I'M SORRY THAT ITS TAKING ME SO LONG TO UPDATE BUT HONESTLY I JUST HAVENT BEEN FEELING LIKE UPDATING I'M SORRY TO SAY IT BUT ITS TRUE. I'VE BEEN WRITING THIS STORY AND I HAVE ALMOST CHAPTER 10 DONE WHICH IS GOOD SHOULD BE POSTED TOMORROW OR IF YOU GUYS ARE LUCKY AND I CAN MANAGE TO FINISH THE CHAPTER IT MIGHT EVEN BE UP LATE TONIGHT. I'M ALSO GOING TO APOLOGIZE FOR NOT UPDATING MY OTHER STORY THE PROTECTORS 2 WHICH I BELIEVE SOME OF YOU ARE READING AS WELL AND IM SAD TO REPORT THAT IT PROBABLY WONT BE POSTED FOR AWHILE STILL. WELL ANYWAYS I'M GONNA STOP TALKING SO THAT YOU GUYS CAN GET TO THE CHAPTER AND HOPEFULLY LEAVE ME A PLEASANT REVIEW THAT I CAN READ AND FALL IN LOVE WITH HAHA. I KID I KID BUT SERIOUSLY. ALRIGHT ENOUGH IDLE CHIT CHAT. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ENJOY. MUCH LOVE.
Chapter 9-Barely Breathing
Its been a whole week since me and Calliope broke up and its almost like my heart has been smashed into a million pieces. I'm pretty sure she is still pissed at me because I've send her like a million texts and calls and haven't heard anything back. I'm also pretty sure that she is avoiding me at work because I've only seen her one time since our break up. I hate that she doesn't believe me and I hate this feeling. See this is exactly why I don't get involved with people because once I get attached and I have gotten attached to Calliope I get hurt and it really sucks. I'm at work now having a horrible time. I lost a kid and now all my surgeries are under Starks supervision which is another thing that has me pissed off and not to mention the fact that Joanne is still in town and has been texting my phone like crazy but I've been ignoring all of them and my mother has been calling my phone as well but I just don't have enough strength to talk to my mom right now.
I wish I could just wake up and have this really shitty situation be all a dream and I can have Calliope in my arms again where she belongs and where I need her the most. I haven't been sleeping, I can't when she's not in my arms but I've been taking sleeping pills and drinking myself into oblivion I know it's a deadly combination but it's the only thing that ever makes me feel better. I'm pretty sure I look like hell and I knew for sure when Teddy told me this morning. She also told me that her and Mark have been hanging out and she really likes him a lot. Good for her I think to myself good for her. Everything I do I think about Calliope, I still smell her shampoo in my pillows that she's slept on I just want to talk to her and tell her how much I love her and tell her how sorry I am but I technically haven't done anything so I'm not sorry I'm just upset that she doesn't believe me so I guess the only thing left to say is sorry and that hasn't helped so far.
My mission today is to see her and even try to talk to her but if I don't get to the talking part staring at her will be a good start and if neither happen then I guess it will be another drunken night and me crying like it has been every night since she left me. I wonder aimlessly around the hospital pretending like I'm doing something but I'm actually just looking for Calliope. I find her in the cafeteria with Mark of course he spots me and when I walk towards the table he stops me.
"Don't think about it Robbins" He says to me almost demanding
"I need to talk to her Mark"
"Well she doesn't want to talk to…..she doesn't even want to see you right now"
"I didn't cheat on her Mark"
"Yeah well she thinks otherwise and I heard the whole thing and its hard to talk yourself out of something she saw"
"I love her"
"Look Robbins just give her a couple more days…..she loves you too and she's a mess and I can tell so are you ….you look like hell"
"Thanks Mark"
Is all I can manage to say never looking away from the magnificent beautiful woman that just days ago I was making love too. I decide that there really isn't anything for me to do here with Stark taking all of my surgeries so I decide it would be a great time to go home and drink myself into oblivion and get rid of this pain that I feel. Before I can head out my pager goes off apparently I'll have to wait just a few more hours for my night alone.
Callies POV
Its been a week since I saw Arizona with her ex Joanne. Arizona swears she didn't do anything wrong but what I saw was different I mean who lets someone stick their hands in you're pants and doesn't see a kiss coming she could of at least turned her head away or something but she didn't do anything she just stood there. I honestly don't know why I'm so surprised I know exactly who Arizona was when we got together it was only a matter of time before this would happen but we were doing so good and making love almost everyday so its not like she needed anything unless I wasn't enough for her which is just completely ridiculous I'm enough for anybody. I miss her so much and have been crying almost the whole week.
