring me." I whispered. I took a deep breath and noticed she was trying to do it too. She mimicked my breathing and then she burst into tears. "Aw baby."

"He cut me all over my stomach." She whispered.

"You can stop. It's too much for you." I told her. She pulled away from me.

"I'm tired of pretending to be someone I'm not. I'm tired of being scared and being alone."

"Liv?"

"What color are my eyes?" She asked.

"What?"

"What color are my eyes?" She repeated.

"Dark Brown why?" I questioned.

"They aren't dark brown." She cried out covering her face.

"Liv they are." I told her.

"No they're not, it's contacts." She told. I watched her lower her head and take them out she looked up with her eyes closed. "When I was little my dad use to beat me because my eyes. He said he knew I wasn't his because there's no way his child will have eyes that color. I later found out from my mother that he wasn't my father. She got tired of him hitting me because of a mistake she made. She packed our bags my actual father was going to take us home with him. He found out Rowan was hitting me and my mom but before we can get our stuff out the door Rowan came home early. He was pissed he went for his gun that was always in the living room but my mom stabbed him in the stomach picked me up and ran out the house leaving everything we owned behind. When we got out the door my dad was just pulling up, he got out the backseat and hugged me that's the first time we've ever met. He kissed me and told me he loved me but before I could tell him it back Rowan shot him in the leg. He quickly handed me off to my mom and told her to get in the car in go but she didn't listen she loved him too much to just leave him. So she put me in the car told the driver if they died to step on it. She went back to help my dad up and I watched Rowan shoot her twice in the back. The driver took off but I could still see my dad roll over her as if to protect her and he tried to get up and run only to be shot down. He looked me in the eyes right before right before Rowan shot him down. Though he didn't know of my existence long, I know he loved me. They got me out the country that very same day and I was never questioned about my parents death, nobody mentioned it and it didn't make the news it's weird but I know Rowan didn't go to jail. If he's still alive he'll probably come after me knowing where I am." Her eyes stayed closed, I felt bad I made her live through the worst memories of her life.

"I'm sorry, so sorry." I said pulling her to me. I looked down at her as she opened her eyes I was met by a beautiful light brown color that could easily be hazel.

"Everyone I loved died. On my way to airport that day they picked up this little girl she was taken out yeh country along with me. We were both from the Bahamas and were dropped off in the USA, we lived with a lady who didn't talk much but she protected us. We never went hungry and we were always wearing the best clothes and lived in the best house. Me and Catherine became best friends but as we got older she held a grudge against Rowan for what he did to me and our father and my mother. As soon as we finished college told me goodbye and told me she won't come back until Rowan's dead. I begged her not to go but she said she had to. She never came back its been a little over a decade. I wonder if she's dead and I hope and pray she's alive. I don't want you to love me because I don't want you to leave me." She told me.

"I'm not going to stop loving you and I'm never going to leave you. You're stuck with me whether you like it or not. I promise." I said.

"You say that now." She mumbled. I make her look at me.

"I don't make promises I can't keep." I told her. She stood and I followed, we walked to the couch. She turned her back to me.

"Unzip it." She commanded. I undid her dress, she turned around and slowly pulled it down. Once she pooled around her feet. She stepped at and laid it on her desk. She walked back to me pushing my jacket off me she laid it with her dress.

"Baby what's are you doing?" I asked her. She sat down and spread her legs open. My member immediately jumped to attention.

"Take off your clothes." She said simply. Just when I was about to do as she said there was loud knocks on the door.

"Mr. President, Ms. Pope we have an emergency. Please get out of here immediately." We heard Tom yell. I froze and Liv frowned but quickly put on her dress I zipped it up while she wiped the makeup of her face. I opened the door,

"What's going on?" I growled.

"Ms. Pope your team is already in the motorcade Destiney and Alice school is being held hostage. 1 of our men are dead he died with Alice in his arms. His last words were hurry they want them dead. We need to go now." I felt sick, I felt Olivia take my hand. She was shaking.

Olivia P.O.V.

My baby, my babies. It hit me hard.

"Fitz." I whispered.

"Let's go." We took off running. I hit the elevator button but it was taking to long so Fitz pulled me to the staircase and we took off as soon as we got out the building we were bombarded with paparazzi, we just pushed past we got in the motorcade and Tom jumped in the front. Abby was sitting there crying.

"What if they kill Tia? I really wanted to adopt her." Abby said. I squeezed her hand. I looked at Fitz he was looking straight ahead crying silently. I placed myself in his lap and he wrapped his arms around me.

"I need you and I love you too. They love you baby. They need us." I whispered in his ear. He let out a loud sob.

"We're here." Tom announced. Abby was already half way out the car. "Ms. Pope and Mr. President you CANNOT get out the car." Tom ran out as two shots rang out inside the school I can hear the kids screaming. I looked at the window and seen a woman standing on a house she looked familiar.

"Fitz? Fitz? That's Catherine!" I screamed, he looked up she was now running towards the school and I couldn't help but run to her which led to Fitz following.

"Catherine!" She looked at me eyes wide and met me half way she grabbed me and Fitz hands and pulled us down behind a bush.

"Liv." She hugged me with tears in her eyes. "I've missed you." She said.

"I've thought you were dead." I whispered.

"I know. Look I just killed Rowan literally 10 minutes ago, soon the people in their is going to flee thinking he set them up. This was all Rowan but he's dead now like I promised. I'm going to go and save them. There's always a chance I won't make it back so I'm gonna say this. Your mom and our dad is alive. Mom is crippled but daddy is just fine. Do you have a pen?" She asked quickly. Fitz handed her one and she took his hand and wrote an address across his arm. "That's where they're located."

"Hey!" We seen Tom approach from behind Katherine, she quickly pulled her gun trying to cover me.

"It's okay that's Tom, our head secret service agent." I told her. She nodded.

"I got to go." She said ready to take off. I grabbed her hand.

"Tom please go with her protect her." I told him he nodded and they left. A cop seen Fitz and rushed over.

"Mr. President are you okay? You need to get back in your motorcade you too Ms. Pope." He waved two more people over and we went to back to the motorcade. I held Fitz and he held me. We heard the piercing scream of another child and cried and Fitz cried.

"Our babies gonna die." I whispered through my tears.

"Don't say that." Fitz lectured.

A/N: I'm crying my eyes out. I'm sorry guys don't hate me