Callies POV

Its been 10 days since Daniel had a seizure. It was almost 2 days of surgery trying to save him all with no prevail. Its been 3 days since his funeral. Ive never seen Arizona so miserable and for the third night in a row i wake up to a empty bed. Knowing exactly where to find her i crawl out of our bed and head to the living room. Shes sitting on the couch in a tshirt and jeans taking shot after shot. It hurts my heart to see her like this and not be able to do anything and whats even worse is she doesnt talk to me anymore.

"Arizona...are you coming to bed?"

She turns around and looks at me. Her eyes red from what i can assume is from crying.

"Go back to bed ill be in a few"

"Its 3 in the morning babe" i say softly

"I said id be in fuck callie..go back to bed"

I know shes angry that Daniel is no longer here and that she needs time so i go back to bed not wanting to upset her further. About 2 hours later i feel her crawl into bed she doesnt scoot closer to me like she use to. Instead she faces away from me leaving space between us. I let a tear fall.

"So hows blondie doing" Marks asks me taking a sip of his beer.

"Horrible...miserable...terrible...take your pick...I've never seen her like this and I dont know what to do to help her...its like everything I do or say makes her more upset...Im surprised she even agreed to come out tonight"

"Things will get better" He says placing a reassuring hand on my shoulder. "And speaking of the devil her she comes" He gets up and takes his leave to our booth.

I turn around and see the love of my life looking as miserable as she usually does. I know she sees me but her eyes dont meet mine just like usual.

"Hey babe" I say going to give her a kiss but she pulls away also like usual.

"Hey...Joe...Jack and coke"

"You got it"

She sits down next to me never saying a word so i speak first.

"How was work"

Owen tried to give her however long she needed off but she refused.

"The same as usual..." she says shortly taking a sip of her drink. " where is everybody"

She spots Mark at the booth and gets up to head over. I gently grab her arm before she can go.

"Arizona"

"Callie...no...not now"

I let go of her arm and let her go. I take a shot and also take my leave to the booth. Its going to be a long night.

About 3 hours later and about gosh I cant even remember how many drinks everybody is laughing and having a good time. Even Arizona is smiling amd laughing just like old times. I missed this seeing her happy. Noticing I need a refill I head back up to the bar.

"You come her often" a beautiful women says to me.

"Actually yes...maybe to often" i say jokingly.

We start to talk a little bit back and forth and to be honest she is very beautiful. Maybe because I've had to much to drink that I dont notice her standing very close to me and maybe because I've had to much to drink that I dont brush off her hand when she puts it on my arm. What i do notice is my girlfriend pushing this woman away from me and punching this women in the face.

"Hell yeah a girl fight" a drunken man slurs.

With that Im brought out of my daze and I immediately sober up and pull Arizona away from this woman and push her out of Joes.

"What the hell was that Arizona"

"Oh i could ask you the same thing"

"Oh god arizona not this again...we where just talking...i mean at least somebody wants to show me some attention"

I immediately regret saying that once it leaves my lips.

"Oh I'm sorry Callie i didnt know its all about you...let me just forget that my nephew just died"

"You know thats not what i meant...talk to me Arizona...let me know whats going on with you...let me in cause right now your just pushing me away...and if thats what you want then let me know now"

Im defeated she wont let me in even when i try and if she doesnt want me around then what am i suppose to do.

We stand outside in complete silence for a few minutes before arizona speaks.

"Can we just go home...please"

Arizonas POV

Its been at least five days since the little incident at Joes happened. I dont know what happened to me or what made me go completely ape shit on that woman that was touching my Calliope. I know its all the angry from Daniel being taken away from me. Now i have nothing left of Tim and it breaks my heart everyday. I dont know how long its gonna take for things to get better but right now the only answer i can come up with is never. I havent touched Callie since his death. I can barely even kiss her or look her in the eyes. Its not because I dont love her, I love her so much its just that im becoming a monster. I have all this rage inside of me I dont want her seeing me so apart and I feel like at any second I could snap out and I dont want it to be on her so Im keeping my distance even if she doesnt like it.

Im sitting at my apartment completely bored out of my mind and a bottle of jack downed. I feel my phone vibrate on the coffee table and hope its from Callie. Even though Im being an asshole still doesnt mean I dont want my girl to text me. I open it and Im slightly dissappointed its not from Callie, instead its from a woman i use to sleep with on the regular Nina.

'You seem so upset lately why dont you come over and let me make you happy'

Before I know what I'm doing I'm at her place. I knock on the door and she opens it in her birthday suit.

"I was hoping it was you" she says with a smile on her face and I walk in.