She's been texting me and calling me but I just can't talk to her right now I'm still mad at her for what she did to me. I do my best to not run into her at the hospital unless absolutely necessary but lately she hasn't been doing surgery I don't know the real reason but apparently she killed a kid and now stark has all her surgeries she probably is really pissed about that. Oh well I think to myself she is getting what she deserves but all I want to do is find her and kiss her and then I think back to what I saw and I get angry all over again.
I'm in the cafeteria talking to Mark about absolutely nothing but it helps get my mind off Arizona, I really am in love with her but I can't tell if she ever really did feel the same way. Mark says something and leaves which just leaves me by myself with my salad I oddly feel like someone is staring at me though. I ignore the feeling and go back to pushing my salad around I'm not that hungry and I haven't been since I broke up with Arizona unless it's a pint of ice cream then I'm all for it. I don't care what people say ice cream is definitely a comfort food and it definitely comforts me. I'm brought out of my thoughts when my pager goes off I glance at it for moment and then get up throw my salad away and head in my destination.
Arizonas POV
I got paged to the pit to a 16 year old girl who was coughing up blood. There could be multiple illnesses that this young lady has and a big one is lung fibrosis or a chest infection so I order scans and now all I have to do is wait. It should only take a few hours until I'll have some answers for the young girl and her parents. I get pulled into another case with Bailey this case takes a merely half and hour until its handled and Bailey has gladly taken the follow up.
I make my way to get the scans for the girl I really would like to help her and see what's wrong and plus anything to keep my mind of Calliope until I'm alone in my apartment. I hear my name being called and the voice doesn't sound familiar to me at all. I don't even get a chance to turn my head when I'm being hit in the face with a bat or a paddle or some shit like that. I stumble and almost fall to the ground but I catch myself on the hospital bed grabbing my face. Before this person can get another hit on me nurses and doctors get a hold of them. I look up and of course Joanne's new psycho girlfriend just hit me in the face with a what the hell is that a frat boy paddle who hits someone with that.
"Stay the hell away from Joanne"
"What the fuck is your problem…" I say still clutching my face and I can tell I'm bleeding when I feel it running down my face. Great. Just Great.
"She's my girlfriend…..you don't get to sleep with her"
"What makes you think that I want to"
"She told me that you guys sleep together the other night"
"are you out of youre mind…..I haven't slept with Joanne since we've been together…."
"Fuck you….I don't believe you"
"I don't give a fuck if you believe me or not Joanne is lying to you…so if its anybody that needs to be hit with that" I say pointing at the paddle still in her hand "Its Joanne….she's psycho and apparently so are you"
The security finally arrives and takes her away she still is babbling something buts its complete nothing to me Joanne is psycho and so is her new girl whatever her name is. Actually I don't care what her name is I'm living in complete hell right now and Joanne I swear just came back to make my happy ever after a complete wreck. Remember to thank Joanne for all the good she does next time I see her I think to myself.
Callies POV
When I got paged I got paged to a little boy about 11 years old. At first I wanted to decline and get another orthopedic surgeon on it when I saw that it was a little kid assuming that Arizona would be showing her face but when she never did I went to work. This boy is one of the sweetest kids I've ever meant and his piercing blue eyes immediately remind me of Arizona and how much I miss her. I need to stop thinking about her so I talk to the little boy just to understand what happened. He feel off his bike and sprained his arm he's visiting his family up here. He came in with his mother and another much older woman who I'm assuming was the grandmother who have gone to the cafeteria and left just me and him. He sure does like to talk but he's a cute kid so we chit chat for just a while. He looks worried about something and I ask him what's wrong. He looks at me and smiles and he has dimples. I swear god is trying to make me miss Arizona more then I already do.
"Uhhh….Dr. Torres…do you know when my aunt is going to be coming"
"I'm sorry sweetheart I don't…." I say and his face immediately drops "so you like you're aunt huh"
"Yeah…she's like my favorite person but I don't get to see her that much…we came to visit her and I'm going to be so happy when I see her"
As soon as he says that the door to the room opens and Arizona comes walking through she looks like a complete mess and it looks like she is hurt. All I want to do is kiss her but is it wrong that it makes me feel better that she looks like hell. She doesn't look at me I don't even think she notices me there and all she says is.
"Daniel are you okay"