I know this is kind of a short chapter, but I couldn't leave it where it was on the last chapter. This one isn't any better. It's heartbreaking.. but I wanted to leave it in a place that could at least be processed. Hope you all don't hate me. Time for me to get some sleep, because even I need to process through this. :(

Riley couldn't believe the wales she was hearing were actually coming from her. It was like she was out of her body and looking at the whole scene. She had tried to stop her father from pulling the trigger. She was too slow. She watched helplessly as the bullet hit Chibs and took his life. She tried to rationalize a way that he could still be alive. Some how he was faking it. Deep in her soul she knew he was gone. She could feel it. The whole world felt different.

"I'm sorry I had to do that Riley. I'll let you take care of your issues then I'll be in touch."

She heard her father and the rest of the men walk away as she continued to sob on the ground. She looked up at the man, the man she loved with all of her heart, slumped forward in the chair. She crawled towards him and brushed his shaggy greying hair away from his face. He looked peaceful and it broke his heart.

She remembered a time when that peaceful face meant the world to her. A time when waking up before him was a treat because she could kiss his face, causing him to open his eyes and smile at her. She choked out another sob as she ran her fingers across his face, for the last time.

"Riley, we need to get him home." Happy said quietly.

"I know. Tig too. Call Rat. Call everyone."

Riley heard his phone beeping and she carefully let Chibs head rest back where it was. She pressed her forehead to his and let the tears fall. She knew she had every reason to be mad at him, but all she felt was regret for not telling him how much she loved him. She wouldn't get to tell him how much she cared still about him regardless of what he did. She broke free of hear thoughts when she heard Tig sobbing.

She turned to see the closest thing she had to a real father, crumpled on the floor. His blue eyes were shining even brighter from the tears freely falling. She walked over to him and sank to the floor in front of him. He looked at her, shaking his head, as he grabbed her cut and pulled himself to her. She wrapped her arms around him and held him close.

"I am so sorry, Tiggy. This is all my fault." She sobbed.

Tig tried to speak, but instead just shook his head and sobbed even harder. She wasn't sure if she was shaking from her own tears or his, but she knew they needed to get outside and get everyone home. The next few days were going to be the roughest the club had dealt with in a long time.

It took less than a day for all the charters to make it to Charming. Venus had been helping Riley get everything straightened out. She knew she went through all of it with Sarah, but she had help. Chibs had been there to help. She sighed, knowing that it was time to leave the room at the clubhouse.

"They're here to help."

Riley jumped, not realizing that Happy was right behind her. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close.

"Yeah. I know. I remember."

"It's a little different when it's a member."

"I can only imagine."

"You know this wasn't your fault right?"

"That's the thing Hap. It is. All of it. He wouldn't even be looking at the Sons if it wasn't for me."

"No one thinks that."

"Well, I know it."

Happy sighed and shook his head. She knew he would never agree with her, but it didn't stop her from thinking it. She knew now wasn't the time to push it though.

"When will he be here?"

"They're gonna drop him off in an hour. Garage is shut down, everything is locked down. Sherrifs posted outside to make sure no one gets in that we don't approve of."

Riley nodded and pulled out of his arms. Normally, she would love to feel his embrace. Knowing tha she felt safe. She just felt broken.

"Tig awake?"

"Not sure. Him and Vee are staying in his room."

"I'm gonna go check on him."

"Alright."

Happy kissed Riley's lips lightly, but she felt nothing. She felt no spark or ache in her heart when he pulled away. She felt nothing. She walked out of her room and across the hallway. She saw the door was open so she peeked her head inside.

She saw Tig laying on the bed, with his head on Venus' lap. She was playing in his hair and talking to him lightly. He had his eyes closed, but he looked okay.

"Hey, Tiggy. How's your head?"

"I'm good, doll. How's your heart?"

Riley tried to smile, but it just didn't reach her face. She sat down on the edge of the bed and looked at Tig. He was forcing a smile but it didn't reach his eyes.

"Tiggy I am so sorry."

