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E is for… Empty
"Why is the rum always gone?" Jack sighed to himself, tipping the glass bottle upside down as if hoping that there would be a few drops left. He sighed. The rum was empty and he could not leave the helm to get another bottle until Gibbs had come up to swap shift. With only the two of them on board, they had arranged that Gibbs would prepare and eat his meal and then swap with Jack so that the captain could eat his own food before returning to the helm. Not that there was any point in Jack eating, food nor rum was filling him up right now. Something was missing.
His thoughts turned to ones of the whores in Tortuga. His weird feelings may just be because, as a man, he had needs and there were some particular needs which had not been fulfilled in quite a while. In Tortuga, there would be plenty of whores willing to help him out there, once they had slapped him for leaving him the last time he thought, sheepishly.
He sighed again. No, not even the thoughts of what awaited him in Tortuga could change the way he felt. He had never felt like this before, and he wasn't sure he liked it. Yes he had experienced the feelings known as sorrow and longing before, but never both together and never in this way and to such intensity! The power of these emotions was almost overwhelming and Jack wasn't sure what to do! He couldn't sleep, he was not hungry and, possibly the worst of it, even rum did not help. It couldn't have been anything to do with Angelica. Could it?
He shook his head, dismissing the idea. He had left the Latina woman many times before and never felt like this, so why should he now? As soon as he had thought that, however, his head started buzzing. Was it possible that he had become closer to Angelica over the duration of their quest for the Fountain? Was it possible that those emotions, once simply "stirrings" had turned into something more? Was it possible that coming so close to losing her after she had removed the poisoned blade from her father's chest and cut her own hand with it had evoked feelings of protectiveness? It was true that Jack could not bear to see the pain she had been in and had been desperate to help her. It was also true that he had taken the risk of jumping off the cliff in order to save her from taking the risk and potentially getting hurt.
"Cap'n, I'll take over now. You can go eat." Gibbs said as he came up onto the deck, giving Jack a welcome distraction from his thoughts. He merely nodded in response and started to go below deck, although he knew it wasn't worth it. He sighed once more, quietly so as not to alert Gibbs to his emotions. His first mate was already having suspicions about Jack's "stirrings" towards the Spanish beauty but it seemed that these suspicions may be completely justified; Jack had never felt so empty.