"You gotta stop beating yourself up, doll. Sad is okay. Self hate isn't."

"He's right, sweetheart. You gotta let go of that pain you are ever so harboring in your heart. You didn't kill him, sweetie."

"I may as well have."

Riley got up and walked out of his room. Chibs would be there soon and it would be time to say goodbye. Happy gave her a general idea of how it worked when a patched member died. She watched as the hearse pulled in. Everyone went silent as the SAMCRO members stepped through the crowd. Riley, Happy and Tig stood up front. Rat, T.O., Quinn, and Montez stood directly behind. The door opened and they all stepped forward to carry the casket in. Riley watched Quinn guide Tig to the side, knowing he could barely even walk.

The six members carried the casket on their shoulders, past everyone that ever cared about the club and the man inside. Riley held back tears when she passed Kerrianne. The woman was sobbing as Venus held her close. Both women were crying actually. She wanted to pull them into her arms, but she knew she needed to carry the burden on her shoulders.

She had carried many caskets before. Between her multiple deployments, she had lost many good men. No casket felt heavier than the one she had now. She was sure it had to do with how heavy her heart was. They walked directly into the chapel, and set the casket down on the reaper. His head was facing the gavel, which is where he always should be.

Quinn and Montez pulled the top off. Everyone took turns placing things in his casket.

Tig placed a picture of the two, freshly Prez and VP. They were both smiling in front of the new clubhouse. Chibs had told Riley about the feeling they had at that time. So much pain and destruction had happened around them. They felt like the new clubhouse was a fresh start for all of them.

Happy stepped forward and placed a beautiful 9mm pistol in his hand. It was engraved with the reaper on the side, and n the other a smiley face. It was Happys favorite gun and Chibs always tried to win it from him during backwards bets and card games.

Venus stepped forward and set a bottle of old whiskey in his casket. Riley smiled remembering how he always talked about this whiskey he was dying to try. He told her about how Tig and Venus refused to open the bottle, saying it was saved for the best occasion they could think of.

Kerianne came forward, tears still streaming down her eyes. She touched her fathers face and spoke to him in Gaelic. Her voice was soft and sweet. She unclipped her locket that was around her neck, and placed it in his hand. The locket was something he left for her when Jimmy took him away. She had never taken it off a day in her life.

Riley watched the rest of the Sons, from SAMCRO and other charters, file in and say their goodbyes to the fallen Scott. She stood in the doorway, wanting to hear everything and every story that was being told. Even though she knew Chibs so well, she needed to know more. Finally, it was her time to say goodbye.

She stepped forward and finally looked at his face. His hair, although trimmed, was shagged into this face with a part right down the middle. If not for how pale he was, she could almost mistake him for sleeping. She reached out and touched his face, but the cold sensation made her stomach turn. She pulled her dog tags off her neck, and put them in the hand that was still free of memories.

"I am so sorry, Filip. I would give anything to take back what happened to you. If I had known the day I pulled into this lot that this would happen.. I would have turned right around. I love you, you crazy bastard. God I hope you know that. I hope you know how much I love you. I'll take care of Kerrianne. I'll take care of this club. I will give my life making sure everyone is safe. Remember when I told you that? This doesn't change that, Chibs. I'd gladly die in your name."

Riley rest her head on the side of the casket and again, let herself cry. She felt Happys hand on her back, and she finally let herself feel. She buried her face into his chest as she let the grief fully hold her. Chibs was dead, and there was nothing she could do to bring him back.

SAMCRO came back in and closed the casket up. It was time to send him off, the burial would be the next day. The six picked up the casket again, heading towards the door. As they set the casket in the hearse, Riley knew she needed to keep her promise. She couldn't bring Chibs back, but her father would pay for what he had done. She turned to the men around her. The men that were just as broken hearted as she was.

"I need to know where everyone lands on this."

"We kill them." Tig responded.

"We kill all of them." Happy retorted.

"Every damn one of those fuckers." T.O. added.

Riley nodded and looked towards all the charters standing around them.

"We might need your help."